Authors: Johanna Lindsey
B
ettina was a prisoner in Don Miguel's small house. It stood on the outskirts of Santo Domingo, with the nearest neighbor a mile away, and was surrounded by high walls in the Spanish fashion. The single door in the front wall opened into a large entryway that served as a drawing room. On the right of this were two bedrooms, with a small den between them. The kitchen and dining room were on the opposite side of the house.
The outside doors and the heavy wooden shutters over the windows were kept locked at all times. Bettina knew there was a walled patio outside her bedroom, but not once had she been allowed to walk in it, or feel the soft breeze against her face. She had the freedom of the house during the day, but she preferred to stay in her room. And at night, the door to her room was locked.
Bettina's room was small, but nicely furnished. The bed was large, four-postered, and quite comfortable. A handcarved chiffonier stood behind the door, and a beautifully carved chair with a velvet seat and back was in the corner by the bed. There were several tables, and against the remaining wall,
opposite the shuttered window, was a huge bookshelf that held a few books and many polished statues of marble, jade, and ivory. The little sculptures ranged from a few inches to a foot in height, and depicted different animals.
There were only two servants in the house, a cook and a maid, but Don Miguel had given them strict orders not to converse with Bettina. Even had they had attempted to do so, it would have been useless, because the two women spoke only Spanish. Bettina saw the cook only once, but the maid brought her meals and water for her baths. Bettina tried many times to speak to the maid, to communicate with her hands, but the older woman completely ignored her.
Bettina grew more depressed as the days went by. She saw Don Miguel only in the evenings, when they dined together. He spent each day on the docks, carefully observing every ship that came into the harbor. Each evening, Bettina repeated that Tristan wouldn't come; then she would say no more. Though she was starved for conversation, she couldn't bring herself to talk civilly with this man. She knew that he was setting a trap for Tristan, but Don Miguel would tell her nothing about it. And she could think of no way to warn Tristan, if by chance he should come.
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Bettina had been at Don Miguel's house for three weeks. The end of September was nearing, and she still worried about Tristan. At least she had no time to worry about the fact that her child was a week overdue.
Many times she thought her time was at hand, for she would experience cramps and pressure in her womb. But then the cramps would disappear and she
would be filled with disappointment, for she wanted the birth over. These small discomforts were so frequent that soon she didn't even notice them anymore. She had awakened this morning with the pressure in her womb much stronger, but she put it down to yet another false alarm.
When the maid unlocked the door and came into the room with Bettina's breakfast, Bettina noticed that the little woman seemed unusually cheerful. The room was dark because of the locked shutters, but the usually sullen woman was humming a merry tune as she lit the candles. Bettina supposed the maid was anticipating the fiesta she and the cook would be going to that day. Don Miguel had told Bettina last evening that he was giving the servants the day off so they could enjoy themselves in town.
She remembered thinking at the time that he had purposely told her about the fiesta to make her feel more depressed, for he said that it was too bad she would have to stay in the house by herself. But the silent, cold treatment she received from the maid made her feel as if she were by herself each day, anyway.
Today would be no different from any other day, she told herself as she ate a few bites of food, then pushed the tray aside and got up to dress. But as soon as she stood up, she clutched her middle, afraid to move. The cramps she had felt while lying in bed now seemed twice as strong.
As soon as she was able to move, Bettina left her room, praying silently to herself that she would find the servants still in the house. She went directly to the kitchen, hoping to find the cook there, but it was empty. Bettina refused to become alarmed, but searched quickly through the rest of the house. But
with each room she went in and out of, she was finding it more and more difficult to remain calm. And when she opened the door to the last room, Don Miguel's bedroom, she felt a panic within her such as she had never experienced before.
Bettina knew without a doubt that her time had come as the pressure came again, and the water burst from her, running down her legs to form a puddle at her feet. Bettina lifted her shift with trembling hands, but it was already soaked. The panic she felt was not the fear of giving birth, but the fact that she would have to do it alone. Why today of all days did she have to be completely alone in this house?
She moved to the nearest chair in the entryway and sat down in a daze. All she could think about was Maloma screaming in agony as she gave birth to her son. But then another contraction brought her back to her own situation, and, as soon as it passed, she got up in a panic and began to check all the windows and the outside doors to see if any had carelessly been left unlocked. She wanted to get out of this house; she wanted help! But rationality soon returned, and she realized she was wasting precious time.
