Acadia Song 04 - The Distant Beacon (2 page)

Once she completed that first paragraph, the words began to flow more smoothly. Anne wrote in a conventional manner, as though they were together in the room, rather than separated by a vast ocean. She remarked on how comfortable she had become with her English surroundings, living in her uncle Charles’s great manor house, working on projects of education, of faith, in the surrounding communities. How unusual it was that she had grown so rooted here, to the point where the only time she noted it was when she wrote to her North American family and reflected on her
other
home. While she missed them deeply, she found herself to be well satisfied and settled here in Britain.

To see the words
satisfied
and
settled
on the paper, she confessed, seemed strange to her. Anne felt almost frightened to see that idea resting there, glistening in the sunlight, drying into permanence. But she
was
settled. And here was another word she had never expected to use so readily again, she thought as she stared out the window.
Hope
. Hope for a future. One that might bring new happiness, new contentment, even perhaps new children.

There she stopped, but only for a moment. Not because she was reluctant to continue. The letter had been coming swiftly, easily, yet she needed to pause nonetheless. Anne gazed at the distant hills, beyond the little river that ran through the valley on Charles’s estate. She heard the lowing of cattle released from their winter quarters; the sound caused a shiver to travel through her slight frame. Her first husband, Cyril, seemed very close just then. How he would have loved this place and this work. But he was three years in the grave, lost to the grippe back in Nova Scotia soon after hostilities broke out between Britain and the American colonies. Cyril had been a wonderful doctor and a caring husband, and her soul would never again be fully restored. But wounds heal, even this one. Just as a person learned to get on with life after losing a limb, so she too had learned to adjust, to make do. Which was all she had expected for herself. She had her dear sweet little John, she had her family, she had her work with the village women and children. It was far more than anyone could ask for, certainly more than she deserved, she was sure.

Anne’s pen raced to catch up with her thoughts as she wrote to her sister and best friend. Another joy that had warmed the winter months. Uncle Charles’s health was improving. Ever since he had spoken out publicly in support of the colonials and their battle for independence, Charles had been shunned by society. As a result, they had closed up the London house and spent the entire winter in the country, alone and quiet. Their only visitor had been Cyril’s mother, Judith, a widow of many years. Nothing seemed to help Charles in body, mind, and spirit more than Judith’s visits, not even baby John. It was a wonder, Anne wrote, to see the love between these two people grow.

And now it was time to speak of what Nicole had perhaps already surmised. She took a deep breath, and her pen scratched and dipped and flowed ever more swiftly. Anne too had wonders and miracles to share. The winter just past had seen her grow increasingly close to Thomas, the young lawyer representing Charles’s affairs. They had found a spirit of harmony and purpose; they shared a faith and a vision for lives filled with mission and giving. Three weeks ago, Thomas had asked for her hand in marriage. After prayer and deep soul searching, she had accepted the next day.

And then just two days later, Anne continued to write, Charles had asked Judith to marry him. The four had talked long about plans and decided they would celebrate a joint wedding—a private, simple affair here in the country.

That same week Anne had written Andrew and Catherine, also to Henri and Louise, with this announcement. The difficult letter was this one. The others lay upon her desk, waiting for her to gather up her resolve and write Nicole. All this Anne explained to her sister. She had been so worried about this letter. And not because she would describe their wedding plans. Those details were minor, especially as they all intended a quiet ceremony with no advance notice given to London society.

Anne forced her hand along the page. She confessed how she couldn’t write this news without including her concerns for Nicole.

Anne knew Nicole had never known the feeling of truly belonging—not in Louisiana’s Cajun country, where Henri and Louise had eventually made their home, nor in Nova Scotia with her parents by birth. And particularly not here in England where Charles had brought her with the hope of making Nicole his heir. The time Nicole had spent in England was marked by a multitude of disappointed suitors. She had known only one love, and Cajun Jean Dupree had proved to be little more than a rogue. Nicole had never felt bound to either a place or a purpose. Anne’s own happiness and sense of belonging served only to heighten this lack, and it was this that laced through the words taking shape on the page.

As hard as this is to put on paper
, Anne went on,
I must write and tell you this because I love you so. Despite the differences in our nature, and despite the distance which separates us, I want you to know that I am always your loving sister—more
than if we shared the same parents. And in one sense we do— both sets!

The sun chose that moment to slip around the corner of the house and fall with uncommon brilliance on the page. Anne paused for more ink. She recalled as she had a thousand times before the bittersweet memory of those two young mothers of long ago and the agonizing circumstances that had left them to love and raise the other’s infant as their own.

It will take months for this letter to arrive
, she finally continued on the glowing page,
and months more for your answer to come back. I will pray in the meantime for God’s continued blessing and guidance in your life and give to you what I have found for myself. Each and every day will I pray for you, dearest sister. I close with this prayer upon my lips and my heart, and send to you my love, Anne
.

Chapter 1

Catherine stood by her kitchen window, the place which had become the center of her existence. Never before had she felt closed in by her life, or considered her world too small. But this winter had been the loneliest she had ever known, with her father’s health failing and the storms as bad as any she could remember and Andrew often away. To make matters worse, there had been only one letter from Anne and this one back in November. And none at all from Nicole. Catherine’s isolation grew with each day that she did not hear from her beloved daughters.

