INEVITABLE: An Alpha Bad Boy Contemporary Romance Book (7 page)

“I’m not sure I want to be an artist anymore. I’m not sure I can still do it.” I sighed heavily.

Charlie reached for my hand and I gave it to him. His intense hazel eyes bore into mine warming my heart. “When I was a rookie…I’d only been on the job about six months, my partner and I were... involved in a shootout as we served a warrant. My partner was killed. When the time came to go back to work, I wasn’t sure I wanted to do it either. The war overseas, the war in the streets. I wan’t sure if I wanted to go to battle all the time. All I knew was that I wasn’t a quitter. I went back and promised myself that if the bad started to outweigh the good, then I would leave. That was four years ago. I love my job and I would have been miserable if I’d run from it because things got tough.”

“Jesus…that’s more than tough, I’m sorry you had to go through that.”

He nodded. “I’m sorry my partner had to die. He was a great guy and if I could have I would have traded places with him. But, I learned another valuable lesson that day. His wife told me there was nothing he loved more than putting on that uniform every day. His life had been short…but he had lived it doing what he loved. If I ran because I was afraid of all the what-if’s I would have missed out on so much…and you will too.”

My knees landed on the rug beside him as I pulled his face towards me. With my lips hovering over his lips I said, “Why are you so smart?”

He grinned and wagged an eyebrow. “I’ve been told my intelligence compliments my good looks.”

I laughed. “Charlie Bennett…I think I just might fall in love with you.”

“It’s only been years. About damn time, baby.”

Charlie pulled me to my feet and his big hands were on my body in an instant. I felt them on the cheeks of my ass and my breath caught in my throat as his lips caught mine in a hungry kiss. I moaned against him as I felt his rough hand slip up underneath my pajama top. My hands went to his bare chest and my palms pressed into the hard lines of his body as we kissed. He was unbuttoning my blouse with his other hand and in an instant he slid it off of me and let it drop to the floor.

I felt his lips leave mine and the warmth of them began leaving a trail down the front of my throat and then my chest. His mouth claimed one of my breasts and sucked it into his mouth as he moaned his approval. He sucked with passion and vigor and it felt so fucking good. My hands fisted in his dark hair and my body bowed against him, shuddering with pleasure. He moved his mouth over and licked and sucked the other breast, his dark voice rumbling over me.

“Jesus, so beautiful...” His lips made their way down my belly, placing searing kisses that left a burning trail all the way down. I moaned and he squeezed my hips. As he dropped to his knees he took my pants down with him. When they were at my ankles I stepped out of them and his mouth was suddenly on my pussy, kissing my mound in anticipation.

“Oh Charlie! Ah baby!” I could feel the stubble on his face against my warm flesh as he pressed into me and then suddenly his tongue as it swiped across my swollen clit. I moaned loudly and since his hair was too short to wrap my hands in I took his face in both of my hands and pressed my hips forward. He reached up as he licked my clit again and I felt his fingers pressing into my hot, slick opening. “Oh fuck!”

I had to reach out and grab on to the arm of the chair as his fingers pressed into me further and he began to move them around inside of me. He sucked my clit all the way into his mouth as he shoved his fingers in as deep as they would go and pulled them back out, my body rippling with pleasure.

He finger fucked me as he bit and sucked and nibbled on my clit. I was practically out of my mind with ecstasy. Fuck! He’s so good at this. I can’t even imagine what it was going to feel like with his cock inside of me.

I finally couldn’t take it any longer. I was just too sensitive and he was too fucking good. I pulled at him until he came back to his feet. He put his mouth against mine and I sucked his tongue in. As I sucked on it I ran my fingers over the taut muscles on his chest and his tight abs…and then I reached into his pants and wrapped my hands around his thick, throbbing cock. I bent my head down and I licked his nipples. He groaned and egged me on.

I licked down until I found his happy trail and I kissed his hard abs down to that sensitive area right above his pant line. It was my turn to drop to my knees and push his pants down. I gasped when I saw his cock. It was as beautiful as the rest of him and my mouth was watering at the sight of it. It was so hot in my hands and I stroked it a few times as he wrapped his big hands up in my hair.