The time went quickly because she didn't know how much of it she would have. In the hours that passed, Bettina managed to boil water that she would need and carry this to her room. Between the steadily increasing contractions, she found clean sheets and changed those on her bed, and also brought clean linen to wrap her baby in. She found and cleaned the knife that she would need to sever the cord from the baby's navel. Then, still able to move about, she changed her shift and wiped up the water that had poured from her earlier.
All of her efforts were slow ones because she had to stop and wait for each contraction to pass. But it was late in the afternoon now, and the spasms of pain had grown so frequent and so unbearable that she could no longer contain her agony, and her screams echoed through the empty house.
When Bettina heard the front door open and then slam shut, relief flooded over her. Now she would not have to give birth alone. No matter how distant the servants had been toward her, they were women themselves, and they couldn't refuse to help her. But she realized that the fiesta in town would not be over yet, and one of the women had probably just come for something she had forgotten. Bettina would have to summon the woman before she left again. She struggled to get off the bed where she had been lying, but as soon as she stood up, another contraction gripped her. She started to scream.
Suddenly, the door to her room burst open and Don Miguel stormed into the room, his face a mask of anger. He strode up to her, and before she could speak, he slapped her viciously across the face. She fell back on the bed, and the sudden movement caused her even worse agony, but her pride refused to let her cry out.
“You lying bitch!” Don Miguel yelled, his fists clenched at his sides. “He is hereâTristan is here!”
“Thatâthat cannot be!” she stammered. “He isâ”
“Enough of your lies!” He turned on his heel and left the room, but Bettina could hear him storming in the other room. “To think I had begun to believe your lies, to believe he would never come! I grew lax in my vigilance, and now it is too late for the trap I had planned!” He came back into the room
holding a thin rope in one hand, and looked wildly about the room as if searching for something.
“But how can you be sure it is Tristan?” Bettina asked frantically. “Youâyou must be mistaken!”
Don Miguel looked at her with a mixture of fear and rage in his eyes. “I saw him myself as he moved among the crowds in the streets! He fit the description I had of him, and when I moved closer, the big man he was with called him by name. They are asking the peasants where I live. And he is a clever one, that Tristan. He did not sail into the harbor as I expected, but has hidden his ship up the coast so he could sneak into the town unobserved. I had no time to summon my menâI must face Tristan alone now!”
Bettina stared blankly at Don Miguel. Tristan was actually on the island. How could it be? He should be on the other side of the world. And dear God, why did he have to come now? Why not yesterday, or tomorrow, anytime but now, when she was about to give birth and could not help him in any way?
“You do not have to face him,” Bettina said quickly. “You could flee before he comes.”
“I will end it once and for all. I have the advantage of being an excellent swordsman. I have never been beaten, and I will not be beaten today.”
He grabbed her wrist, yanked her off the bed, and pulled her over to the large, heavy bookshelf. She stared at him stupidly as he began to tie the thin rope about her left wrist.
“What are you doing?” she asked.
“I am making sure you will not stab me in the back while I am taking care of Tristan.”
She had momentarily forgotten about her baby, but now she could feel the beginning of another con
traction. The terror showed plainly in her eyes as Don Miguel secured one wrist and wrapped the rope around a shelf well above Bettina's head, then began to tie her other wrist.
“You cannot do this!” Bettina screamed. “I am in laborâI have been since morning. My baby-”
She could say no more as her body strained in agony, and she cried out in a shrill voice. She tried desperately to pull her hands down to hold her middle, but Don Miguel had secured them tightly above her head. The bookshelf tilted forward dangerously.
“This is excellentâmore than I had hoped for.” Don Miguel laughed malevolently. “Your screams will distract Tristan and make him careless.”
When the pain subsided, Bettina looked up with tear-filled eyes, deep pools of shimmering green. “For the love of God, let me lie on the bed!”
“This was the only rope I could find, and it is too short to tie you to the bedposts.”
“I can do you no harm in my condition. My baby is about to come!” Bettina cried.
“You obviously love this Tristan, or you would not have lied as you did to prevent our meeting,” Don Miguel said impatiently. “And women can do miraculous things for the sake of love. I cannot take the chance.”
“Then lock me in this room if you do not trust me, but pleaseâI must lie down!” Bettina pleaded.
“Unfortunately, the key is not where it is usually kept, and I do not have time to search for it. And alas, my dear, I am not chivalrous enough to put your comfort above my own life. Besides, with the door open, your screams will sound much louder and will help to bring Tristan to a quicker death.”
