If I Return (10 page)

“What are
you
doing?” His words come out softly.

Placing my hands on his chest, I lean forward and kiss the corner of his mouth. Pulling back, I look him dead in the eye. “I’m making the most of our time left together. Forrest Gump has no room in this bed. We have more important things to do.”

His fingers flex into my hips, pushing me down onto the bulge I feel growing harder by the moment. “I just want you to know... it’s not
just
been about sex for me this week. I mean, don’t get me wrong... it’s been phenomenal, mind-blowing sex, but it’s more. You’re more. I’m happy to just lay here and watch movies with you.”

The honesty of his words shoots a piercing arrow through my heart, because they continue to make it that much harder for me to walk away in the end. I give him a gentle smile and lean forward to kiss him softly. “I know, Jack. I know.”

Pushing up from his chest with my hands, I stand up on the bed, my feet planted on either side of his hips. His large hands circle around my calves, holding me steady as he looks up at me in amusement. “Now what are you doing?”

Pulling my t-shirt over my head, I say, “Getting naked.”

He watches me silently, particularly when I hook my thumbs into the waistband of my panties and start sliding them down my legs. His eyes glaze over a bit. When they drop to my calves, he steadies me by holding onto my legs so I can lift first one leg, then the other to kick them off me.

Now I’m standing over him on the bed, completely naked and vulnerable to his stare. He licks his lips and runs his hands up the insides of my legs. When he reaches the apex, he slides his finger through my folds and I jerk from the ecstasy of that small touch, almost losing my balance. With one hand latched onto a thigh, he keeps me standing in place while he rubs between my legs with slow, lazy strokes.

“Jack,” I gasp. “It’s your turn to get naked.”

I feel him kicking at the sheets and look down as they slide from his lower body. He’s already naked.

“Put a condom on,” I tell him. “I want to watch you do it.”

He turns slightly in the bed to angle toward the bedside table, pulling a single packet out. I watch intently as he rips it open and smoothes it over his hard length. The fact that he strokes himself a few times after has me swallowing hard.

I carefully lower myself until my knees hit the bed and I’m straddling him, just raised high enough that we are barely touching.

“What would you like me to do, Jack?”

He answers by putting his hand between my legs and sliding a long finger inside of me. I have to fight not to let my eyes roll into the back of my head. “I want you to ride me, Hope. Take me to the brink and push me over the edge. Then I want you to fall with me.”

His words are lovely and poetic, and I very much want to take him over the edge. I take a hold of him gently and position myself over him. Guiding him the entire way with my hand, I settle over him and slide down easily until our bodies are fully melded.

Jack’s breath comes out in a rush and I practically purr in my throat over the fullness of him inside of me. He brings his hands up to my knees and softly caresses up my thighs. When he reaches my hips, he grabs a hold of me and pulls me up. The move surprises me and my hands shoot out to rest against his chest so I have leverage. He then pushes me back down, at the same time surging his hips upward. I can’t help the moan that seeps past my lips from the sensation.

Staring me in the eyes, he removes his hands from my hips and places them behind his head. Smiling at me, he says, “There... that’s what I want you to do. Think you can handle it?”

I don’t answer but merely lift my hips off him, hover briefly, and then I slam my body back down.

“Fuck,” Jack curses between his teeth.

“Yeah, I think I can handle it.”

I start to move my body up and down, alternatively going slow and then increasing speed. When I can feel him start to tense, I slow it back down. Within minutes, he no longer has his hands casually tucked behind his head, but they are back on my hips, urging me onward.

“Please, Hope... give me more,” he begs.

And I do because I can’t resist him needing something from me.

I ride him the way he wants me to and I can feel my own climax starting to break free. One hand leaves my hips and comes between my legs, touching me in exactly the spot I need to cause my complete and utter shattering. I can’t help the scream that tears loose from my throat, and just as it dies down, I hear Jack give a shout of his own as he comes deep inside of me.

My movements slow and eventually subside, and I lay my body forward to rest against his chest. His lips find my forehead and his hands stroke my hair, all while I can still feel him twitching inside of me.

“That was amazing,” Jack murmurs. “You’re amazing.”

I don’t respond because I don’t want Jack to hear all the things that are clamoring to get out of my head. I don’t say anything because I’m afraid I’ll break down and admit to him that I’m starting to fall for him really hard, and I don’t want to let him go after tomorrow night.

Jack holds me tight, one arm wrapped around my waist, the other holding my hand against his heart. We’re swaying on the dance floor to Louis Armstrong’s
What a Wonderful World
.

The reception has just started up and we still have miles to go... the toasts, the traditional dances, and the cutting of the cake. Jack pulled me out on the dance floor for this very first song, and the only thing I can think about is leaving this reception so we can be alone.

He leans down and places his lips near my ear. At first, he just rests them there, still and soft against my skin. Then he whispers, causing the fine hair on my arms to stand up. “Let’s get out of here, okay?”

I pull away and look at him. “Leave the reception? Don’t you have obligations?”

He shrugs his shoulders. “Not really... I mean... Carson is the Best Man. I’m just one of twelve groomsman. I mean, seriously, do you think I’ll be missed?”

