A Turn in the Road (12 page)

Hmm… She set her cell phone to wake her early so she could call her dad. Roses, she told herself sleepily. Red ones…

 

Bethanne's next conscious thought was that Annie was awake and moving about the hotel room. Although she was obviously making an effort to be quiet, she didn't succeed. She dropped her cosmetics case with a clatter.

“Annie,” Bethanne groaned. “What time is it?”

“Six. The way I figure it, we could get to Vegas this afternoon if we leave early.”

“Is your grandmother awake?” Bethanne asked, her eyes still closed.

“I am now,” Ruth muttered.

Bethanne opened her eyes and noticed Ruth sitting up in bed, stretching her arms as she arched her back. “Get me coffee and I'll do my morning exercises, then we can hit the road.”

“Vegas, here we come!” Annie cried. She was already dressed, with her suitcase packed and waiting by the door.

“I'll jump in the shower,” Bethanne said, and tossed aside the covers as she climbed out of bed. Retrieving her clothes, she stepped into the bathroom. By the time she finished, Annie had prepared coffee and Ruth had done her stretching exercises and was dressed.

“Ready, Mom?” Annie asked as Bethanne repacked her suitcase and slipped her book into her purse.

“I'm ready. But the question should be…is Vegas ready for us?”

Annie laughed. “I sure hope so.”

They were on the road by seven-fifteen, and rolled into Vegas seven and a half hours later. Annie had booked them into the Hard Rock Casino just off the Strip. It wouldn't have been either Ruth's or Bethanne's first choice, but one casino was probably as good as another.

While Annie and Ruth checked in, Bethanne found the rental car location and swapped cars, more for peace of mind than anything else. Marvin back in Wells had done an excellent job, but they still had a long way to travel. Bethanne didn't dare risk another breakdown.

When she returned to the casino, both Annie and Ruth were playing the slot machines. The sights and sounds of the casino were everywhere. Instead of being annoyed by the din, Bethanne discovered that it added to the excitement.

“Sit down and play with us,” Annie urged, intent on a game named after the television show
Wheel of Fortune.

“Okay.” Bethanne wasn't keen on giving her hard-earned forty
dollars to a slot, but it did look like fun. The thought of turning that fun into winnings was too tempting to ignore.

She found a machine with a cartoon Texas oilman called Texas Tea, pulled out a stool and plopped herself down. Twenty dollars went quickly, although it was a nickel machine. At $2.25 with every push of the button, her twenty bucks vanished almost before she knew it. She wondered whether to feed it her last twenty, but hesitated, then decided she'd reached her limit for that day.

“Have you been up to the room yet?” Ruth asked when Bethanne sat next to her mother-in-law.

“Not yet.” Annie had taken up Bethanne's suitcase and given her the room key earlier.

“You need to see the room,” Annie said, smiling broadly. “If you wait a minute, I'll go up with you.”

“Is anyone hungry yet?” Ruth asked. She removed the receipt for her winnings and stuffed it inside her purse.

“I'm starving,” Annie said. “Lunch was hours ago. But let's go to the room first.”

Bethanne couldn't imagine why seeing their room was so important. Hotel rooms were pretty much alike. Beds, a television, sometimes a desk, and, of course, a small and generally cramped bathroom, and that was about it.

What awaited her was a large bouquet of red roses. Dozens of beautiful red buds in a crystal vase. “Roses?” Bethanne breathed as she stepped into the room.

Ruth and Annie looked positively delighted. “The card says they're for you,” Annie crowed. Her eyes gleamed as if she was personally responsible.

“Me?”

“Well, all of us. Read the card and see.”

Bethanne unpinned the envelope from the pink ribbon and stared down at it for a moment while a strange thought went through her mind. Could they have come from Max? But that was impossible. He had no idea where she was. Or did he? Roses
were extravagant. Special. She loved roses, always had. Max didn't know that—but Grant did.

“Read the card, Mom,” Annie said a second time.

Bethanne ripped open the tiny envelope and removed the card. “For my three favorite women.” It was signed “Grant.”

“They're from your father,” she said as a warm feeling settled over her. A feeling of being cherished.

“I told you Dad was trying,” Annie said. She seemed really pleased by the gesture.

“You father knows how much I love roses.” Bethanne glanced at the card again.

Ruth reached for the card and read it, too. “I'm sure Grant felt bad about your conversation last night and wants to clear the air.”

“I'm sure that's it,” Bethanne agreed.

“Still, roses are pretty special.” That comment came from Annie.

“I'll call your father and thank him.” And she would…later. It was a lovely thing to do and Bethanne did appreciate his effort. Grant was trying to win her back. Now it was up to her to decide if that was what
she
wanted.