I squeezed and stroked until a drop of liquid spilled out of the tip. I licked it with my tongue and he gasped…and then I opened my lips and wrapped them over the head and around the pulsating shaft.

“Ah.... Jackie… I’ve waited for so many fucking years for this…Yes, like that...” I could feel his whole body tighten as I began to suck. I held my lips tightly around it and moved it around in my mouth with my tongue. He pulled hard on my hair and moved my head where he wanted it. I loved it. I took it in as deeply as I could and then I held it there and let him take over.

Holding me in place he began thrusting his hips forward and back, fucking my mouth while I sucked and licked and swallowed. He made sexy noises and I was reveled in the sound of his pleasure. Pure masculine appreciation. The faster he moved, the harder I sucked. I opened my eyes and looked up at him. He had his eyes closed, but as if he felt me looking at him, he opened them and looked down. He had the sexiest look of ecstasy on his face that I’d ever seen…and I sucked harder.

“Ah fuck baby, come here…” He pulled me up by my hair, finding my mouth again and kissing me deeply…it was urgent, like he had to do it right now. I kissed him back with the same enthusiasm and let my lucky tongue explore his mouth.

Charlie slid his lips down the side of my face and once again found the tender flesh at my neck. He sucked and licked on that for a while before sliding his mouth across my collarbone and back down to my breasts. One hand took hold of my left breast as his mouth took hold of the right. He covered the hard peak with his lips and began to nibble on it.

His free hand slid down between my legs and began to play there in my warm wetness as his mouth made love to my breasts and nipples. I was so wet that I could feel it flowing down the insides of my legs. His mouth was causing jolts of pure hot electricity to travel down into my core and gather in my pussy. My clit throbbed as his fingers toyed with it. I wanted him inside of me…now.

“Please baby...”

He suddenly stood up and lifted me off the floor. Instinctively I wrapped my legs around his waist as I felt him turning before pressing my back against a wall. I wrapped my arms around his thick neck and pressed my breasts into his hard chest. Arching my back and thrusting my hips forward, I rubbed myself against his hot, throbbing erection. His eyes glittered with bliss. He looked so beautiful.

He kissed me hard again as he held me there, trapped, helpless and so fucking horny, against the wall. Then he slid one of his hands down between us and began to vigorously rub my clit. I was moaning into his mouth and writhing against him overcome by my need. I couldn’t hold back any longer, I felt the orgasm take control and I went with it. My body tensed up and the climax was hard and fast as I pulled out of the kiss and cried out. My whole body began to convulse as I came.

“I’m gonna give it to you now baby. I’m clean. Are you ready for me?” His voice was harsh at my ear, thickened with lust and need.

I nodded vigorously, thankful that I was on the pill.

He didn’t wait a second after I nodded before fisting his cock in his hand and stroking it over my ultra-sensitive clit. I cried out again as he lined it up with my opening and began to push it in slowly. I was arching my back again, trying to take it all in at once. He was teasing me, moving just the head of it in and out and letting it drag over my clit.

I felt desperate all of a sudden. I had to have him inside of me. “Please Charlie…”

“Please what, baby?”

“Please fuck me! Put that amazing cock in my pussy and fuck me!”

He chuckled and suddenly slammed into me, burying his cock as deep inside of me as it would go. His hands gripped my ass tightly and his face contorted with ecstasy as he grunted between my wet thighs. My body had never experienced such pleasure and it was completely unsure how to react. I felt like I was going to cum again already.

He held me tightly and pressed me harder into the wall as he began moving quickly. He started fucking me hard…pounding my back into the wall as we both rode each other senseless. I dug my fingernails into his shoulders and arched up so my hard nipples would rub against his hard chest with every rigorous thrust. I was sweating and panting and he was gasping for breath as he drilled into me. I still couldn’t get enough.

I adjusted my hips so they were at an angle where I could take him even deeper. I bore down and let my muscles clench down tightly on that hot cock. He cried out and I felt his balls getting tighter with each big bounce against me. This time I yelled out his name as I came and for a few seconds he just rocked into me gently until I began to relax. Once again he began pumping in and out of me with force…taking what he wanted and driving me fucking crazy in the process.

