A Small Death in lisbon (4 page)

'Poker's not considered degenerate yet?'

'SS-Gruppenführer Lehrer is an accomplished player. I think it...'

'I don't want to hear this.'

'I think it would be advisable for you to ... ah ... lose.'

'Ah ... more money?'

'You'll get it back.'

'I'm on expenses?'

'Not quite ... but you will get it back in another way.'

'Poker,' said Felsen, wondering how relaxed this game would be.

'It's a very international game,' said the adjutant getting up from the table. 'Seven o'clock then. Here. Black tie for you, I think.'

Eva Brücke sat in the small study of her second-floor apartment on Kurfürstenstrasse in central Berlin. She was at her desk wearing just a slip under a heavy black silk dressing gown with gold dragon motifs and a woollen blanket over her knees. She was smoking, playing with a box of matches and thinking of the new poster that had appeared on the billboard of her apartment building. It said 'German women, your leader and your country trust you.' She was thinking how nervous and unconfident that sounded—the Nazis, or maybe just Goebbels, subconsciously revealing a deep fear of the unquantifiable mystery of the fairer sex.

Her brain slid away from propaganda and on to the nightclub she owned on the Kurfürstendamm,
Die Rote Katze.
Her business had boomed in the last two years for no other reason than she knew what men liked. She could look at a girl and see the little triggers that would set men off. They weren't always beautiful, her girls, but they'd have some quality like big blue innocent eyes, or a narrow, long, vulnerable back, or a shy little mouth which would combine perversely with their total availability, their readiness to do anything that these men might think up.

Eva's shoulders tightened and she pulled the blanket off the back of the chair around her. She'd begun to feel dizzy because she'd been smoking too fast, so fast that the end of her cigarette was a long, thin, sharp cone. This only happened when she was irritated, and thinking about men irritated her. Men always presented her with problems, and never relieved her of any. Their job, it appeared, was to complicate. Take her own lover. Why couldn't he do what he was supposed to do and just love her? Why did he have to own her, intrude on her, occupy her territory? Why did he have to take things? She chucked the matches across the desk. He was a businessman, and that, she supposed, was what businessmen did for a living—accumulated things.

She tried to get her mind off men, especially her clients and their visits to her office at the back of the club where they'd sit and smoke and drink and charm until they'd get to what they really wanted which was something special, something really special. She should have been a doctor, one of those new-fangled brain doctors who talked you out of your madness, because as the war had worn on she'd noticed the tastes of her clients had changed. Normally, these days, as she'd found out to her cost, to include pain—both inflicting it and, perhaps to redress the balance, receiving it. And then there was one man who'd come and asked of her something that even she didn't know whether she'd be able to supply. He was such a quiet, insignificant, enclosed man, you wouldn't have thought...

There was a knock at the door. She crushed her cigarette, threw off the blankets and tried to plump some life into her blonde hair but lost heart when she caught sight of herself in the mirror with no make-up. She refolded the dressing gown across herself, pulled the belt tight and went to open the door.

'Klaus,' she said, producing a smile. 'I wasn't expecting you.'

Felsen pulled her over the threshold and kissed her hard on the mouth, desperate after two days in the barracks. His hand slid down to her lower back. Her fists came up and she pushed herself away from his chest.

'You're wet,' she said, 'and I've only just woken up.'

'So?'

She went back inside and hung up his hat and coat and led him back to her study. He followed with his slight limp. She never used the living room, she preferred small rooms.

'Coffee?' she asked, drifting over to the kitchen.

'I was thinking...'

'The real thing. And brandy?'

He shrugged and went into the study. He sat on the client side of the desk, lit a cigarette and picked the flakes of tobacco off his tongue. Eva came in with the coffee, two cups, a bottle and glasses. She stole one of his cigarettes which he lit for her.

'I was wondering where that was,' she said, tugging the lighter out of his grip, annoyed.

She was wearing lipstick now and had brushed her hair. She pulled the telephone plug out of the wall, so that they could talk privately.

'Where've you been?' she asked.

'Busy.'

'Trouble at the works?'

'I'd have preferred that.'

She poured the coffee and tipped some brandy into hers. Felsen stopped her doing the same to his.