“Shall we think about dinner?” Ruth asked.

It was still a bit early, but Annie was right; they'd eaten hours ago. Because they were so eager to get to Vegas, they'd had a skimpy lunch. Breakfast had consisted of coffee and the bottled orange juice Bethanne picked up at a filling station on the way out of Wells. After some discussion they had dinner at the hotel's buffet.

Bethanne ate until she was stuffed. At only seven-thirty, it seemed a shame to go back to their room so early. They were planning to spend the next day exploring the Strip. For tonight, that left the slots.

“I've got forty dollars burning a hole in my purse.” Ruth was grinning like a five-year-old at her own birthday party. “Let me at those
Wheel of Fortune
machines.”

“I guess I'll give that Texas oilman another chance to show me what he's got,” Bethanne said.

“I don't know what I want to do just yet,” Annie told them.

They set a time to reconvene and then split up. Two hours later, Bethanne arrived at the designated area. Ruth was already there.

“I'll never think of Vanna White the same way again,” her mother-in-law muttered. “She took all my money.”

Bethanne laughed. She, on the other hand, had struck oil and was up more than a hundred dollars.

“Tell Annie good-night for me, will you?” Ruth asked. “I'm going to the room. I'll read for a while and turn in for the night.”

“Okay. Good night. I'll probably be joining you myself in an hour or so.”

Annie showed up a couple of minutes later with a young man in tow. “Mom, meet Jason. Jason, my mom. We're going to hang for a while,” Annie announced, then kissed Bethanne's cheek and was off.

Bethanne had barely managed a word. “Well,” she said with a sigh, “I suppose I'll sit down with that oilman again.” She found the area where she'd been earlier and slid onto the stool. After inserting a twenty-dollar bill, she pushed the button and waited.

“Any luck?” a familiar voice asked.

Bethanne swiveled the chair around as Max claimed the empty seat beside her.

B
ethanne was speechless. As casually as could be, Max fed a twenty-dollar bill into the machine next to hers, glanced over and smiled.

A smile. He'd actually smiled. “Hi,” he said.

“Hi.” Her tongue felt as if it had twisted itself into knots. “How did you know where to find me?”

He spoke as he played the slot machine. “Rooster heard Annie and Grandma talking about Vegas. I figured if I was Annie's age I'd head for the Hard Rock Casino, so I took a chance you'd be here.”

Out of all the casinos in Vegas, he'd found the one she was in, although it was Friday night and the city was crammed with people and cars. The clang of the slots, music, laughter—the sounds of excitement were all around. Even if he'd guessed the right hotel, it was pure luck that he'd happened upon her.

“I've been winning,” she said, imitating his casual tone.

“How much?”

“Not enough to set the casino back any.”

The music pounded in the background and seemed ten times
louder than before. Bethanne had lost track of popular tunes and musicians years ago; she couldn't have identified the singers' names or the song titles. In fact, she was aware of nothing except the man sitting next to her.

After several minutes Max sent her a pained look. “Do you like this music?”

“Not particularly.”

“Wanna take a ride on my bike?”

She nodded. She wanted to get away, too. With him. It was difficult to think, but she couldn't blame that entirely on the music. “Have your ribs healed?” she asked.

“Not quite, but I'm willing to risk it again.”

“You're a brave man.”

They stepped outside and the contrast to the ear-splitting music was almost shocking. She started to tell him how much she appreciated the fact that he'd found her, but he shook his head.

“What did you say?” he asked. “My ears are still ringing.”

“Just that I'm glad you're here.” Bethanne hadn't intended to admit that. Yet it was true. She hadn't expected to see him again, hadn't believed it was even possible. The explosion of surprise mingled with joy gave her pause. Bethanne had planned to use these weeks away to consider her future with Grant. This wasn't the time to confuse the issue by indulging some romantic fantasy about a man on a motorcycle.

Max studied her with those intense brown eyes. “I'm glad I'm here, too.” He clasped her hand and intertwined their fingers. Bethanne's heart raced like that of a teenage girl on her first date.
Get a grip,
she told herself. As they walked out of the casino she kept reminding herself how ridiculous being with Max was. This was a dead-end relationship. A dead-end everything.

Although it wasn't nine o'clock yet, it remained light out. “Any place you'd like to go?” he asked.

Being unfamiliar with Las Vegas, Bethanne didn't know what to suggest. “Not really.”

“Okay, I'll choose.”

They reached his bike in the parking lot and he removed Rooster's helmet from the older man's Harley, which was parked beside his, and handed it to her. She climbed on the back of Max's bike and set her feet where he'd shown her before. Max took his seat, started the engine with a roar and turned out of the parking lot.

