A Student's Dream (Twisted Cogs Book 1) (38 page)

“
Thank you Leo. You’re a good friend.” Leanarda turned and walked back down the long hallway.

“
I just hope I’m not your only one this year,” Leo muttered as he followed, too quietly for any but the eye to overhear.

***

“
Carla thought you’d just left without meeting us,” Carlo said as Vittoria entered the courtyard, wheeling her chest behind her with the two boxes atop it.

“
Ever the pessimist, Carla?” Vittoria asked as they made their way through the door that separated the courtyard from the foyer.

“
Given how this morning turned out, I think it’s more apt to call me a realist,” Carla said bitterly.

“
Where did Elena go?” Vi asked, “as long as we’re leaving together we may as well have a meal before we part ways for the last time.”

“
It won’t be the last time,” Vittoria said. “If we all stay in Milia we can at least meet for meals.”

“
Unless our new masters don’t approve.”

“
Niccolo is with Elena in her room, helping her pack up,” Carla said. “I’m sure they want time together before they’re wrested apart. He’ll take care of her.”

The two Stormtouched and their Echoes stood in the foyer for long minutes, staring at the door that led to the Street of Yellow Artisans. Vittoria crossed the threshold first, stepping onto the street as her own woman for the first time in two years.

A man and woman, both dressed in very fine purple uniforms, were lounging against the merchant shop on the other side of the street. Almost as soon as Vittoria and Carlo exited the studio they rose and crossed the distance, although they left their Echoes behind.

“
Hundred-Eye, Foresight,” the man said, “we’d hoped to run into you.”

“
Only two people waiting for us?” Carla scanned the street up and down, “I don’t mean to sound arrogant, but I’d hoped for a bit more of a clamor.”

“
Oh there would’ve been, but we took steps to be the only ones to accost you at first. We’ve been saving coins for months now.”

“
You bought the others all off? Everyone who wanted us? How do you know we’d come with you?”

“
We don’t. We understand that you’re perfectly free to walk away, but eighteen tokens was deemed an acceptable price to pay to give you our offer first.”

Vittoria smiled and raised an eyebrow.

“
Delightful as that flattery is, you aren’t interested in
just
us,” she pointed out, “you were probably told to make an offer to any ex-De Luca garzoni who came out here.”

“
You caught me,” the man said, and Vittoria decided she liked his smile, “my name is Ercole.”

“
It’s nice to meet you, Ercole,” Vittoria said.

“
Oh we’ve met before. I’m Patchwork, and this is Ripple.”

“
Patchwork and Ripple!
Callum excursor
, you two look nothing like I would expect.”

“
That’s sort of the point,” Patchwork winked, “though I’d always wondered if you ever caught my real face with one of your hundred eyes. I suppose that answers that question.” Ripple made a complicated series of gestures with her fingers next to him. “Ripple says that she never worried that you saw her.”

“
You’re a mute!” Vittoria said with surprise, “I suppose that’s why you were so good at keeping quiet.” Ripple smiled and stuck out her tongue.

“
Enough of the pleasantries,” Carlo broke in abruptly, and Vittoria sighed. “Are you here to make us an offer, or did your master send you here with other targets in mind? Balance and Maple didn’t get cut, if that’s who you’re looking for.”

“
Please, Foresight,” Patchwork said with dignity, “you should be familiar enough with our studio by now, we
know
who was cut. But, as you say, we are here for business, not pleasure.” He turned to the group at large. “Our showing day is tomorrow, and we naturally want some of our provisional garzoni to pass through. That being said, Malatesta’s studio has two spots open specifically for those garzoni who De Luca does not appreciate. Nothing would have to be proven or displayed, the spots are yours for the taking.”

“
Two?” Vittoria glanced over her shoulder at the studio.

“
We were told to get Foresight and Hundred-Eye, if we could,” Patchwork nodded. “If not, we would settle for Cog or the pencil girl.”

The feelings of guilt that gnawed at Vittoria’s stomach had been lessened by the pleasant banter, but they came back full force at his words.

