Dog on the Cross (21 page)

When he went downstairs, Casteel was standing at the front desk talking with the dispatch. The sheriff held a large brown envelope, and seeing Martin, he began to motion him over.

“Lab report just came in,” he said. “Those prints don't belong to Hollis or anybody else they've arrested in Oklahoma in the last forty-five years.”

Martin felt as if he were going to be ill.

“That doesn't necessarily mean anything,” Casteel told him. “I'm sure he's smart enough to've worn gloves. We don't have to have the prints to convict him of aggravated assault and resisting arrest.”
The sheriff raised his coffee mug and took a long drink.

Watching him, his face drained of color, Martin told the man he'd be back in a moment. He went out to his car, dug around the front seat, and found the cup he'd accidentally taken from church the night before. Carrying it inside, he pitched it to Casteel.

“What's this?” the man asked, studying the flattened piece of Styrofoam. “You feeling okay?”

Martin didn't answer. He walked down the hallway and into the bathroom. Even the sheriff, deaf as he was, had no trouble hearing the sound the bolt made when the deputy shot it to behind him.

S
EVERAL WEEKS LATER,
Jacob Hollis pleaded guilty to assault charges and paid fifty-seven hundred dollars in fines. He sold his home to a Dutch family at the end of summer and, much to the liking of the First Pentecostal, moved back to New England. Hollis didn't appear in court for the civil suit filed against him by Doyle Withers, and Judge Petersen issued a bench warrant should the man come back through Oklahoma. He told Withers, however, not to hold his breath. The judge didn't expect Hollis would be eager to revisit the state.

It was also along this time that the church brought its camp meeting to an end. The revival, said the elders of the congregation, was the longest they'd heard of, services every day for two and a half months.
Leslie Snodgrass and his grandmother moved out of their hotel room and went back to the even smaller town outside Tishomingo. When the United Pentecostal Board of Churches sent in a new pastor, a Virginian by the name of Don Shockley, Mrs. Snodgrass wrote a letter of protest to the UPBC chairman. She had hoped her grandson could apply for the post and felt he hadn't been given proper consideration. Hearing of the letter, Reverend Shockley phoned to see if the boy would be interested in preaching the next summer. The woman told him she would think about it.

Gerald Martin found himself in the process of moving as well. In December of that year, he resigned the office of deputy sheriff and took a position as fire watcher in central Colorado. Standing on the balcony of his tower and looking out over the miles of evergreen, he could, at times, convince himself he'd made the right decision. The foothills of the Rocky Mountains lay on the horizon, and the air was clean and crisp. But every evening, as the sun declined and stained the western windows, Martin felt that a hollowness had grown inside him, and while eager for companionship, he didn't know if he could return to suburban or even rural life. He thought he must be looking for a different community altogether.

The day he'd resigned, Casteel had wanted to know why he was losing his best deputy, why, in his
opinion, Martin was throwing away a promising career in law enforcement. The wide receiver for the football team had been missing since the end of summer—Casteel might need assistance with that—and, after all, didn't Martin understand he had an opportunity to be sheriff himself in a few years? The deputy simply shook his head in answer to such questions, but when Casteel wanted to know who it was had handed him that Styrofoam cup, Martin told him flatly that he didn't remember. The sheriff attempted to jog his memory, using as incentive the fact that the prints on the cup had proven a perfect match with the ones on the nails. Martin said he'd like to help, but it seemed such a trivial thing at the time, there was no way he was going to recall it.

Casteel merely shrugged. He was just glad Hollis was no longer his problem. “Let those Easterners deal with him,” he told Martin. “They're used to nuts like that. It's so bad out there, they can't tell the priests from the perverts.” Martin said the perverts were better received.

But his flippancy aside, this was the type of concern that Martin devoted an increasing amount of thought to. For much of his life, he'd had an unwavering sense of right and wrong—their origin, what distinguished them, the things on which they fed. He'd chosen to think that evil arose from without, that only the man who entertained it was in any real
danger. Now it was otherwise with Martin, and while he understood that to some this might be an epiphany that fostered tolerance and wisdom, the former deputy simply felt unbalanced by the realization, as if one of the legs of his tower had been sawed away and the structure was subject to collapse.

Lying on his cot at night, he would sometimes dream of the old woman. He would not see her as she'd been in life, but rather as something fantastical, a figure gnarled and distorted, a fairy-book crone. Stalking the hills in her gingham dress, a gunny-sack hoisted over one shoulder, she'd move beneath the oak limbs with a face that admitted no cruelty, no hatred or malice, stopping at times to reach into the sack and assure the whimpering thing that flailed inside it. Most nights, she would perform her duties alone, holding firmly the muzzle as she applied strips of duct tape, grasping the torso as she drove the nails. But there were others when Martin would find himself standing beside her—helping the woman, to the best of his ability, carry out her task. Sometimes words of comfort would escape her lips, but Martin could never quite catch them, and he knew that in any case, they were not for him.

Awakening from these dreams, he might think for a moment he could hear something knocking against the legs of his tower, scratching at the support beams. He would stumble to the balcony and peer over the
ledge, wishing to see some beast he could draw aim on with the pistol he continued to keep with him. But the sounds proved only the wind in the treetops, their branches thrashing below him, no monsters visible in that sea of black.

I
WOULD LIKE TO
extend my sincere appreciation to my agent, Nat Sobel, and my editor, Kathy Pories, for all their guidance. Thanks also to my grandparents, Ruth and Jerry Martin, without whose love and support I never would have made it; to Dr. Robert Hill, who started me on this path (whether he'll own up to it or not); and to my friends Mark Walling and Clint Stewart, readers extraordinaire, whose comments on the manuscript kept me honest and whose friendship kept me sane. “The Offering” is in tribute to the remarkable Susan Tyler, who, unlike the protagonist of my story, continues to astonish family and friends with her courage, strength, and wisdom.

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© 2004 by Aaron Gwyn. All rights reserved.

Portions of this book have appeared in slightly different versions in the following publications: “Of Falling” and “Dog on the Cross,”
Louisiana Literature;
“Truck,”
Black Warrior Review;
“In Tongues,”
American Literary Review;
“The Backsliders” and “Offering,”
Glimmer Train;
and “Courtship,”
Texas Review.
“Of Falling” was reprinted in
New Stories from the South: The Year's Best, 2002.

This is a work of fiction. While, as in all fiction, the literary perceptions and insights are based on experience, all names, characters, places, and incidents are either products of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously. No reference to any real person is intended or should be inferred.

Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data is available for a previous edition of this work.

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