A Taint in the Blood (17 page)

“Why do men always
apologize
for not hitting on you all the time including the grossly inappropriate ones?” Ellen asked, with a wry quirk to one corner of her mouth. “It’s like
sorry for not interrupting you incessantly
or
I regret that I can’t breathe onion in your face
.”

“Because we wish women
would
hit on us all the time,” he answered “Because we wish women
would
hit on us all the time,” he answered promptly. “I realize the reverse isn’t true.”

They set out slowly, warming up as they left the end of the cul-de-sac. There was a brick bicycle path at first; that faded out as they worked their way onto a dirt path that snaked beside a seasonal brook under eucalyptus and native oaks. She kept quiet for half an hour, simply feeling the push of legs and flex of muscle, enjoying the body doing what it was supposed to do. It cleared her head as well.

“Did you . . . have anyone in Los Alamos?” she asked after a while, pacing the words to her breath.

“Not seriously, lately. And I’m very glad things were that way.”

She nodded. He went on: “You were really involved with Adrienne’s brother? And he didn’t . . .”

“No. Things got sticky, but he never . . . well, obviously he never drank my blood! I didn’t know about
any
of this stuff; that was a big part of why we were splitting up. He wouldn’t
tell
me things. I knew he was keeping a lot of secrets. He’s a good guy, basically. I can see now looking back how hard he had to fight not to . . . do things. I may have unintentionally been tempting him.”

Peter nodded. “Left up here, past that clump of bamboo. You know, they can play games with your memories, if they can get close to you for a while. Break your brain-codes. You
sure
he didn’t do that?”

That made her miss a stride; then she laughed harshly. “That’s like trying to prove that the world wasn’t created six minutes ago!”

“Yeah, classic non-falsifiable hypothesis. Sorry!”

“No, I can’t be sure. I’m morally certain, though. Thanks for giving me
another
creepy thought to keep me awake!”

“
De nada.
Do you hate him for getting you into this?”

“No,” she said.

Aloud: “No, what Adrienne’s done is Adrienne’s fault, and they hadn’t had any contact for years. She’s got some twisted love-hate-desire thing going on with him, at least on her part; he hates her and he’s afraid of her. All he wanted was to be left alone and live something as close to a normal life as he could. I was part of that, I think. And she . . . wants . . . me because he did. I get this really creepy feeling that to her . . . messing . . . with me is like fucking
him
.”

“I don’t know if I could be that objective. And, yes, the
Doña
tends to give you that creepy feeling, doesn’t she?”

Soon they were moving up a pair of ruts through dense pasture and onto a ridge. The conversation went in spurts; the usual origin-story you exchanged with a new friend. Her small-town Pennsylvania coal-country roots, the struggle to get to New York and work her way through NYU, the way paintings had taken her to another world. His professional-class Minnesota background, physics a door into the nature of things. The way they’d been fifty miles apart for years and never even dreamed the other existed.

“This rock is a good place to turn. It’s all chaparral for a bit after this—limestone slope. Good steep ground but not this late and not unless you’re up to it.”

“Woof !” Ellen said, leaning over to get her breath under control.

Her lungs seemed dry and inflexible for a few moments, and her skin heated by a flush like an interior sunlamp. The air was cooling, but that felt good.

“I needed to run off the sugar, but I’m still more wiped than I thought.”

Peter nodded. They trotted on a little more; the sun was to the left and a little ahead, making the bare branches ahead black outlines. She stopped again when they rounded a clump of oaks and found themselves facing a small group of white-face cattle, up to their bellies in the deep green grass.

“They’re OK,” he said as he noticed her freeze.

“They’re
big
. I like cows best already disassembled.”

When they’d moved off she turned and said: “You got in trouble for something about the Power, didn’t you? That’s why . . . they . . . wanted you dead. Or someplace like this, fully under control.”

Peter nodded. His handsome mobile face turned to the shadows in the east. “How much mathematics do you have?”

“Hey, Art History BA
,
remember,” she said. “I can use TurboTax if I concentrate very, very hard. If it’s obscure technical terms in Renaissance Italian painting you want, I’m your gal.”