'After,' he said. 'I want to enjoy the coffee. They've been making me drink tea for two days.'

'Who's they?'

'The SS.'

'They're so brutal those boys,' she said, irony on automatic, unsmiling. 'What do the SS want from a sweet little Swabian peasant like you?'

The smoke curled under the art deco lamp. Felsen tilted the shade downwards.

'They're not saying, but it feels like a job.'

'Lots of questions about your pedigree?'

'I told them my father ploughed the strong German soil with his bare hands. They liked it.'

'Did you tell diem about your foot?'

'I said my father dropped a plough on it.'

'Did they laugh?'

'It's not a very humorous atmosphere down there.'

He finished his coffee and poured brandy over the dregs.

'Do you know someone called Gruppenführer Lehrer?' asked Felsen.

'SS-Gruppenführer Oswald Lehrer,' she said, becoming very still. 'Why?'

'I'm playing cards with him tonight.'

'I've heard he's in charge of running the SS or rather the KZs as a business ... making them pay for themselves. Something like that.'

'You know everybody, don't you?'

'That's my business,' she said. 'I'm surprised you haven't heard of him. He's been in the club. This one and the old one.'

'I have. Of course I have,' he said, but he hadn't.

Felsen's mind raced. KZs. KZs. What did that mean? Were they going to assign him some cheap concentration camp labour? Switch his factory over to munitions production? No. Job. It was for a job. He felt the cold in his bones suddenly. They weren't going to make him run a KZ, were they?

'Drink some brandy,' said Eva, sitting on his lap. 'Stop guessing. You've got no idea.'

She ran her fingers over his bristly head and thumbed one of his cheekbones as if he was a child with a mark. She tilted his head and planted some fresh lipstick on his mouth.

'Stop thinking,' she said.

He slipped a large hand up under her armpit and cupped one of her firm, braless breasts. He eased another hand under the hemline of the slip. She felt him hardening under her. She stood, wrapped herself in the gown again and knotted the belt. She leaned in the doorway.

'Am I seeing you tonight?'

'If they let me go,' he said, shifting in his seat, his erection troubling him.

'Didn't they ask how come a Swabian farmboy speaks so many languages?'

'Yes, they did, as a matter of fact.'

'And you had to give them a guided tour of all your lovers.'

'Something like that.'

'French from Michelle.'

'That was French was it?'

'Portuguese from that Brazilian girl. What was her name?'

'Susana. Susana Lopes,' he said. 'What happened to her?'

'She had friends. They got her out to Portugal. She wouldn't have lasted long in Berlin with that dark skin,' said Eva. 'And Sally Parker. Sally taught you English, didn't she?'

'And poker and how to swing.'

'Who was the Russian?' asked Eva.

'I don't speak Russian.'

'Olga?'

'We only got as far as
da.'

'Yes,' said Eva, '
niet
wasn't in her vocabulary.'

They laughed. Eva leaned over him and tilted the lampshade back up.

'I've been too successful,' said Felsen, failing to look sorry for himself, trickling more brandy into his cup.

'With women?'

'No, no. Drawing attention to myself ... all this entertaining I do.'

'We've had some good times,' said Eva.

Felsen stared into the carpet.

'What did you say?' he asked suddenly, looking up at her, surprised.

'Nothing,' she said, leaning over him to stub her cigarette out. He breathed her in. She stepped back. 'What are you playing tonight?'

'Sally Parker's game. Poker.'

'Where are you taking me with your winnings?'

'I've been advised to lose.'

'To show your gratitude.'

'For a job I don't want.'

Outside a car drifted through the slush down Kurfürstenstrasse.

'There is one possibility,' she said.

Felsen looked up, sun perhaps breaking through the cloud.

'You could clean them out.'

'I've thought of it,' he said, laughing.

'It could be dangerous but...' she shrugged.

'They wouldn't stick me in a KZ, not with what I'm doing for them.'

'They stick anybody in a KZ these days ... believe me,' she said. 'These are the people who cut down the lime trees on Unter den Linden so that when we go to the Café Kranzler all we have are those eagles on pillars looking down on us. Unter den Augen they
should call it. If they can do that they can stick Klaus Felsen, Eva Brücke and Prince Otto von Bismarck in a KZ.'