Was there a time where I wouldn’t have even considered this?
she thought.
Was there a time when I would’ve rather thrown myself on a sword than leave a friend to her fate?

“Violet warned us that we’d change, coming here," Vi said, as if she knew what her Stormtouched was thinking.

“
I remember,” Vittoria said. “I wish she had been wrong.”

***

On the belltower of the Domine Cathedral, near Milia’s West gate, a mural of the Savior riding the Storm looked down upon the city, its eyes detailed and lifelike. The eyes gazed out at the marvel and wonder that was Milia, taking in the rooftops and streets, but soon it focused on one street in particular. It watched as, slowly but without a backward glance, four Malatesta garzoni withdrew from De Luca’s studio.

“
I feel like I should feel worse about leaving my bedroom than I do,” Elena said dully, staring around the empty room.

“
I think you’ve been feeling bad about enough,” Niccolo said from beside her. “If this isn’t making you sad, just go with it.”

“
She will be, later,” Ele said glumly, “I don’t think it’s all hit her yet.”

It certainly felt as though it had hit her. It wasn’t as bad as the first few days after Slug had paralyzed her and threatened her with torture, but Elena couldn’t help but feel as if none of it were real. She didn’t pay attention as the hallway slipped by, as if in a dream, and they were in the courtyard before she had even realized it.

“
Hold on,” she said, stopping, “too fast.”

“
Are you okay?” Niccolo turned to give her a look of concern.

“
I’m okay, I just...let me hold on here for a second.” Even with the dreamlike quality, Elena knew she would want to preserve this moment. She turned in a slow circle, taking in the courtyard around her. The fountain splashed lazily, and a chilled breeze made the bare tree branches rustle against each other. Her breath hung in the air in a frozen mist, and the very air itself felt chilled. The white marble of the tile glittered with the first frost of the year.

It was beautiful, a work of utter art, yet it was beautiful in such a cold, unfeeling way that it made Elena shiver just to look at it.

It’s like the studio,
she thought forlornly,
pretty and perfect, but not for me.

“
Little garzona?” Cook broke the silence from the doorway to the kitchens, and Elena shook herself.

“
I...I don’t think I am that anymore,” she said, “a garzona, I mean. I think I’m just ‘Elena’ now.”

“
Bah,” Cook said, waving one hand dismissively as he approached, “other studios they snatch you up in beating of heart. Not worth to change name now.” He held out a clean piece of linen wrapped around something that steamed and smelled of yeast and herbs and sausages. “So used to cooking for so many garzoni, accidentally I make too much of the supper. You take, else will go to waste.”

“
Thank you,” Elena took the little bundle, still warm from the oven, cradling it to her chest. In the blurry world that seemed like a dream, somehow that little bundle of warmth felt real. De Luca’s studio had felt like her home, and having it ripped away from her stung, but in this moment the little lump of bread and sausages felt more like hers than anything else in the world.

Her Storm buzzed in her temples and fingertips, the reminder of her failure an insult added to the injury of having to leave the Studio. The bread was made with oregano, tarragon and rosemary, little bits of sausage baked inside and garlicky butter melted across the top. For it to be this warm, it would’ve had to be baked less than an hour ago, fresh from the oven. There was no way it had accidentally been made for supper. Stepping forward and carefully holding the bread away at a safe angle, she pressed the large man into a hug. He squeezed her back, tightly, then stepped away and cleared his throat.

“
We will miss little garzona. Jakob, he crying, like baby. But I will miss as well.”

“
I’m going to miss you too, Cook,” Elena had thus far been handling herself well, helped along by the feeling that it was all unreal, but it was hard to pretend to herself that the large man standing in front of her, twisting the end of his apron nervously and blinking rapidly, wasn’t real.

“
Well. I must go back to kitchens now, much to prepare. We will... I would say for you to have the luck, but...you will have luck. Goodbye, little Elena.”

