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Women Drinking Benedictine

Sharon Dilworth

 

For Dogger and Dudley,
Kathleen, Mary, Ej III, and
for Dusty, always

Contents

Keeping the Wolves at Bay

Leather Goods

Three Fat Women of (Pittsburgh Just Visiting) Antibes

This Month of Chariry

Moving Miami

We're in Meadville

Me and Danno Booking 'Em Good

Figures on the Shore

Women Drinking Benedictine

Awaken with My Mother's Dreams

Keeping the Wolves at Bay

 

T
HE SHOES WERE SO
E
UROPEAN
. T
HE SLEEK
black leather, the single side buckle, the sharp—but not too pointed—curve of the toe gave them a look that promised they would never be sold in the States, not even in L.A. Everyone was wearing them, and Steve did not want to go home without a pair. Still, he was cheap and cautious about spending money for something he wanted but did not need.

He and Max were in Nice, walking through the large and crowded flower market, when Steve spotted them on a distinguished-looking gray-haired man. “They are so sharp-looking,” Steve fretted. “Tell me how these people can afford them.”

And without another word Max marched him into a shoe store and bought him a pair.

“You can't do this,” Steve protested. The store was on the rue Paradis, across from the Louis Vuitton and Coco Chanel shops. It was elegant, the kind of place where tourists might press their noses to the glass, but would not dare enter.

“Nonsense,” Max said in that sarcastic tone that puzzled Steve. “I can do anything I want.”

The shoes were tight, but the salesman insisted they were a perfect fit. “Good leather will stretch to the length and width of the individual foot.”

“The shoe that fits one person pinches another,” Max said. “Just as there is no recipe for living that suits everyone.”

Steve motioned for Max to wipe the tomato stain off his collar.

“Jung?” the salesman asked, and Max smiled.

“Very good.” Max slid his Visa card across the counter, and Steve shook his hand in gratitude. “Thanks,” he said. “When I wear them I'll think of you.” They were expensive, but he was not going to feel guilty. He had been good company for Max. He had done what he had promised himself he would do.

“Oh God, I hope not,” Max said. “Don't think of me. Think of someone you love.”

Instead Steve thought that the shoes were going to look great with just about everything he owned.

Steve's two-week trek in France had been long, but not as dull as he'd imagined. He had gone as a favor to his father, who, before his death, had asked Steve to keep an eye on Max. “Make sure he's not lonely,” his father directed. Max had been his dad's companion for twelve years, and he worried about how Max would manage once he was gone. Steve lived in Pittsburgh. His father and Max were in Detroit. He told his father keeping Max company might prove difficult.

“Do your best,” his father said. “That's all I ask.”

Steve's father thought it natural that Steve would continue to be a part of Max's life. Steve did not see this happening.

Steve tried to turn his father's wish into a joke. “Listen to you. You sound like a Christian martyr.”

“I don't care if I sound like the Almighty Himself,” his father agreed. “Do me this favor. Do it in memory of me.”

Steve had made the sign of the cross, but his father had closed his eyes and was asleep before Steve could agree to anything.

Steve had never been comfortable with his father's homosexuality. It had not been the reason for his parent's divorce. No, there had been other problems there—mostly his mother's disregard for anyone who loved her—but still, Steve could not help feeling that his father's relationship with Max had cheated him. It wasn't fair that his father lived with a man. Steve would have preferred to ignore the sexual aspect of his father's life, but Max made that impossible. He did not want to see Max mourning after his father's death. He was not comfortable with talk about love. He did not like the term “soul mate.”

The trip to France had been Max's idea. Steve agreed to it with a great deal of trepidation. He thought it might rid him of the dark shadow that had settled on his life since his father's death, but he worried about traveling with Max. They had never been particularly close, and Steve did not imagine them suddenly becoming friends.

But Max was a good traveling partner. Steve had no complaints there. Max was generous, pleasant, and for the most part, interesting. He could decipher maps. He was excellent with money and numbers and could translate the exchange rate in his head. He was fluent in French, spoke some Italian, and had enough Spanish to read a menu.

Max was a good conversationalist and was endlessly entertaining during the long French meals that started with cocktails, moved to wine, then finished hours later with coffee.

“You should have written for Hollywood,” Steve told him one night.

“These are just boring stories about my life,” Max said. “They wouldn't interest anybody.”

“I don't know about that,” Steve said. The wine made him enthusiastic. Steve was aware of Max's attitude, which was slightly condescending. It suggested, at least to Steve, that he was angry about the way Steve had treated him all these years. Steve did not want to bring it up, but it was there, a slight bitterness that he could not ignore no matter how pleasant Max acted.

“How about we do this again?” Max asked Steve. They had just spent the day in the Pyrenees, and Steve thought he wanted to go back to Spain.

“No, no, no. I meant how about another two weeks in Europe?” Max said. “We seem to travel well together. I wouldn't mind checking out northern Italy if you can spare the time.”

“I'd love to,” Steve said. “But I can't. I'm getting married.”