She was certain they both had written. She knew this in her bones, that they thought of her and prayed for her and wrote regularly. It wasn’t their fault, in spite of the fact that they each were too far away. It was the war.

The window was open now, in spite of the chill wind still shaking a fist at spring. Her father, John Price, dozed by the fire, the quilt pulled tight against his chin. He seldom moved very far these days, and he ate next to nothing. They didn’t speak of his condition much, though everyone in the village knew the old man was merely biding his time, waiting for the silent knock on his door. He had made his peace, was about all John would say if asked how he was faring. Occasionally he would add that he was growing impatient to bow in person before his Lord. Whenever he spoke like this, Catherine was forced to quell the immediate pang in her heart, sometimes fleeing to her bedroom to compose herself again.

The breakfast dishes done, the lane in front of their house empty, and it would be another hour or so before she would start preparing the midday meal. Yet she remained standing there, watching the sunlight cast upon the brown earth. Patches of half-melted snow were all that was left of the longest winter she had ever endured. A single bird chirped once, the crystal sound echoing the longing in her heart for Anne, for Nicole.

As though sensing her sorrow, Andrew opened the bedroom door and moved toward her, his slippers treading light across the bare wood planks. The one good thing about the entire winter, the one blessing she recounted each time she bowed her head in prayer, was that Andrew was as strong as he had been in years. The endowment from Charles had meant he could give up his leatherworking trade that so drained his energy, as well as buy himself a fine horse. For Andrew wasn’t only providing pastoral care for a growing community, he was also constantly visiting those soldiers camped nearby. So many needs, and so many of them truly dire. The horse had provided transport and saved him precious time.

Andrew gripped Catherine’s arms from behind and leaned in close enough to breathe gently against her hair. He did this often, especially before another journey, holding her so tight she finally had to pull away and take a long, slow breath.

Despite the worry and the quiet mournfulness of another day without any news, Catherine couldn’t help but smile as Andrew buried his face in her hair. She asked her husband, “What do you smell?”

“Flour,” he murmured, not retreating.

“That would be the biscuits from breakfast.”

And soap.”

“Though it has been three days since I last washed those tresses so close to your nose.”

“And love.”

The quip she might have said caught in her throat. Catherine let herself be guided around by his strong hands until she stared directly into his eyes. “I do love you, my husband.”

“And I you.” His face still held the chiseled quality of the lieutenant and warrior she had married twenty-three years ago. But now his features were overlaid by creases of age and concern and also the gentle fervor of one who lived to serve his Lord. From his eyes shone the clearest light, a sign just for her that intimated she was indeed loved.

Andrew told her, “I heard in town of another encampment along the Halifax road. I think I will ride out and make sure all is well.”

“You said yesterday you wouldn’t leave until after our noon meal—.”

“There are storm clouds gathering out back. I saw them through the bedroom window. I should go while the day is dry.”

“I’ll pack you provisions for the journey.” But Andrew continued to hold her close and watch her with luminous gaze. “What is it?” she asked.

“I was praying earlier.”

Catherine nodded. This she knew. It was another of the many gifts that had come to them with the acceptance of Charles’s funds. Andrew now had time for study and prayer every morning, something she was certain had done much to improve his health.

“And I had the strongest impression,” Andrew continued. “Not words, mind you. But almost that powerful, and certainly as clear.”

“The Lord spoke to you?”

“So it seemed to me then. And now.” A hand rose to gently stroke her cheek. “I believe our daughters are well. They are fine.”

Catherine nodded in agreement, for it was this reassurance that had made it possible for her to continue to live each day as normally as she did.

“And I think,” said Andrew, looking straight into her eyes, “that we shall be hearing from them very soon.”

Catherine felt her distress rise. “But how? You hear the war news and the rumors more than I. Nothing is getting through the blockades. Nothing!”

It was no longer possible to ignore the war. The conflict had become woven into the fabric of their daily lives. The actual battles remained well to the south and west of them, yet war now touched every aspect of their world.

The Halifax harbor was jammed with ships, either joining the New York and Boston blockades or ferrying troops to the conflict in Quebec. Even when the roads had become impassable from vicious winds and lashing snow, still the news had managed to filter through, carried by desperate refugees. And almost all the news was of death and darkness.

Andrew did not shush her so much as soothe away her words as he caressed her cheek. “I cannot tell you how I feel these things, or why. But that is how it seems to me. That we shall soon be hearing from them both, and the news will be good. Very good indeed.”

Catherine slipped out of her husband’s grasp and turned to the worktable. She didn’t want to send Andrew off with tears. “Let me see to your meal,” she said briskly, managing to wipe her eyes while pretending to adjust her apron. “I believe there is some of that good salt beef left along with biscuits from breakfast . . . and the last of the dried apples.”

Nicole resisted the urge to crane out the carriage window yet again. There was nothing to be seen save more trees and another stretch of empty road. “Why is it taking so long?” she asked again, recognizing it was a childish query.

She knew Gordon Goodwind would not respond. She spoke because she could no longer hold on to her impatience.

After a sharp lurch the carriage jarred to a halt. The horses in front whinnied a protest as they jangled their leads. The conveyance rested at an uncomfortable angle. Nicole watched Gordon lean out his window as the driver leaped down from his station. She knew the tidings before Gordon moved back in and the driver clambered up on the step to report, “Looks like we’re good and stuck this time, missus.”