'If he was still alive.'

'What do they care?'

He stood and faced her, only a few inches taller but nearly three times wider. She put a slim white arm, the wrist a terminus of blue veins, across the door.

'Take the advice you've been given,' she said. 'I was only joking.'

He grabbed at her, his fingers slipping into the crack of her bottom which she did not like. He went to kiss her. She twisted and yanked his hand away from behind her. They manoeuvred around each other so that he could get himself out of the door.

'I'll be back,' he said, without meaning it to sound a threat.

'I'll come to your apartment when I've closed the club.'

'It'll be late. You know what poker's like.'

'Wake me if I'm sleeping.'

He opened the door to the apartment and looked back down the corridor at her. Her dressing gown had been rucked open. Her knees, below the hem of her slip, looked tired. She seemed older than her thirty-five years. He closed the door, trotted down the stairs. At the bottom he rested his hand on the curl of the bannister and, in the weak light of the stairwell, had the sense of moorings being loosed.

At a little after six o'clock Felsen was standing in his darkened flat looking out into the matt black of the Nürnbergerstrasse, smoking a cigarette behind his hand, listening to the wind and the sleet rattling the windowpane. A slit-eyed car came down the road, churning slush from its wheel-arches, but it wasn't a staff car and it continued past him into the Hohenzollerndamm.

He smoked intensely thinking about Eva, how awkward that had been, how she'd needled him bringing up all his old girlfriends, the ones before the war who'd taught him how not to be a farmboy. Eva had introduced him to all of them and then, after the British declared war, moved in herself. He couldn't remember how that had happened. All he could think of was how Eva had taught him nothing, tried to teach him the mystery of nothing, the intricacies of space between words and lines. She was a great withholder.

He pieced their affair back to a moment where, in a fit of frustration at her remoteness, he'd accused her of acting the 'mysterious
woman', when all she did was front a brothel as a nightclub. She'd iced over and said she didn't play at being anything. They'd split for a week and he'd gone whoring with nameless girls from the Friedrichstrasse, knowing she'd hear about it. She ignored his reappearance at the club and then wouldn't have him back in her bed until she was sure that he was clean, but ... she had let him back.

Another car came down Nürnbergerstrasse, the sleet diagonal through the cracks of light. Felsen checked the two blocks of Reichsmarks in his inside pockets, left the window and went down to join it.

SS-Brigadeführers Hanke, Fischer and Wolff and one of the other candidates, Hans Koch, were sitting in the mess taking drinks served by a waiter with a steel tray. Felsen ordered a brandy and sat amongst them. They were all commenting on the quality of the mess cognac since they'd occupied France.

And Dutch cigars,' said Felsen, handing round a handful to all the players. 'You realize how they used to keep the best for themselves.'

'A very Jewish trait,' said Brigadeführer Hanke, 'don't you think?'

Koch, still as pink-faced as he had been at fourteen, nodded keenly through the smoke of his cigar which Hanke was lighting for him.

'I didn't know the Jews were involved in the Dutch tobacco industry,' said Felsen.

'The Jews are everywhere,' said Koch.

'You don't smoke your own cigars?' asked Brigadeführer Fischer.

'After dinner,' said Felsen. 'Only cigarettes before. Turkish. Would you like to try one?'

'I don't smoke cigarettes.'

Koch looked at his lit cigar and felt foolish. He saw Felsen's cigarette case on the table.

'May I?' he said, picking it up and opening it. The shop's name was stamped on the inside. 'Samuel Stern, you see, the Jews
are
everywhere.'

'The Jews have been with us for centuries,' said Felsen.

'So was Samuel Stern until Kristallnacht,' said Koch, sitting back satisfied, synchronizing a nod with Hanke. 'They weaken us every hour they remain in the Reich.'

'Weaken us?' said Felsen, thinking this sounded like something verbatim from Julius Streicher's rag,
Der Stürmer.
'They don't weaken
me.
"

'What are you implying, Herr Felsen?' said Koch, cheeks reddening.

'I'm not implying anything, Herr Koch. I was merely saying that I have not experienced any weakening of my position, my business, or my social life as a result of the Jews.'