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Suddenly everyone stopped laughing and the room fell quiet. I couldn't imagine what was happening; and then I realized that they were all looking at something behind me. I turned.

There standing just inside the door was a tall, blond, handsome, young man. For a moment I thought I must have seen him in the movies; then I realized that he looked a bit like Alan Ladd. Of course he had to be the new teacher. And he had found me standing on his desk, flying paper airplanes!

I stood there frozen. Miss Collins would have dragged me to the principal's office. He just smiled. He had a wonderful smile and crinkly blue eyes. I thought he was the most handsome man I had ever seen. I suddenly realized I was still standing on top of his desk.

“May I help you down?” he said to me.

He extended his hand and helped me down as the class snickered behind me. I was numb with embarrassment, both at being found on top of his desk and at the way he looked. He was so attractive that I felt I should look away.

“Won't you have a seat?” he said, and I sheepishly went back to my desk. I knew I should say something to him, but I was tongue-tied. That was not at all like me.

“My name is Douglas Davenport,” he said to the class, “and I'm your new teacher.” He turned to the board and wrote his name there.

Carla Mae, who sat behind me, leaned forward and whispered to me.

“Is he gorgeous? I don't believe it!”

I didn't say anything. I was still speechless.

Tanya leaned over to join in the conversation from her desk across the aisle.

“He is an absolute doll!” she said.

Mr. Davenport turned back to the class and noticed a watercolor hanging on the wall near his desk.

“Did someone in the class do this painting?” he asked.

I opened my mouth, but no sound came out.

Carla Mae spoke up behind me.

“Addie Mills did it,” she said, pointing to me. “She's the best artist in the class.”

“Oh, the paper airplane pilot,” Mr. Davenport said, smiling at me again.

Everyone laughed, and my face burned.

He was still smiling at me.

“Well, Addie,” he said. “I can tell you're very talented. Studying art is one of my hobbies. I'll have to talk to you more about that.”

Carla Mae swooned behind me and whispered, “You lucky dog!”

I just sat there staring at Mr. Davenport and feeling strange.

In the next few weeks we all got to know Mr. Davenport better, and it was soon clear that he was to be one of the most popular teachers our class had ever had.

All the girls agreed that he was an absolute dish, and though the boys thought we were ridiculous for gushing about him, they liked him a lot, too. We discovered that he was only twenty-four years old, that he drove a tan Chevrolet convertible coupe with white sidewall tires, and that he wore neat, tweedy suits and incredible argyle socks, and smoked a pipe. We spent hours discussing these little details about him, and I collected this information more avidly than anyone, though I never let on.

The strange feeling that had stricken me when I first saw Mr. Davenport still lingered whenever I would talk with him. I talked with him often. I felt I had much more in common with him than the other kids in the class. Somehow I was more grown-up than they were, and I was able to talk to him about all kinds of things that the others just weren't interested in.

I knew that I understood Mr. Davenport better than anyone in the class, because I was going to be an artist when I grew up and he was particularly interested in art. He had been in Paris at the end of the war and had brought back some French art books that he loaned me now and then. I couldn't read the texts because they were in French, but I pored over the paintings for hours and tried to copy some of the artists' styles with my own paints at home. Then I would discuss the paintings with Mr. Davenport, and he always seemed very pleased that he had somebody to talk to who understood art as well as he did. He encouraged me to continue my studies in art, and I knew there was a special bond between us, even if he was eleven years older than I.

By the end of January I realized that I was spending a lot of my time either talking to Mr. Davenport or thinking of a reason to talk to him—or just thinking of him for no reason at all.

I studied art more feverishly than ever so we would have something to discuss. I learned that he liked poetry, so I dug up a copy of Robert Browning that someone had once given me. I had looked at it scornfully when I first got it and had never opened it. I had thought love poems were disgusting. Now I studied them carefully, trying to find an appropriate verse to discuss with Mr. Davenport.