“Is this the cock you wanted baby?”

I groaned yes, feeling like a wanton woman in his arms.

He started whispering my name as his body began to tighten up and I knew he was on the verge. I put my mouth next to his ear and let my tongue trace the outline of it before I whispered, “Cum for me, Charlie. I want to feel you cum inside me.”

He cried out my name roughly as he gave one final thrust, his balls slapping against my ass I felt the swell of his cock and the release of the warm, fluid between my legs. He held me tightly, pressing into me to keep from falling over himself. I could feel him trembling and we just quietly held each other until we both stopped shaking.

At last he pulled his head back and looked at my face. For the first time in my life I made love to a man saw not only lust in his eyes…but love and affection…real, tender emotion. I finally knew what it looked like and I knew that I wanted to see it again and again.

Charlie lifted me up higher and held me against his body tighter as he carried me into his bedroom. He placed me gently on the bed and laid himself down next to me. Kissing me passionately he pulled me against his chest. “I fucking love you, Jackie.”

I smiled. “I fucking love you too.” I really do and God does it feel good.

JACKIE

              I happily spent the night with Charlie. Neither of us got a minute’s sleep. I felt really bad the next morning when he had to get up and go to work…but he kissed me tenderly and told me not to worry about it. He assured me that the afterglow of our four or maybe it was five sessions of love making would keep him alert through the day.

              After he left I showered and I slipped my pajamas and my rain coat back on and headed home. I was praying my father wasn’t around. I’d actually been thinking about just packing my things and staying in a hotel in New Orleans until I decided what I was going to do. I slipped in through the front door and hadn’t made it to the stairs before I heard, “Jacqueline.”

              I slowly turned towards him, determined not to let him get to me today. I would tell him I was leaving and that was that. I was shocked when I saw his face. His eyes were red and puffy and he looked like he’d been crying. “Daddy, I don’t want to fight.”

              He nodded. Something about his posture looked defeated. “Can we talk? I promise no fighting.”

              I really didn’t want to but he looked so pathetic. “Okay…but if you say anything mean…”

              “I won’t, I promise.” He held his arm out and gestured towards the sitting room. I stepped in in front of him and took a seat on the couch. He stood, pacing back and forth. After a long, uncomfortable silence he said, “I love you.” His voice cracked when he said it and I knew he was being sincere.

              “I know you do, Daddy. I love you too.”

              “That’s not all,” he said. “Bear with me.” He stopped and caught his breath again and then he said, “I’m proud of you. I know that you don’t believe that but Jackie... when I was your age my father was still alive and even though I had a wife and a child on the way, he would always try to control me. He told me what to do and how to do it and who to do it with. In my mind…that was just the way things were supposed to be. When you wanted to go off on your own I was so afraid for you. You’re so…you’re just so beautiful and to your old father here, you seem delicate and frail.  When you made it through school with straight A’s I was hoping you had California out of your system and you would come home. Not only did you not come home…you stayed and took care of yourself. You did everything that an adult child is supposed to be able to do…and it scared me to death. I was afraid that....” He paused, his eyes searching for the words. I held my breath.

              “.... if you didn’t need me to take care of things, you wouldn’t need me at
all
. I was afraid of losing you. All of the harsh words I've said about Hollywood and your career…it was just because I was hoping you’d give it all up and come home.” I was dumbfounded.

              I didn’t know what to say or even if he wanted me to say anything. He wasn’t ashamed of me, but wasn’t it still selfish for him to want me to fail? I didn’t have to wonder that very long as he went on to say, “God help me but I knew how selfish that made me. I hated myself but I couldn’t stop. I let you and your mother and even sweet Paige believe I was ashamed of you…and the whole time I just wanted to take you in my arms and tell you how proud I was.”

              “I wish you would have.”

              “Me too…but now I have to ask, is it too late? Do you think you can ever forgive me?” His eyes searched mine for an answer.