“Butâbut my baby will die this way! I must have
my hands free! I swear to God I will do you no harm, only please, please, release me!” Bettina begged him, the tears streaming down her cheeks.
“No! It is just as well the baby will die. I do not want another Tristan hunting me down in my old age,” Don Miguel replied harshly. He walked out of the room, leaving Bettina staring after him with wide, horror-filled eyes.
Bettina could only pray now that Tristan would come quickly, that he would overcome Don Miguel and come to her aid before her baby fell to his death. But she knew she was praying for the impossible. Her pains were so unbearable now that she knew she must be nearing the end.
Bettina tried twisting her wrists in an effort to free her hands, but there was no slackening in the rope. She considered toppling the heavy bookshelf over, but when she looked up, she saw that there were three shelves towering above her head. The bookshelf would fall on her, and though she didn't fear for her own life, her baby could be killed.
The agony gripped her again, and screams were forced from her. When Tristan came, if he came in time, she knew she must somehow stifle her screams. She had to endureâshe had to! She couldn't let him know that she was about to give birth, for he must be alert and think only of Don Miguel and the battle at hand. Dear God, give Tristan skill, give him strength, let him be the victor!
When Bettina relaxed, she could feel the perspiration trickling down her temples, down her sides, and between her breasts. She twisted her head to wipe her brow on her upraised arm, then glanced miserably at the bowls of water on the table by the bed. She had prepared everything that she remem
bered Madeleine had ordered for Maloma, but her efforts had all been for nothing. She looked at the knife she would have used to cut the umbilical cord and give her baby life apart from her. Her baby would have had a better chance to live, she thought, if she had plunged that knife into Don Miguel's heart.
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fter questioning countless Spanish-speaking Santo Domingans, Tristan finally came across an old man who had been to France in his youth and knew a little of the language. The old man gave him directions to Bastida's house, and after wasting time arguing with Jules, who wanted to come along, Tristan left alone for the outskirts of town.
The hired horse was as slow as a blasted mule, and just as ornery, and this only added to Tristan's frustrations. He realized that he would probably be walking into a trap, but he dared not endanger Bettina's life, or the life of his child, who would surely be born by now. Jules had passed Bastida's warning on to him, and he was left with no choice but to go alone.
It was nearing dusk when Tristan reached Bastida's house. He approached the front door slowly, but he began to think the old man had given him false directions when he noticed the shuttered windows. The house looked deserted from the outside, but when he tried the door, it opened easily into a well-lit entryway. He glanced about quickly for signs of ambush, but the room was empty and eerily silent.
Leaving the door open behind him, Tristan walked a few paces into the room, his footsteps like those of a cat on the polished floor.
“Bastida, show yourself!” Tristan called out angrily. A moment later, he came face-to-face with the man who had haunted his dreams for so many years.
It had been almost fifteen years since Tristan had set eyes on this man, but he had changed little since then. He was thinner, perhaps, and his features were more blunt and lined with age, but he was otherwise the same.
“So we meet at last, Tristan,” Don Miguel said in a light tone as he came into the room, his sword on one hip, a dagger on the other.
“You recognize me?” Tristan asked, his hand going immediately to the hilt of his sword. But Bastida disappointed him with his answer.
“No, but I saw you earlier in town and heard you called by name. Perhaps if I knew your full name, I mightâ”
“You never knew my name, Bastida!” Tristan said sharply. “It did not matter to you then, so it is of no consequence now.” He glanced quickly at the doors that led off the entryway; then he looked back to Bastida, his eyes like ice. “Where is Bettina?”
“In there,” Don Miguel answered, pointing to an open door.
“And my child?”
Bastida laughed fiendishly. “She is giving birth to the bastard now.”
Tristan paled and started for Bettina's room, but Don Miguel stepped in front of him. Tristan drew his sword and stood back, and Bastida did likewise, a malicious smile playing on his lips.
“Bettina! Bettina, are you all right?” Tristan called out.
“Yes, yes. Don't worry about me.”
Relief flooded his features when he recognized her voice. He had heard no screams, so he assumed she was in the early stages of labor and there was no hurry to help her.
Don Miguel smiled appreciatively. “That girl has more stamina than I gave her credit for,” he said with a shake of his head. “It is too bad that you will not live to see her again.”
“We shall see who will live to see the end of this day,” Tristan replied. He was poised in the traditional fencer's stance, prepared to thrust forward.