My grandmother wondered why I was sitting around the house all the time, reading and “mooning about,” as she called it, rather than going out with the girls. I couldn't explain it, but I just wanted to be alone. I stopped wearing jeans all the time and, for the first time in my life, worried about how my clothes looked. I stood in front of the mirror, wondering how I could look older.

My father threatened to take my favorite record and grind it up for fertilizer if I didn't stop playing it over and over. I told him he had no romance in his soul.

Chapter Two

By early february, only five weeks after I had first met Mr. Davenport, I realized that he had become the most important person in my life. My after-school chats with him were the highlights of my days, no matter how much teasing about being “teacher's pet” I had to take from the other kids. They didn't understand the real reason for my interest in him. I never discussed it with anyone, which was unusual for me because I usually said exactly what I thought about everything. This was different. I knew I had to keep it to myself.

One February afternoon I sat impatiently at my desk, watching Mr. Davenport write our English assignment on the blackboard. I wasn't paying much attention to what he was saying, because it was almost time to dismiss school for the day and I was rehearsing what I would say when I went up to his desk after class. I was returning one of the art books he had loaned to me, and I wanted to say something intelligent about the French Impressionists.

Instead of writing down the assignment, I was drawing a sketch of him in my notebook. My notebook was almost full of sketches of him and endless pages with his name written over and over in different styles of handwriting. I had never let anyone else see it. They could tease me about Billy Wild, but not about this.

The 3:30 bell finally rang, and I sat there, tightly clutching Mr. Davenport's book and waiting for everyone else to clear out so I could have a private talk with him. It was just my luck that everyone was hanging around in the classroom. Our big seventh-grade Valentine's Dance was the next week, and everybody was gossiping about it and buying tickets from the kids who were assigned to sell them.

Just as Carla Mae and Tanya came over to talk to me, I saw Mr. Davenport get up from his desk and head for the door.

“Mr. Davenport,” I called, getting quickly out of my seat.

“Be right back, Addie,” he said, and went out the door.

“Mr. Davenport, Mr. Davenport, sweetie,” said Tanya in her ickiest voice, mocking me.

“Oh shut up, Smithers,” I said.

“Don't tell me you're borrowing his books again!” said Carla Mae, grabbing at the art book. “You should get a library card from him!”

Sometimes I wondered why she was my best friend.

“Don't maul that book!” I said, grabbing it back from her. “This is a very rare volume, and practically irreplaceable!”

“Well, la-de-da!” said Tanya. “Why don't you hire a bodyguard?”

“I wouldn't expect you to understand,” I said. “You don't know anything about art.”

“Ha!” Tanya said. “You're not half as interested in art as you are in Mr. Davenport.”

“Yeah,” said Carla Mae. “She's been slaving away for weeks creating the world's most gorgeous valentine for him.”

“I have not!” I said hotly. “How do you know who I'm going to give it to?”

“Who else?” asked Tanya.

“Your other true love, Billy Wild!” said Carla Mae.

“Oh, you've gotta be kidding!” I said. “Yuck! I wouldn't give him the time of day … let alone a valentine.”

“Oh, yeah?” said Carla Mae. “I bet you go to the Valentine's Dance with him.”

“Yeah, you always go everywhere with him,” said Tanya.

“Well who else is there in this dumb class?” I said, sounding disgusted. “I can't help it if he always asks me to everything.”

“Oh come on,” said Carla Mae. “After Mr. Davenport, Billy Wild is your second favorite.”

“That's what you think!” I said. “I just may not go with him this time.”

“Well, who else will you go with?” asked Tanya. “I hope you're not waiting for Mr. Davenport to ask you for a date!”

“Yeah,” laughed Carla Mae. “You could wait forever! He's a bit old for you.”

“I'm not waiting for anybody to ask me for a date!” I said. “And for your information, Mr. Davenport is only eleven years older than us. That's not so much.… When we graduate from high school we'll be eighteen, and he'll only be twenty-nine.”

