Read My Sweetest Escape Online
Authors: Chelsea M. Cameron
Tags: #Fiction, #Romance, #Contemporary, #General
about it helped.
“I hear you, girl.” We finished our lunch
and talked more about the class, and
Hannah told me that as long as I did the
reading and had a reasonable grasp of the
current political cli-mate, I’d be fine. I
wasn’t so sure, but I took her word for it.
“Are you on campus?” she asked as we
dumped our trays and made our way
upstairs to the Starbucks. Hannah said she
needed her next caffeine fix.
“No. I live in a house in Bangor with my
sister and a bunch of her friends.” Hannah
let out a dreamy sigh.
“That sounds awesome. I’m stuck on
campus. Yay, scholarship.” She sounded so
enthused. “I’ve only lived with my
roommate for a few weeks, and she’s
already stopped talking to me. Luckily, she
has a boyfriend with an apartment, so she
usually stays there.”
Once again, been there, done that.
“It’s awesome if you feel like having
three sets of parents always watching your
every move.” I hadn’t meant to share so
much about myself, but I couldn’t help it. I
hadn’t talked to anyone like this in a while,
and there was something about Hannah. I’d
known her less than a few hours, but it was
like we’d met before, even though that was
impossible.
“That sucks,” she said as she got in line. I
decided to get my second round of tea just
for the heck of it. The line was crazy long
with everyone jonesing for their next fix like
a bunch of junkies standing in line for
methadone. Actually, the methadone was
probably cheaper.
By the time we got our drinks and found
a table crushed in a corner and two seats, it
was almost time for my next class. I downed
my tea and told Hannah I’d see her on
Wednesday.
We hadn’t talked about the rest of our
class schedules, but the chances of me
seeing her in another of my classes were
actually pretty good, and I had the feeling I
would.
I was searching for Neville Hall, which
housed my English class, when someone
tapped me on the shoulder.
“Fancy seeing you here, Red.” I pivoted
and found the ever-grinning face of Dusty
Sharp. He pulled a set of headphones nearly
identical to the ones I had off his ears and
let them rest around his neck. His wardrobe
of baggy everything hadn’t deviated, and I
found myself wondering, once again, how
his pants stayed up.
I wanted to say something snarky, but
instead a question came out of my mouth.
“Do you know where Neville Hall is?”
Someone yelled hello, and his eyes briefly
left my face to wave hello and call out to
someone.
“Sure. Follow me. I’m going there, as
well. What class do you have?”
“English.”
“Me, too.”
Jesus, if he and I were in the same class,
that would just suck beyond suckage.
He must have seen the horror on my
face. I hadn’t really tried to hide it.
“Just messing with you, Red. I have calc.
Would being in the same class with me be
that
bad?”
I didn’t answer as we crossed the road
and I saw a building with the words
Neville
Hall
on it. I could have found it if I’d looked,
but then I probably would have been late.
He held the door for me and a few
people coming in behind me.
“Thank you,” I said.
We paused in the lobby.
“I’m on the second floor,” he said,
pointing toward the stairs.
“I’m on the third.”
We walked up two flights and he gave
me that little two-fingered wave again.
“See you later, Red.”
“’Bye.”
I joined a few other people and plodded
my way up to the third floor.
I hadn’t fulfilled my English
requirements yet, so I was stuck taking
Creative Writing. When I walked in, there
were only about ten other people there.
That did not bode well for being able to
hide and listen to music. Great. I found a
seat in the back and close to the door and
looked around. I felt pretty young; most of
the people looked like they were quite a bit
older than me.
I’d gotten a decent grade in my English
comp class at UNH, but only because I’d
been one of the few students who turned in
assignments. I liked to read, but writing
those insipid papers where you had to
analyze what some dude who had died
hundreds of years ago had meant by writing
about rain or some such crap was pretty
much the worst thing ever.
Luckily, the more you seemed to
bullshit, the better grade you got. Maybe I
could do the same in this class.
A few more people trickled in until there
were fifteen of us. The professor was the
last one there, and he was everything a
teacher of English should be. He even had a
tweed jacket with those weird elbow
patches and horn-rimmed glasses.
He called attendance and when he got
to my name he asked me what I wanted to
be called. I went with Jos again as he
introduced himself as Greg and explained
how the class would go. I’d skimmed the
syllabus, but hadn’t really paid attention to
it. As he explained what we’d be doing, my
heart sank. We’d have to write something
every week, and during at least one class
period a week. And we had to read what
we’d written. Out loud. And, if that wasn’t
enough, he’d make copies of what we’d
written and we’d all have a class discussion.
Welcome to your nightmare, Jos Archer.
Once again, since I was new, I didn’t
have to do much, but this was going to be
another class in which I was required to
participate, even if I didn’t want to. At least
half of the class looked like they’d rather be
getting a lobotomy than be there, so at
least I was in good company.
I suffered my way through and then I
was finally done with classes for the day. I
scurried away from Neville Hall as fast as I
could before I could bump into Dusty again,
and checked my phone. There were several
missed texts from Renee, asking how
classes were going, and one from my
mother and another from Darah that was
just a smiley face.
I could have gone back to the house, but
I wanted to savor this time I had without
anyone watching my every move. It wasn’t
too cold, so I did a walk around campus,
finding the rest of my classes for the next
day and watching the other students go
about their lives, wondering what it was like
to be them.