“That's right. You mentioned that a number of times,” Max said, and then he smirked. “I hope you're going to invite me to your wedding.”

“Of course,” Steve said. “Why wouldn't I invite you?”

The reason he wasn't going to invite him was that he had not told his fiancée the truth about Max. He had identified Max as an older relative—a rich uncle who did not care to travel alone. Kathleen, in fact, knew very little about his father. Steve thought it best that things had worked out the way they had. She was not a warm person. In fact in the last couple of months, she had become difficult, almost bitchy. Steve could not help but feel her anger was directed at him, as if perhaps she didn't like him as much as he liked her. He could not imagine her understanding the Max situation.

“If I can't make it I'll send an objet d'art,” Max said. “A faux objet d'art.”

“Fine,” Steve said. He sensed that Max was mocking him, but he was not sure. It was not like Max to make fun of something like marriage. Steve unfolded the road map as a way to change the subject.

“I'll send something that's unbelievably ugly. An outrageous piece of contemporary sculpture. It will be heavy and awkward and every time you move, you'll curse the damn relative who gave it to you.”

Steve nodded. “That would be great.”

“Seriously,” Max said and raised his glass. “Here's to love. May it come along at least once in your life.”

“Yes,” Steve said, wishing Max would lower his voice.

“Here's to not getting cold feet at the last minute,” Max said and stood, moving his chair away from the table. “Don't run from love. No matter how afraid you are of it.”

“I've got my new shoes,” Steve said. “How cold could my feet get?”

Max did not reply. He stopped the waiter and paid with three or four large colorful French bills, and for a moment Steve felt like a child at a grown-up dinner party.

Max was incredibly knowledgeable about the religious history of the southwest part of France, and this was where he wanted to spend most of their time. He thought it would be interesting to follow the path the Cathars took in the 1200s when they traveled the area trying to avoid the tyranny of the Catholic Church. He gave Steve short lectures before they visited each town.

“Don't tell me you spent the winter months with your head in a bunch of boring books memorizing this stuff,” Steve said. They had talked infrequently since his father's death. It was usually Max calling and leaving a message, then Steve returning his call during the day when he knew Max would be at work. They had worked out the itinerary for the trip this way.

“Oh no,” Max said. “I'm quite familiar with this history. You'd be surprised how interesting the Cathars were.”

Steve had never heard of them, and therefore judged them an unnecessary part of foreign history—nothing at all to do with him. He ignored Max's lectures and complained about the mildewy odor and dampness of the cathedrals.

Max's enthusiasm did not wane with Steve's dismissal of and disdain for the area.

“The Cathars were a fascinating people who were faulted because they opposed the Catholic Church. They found its ways corrupt, which in the thirteenth century was true. They were essentially a nonviolent people who took refuge in these towns.”

Visiting ruined castles in a series of look-alike medieval towns was not Steve's idea of a vacation, and he complained often of boredom.

Max remained cheerful. “This stuff is stunning history,” he said as they drove into the town of Monségur one morning.

A wave of self-pity washed over Steve. He wished he were back in Pittsburgh. He and his fiancée had been fighting, and he had been glad for the time away, but the trip was long and being with Max was getting tiresome.

Steve parked in the town square and the two of them walked toward the cathedral. An albino beggar stood outside the wooden doors, his hands cupped waiting for spare change. Steve was sure they had seen the same man in the town they toured the day before.

“I'll wait out here for you,” Steve said. “Are you sure you want to miss this one?” Max said. “It's a biggie.”

Steve told him he'd be in the town center, sleeping in the shade of the elm trees.

“I might be a while,” Max said. He had loaded a new roll of film and wore his camera around his neck like a piece of jewelry.

“Take your time,” Steve said.

Across the way a trio of men played
boules
. They argued loudly, debating every shot, and the game moved slowly.

The day was warm and Steve took off his sweater and closed his eyes in the sunshine.

Steve slept. He woke when the church bells rang noon. He got up to tell Max it was time for lunch.

Max was on the altar, explaining the enormous frescoes to a trio of heavyset American women who seemed delighted to find someone who not only spoke English but was also informative.

Max was in his glory. “In 1244, after a long siege, the surviving leader of the Cathar church surrendered. Given a choice of renouncing their faith or being burned at the stake, two hundred men and women serenely climbed onto their funeral pyres.”

“How do you know they went serenely?” Steve interrupted.

The women, full of eager and curious smiles, turned to look at him as if he were a zoo animal.

“Who's to say they weren't scared shitless?” Steve asked.

Max did not miss a beat. “And this pleasant young man is my friend, Steven.”

Steve scowled. He did not like Max to introduce him in this way, lest people mistake him for something he was not. But these women were in their sixties—they wore large shapeless sweaters, brightly colored stretch pants, and sensible walking shoes. Loud, obviously American, they were not of sufficient attractiveness for Steve to care what they thought of him.

The women offered to buy Max lunch in exchange for the history lesson, and Max graciously accepted for the two of them.

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