“Twenty-nine!” said Carla Mae. “Yuck! That's so old! I wouldn't want to go out with somebody who's an ancient twenty-nine!” I knew my father had been ten years older than my mother, and I closed my ears to Carla Mae's remarks. Though my mother had died a few months after I was born and I had never really known her, my grandmother had told me many times about the wonderful marriage my parents had. I had been thinking of the difference in their ages a lot lately when I thought of Mr. Davenport.

I longed to be grown up. Thirteen was such an awful age—so clumsy. I knew I was no longer a child, but at thirteen people didn't treat me like a grown-up either. Some days I felt like the kid I had always been, playing outdoors in jeans and sweatshirt, flinging myself into every game, my braids flying. Other days I longed to be sophisticated, with beautiful clothes and hair, and sit in elegant rooms and have serious conversations.

I never seemed to be able to look right. I hated my glasses but had to wear them all the time. I knew I was too old for pigtails but didn't quite know how else to do my hair. I suddenly felt my clothes were wrong, and that my arms and legs were too long for the rest of my skinny body. I hated being thirteen.

I wanted to be seventeen or eighteen so I could meet Mr. Davenport on his own level and call him “Douglas” and go to Omaha and have dinner with him in the Cottonwood Room at the Blackstone Hotel and discuss the paintings in the Joslyn Art Museum. Anything but be caught at the terrible in-between age of thirteen. Even fourteen would have been better. After all, Juliet had been fourteen, and Romeo took her seriously.

Just then I saw Billy Wild coming toward us, and Tanya and Carla Mae giggled.

“Oh, here he comes, the Number Two in your life, Billy Wild!” said Carla Mae when she saw him.

“Let's go,” said Tanya. “The two lovebirds probably want to be alone.”

“Shut up, you guys!” I said.

As he came up to my desk, Tanya said, “Hi, Billy,” in a high, silly voice. Then she and Carla Mae giggled and headed for the door.

Billy waited until they left.

“Going up to Cole's for a coke?” he asked.

“Maybe later,” I said. “I have some things to do here first.”

“I'll wait for you,” he said.

“Don't bother,” I said. “It might take me a while.”

“That's OK,” he said. “There's something I wanna ask you …”

“Listen,” I interrupted, impatient that he wasn't getting the hint. “I have to talk to Mr. Davenport, and I'd like some privacy. So why don't you just go ahead without me?”

“What's so private between you and Davenport?” he asked, annoyed.

“None of your business!” I said.

“Well, how long is it going to take?” he asked.

“It's hard to say,” I said, sounding mysterious. “So why don't you just run along?”

That made him angry.

“Well, why don't you stop making goo-goo eyes at Mr. Davenport?”

“That,” I said coolly, “is a disgusting remark.”

“Ooooo! Mr. Davenport,” he said mockingly. “You're so cute!”

“Immature!” I said.

“Yeah,” he said. “I know you like older men.…”

“I know five-year-olds who are more sophisticated and grown-up than you are!”

“Who wants to be an old man?” he said indignantly.

“Well, you could at least act your age!” I said. “We're in the seventh grade after all … that's practically high school!”

“Oh, could I help you across the street, old lady!” He smirked and grabbed my elbow.

“Adolescent ape!” I said, pulling my arm away. Angrily he turned and headed for the door.

I picked up my books and walked up to Mr. Davenport's desk to wait for him. I opened the art book to a painting I wanted to discuss with him, and as I was leafing through the book I heard someone writing on the blackboard behind me. I turned and saw that Billy had not left but was at the board, drawing a big heart in red chalk. Written inside was “Addie loves Mr. Davenport.”

“You creep!” I said, and shot across the room to the blackboard.

Just then Mr. Davenport came back into the room. Billy took off, and I grabbed an eraser and lunged at the blackboard, frantically trying to erase the heart before Mr. Davenport saw it. He looked right at it and then turned quickly away. I was sure he had seen it.

“Finished with the book already?” he asked as I went back over to his desk.

“Yeah, for now,” I said. “But I'd like to borrow it again sometime. I think the French Impressionists are my favorites.”

“Mine, too,” he said, smiling. “You'll have to take French when you get into high school. It will make studying the French painters a lot more interesting for you.”

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