Bethanne slipped her arms around his waist and held on, although less tightly than the first time she'd ridden with him. Closing her eyes, she felt the breeze rush past and after a few minutes she relaxed. She wasn't sure where Max was going. It didn't matter.

When he slowed the bike, Bethanne realized they were completely out of the city, on a hill that overlooked the valley. Night had settled in and the casino lights lit up the sky.

“It's beautiful, isn't it?” he said, after they'd parked and taken off their helmets. He looked down at the city, and Bethanne joined him.

“I used to sit up here and just stare at the lights,” Max continued. “It's so crazy down there and so peaceful up here.” He stood beside her in silence for a few minutes. “Tell me about your ex-husband,” he suddenly said.

“Grant?” she asked, uncertain what to say.

“You have more than one?”

“No. Your question surprised me, that's all.”

“Is it difficult to talk about your divorce?”

She shook her head. “Not anymore. I guess it comes down to a case of the two of us growing apart. He found someone else and the sad part is, I was so involved with his career, with our children and friends, that I didn't notice. I mean, a wife's supposed to sense these things, right?”

“I wouldn't know.”

“Did you…did you ever cheat on your wife?”

“Never.” His answer was quick and decisive. “I wasn't even tempted.”

“At the time, Grant and I had been married nearly twenty years. We'd grown comfortable with each other. Complacent, I guess. He
wanted me to be a stay-at-home mother and I enjoyed that role. I hosted dinners, arranged all his travel… I considered myself a full partner in his life and his career—and yet I didn't know about Tiffany. I honestly didn't have a clue. If someone had told me, I swear I wouldn't have believed my husband was capable of betraying me that way.”

“Were you unhappy?”

“No, not in the least. But after Grant moved out, I was an emotional mess. I felt lost, bewildered, defeated. As if I'd suddenly been blinded, with no idea where I was or how to find my way out. It took weeks—no, months—to come to grips with the situation. I'm a different person now. The years have given me perspective. I can understand better what happened and why Grant was attracted to Tiffany.”

“Sounds as if you're making excuses for him.”

“Does it?”

“Yes.”

She looked down at the ground and moved the dirt around with the toe of her shoe. Maybe she
was
making excuses for Grant; if so, it was probably because he'd recognized how wrong he'd been and told her so, over and over. “Grant's sorry about it now…. I mentioned before that he wants us to get back together. He had roses delivered to the hotel.”

“Here in Vegas?”

She nodded. “They were in the room waiting for us. He wanted to apologize because we had a small argument over the phone last night.”

“About me, I suspect.”

“If you must know, he was horrified that I'd taken off with you.”

“He's right. It was a risky thing to do.”

“Are you dangerous, Max?”

He didn't answer.

“Is Max your real name?”

“It is. Max Scranton. My friends find it ironic—the Mad Max
thing. But I've been Max my whole life.” He hesitated and leaned back against the bike, stretched out his legs and crossed his arms. “Kate used to call me—” He didn't finish the sentence.

“Does it hurt to talk about her?”

He looked away. “What you told me yesterday is true. It does get easier. I didn't think that was possible.”

“How much longer will you continue to run?” she asked. She wouldn't have been nearly as forward if he hadn't been curious about her and Grant.

“Is that what I'm doing? Running away from the pain?” The question didn't appear to offend him.

She nodded. “Actually, I think I would've pulled up roots and left Seattle if not for Andrew and Annie.” It occurred to her that he might have children. “Did you and Kate have a family?”

Anguish came and went in his eyes so quickly that Bethanne wondered if she'd imagined it. “A daughter. Katherine was born with a rare genetic disease. She died when she was eleven. Since we both carried the gene, we decided not to have any more children. After Katherine it was just the two of us. Then…Kate was gone, too. I didn't deal well with that. I blamed myself for a long time.” He spoke with his gaze on the lights of the city below. “I buried myself in a bottle for the first year. I don't know what would've happened to me if it wasn't for Rooster and my brother. Fortunately, Luke stepped in to take over the business. Otherwise, I would've lost it, along with everything else. In a way I think that's what I wanted. Maybe what I deserved. Death robbed me of the two people I loved most. Nothing else mattered. I think I wanted to die myself. Death would be easier than living with the pain.” He paused and inhaled deeply. “Then Rooster took control. He refused to let me slowly kill myself. I'm grateful now, but, trust me, at the time I much preferred the idea of drinking myself to death.”

Max had lost so much. His daughter and then his wife.