              I knew that I could…but there was one more thing. “I love you, Daddy. I love you unconditionally. In order for me to forgive you though I need you to do the same for me. I’m.... I'm in love with Charlie and I’m not going to stop seeing him.” He flinched visibly and I thought it was because he hated the idea so badly. Then as he began to talk I realized it was something else.

              “I am so ashamed of laying a hand on you that I can barely look at myself in the mirror. I don’t know what came over me. So many years of being a miserable son of a bitch just boiled to the surface, I think. If Charlie Bennett makes you happy…then I won’t interfere. I want you and me to be okay again. I want to be okay again with your mother if she’ll forgive me too. She’s spent so many years running interference. It was so unfair to her.”

              I sat there quietly for a while trying to process it all. My father said he was proud of me…and he also said he wouldn’t come between me and Charlie. I felt like I was suddenly in the middle of a dream. I’d spent the night with the most incredible man in the world and now the other man I loved more than life itself wants to reconcile. I was almost waiting for the other shoe to drop. I got up and wrapped my arms around him. I felt him hesitate but I reassured him.

              “I forgive you, Daddy. I love you so much.” He pulled me in for a tight hug and when he let me go he had tears in his eyes.

              “Thank you, Jackie. I love you more than you could ever know.”

***

              The week passed quickly and I felt like I was floating on a cloud. I’d invited Charlie for dinner tonight and he and Daddy had both promised to try and get to know each other. I was excited about that and I was also excited about spending the day with Becky. I still hadn’t called anyone back in L.A. yet, but I planned on talking to Charlie about that after dinner tonight. I was going to go back at least long enough to finish up the things I had committed to. I could commute...or Charlie could come out and stay with me…I know in my heart that we can figure it out.

              I met Becky for breakfast and then we spent the rest of the morning shopping. It was getting close to lunch time and we were at The Children’s Place. She was salivating over all of the cute clothes for Little Greg and trying to stay in her budget. I picked up several outfits that she’d looked at and took them to the counter.

              “What are you doing?”

              “I’m buying my best friend’s amazing son some clothes.”

              “You don’t have to do that.”

              I smiled. “Don’t you know by now that I don’t do anything that I don’t want to do? I want to do this. I know you have plenty of money to buy your son clothes. I’d just like to buy him something too.”

              She hugged me. “I love you.”

              “I love you too. Besides, we can consider this partial payback for ruining your Mommy’s night out.”

              She grinned mischievously and said, “I never told you but by the time I got home that night Greg had the baby in bed. We had one hell of a night in.” I laughed and finished my purchase.

              Evening had settled over our town when we were on the way out.  Becky and I were giggling....and I almost didn’t notice the woman standing behind the hedges until I heard her say, “That’s her, let’s go, Ray.”

              I instinctively pushed Becky behind me.

              “What’s going on?” Becky asked curiously.

              The woman called out loudly as she approached us. My heart stopped when five large men with cameras and gear scrambled out from behind the reporter. I turned quickly and pulled Becky up the street as they came after us. “Jacqueline, who are you shopping for? Are you pregnant?”

              “No! What? No, I’m not pregnant. Leave me alone.” Becky realized what was going on and grabbed my hand as I turned to tell the reporter to buzz off. The cameras lit in my face and I flinched.               

              “Stop! That's enough.”

              “Whose baby is it?!” The men continued to surround us, spilling out onto the street and nearby storefronts.

              “Get away!” Becky yelled at the woman as our pace picked up.

              “Becky come on, Charlie's working at the courthouse today.”               The courthouse was just up the street and I knew we'd be safe there. My heart pounded in my chest as I tightened my grip on her hand.
How did they find me?!
I panicked as the hoard of photographers closed in. I felt the walls caving in on me and I yelled out as more flashbulbs blinded me from all directions. We rounded the corner and I saw the tall frame of the courthouse across the street.

              I turned loose of Becky’s hand to cross the street when I saw him. Charlie stood chatting with another officer on the courthouse steps. My chest ached when I saw him, eager to get away from the vultures.