But Don Miguel smiled. He stood relaxed, his arms crossed over his chest and the rapier in his hand pointing to the ceiling as it rested on his shoulder.
“Surely before we begin, you will refresh my memory. I may not even be the man you have searched for all these years. Someone else may have used my name andâ”
“That is possible,” Tristan cut him off, lowering his sword to the floor. “But it is not the case. Though I learned your name that accursed night you came into my life, it was your face that was burned into my mind. You have changed little, Bastida.
You
are the one I have sought.”
“But I have no memory of you,” Don Miguel said calmly.
Tristan took a step closer and touched his cheek. “You do not remember this scar you inflicted on a boy of twelve?”
Don Miguel shook his head slowly as he eyed the thin line on Tristan's cheek. “I have left my mark on many.”
“Then perhaps you will remember the words you spoke at the time, after you laid my cheek open with the point of your sword. “This will teach you never to raise arms against a mightier opponant. Your father was a fisherman as you will also be, and a fisherman is not a worthy match for a
don
. I never forgot those words, Bastida, and as you can see, you predicted my future falsely. I am an equal match for you.”
“I said such things often in my youth,” Don Miguel replied. “Surely you have not hunted me all these years because of that scar?”
“You still have no memory of me?” Tristan asked. His rage began to surface.
“No. Your name and face have no meaning to me, nor what you have told me this far.”
“Then I will tell you what took place that night, for it is still in my mind as if it happened only yesterday. It was a night in summer, some fifteen years ago, when you and your noble friends came to my village on the coast of France. Most of the village men were out in the fishing boats. In ten minutes you had killed every single man who had tried to protect his home. Then you had your sport with the women.
“My father had stayed at home that night, and he was one of the last who died by your blade, Bastida. I watched you kill him from the window of my parent's house.
“My mother forced me to hide under my bed as you came toward our house, Bastida. I watched you and your noble friends throw her on the ground and rape her, many times.
“You killed my mother and spit on her lifeless body. I crawled from my hiding place and ran after
you. I attacked you with my bare fists, and you opened my cheek with the point of your sword and kicked me to the ground, only a few feet from where my father lay, telling me I was no match for you.
“Now you know why I have sworn to kill you, Bastida! When you murdered both my parents, it was a mistake to leave me alive,” Tristan said, the fires of the past lighting his eyes. “Now my parents will be avenged!”
“Or you will join them,” Don Miguel replied easily.
“Do you remember me now?”
“What you described happened in many raids. I have no memory of you, but I vaguely recall having to kill a fair-haired woman who came at me with a knife. I confess I have led a sinful life, but am I any different from you?” Don Miguel asked, his mouth turning up at one corner. “Did
you
not rape Bettina Verlaine?”
“I may have raped her, but I did not kill her husband in order to have her, nor did I share her with my crew or kill her afterward. I kept her, and she will bear my child and become my wife.”
“Most commendable,” Don Miguel laughed derisively. “But if you insist on matching skills with me, she will never be your wife. I may have led a ruthless life, but I do not plan to see it ended today.”
Bastida came forward now, his sword arm extended, and their blades clashed together. Bastida had not boasted falsely of his ability, and with quick thrusts and movements he immediately put Tristan on the defensive. But Tristan was not without skill himself, and he successfully parried Bastida's flickering blade until the older man, with a cunning twist of his wrist, drew first blood.
Bastida retreated a step, a taunting smile on his lips at seeing the blood trickling down Tristan's chest. The two men circled each other warily; then the clashing of swords resounded in the air again. Tristan took the offensive, forcing Bastida across the room with a furious attack. Bastida tired quickly, and Tristan's blade reached his target again and again.
Tristan was like a wild bull charging the matador's cape, which was Bastida's shirt, dyed crimson from his own blood. Tristan had the strength of youth and the quickness of a darting cobra, and with a sudden upward thrust, Bastida's sword was ripped from his hand.
The point of Tristan's blade rested against the older man's chest, and for a moment there was a madness in his eyes that turned Don Miguel's blood cold. But before he could lean forward to put an end to the man who had haunted him, Tristan was distracted by an anguished low moaning coming from the next room.
The color drained from Tristan's face, and his hands began to tremble. Forgetting all about Bastida, who stood wide-eyed before him, Tristan turned and ran for the room where Bettina was. Behind him, seeing his chance for victory, Bastida drew his dagger and raised his arm to hurl it at Tristan's broad back.
