Authors: Lexie Ray
Tags: #Literature & Fiction, #Women's Fiction, #Contemporary Women, #Romance, #Contemporary, #New Adult & College, #Contemporary Fiction, #Sagas, #Short Stories
WORTHY, Part 1
WORTHY
Worthy Series, Book 1
L E X I E R A Y
Copyright © 2014
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apter One
It was easy, when
I first woke up, to forget about everything. I’d keep my eyes closed and listen to the world around me—the chatter of the birds just outside the window, the trees at the edge of the property creaking in the wind.
I
could keep my eyes closed and believe that life was nothing more than normal, resting my cheek against the cool, soft surface of the pillow. It was a new morning, a chance to do something I loved with each and every day. I would stretch my arms up and over my head and yawn widely, picking out the various birdcalls from their incessant chatter. I knew the cuck of the robin from the clicking of the martin, the cheep of the sparrow from the warbling of the cardinal, and the mockingbird that knew the words to all of the songs.
Then,
I would roll over.
The pillow felt different against the
right side of my face. The smoothness became scratchy, there were gaps between the skin of my cheek and the cotton, and it made me remember that things weren’t normal.
That
I wasn’t normal.
But
I never got anything done while moping about things I couldn’t change.
I
got out of bed, tugging my nightgown down over my rump even though there was no one to see me, and shuffled over to the bathroom, just across the hallway to my bedroom. Where a mirror should hang above the sink was just bare wall, but I didn’t even see it. My eyes still screwed shut in sleep, I turned on the tap and splashed myself with cool water.
I
gasped. That was always an eye opener—a face full of cold water first thing in the morning. Rubbing my face with a towel, I slipped back into the bedroom and dressed quickly in the uniform of the day—a pair of faded cutoff denim shorts and a sleeveless top. There was no one to impress around here but myself, and I simply didn’t see the point. While it was summer, I was going to dress as light as possible.
I
always supposed that if I really didn’t care that much, I could traipse around the cottage and surrounding land completely naked. No clothing necessary. As remote as the property was, though, the thought that a stray passerby could happen upon me while nude was enough to make me steer clear of the notion. Of course, I’d never actually seen anyone in my time out here. I occasionally heard the far-off drone of ATVs, but sounds carried funny in the hills and hollows of the woods. They could be miles and miles away for all I knew.
I
wrapped my curly blonde hair into a topknot—taking care not to brush against the ugly right side of my face—and padded into the kitchen. The kitchen opened up to what would be considered the family room—if I had family to share the tiny cottage with. As it was, a couch that sagged in the middle and a comfortable old armchair stood empty in the room, positioned in front of the fireplace.
I
could really get that fireplace crackling in the wintertime, feeding log after log into the flames, using the cast iron poker to jostle the embers and burning wood into the best possible position. It was a point of pride to get the fire hot enough to drive away the frigid cold, but for now, I was more than happy for summer. Summer meant I got to go outside without bundling up and could sleep with the windows open to let the breeze blow through the cottage.
I
cracked open the refrigerator to peer inside and frowned at what I found. There were plenty of eggs, but it was just too hot to fire up the stove. It was going to be a scorcher of a day, even as early as it was.
Deciding to forgo breakfast
—and keep from making the inside of the house swelter any more than it already was—I grabbed an enormous apple from the crisper and took a big bite, the crunch of the firm, juicy flesh making me smile. The fruit was cold from the fridge and the perfect remedy for summer heat. I decided to come home for an early lunch if I got hungry later following the light breakfast.
Not bothering with
shoes, I walked outside and into the sunlight. My feet were hardened from walking on the ground barefoot. I did so much walking and moving around that it was better to just use my God-given feet to get me around rather than pair after pair of shoes.
Even though
I’d been living in the cottage for nearly five years, I never got tired of the view around me.
A field speckled with wildflowers stretched between the cottage and the barn.
Well, I called it the barn, but it was really just an overgrown shed about the same size as the cottage. It wasn’t big enough for anything but storage and a small flock of chickens that I kept for eggs—and the occasional dinner. I was loath to eat them, though, because they’d become something of pets to me after all this time together. But if I didn’t cut the flock, the coyotes would.
Beyond the barn stood the woods.
Over time, I’d learned each and every tree by its bark, the shape of its leaves, and type of fruit. In the fall, I gathered walnuts to crack, using the stain to maintain the floors of the cottage as well as the dinner table. The nuts I snacked on throughout the winter.
I always
itched to go walking in the woods, but there were chores I needed to tend to first. The chores always needed to happen.
I
let the chickens out of their little coop in the barn, laughing as they scrambled over each other and beat their wings in their haste for freedom and sunlight.
“No need to rush,” I said, scooping some feed out of a canister I kept sealed on a shelf in the barn.
“There’s plenty for everyone. Here.”
The clucking subsided as the chickens fell to breakfast, pecking at the seeds
I spread over the ground. I left them to it and went to check on the garden.
It had taken
me a couple of years to perfect it, but I was now pleased to be an expert at keeping deer from munching the food I grew for myself. The first few seasons had been disastrous, with me often thinking sarcastically that the deer could at least leave a tip for me providing such a generous buffet.
Now,
I’d lined the garden with bird netting, which kept out both the deer and the rabbits. For added protection, I peed in a bucket for a whole day about every week, spreading the urine around the boundaries of the garden—in essence, marking my territory. Maybe it was a little weird, but I’d had such great success with it that I didn’t want to change a thing.