              The reporter behind me called out my name and Charlie turned towards us, his eyes cutting quickly to the flood of cameras and paparazzi accosting us. He started towards me quickly, his eyes tight with anger. The photographers directed their cameras towards him, snapping the lens furiously.

              “Is that the baby’s father, Jacqueline?” I lost it. I swatted the reporter aside and started across the street towards Charlie. But I didn’t see the car….

***

              I woke up, groggy and sore all over. I was scared at first because I didn’t know where I was. I heard the sounds of beeping machines and shuffling feet and loud whispers. It smelled funny…too clean like when Amelia goes on one of her infamous cleaning sprees. I tried to sit up and my head throbbed angrily. I changed my mind and dropped back down onto the starch white pillow behind me. I realized there was an IV in my arm and some kind of probe on my finger. I must be in the hospital…What the hell happened?

I pulled my head back up and looked around slowly this time. I was definitely in a hospital. The room was just surrounded by curtains, so probably the ER. I could see feet underneath the curtains…Charlie’s black boots and my father’s loafers. There were another pair of feet there too in tennis shoes. I could hear their whispered voices, but not what they were saying. Seconds later the curtain was pulled back and Charlie and my father came in.

“Baby you’re awake!” My dad rushed over to the bed. Charlie's face was tense but he gave me a soft smile and gave my father some room. “How do you feel?”

“Like I was run over. What happened?”

My dad chuckled lightly but his eyes looked worried. “You got run over.” His eyes spilled tears. “We thought we lost you!”

“It’s okay Daddy. I’m okay.”

“I love you so much. The doctor says nothing is broken, you’ll just be sore for a while. You are so tough.”

I smiled, wincing with pain. “Like my daddy.”

He looked like he was going to break down again. “Your mom and Paige are in the waiting room. They would only let two at a time back. I’m going to let your Mama come back. She’s beside herself.”

I nodded. It made the pain rip through my skull and I wanted to scream. “Okay.”

As soon as he left Charlie came over. His warm hand wrapped in mine and I melted. “You scared me to death.”

“I’m sorry. I don’t remember…”

“You were being chased by those paparazzi animals. They’re locked up for now.”

I laughed and that made my head hurt even more. “You arrested them?”

“Damn straight. My partners helped me out before they could flee the scene. We got 'em.” His jaw flexed with unrestrained anger, a look of fury flood his eyes.

“Thank you.”

He kissed me softly on the lips. “Your father isn’t the only one who loves you.”

****

Paige and my mom came in to see me and Charlie came back afterwards. He’d sent them home and told them he’d stay with me until I was discharged. They kept me overnight and Charlie rocked me to sleep.

In the morning I watched him sleep. My heart pinched at the thought but I knew that I had to tell him. He rustled awake before I could talk myself out of it. He looked so sexy when he woke up. He was immediately at my side. He kissed my knuckles and laid his head against my thighs. His eyes searched mine and I smiled. He frowned.

“What's wrong baby?”

“I’m.... I'm going to go home to L.A. next week.”

Charlie lifted his head. “You’re leaving me?”

“Oh no baby…I’m not leaving you. I just need to take care of my obligations…”

“And then you’ll come back?”

“Of course, I mean we can commute or you can come stay with me. You might find you like California….”

He sat up fully, his face unreadable. “So you're going back? It's decided then?”

“It’s my home now, Charlie. I have this show I’m doing and I have commitments. You’re the one that told me I shouldn’t run from them.”

“I told you not to run from your
dreams
. After this past week…I thought we wanted the same things. Each other. Cause that's what I want Jackie-o.
You.
”

My head was beginning to throb again. “I want yo too Charlie, yes. I want this. But baby, acting has always been my dream since I was a little girl.”

He shook his head. “I saw those people Jackie…they’re vultures. Do you know the tabloids are saying you're pregnant. They'll continue to pick apart your life now. Why would you want to go back and make it easier for them, huh?”

“I don't want that. Who would want that? I comes with the work, Charlie..... I love my job and I love my fans…”

“And that’s more important to you than me?” He stood abruptly and turned his back to me. I felt my heart begin to break.