He sat down on a stump. “OK, short form. The Power doesn’t come from inside the Shadowspawn brains. It can’t. Brains just don’t generate that much energy. What they do is
modulate
the Power, tapping it from a deep level. Like a transistor in a radar set. They step it up or down and shape it. But the energy comes from somewhere else. Follow me so far?”

She nodded, and he continued: “What put me on to it was results on probabilistic analysis of—”

“Whoa! Artsy math-aversion reflexes kickin’ in! Let’s get going, then. You know, what puzzles me is that we . . . our ancestors . . . were ever able to overthrow them.”

He rose and they trotted slowly downward. “I suspect it’s because there just weren’t many in any given spot, back when humans were rare.”

“A sort of lions versus zebra thing?”

“Exactly. But now the upper limit’s vanished. And their numbers and their genetic purity have been increasing
fast
the last hundred years. It explains a lot. Think of the early legends . . . you know those?”

She smiled at him, mopping at her face with the sleeve of her sweats. “
Art History
, remember? It’s obligatory to know the loves of Zeus and that sort of thing.”

“You know how crazy the world seems in those myths? How . . . anything-can-happen? Dreamlike and arbitrary?”

Her eyes went wide in alarm. “You mean it
was
like that?”

“Around the Shadowspawn, yes. Probabilities start to blur into each other. The damned
luck
! They’re probably the reason we believe in luck in the first place. There’s no such thing, really—not as sort of a personal possession, or a muscle that’s stronger in some people than in others.”

“Except for
them
it actually does work that way.”

“Right. And it explains so much else, too.”

“Like why the Greeks thought ghosts needed blood? And why so many gods demanded human sacrifices?”

“Yeah, but more fundamental things as well. Why do humans want gods at all? Why do we believe in them without proof?”

“Oh. There
was
proof.”

He nodded. “For a hundred thousand years we
had
gods, for ninety-six percent of the existence of the human race. And spirits and ghosts and survival after death—for some.”

She shuddered, and he made a hands-in-the-air gesture.

“You know the really ironic thing?” he said. “I think that if we could
understand
the Power, we could use it. I mean, everyone could. We’d need something like a very capable, very specifically tailored quantum computer. But all they’re interested in is keeping potential competition down.”

She frowned. Running downhill was harder, or trickier, than going up, but her balance adjusted automatically.

“Why don’t they do that themselves? Surely they’d be in the best position to investigate the Power.”

Peter laughed, half-genuine amusement, half-bitterness. “What animal does Adrienne remind you of? Not
a bitch
, please. Really.”

“A cat,” she said instantly. “I like cats, but they’re not tame. We can have them around because we’re stronger and smarter. The big ones we put in zoos or nature parks.”

“Smart! We’re apes that became more like wolves. Shadowspawn are apes who became like wolves and then decided they’d rather become like cats instead. And what do cats do if you leave them to themselves?”

“Hunt and play at hunting. Torture mice. Eat. Sleep. Groom themselves. Fight other cats for territory and mates. Screw.”

“Exactly. I—”

An engine sounded from around the curve of the track ahead, the whining burble-hum of a new electric-drive hybrid. They stopped in surprise as a TARDEC utility vehicle stopped, a low-slung boxy body of angled plates on four oversize wheels, the sort of thing you saw on news reports from dry dusty places where things went
boom
a lot. It didn’t bristle with weapons, but there were antennae and the man beside the driver was looking down at some sort of display screen. Another followed it.

The riders looked like soldiers; at least they had body-armor, which Ellen could recognize from the news, and bulbous helmets with sensor visors ready to be flipped down, and each had an ear-mike with a little thread-microphone at one corner of their mouths. They carried odd foreign-looking assault rifles as well.

Eight of them were Asian, but not quite like any she’d seen before. Short barrel-chested bandy-legged men, tough and stocky with the weathered skin of those who’d always been out-of-doors in all weathers; they swung down and spread out, going down on one knee facing outward. They were relaxed and alert, their eyes never stopping; their sense of tensile presence reminded her of good tennis players, even in their heavy boots and gear. Besides the usual military paraphernalia their belts held big inward-curving chopping knives.