“
Goodbye, Cook.” Elena’s vision was blurry as she watched him walk away, and she wiped her eyes on the hem of her sleeve.

“
I didn’t realize the two of you were so close,” Niccolo said, “I spent some time in the kitchens, but I don’t think we ever got along that well.”

“
To be fair, you were pretty lazy when you worked in the kitchens,” Nicci pointed out.

“
He’s a good man, he and Jakob both are,” Elena sniffed.

“
Don’t say anything. Don’t say a single word,” Frederica’s voice wasn’t particularly loud, but it broke across the courtyard with fervor that was startling. Elena turned to find the Caelator striding towards her, looking angry and tired. Elena opened her mouth to speak, but Frederica held up a finger and she paused. “I mean it,” Frederica snapped. “I don’t like it when people say goodbye and get weepy and distressed. I had about enough of that when I left home, I don’t need more of it now that I’m here. Here.” She thrust a small box into Elena’s hands.

“
Thank you-” Elena began, but quieted again at the look Frederica gave her. She carefully unlatched the box and opened the lid. Sitting within, nestled in a little layer of white cloth, lay a small ermine carved from maple wood, about the length of Elena’s hand. It looked up at her and blinked little wooden eyes, cocking its head to one side with interest. “
Dio carino peloso meo
,” Elena gasped, staying silent forgotten in the face of the tiny creature.

“
Her name is Frell,” Frederica said as if issuing a challenge, “I stayed up all night to make sure it was done. Making something for Vittoria and Carlo too, but I didn’t know if you were leaving Milia or not.” Frell yawned and stretched tiny paws, then scampered up Elena’s arm to sit on her shoulder. Elena was so delighted that she almost dropped the box. The detail in the ermine’s face made her look clever and curious, and its movements were smooth and lifelike.

“
She’s beautiful,” Elena breathed, “she’s so pretty!”

“
How many of those did you have to make?” Niccolo asked.

“
About a couple more than ‘none of your business’,” Frederica replied. “
Are
you leaving Milia, Elena? No one I’ve talked to knows.”

“
Even I don’t know yet,” Elena dragged her attention away from Frell. “I want to send a letter to my mama, and see what she thinks. Now that I know I won’t be a De Luca garzona, I don’t...I don’t really know what to do with myself.”

“
What about all of those plans you came up with the first time you didn’t get in?” Ele broke in. “What about starting up a mercantile shop? Apprenticing with some other craftsman?”

“
Just because you’re not a De Luca garzona doesn’t mean you can’t become a very successful Fabera, Elena,” Niccolo had been carrying her large bag for her, containing all of her possessions which amounted to a few changes of clothes and a little bit of money, but he set it down now. “The other studios usually leap at the chance to get De Luca students, even when they don’t make it through to become full garzoni.”

Even though he had put it gently, Elena winced.

Failures, you mean.

“
I...I really don’t know what I’m doing yet,” she repeated. “I just need to spend a day or two at the inn, and then when I hear back from my mama I’ll know-”

“
What has Joanna ever done to help you that wasn’t also helping her?” Ele demanded angrily.

“
Ele please, please not this discussion. We haven’t had this fight for months, I don’t need you disparaging my mother at a time when I really need her help.”

“
You
don’t
need your mother’s help, and the past two months have proved it! How much money has your mother made from you, selling all of your crafts over the years?”

Elena pressed her knuckles to the bridge of her nose, feeling so overwhelmed that she could barely think. Frell nudged at her from her shoulder, and Elena let the creature nuzzle at her cheek while she tried to unwind all of the pieces in her mind.

“
I’ve been in the care of De Luca, the past couple of months,” she finally responded, “without mama or De Luca I don’t even...I don’t know how to
be
. I need her advice, I’m going to get her advice, that’s the last I’m going to talk about it.”

“
At least look at the other studios. It’s not that different from what you wanted before, at least see what they have to offer.”

“
I’m writing to my mother.”

“
Someday, at some point, I hold out hope that you’ll
actually listen to my advice,
”
Ele said through clenched teeth.