When my legs started to get numb,
despite the walking, I went back to my car.
My instructions were to go right home, but I
didn’t. I’d been dying to go to Bull Moose in
Bangor, so I headed toward the mall. Bull
Moose was pretty much the best music
store in all of New England. I’d discovered
them when I went to UNH and I was over
the moon when I realized there was one
close to UMaine.
It took some maneuvering and
lane-switching to find the place, but I did.
The great thing about Bull Moose was
that they had not only CDs, but records and
old movies, and all the people who worked
there knew what they were talking about.
When I walked in, I let out a breath I hadn’t
known I’d been holding. Ah. I loved the
comforting rows of cases, all ordered by
genre and artist. Yes, most music could be
purchased online, but you couldn’t
duplicate the experience of going to a store
and browsing yourself.
“Can I help you, little lady?” Jesus. H.
Christ.
I paused with my hand on a
Radiohead CD that I didn’t currently own
and turned to make sure he wasn’t a
hallucination.
“No, thank you. I can pick out my own
music.” That was a lie. I’d recently
discovered The Black Keys, and I was hoping
to find more bands like them, but I was
never going to ask Dusty. Not in a million
years. “Are you stalking me? Because,
seriously, it’s getting ridiculous.”
“Maybe you’re the one who’s stalking
me.
I was here first.
You came into
my
store.” I finally
noticed he had a lanyard around his neck
like the other guys who worked here.
“Oh, so this is
your
store? Do you own
it?”
“Nope, but I do work here. And I’ve
been going to Yellowfield House longer than
you, too. So I was here first.”
“I don’t give a shit,” I said, putting the
CD back. Even my music sanctuary had been
invaded.
“So you’re into music,” Dusty said,
straightening some of the CDs, as if he was
pretending to work. “What kind?”
“Taylor Swift,” I said, just to throw him.
Granted, I had listened to plenty of her stuff
and some of it wasn’t so bad.
But he didn’t know that.
“Well, we have a wide range of T Swift’s
music for your listening pleasure.” He
gestured toward the pop section. “I’m
partial to her earlier work, but her newest
album is getting great reviews.” I waited to
see if he was being sarcastic.
“Can you just let me browse without
being harassed? I get it enough at Renee’s,
and I don’t need it from everyone else.”
Wow, I did not mean to be that honest.
What was it with me today? I seemed to be
vocalizing everything I was thinking
whether I meant to or not.
“Wow, easy, Red.” He put his hands up
as if I’d held a gun to his head. “Just trying
to be a good employee and help a
customer, but if you want to be left alone,
you got it.” He turned around and left
before I could say anything else. I saw him
talking to a few of the other guys and
pointing at me.
What fresh hell was this?
He came back a few minutes later as I
was searching through the alt-rock section.
“Okay, so I’ve told everyone not to
approach you unless you approach them
first, so the store is yours, Joscelyn.” He
waved his arms to indicate everything.
“Thanks.” It sounded like a question.
“Anytime.” One last grin and he was
gone, off to the back of the store and
through a door marked Employees Only.
And I was left alone for the rest of my time
in the store.
I found a couple CDs, but didn’t look as
close as I wanted because I felt like all eyes
were on me, even though every time I
looked up, one or more of the employees
were giving me looks like I was going to run
over and stab them or something. God only
knew what he had told them so they’d
leave me alone. Then again, I probably
didn’t want to know.
When I got back from my little Bull
Moose trip, there were several cars parked
in the driveway, so I had to settle for
parking in the street.
“Hey, Miss
I’m-not-going-to-text-my-sister-back.”
Renee’s voice was the first thing I heard
when I walked through the door and hung
my coat up. Renee hopped up from the
couch and came over to glare at me.
“I was busy.”
“Doing what?” She crossed her arms and
leaned against the wall. I pushed past her
and went downstairs to put my stuff away.
Of course she followed me.
“Look, Renee, I know you find this hard
to believe, but I didn’t do anything bad. I
went to class, I had lunch, I went to Bull
Moose and I came back here. That’s all.
Besides, how can I do anything with you
riding my ass at every turn?”
Instead of yelling at me she just tossed
her hands in the air and then banged them
on her thighs.
“Why are you being like this, Jos? What
happened to my little sister who never, ever
swore? I don’t feel like I know you
anymore.”
“Maybe you didn’t know me before.
Maybe that girl was a lie.” She had been a
lie. That girl had a metal rod shoved so far
up her butt she was choking on it. That girl
was so afraid of stepping out of line or
making any waves that she never did
anything. Never broke curfew. Never got
drunk.
Never did anything that could be
construed as wild, or out of control, or free.
She was so fucking uptight that she
barely ever laughed. Or smiled. Or had any
fun of any kind. That girl never would have
just sat in a dark room and listened to music
without it having a purpose. Being that girl
was exhausting, but no one knew.
“I just don’t know what to say to you
anymore, Jos. You’re my sister and I feel like
you’re a complete stranger. What am I
supposed to do?” For the first time, I heard
the hopeless-ness in her voice. Renee didn’t
get hopeless. She didn’t get weak. She was
always tough as nails; she had to be with
our crazy parents.
“You don’t have to do anything.
Just…give me some space.