“I’d miss you if you left,” I tell him, slightly blushing that I would admit such feelings.

The kiss he gives me in response is soft and my eyes close against his tender touch. He pulls away from me but keeps a hold of my hand, leading me off the dance floor.

I sneak a glance back into the reception room as we leave but no one is paying us any attention. My insides quiver in anticipation of spending this last night with Jack. I was afraid we’d be stuck at the reception for hours, which would cut into my dwindling time with him.

The elevator doors open to my floor and Jack just pushes me out. I turn to look at him and he’s remaining inside, although his arm is holding the door open.

His grin at me is sly. “Go get dressed for outside.”

“Excuse me?”

“Outside. Warm clothes. Now.”

“But—”

“No ‘buts’. Get your gorgeous ass dressed and meet me back down in The Great Hall.”

He steps back inside and the doors close on him. Shaking my head in amusement, I hurry off to do as he bids.

In less than five minutes, I’m changed into jeans, a heavy sweater, my wool coat, and gloves. I throw my beanie on my head for good measure, although chances of it protecting me from the cold are nil.

Jack waits for me in The Great Hall. “You look great,” he says, and then starts leading me to the back doors.

“What are we doing?”

“Well, it occurred to me that you really didn’t get much snow time the other day, and there are so many things you’re missing out on. So we have lots of snow stuff to do since this is your last day here and there is no telling when this Florida girl will see it again.”

My insides warm up over his kind thoughts. Jack could have easily led me off to his bed, and I would have willingly gone with him. More than my insides warm up at the thought of the carnal things he would do to me in that bed. But the mere fact that he wants to treat me to more snow play has my heart singing.

And I fall just a little bit harder for him.

He leads me down the stone steps and out onto the lawn. There are several trees surrounding the white landscape, which are heavily strung with tiny, white lights across all the branches. It looks like a fairy tale world come to life.

“I thought about a snowball fight,” Jack says, “but that would get us way too cold and wet, and I don’t want to short change your time out here. I think we should build a snowman.”

“Okay,” I say, bemused that he has thought this through.

For the next hour, Jack teaches me the fine art of snowman building. It involves a lot of rolling and my back is killing me from being hunched over as we make the snowman’s body. When we finally place the head on top, we step back to admire our work.

Cocking my head to the side, I give it a critical stare. “Something’s missing.”

“Hmmmm. Really? Like what?”

“Well... it’s sort of faceless. I can’t tell what he’s thinking and that sort of creeps me out.”

Jack shoots me a flash of smiling teeth. “I think I can remedy that.”

I watch as he pulls from his pocket a plastic baggie that contains a carrot, two strawberries, and a handful of blueberries. “Voila. Our snowman’s face.”

“Where did you get those?” I’m shocked and impressed all at the same time.

He shrugs his shoulders. “I begged the concierge this afternoon if he could rustle me up some facial implements. Here... I’ll let you do the honors.”

I take the carrot and push it into the head. Using my fingertip to make holes, I then make a blueberry smile and finally finish the face by placing the strawberry eyes.

When we step back again to admire our work, Jack stands behind me and wraps his arms around my waist. Laying his chin on top of my head, he says, “The red strawberry eyes make it look sort of demonic.”

“I know. Or maybe he just has allergies.”

Jack chuckles and the sound vibrates through my body. His arms tighten around me tighter.

“Thank you, Jack,” I whisper.

He turns me in his arms and brushes his lips against mine. “It’s my pleasure.”

His lips push against me again and I open up to him. This kiss feels like a gentle summer rain, evoking another pull against my heartstrings.

When he pulls away to look into my eyes, I know he can see the various emotions swimming there. He just stares back at me, not afraid that I’m looking at him with open honesty over how I feel. I know he can see it, but he doesn’t flinch or look away.

“Can we go inside now?” I ask.

He gives me a warm smile and one more soft kiss. “Sure.”

Jack is moving inside of me, slowly... ever so slowly. He’s intent on dragging this out and I’m content with that as well. I concentrate on every detail I can hold in my memory. The feel of his skin under my fingertips, the way he groans in my ear when my hips meet his thrust, the hardness of his thighs under the heels of my feet as I dig into them.

I pay careful attention to his words, because Jack likes to talk during sex. His words are usually dirty, aimed with the purpose of building my excitement. But tonight... his words are more poetry than anything.

He tells me how beautiful I am and how lucky he is to have met me. He says I am the most uniquely amazing woman he has ever been with, and that he hates to leave me tomorrow.

These words give me hope... that maybe we can have something. My heart becomes even more entangled with every word he tells me and every thrust he makes into my body.

When we are finished, Jack pulls me into his arms and we lay silent for several moments. I almost expect him to say more but he seems happy just to enjoy the quiet.

I, on the other hand, feel the sands moving swiftly through the hourglass, knowing that every minute that passes by I am losing time with Jack.

Audrey told me this was only a fling. Jack told me it was only a fling. But I’m not willing to accept that and I need to know if there can be more.

“Jack?”

“Hmmmm?” He sounds sleepy.

“Do you think we could have something when you return from Afghanistan? Maybe continue to see each other?”