“
I
am
listening to you, and I’ll look at the other studios, but first I’m going to write to my mother.”

“
When my advice is to make the choice without your mother’s input, writing to her is not listening.”

“
My mother has helped me, she deserves the right to give me advice.”

“
I’VE HELPED YOU!” Ele yelled. Elena flinched, and immediately clenched her own teeth, her hands balling into fists at his outburst. As if picking up on her anger, Ele grew quieter, although his eyes still flashed. “Every step of your life here in Milia I’ve helped you. Every decision, every project, I’ve been by your side, and I’ve not steered you wrong once. You’ve ignored my advice time and time again, refusing to see reason, refusing to learn that maybe you should listen to me
just once,
even when ignoring my advice results in disaster.”

“
I’m sorry that I’m so
stupid
that I can’t make smart decisions on my own,” Elena said bitterly, “but every ‘disaster’ here has been the result of someone else, or pure bad luck! I’d like to hear one example where your precious oh-so-wise advice would’ve prevented a disaster!”

“
Maybe if you had listened to me, you would’ve had time to figure out your Storm and not get kicked out of the studio!”

Elena took an involuntary step back, as if he had slapped her in the face. The courtyard rang in the silence that followed Ele’s retort, his voice reverberating on the marble tiles. Elena’s mind spun as even the echoes of the Echo died away, leaving them in complete silence. She couldn’t even begin to formulate a response, her throat locked with grief and anger and betrayal.

“
Listen, you two-” Niccolo began.

“
Niccolo, Frederica, there you are!” Pietro bustled across the frosty floor of the courtyard, a small stack of papers in his hand. “Master De Luca would like to see all of the full garzoni in his office, if you would be so kind.” The marble boy gave a polite nod in Elena’s direction, but didn’t seem overly friendly.

“
Are you going to be okay? Where can I find you, after this meeting is over?” Niccolo rested a hand on Elena’s shoulder, and although it was comforting she could barely process what he was saying through the haze of anger.

“
The...I’ll be at the Inn of Gold,” she finally stammered, “I stayed there with my mother when we first arrived in Milia.”

“
The Inn of Gold, I’ll remember. Hang in there Elena, it’s going to be alright, I promise you.” Niccolo leaned forward to kiss her on the forehead, and for the half-second Elena was able to forget the anger rage and hurt that threatened to overwhelm her.

***

Elena had never been reminded so much of her old life as she was on the walk to the Inn of Gold from De Luca’s studio. She kept her gaze locked forward, pretending that Ele wasn’t walking a few steps behind her, trying to think of how best she could phrase her situation to her mother so that Joanna wouldn’t be angry at her. No way was perfect, of course, but if she could word her failure just right, she might avoid a particularly harsh punishment.

The entire way to the Inn, Elena half-hoped that Ele would say something, just so that she could make a point of not answering or responding. For his part he stayed silent, and whenever she stole a glance at him he seemed more interested in staring at the ground a little ways in front of his feet.

Halfway between the studio and the Inn, Elena noticed Cross sitting in one of the streetside cafes, dressed in the green-and-white of Gritti’s studio. The gazes of the two Stormtouched met, and Cross’ eyes widened in recognition, but Elena ducked into an alleyway before the other girl could get up from her chair. She didn’t have the mental or emotional energy to deal with being yelled at for Slug’s death, and if she could avoid interacting with any of the garzoni of any studio she would. Ele opened his mouth as if to say something, but remained quiet.

I don’t want to interact with anyone,
Elena thought, as they reached the small inn which somehow seemed even smaller than the last time she had been inside it.
I don’t want to do anything, or talk to anyone.

She paid for the room and went straight up the stairs, closing the door in Ele’s face and locking it as he silently walked through the wood. The room had a single desk with paper and ink, enough to begin writing the letter to her mother, but instead Elena threw herself onto the bed, clamping her eyes shut and trying to pretend that the past few days were only a bad dream.