“I don't talk about Katherine,” he murmured, staring into the night sky. “Not with anyone.” He looked decidedly uncomfortable.
“You…unnerve me, Bethanne. I don't know how else to describe it—and I don't like it. Feeling vulnerable is something I avoid. I don't understand what makes you different.”

Bethanne didn't understand it, either. She placed her hand on his forearm and felt him tense. “Why did you come looking for me?” she asked.

He snorted softly as if he wished he knew the answer himself. “The thing is, I'm not sure why I wanted to see you again. All I knew was that I…needed to.”

Still sitting, he held out his arms, and she leaned into his embrace. He held her close. Bethanne tucked her head beneath his chin and released a slow, thoughtful sigh.

A hundred questions chased one another in her mind, but she couldn't ask a single one. After what seemed like a very long time, he reluctantly let her go.

“You feel like you belong in my arms,” he whispered.

Bethanne wanted to tell him she felt the same way, but she couldn't afford to encourage this relationship. Over the past six years she'd dated, but no one had affected her the way this man did. Instead, she looked up at him, and his dark eyes held hers.

She shook her head. “No, don't…”

“Don't?”

“You're going to kiss me. Aren't you?”

He frowned.

“I'm flattered, don't get me wrong—but my life's complicated. I took this trip with my mother-in-law and Annie because I needed time to sort through some things.”

“Whether to reunite with your ex-husband.”

“Like I said, my life's complicated…and I can't…I won't get involved with you.”

He grinned.

“This isn't funny! My life is—”

“Complicated,” he finished for her. “Yeah, I know. It's just a kiss, Bethanne.”

“I know.” She felt foolish for acting as though it was something
more. “But the way I feel…” She didn't finish, wasn't even sure she should. She'd just told him how attractive she found him.

He seemed to realize what she meant. “Got it. It's time I took you back to the hotel.”

“Right.” She didn't want to leave, but it was for the best and clearly he recognized that, too.

He placed the helmet on his head and climbed on the bike. Bethanne did the same. Instead of circling her arms around him the way she had previously, she simply gripped the sides of his leather jacket. If he noticed, he didn't mention it. In her two times on the bike, she'd learned quite a bit about motorcycles. As they rode, her body automatically adjusted to the curves and turns.

The reverse journey, back into the city, seemed to take ten times longer. When they reached the Hard Rock Hotel and Casino, he pulled into the parking area, where the valets assisted drivers. He waited for her to climb off first.

She removed the helmet and handed it to him. Her throat clogged with tears as she struggled to speak. She wouldn't see him again, and while she knew that was the only responsible option, it saddened her. Finally, she decided on a simple “Thank you.”

He nodded without looking at her.

Turning away, she entered the casino and was startled by the surge of loud music.

Tired now and discouraged, Bethanne hurried toward the elevator. She was standing in the lobby when she saw Rooster making his way toward her.

“Where's Max?” he asked, obviously surprised to find her alone. He held a beer bottle in one hand.

She shrugged. “I don't know. He dropped me off and left.”

Rooster frowned and took a swallow of his beer. “He just dropped you off?”

She hoped Max's friend would give her some insight into him. “We went up to a hill where we could look at the city and talked for a while.”

Rooster led her away from the crowd and into one of the bars. “Let me buy you a beer.”

“Thanks, but I'm not much of a beer drinker.”

“Order whatever you want,” he said. He found them a table and raised his hand to get the attention of the waitress.

“I prefer red wine.”

He grinned at that.

“There's nothing wrong with red wine,” she said.

“Nothing whatsoever. You might ask Max about that the next time you see him.”

Bethanne doubted she'd have the opportunity.

The waitress came for their order and quickly returned with another beer for Rooster and a glass of merlot for Bethanne. Actually, she was glad she'd run into Max's friend.

“He nearly tore this town apart looking for you,” Rooster commented. He leaned toward her, his elbows propped on the table.

By contrast Max had made it sound as if he'd tracked her down without much effort. “Did he tell you why it was so important to find me?”

“No.”

“Where are Willie and Skunk?” She shouldn't ask questions. What she should do was drink her wine, thank Rooster and go up to bed.

“They took off on their own when they got tired of racing from one casino to the next. Can't say I blame them.”

“I don't think Max is all that pleased he found me.”

“Don't be so sure.”

“Frankly, I'm not sure of anything, including how I feel.” She thought for a moment. “I guess I'm sad, mostly.” Still, she felt honored that their brief time together had such a strong impact on him. It'd been the same for her, but the timing was all wrong. The situation, too. She tasted her wine, then held the glass by its stem. For some reason, she felt an urge to explain. “I can't get involved with Max,” she said. “I just can't. Not right now. I have responsibilities, decisions to make, and I need a clear mind.”