I
rolled back the netting and got to work. Maintaining the garden was a daily necessity. The entire region was in the midst of a drought, so I had to haul buckets of water from the spigot on the side of the barn to make sure all of my plants were well watered. It had taken me time and much effort, but the soil in the garden was fertile and soft in spite of the lack of rain. I liked the feeling of it underfoot, the squish of the mud between my toes when I dumped bucket after bucket of water on the small plot.
As
I did this, I examined the leaves of each plant for signs of damage from beetles and other pests. I didn’t want to lose anything to such a small creature after I was already working so hard to keep the bigger pests out. I kept a jug of insecticidal soap in the barn.
Today,
I smiled. All of my plants were growing just fine, and I was pleased to note that I had several things to pick for lunch and dinner today and in the days to come. My hardy row of basil was unfazed by the drought, thick and fragrant. The potatoes and carrots were also coming along well, the healthy sprouts above the surface belying the tasty roots below.
The tomatoes always did well.
I had come to think of myself as a tomato specialist. I had all types on my variety of vines I’d propped up on wiring to help grow—yellow, orange, and red—and found myself eating tomatoes every day just to try to keep up with the harvest. I pureed them into sauces and salsas and soups, diced them into salads, and sometimes just gave up and ate them whole, like apples. That was the best, the juice running down my chin, the flesh ripened just perfectly in the sun.
What
I couldn’t eat, I canned. I tried not to use the stove so much in the summer because of the heat that built up in the house, but I knew I was going to have to suck it up soon. I required the boiling water and everything that it took to successfully preserve the products of my garden in glass mason jars, which I stored in both the pantry in the cottage and a cupboard in the barn. When winter fell and my garden lay dormant, I relied on those to see me through to spring.
I
was attempting corn for the first time this year—I examined the two rows of growing stalks with no small degree of satisfaction. These were really coming along, especially for my first try. The corn also didn’t seem to mind the drought, as long as I brought them some water from the spigot from time to time.
After
I hunted down and pulled the weeds that threatened my plants, I rolled the bird netting back out, making sure to secure it against the other animals that wanted to benefit from my harvest.
Putting
my gardening tools away in their proper places in the barn, I glanced around. Sunlight illuminated the inside thanks to the spaces between the boards on the walls—and a couple of holes in the roof. Dust motes and little bits of grass floated in the golden shafts. I would have to think about climbing up to the roof to patch those holes before the rain came. If the rain came, I corrected myself.
When
the rain came, I mouthed, trying to think positive.
With the cottage
being so small, I relied on the barn to store many different things—the chickens, for one, which could choose between going inside and outside with the special coop I’d built them. I hoped they had the sense to go inside the barn instead of staying outside if—
when
—the rain came.
Besides the chickens, the barn housed
my gardening supplies and the excess jars of food that I needed in the winter. There were shelves of tools I used to make repairs to both the barn and the cottage, as well as cleaning supplies. I glanced in the corner, where I stored things from the cottage that I didn’t want in there anymore. There were boxes full of ephemera, along with several things wrapped in towels and blankets—the mirrors. I shook my head at that thought and refocused on the task at hand. What I was looking for now were my fishing pole, tackle box, and basket.
I
was pretty sure that I was using fishing as an excuse to go walking in the woods, but who said I couldn’t mix business with pleasure? There was nothing I wanted to do more than lose myself among the trees, admiring the dappled bark of the sycamores or rolling the crabapples into the underbrush to see what was hiding there—pheasants, perhaps, or squirrels.
Bu
t it was essential that I maintained my cottage, barn, and garden. Those things relied on me just as much as I relied on them.
I
herded the chickens back into their coop, dashing a little more feed in there to entice them to return. I didn’t feel too badly about locking them back in. As long as I was near them, I let them roam. They sometimes liked to roam the field, and it was then when I really had to watch them. Weasels and raccoons would probably like nothing better than a delicious chicken dinner.
Without
me to watch them, though, the chickens were a meal waiting to happen for some wily predator. I knew that they’d still get plenty of sunshine—or shade, should they so choose—in the coop while I was gone.
I
slipped into a pair of clogs I kept in the barn and set off with my fishing gear. I didn’t want to bruise the bottoms of my feet because of errant thorns or stones.
Crossing the tree line and walking into the woods,
I was always aware of a magical, almost reverent feeling. The woods were old, full of tall trees with thick trunks and dense underbrush. They had been on the planet for much longer than me and had seen things that I could only imagine.
The sunlight filtered down through the leaves and branches in fits and spurts, illuminating various patches of the ground. Years ago, when
I was still fully realizing the enchantment of the woods, I liked to pretend that the illuminated spots, though random, held some significance. These fantasies were further bolstered if I happened to find edible mushrooms or berries in the illuminated patches.
Now,
I didn’t have to pretend little fantasies like that. I was fully aware that the woods were special—never mind why. The wind moved through the trees with an indecipherable music, and all other sounds, including the crunch of dead leaves and dry twigs beneath my clogs, were hushed.
I
always took care to follow the game path through the woods, not wishing to disturb them any more than I already did. I worried one year that the underbrush would engulf the trail and I’d have to take either clipping shears or a machete to it, but if the deer could find a way, so could I.
Once I was close enough to the creek,
it was easy enough to follow my ears to the goal. I called it a creek—it had been called that for my whole memory—but when I stepped out from behind a gigantic black walnut, I was reminded that the creek was an essential body of water for me. It fed into a nearby river, and it was at that juncture that I often caught the most fish. The creek deepened there and slowed, and the fish liked it as much as I did. On the hottest of days, I would come down here just to swim and cool off.