A sudden blast of gunfire exploded in the room. Tristan swung around to see Bastida falling slowly to the floor, the dagger still in his hand. Then his eyes turned to the front door he had left open, and he saw the massive frame of Jules Bandelaire standing there, his great pistol smoking.
Tristan smiled weakly. “I suppose I must be
thankful for once that you're a stubborn Frenchman who refuses to obey orders.”
“And rightly you should be,” Jules grunted as he sauntered into the room. “You had him at your mercy, and instead of running him through as the bastard deserved, you gave him your back for a splendid target. By rights, it should have been you lying in a pool of blood. You're so damned smitten with that girl that you run to her at the slightest cry. The wench will be the death of you yet.”
“Tristan!”
Bettina's scream was like a knife through Tristan's heart, and he completely forgot about Jules as he ran into the room. The bed was empty, and he glanced frantically about the room.
“Mother of God!”
He ran to her, his face as pale as hers. In one swift motion he cut the rope with his sword; then he dropped it and lifted her in his arms. She screamed from the sudden movement, sending a cold chill down his spine, but in two quick strides he brought her to the bed and laid her down gently. She opened her eyes and they were calm, filled with relief, as she stared up at him.
“My God, Bettina, why didn't you tell me? Why did you let me delay so long with Bastida?” he asked. He wiped the blood from her chin, blood from the cuts on her lips where she had bitten them to keep from screaming.
“He wanted you to hear my cries, thinking they would upset you and make you careless. I couldn't let that happen. I am sorry I cried out when I did, but Iâ”
“You should have cried out sooner, blast it! I have
to get you help,” he said sternly, apprehension showing on his face.
“It is too late for that, Tristan. You will have toâ”
Tristan was struck with horror as her screams filled the room again. Jules came to the door, but seeing Tristan by the bed, with Bettina fiercely clutching his hand, he quietly closed the door and left them alone. A few minutes later, Tristan brought his daughter into the world.
Bettina stared in wonder at the tiny infant Tristan placed in her arms. She proudly noted the golden wisps of hair and the light blue she could see through half-closed eyelids. Then she looked up at Tristan and frowned.
“IâI am sorry I could not give you the son you wanted,” she said in a hoarse whisper.
Tristan sat on the edge of the bed and bent to kiss her brow, then smiled with a shake of his head.
“What does it matter that our first child is a girl? There will be others, many others, and I will love them all. But this one, this tiny red-faced girl, will hold a special place in my heart.”
She could see in his eyes that he was not disappointed, and her heart filled with joy. With a sigh of relief mixed with contentment, Bettina slept.
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It was morning when Bettina awoke. The shutters in her room had finally been opened wide and the sun was spilling into the room. The feeling of peace and happiness that she had felt before exhaustion claimed her came back to her now as she felt her daughter stir on the bed beside her.
In the next half hour, she experienced the pleasure every mother must feel at being able to nourish her
child from swollen breasts. As she held her baby in her arms, the child appeared to be asleep, except for the continuous sucking motion of her little mouth.
Tristan came into the room a while later, and sat down on the edge of the bed, taking Bettina's hand in his. His eyes were soft and tender as they gazed down at her and at his sleeping daughter.
“How do you feel?” he asked.
“Happy.”
“That's not what I meant, and you know it,” he said in a voice that was supposed to sound stern, but didn't.
“I am fine, really,” she said with a warm smile, and saw the tension leave his face. But then she touched his cheek tenderly. “Tristan, what you told Bastida, did all that really happen?”
“Yes,” he answered, and no hate flashed into his eyes as it used to whenever Bastida's name was mentioned.
“It must have been awful living with that memory all these years, and you were so young when it happened. How did you manage after thatâorâor would you rather not talk about it?”
“I don't mind talking of it anymore, but I think you should rest right now,” he replied.
“I don't want to rest!”
He shook his head at her stubbornness, but the corners of his lips turned up in a smile. This was a part of Bettina that would always be there, like her maddening temper. But these were traits that made her what she wasâthe woman he loved.
“Very well, little one. I had known Jules ever since I could remember, for he lived alone in the house next to mine, his parents having died years earlier. Fortunately, he was up the coast that night,
and when he returned, he became my guardian. He helped me to bury my grief, but he could do nothing about the hate I harbored. Two years later, he and I left the village and traveled north until we came to a large coastal town with a harbor full of ships from friendly countries. Jules wanted to go to sea, and the only thing I wanted was to find Bastida. So we signed on with the first ship leaving, which was an English vessel.”