They don’t seem like a brute squad
, she thought.
Just . . . focused.

The ninth was a white man, older but very fit, with gray threads in his clipped brown mustache, and very cold gray eyes. They met hers through the growing shadows . . .

This one knows,
she thought.
He’s not one of them, but he knows. Maybe the others don’t, maybe they do, but he
really
knows who he’s working for. What he’s working for.

“Hello, Dr. Boase,” he said; his voice was clipped upper-class British.

“Captain Bates,” Peter replied neutrally.

Then he turned his head to her: “I’m Harold Bates, head of site security here for Brézé Enterprises, Ms. Tarnowski. Were you heading in for the evening? It’s a biggish bit of wilderness to be out in, on foot and after dark.”

His voice was impeccably respectful. Ellen nodded when Peter said cautiously: “Yes, just heading home.”

“Cheerio, then.”

He switched to a fast-moving language, evidently the one the soldiers spoke, and the two runners stood aside as they climbed back into their vehicles and drove by.

“Who are the soldiers for? It’s not as if they need guns to keep us from running away.”

“They have enemies,” he said, and shook his head when she would have gone on. “Later.”

Adrian! Be careful!
she thought. Then:
Would men with guns have any chance against . . . well, he must be able to do all that stuff too?

It was full dark when they were at the head of the trail again where it joined the Lane, and chilly enough that she felt she’d be glad to get indoors; during the day this gentle climate was enough to make you forget it was only the middle of February. There weren’t any street-lamps along Lucy Lane, only little lights over the courtyard doors. That left the ambient level low enough that the frosting of stars and crescent moon were helpful. And a trickle came through an open window in Number One.

They were about to walk by when a shriek of raw pain stopped her in her tracks. Peter took her arm and tried to urge her along. Then she heard pleading. Monica’s voice, high-pitched and urgent:

“Oh, Addi,
don’t
. Don’t! Please! Not there—
ow! That hurts. It hurts so bad!
”

Another scream, then a delighted laugh, and a low moan broken with choked-off muffled sobs: “Ow . . . ow . . . oh, owwwww . . . ow . . . ow . . .”

The noise fell behind her. They stopped outside Number Five.

“I guess this wasn’t a milk-and-cookies sort of evening,” Peter said quietly. Then: “And Monica keeps
forgiving
!”

He was quivering; she could feel that. She touched his arm.

“This is just so totally awful, isn’t it?” she said quietly.

He nodded. She took his arm again and it felt rigid. Then he began to shake; she hesitated, then pulled his head down on her shoulder. The sobs were soundless, but the tears soaked through the fabric of the sweat suit. His arms came up to embrace her clumsily. After a moment he straightened and wiped at his eyes with the palms of his hands.

“Thank you,” he said, and cleared his throat. “Sorry.”

“Sorry for what, Pete? Look, I’m not hitting on you either, but I don’t want to spend the evening with a pillow over my head. Come on in and have dinner and we’ll talk about something else. Maybe watch a movie. OK?”

He nodded wordless gratitude.

“W
here—
Adrian!
”

Ellen was in a hospital room; greenish beige walls, linoleum floor, ceiling tracks for curtains. The air smelled of disinfectant and pain and lousy food. The smell that had been ground into her soul during her father’s long dying as the accompaniment to guilt and anger and relief. Adrian was lying in a cheap hospital gown, the sort that fastened down the back with ties. It looked shockingly incongruous on his beautifully balanced, lean-muscled body, which she’d only seen either elegantly dressed or naked.

There were bandages on his arm and another large dressing on his thigh, which was held up in a rest. A tangle of tubes dripped plasma and saline into his veins.

“Adrian!” she said again.

His eyes turned towards her and blinked. “Oh . . . sorry . . . Ellie,” he said in a slow, blurred voice. “Let . . . me . . . do something about . . . this.”