After the End

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After the End

Copyright © 2013 by Alex Kidwell

Cover Art by Brooke Albrecht

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ISBN: 978-1-62380-307-0

Digital ISBN: 978-1-62380-308-7

Printed in the United States of America

First Edition

January 2013

For my most beloved Robin.

Whatever stuff our souls are made of,

I know only that ours are the same.

I
T
WASN
’
T
that I didn’t want to be there. Really, the bar wasn’t that horrid type, the kind with the pounding bass and the waitresses in too-tight everything, offering up breasts and asses to the desperate throng of singles that filtered through the hopelessly chic stained-glass doors. No, this was more a quiet kind of dying. The artfully bare décor, the abstract paintings that stood for nothing at all, the dim lighting, the polished wood of the bar; it all nearly went together in a way that didn’t. Like someone had once seen a picture of what they wanted very much, in a dream, while high, and then attempted to recreate it while none of those things.

But in the end, it wasn’t the worst way to spend an evening. Tracy would never forgive me if I didn’t follow through, anyway. Apparently I was “exuding loneliness,” whatever that meant. Therefore, my happy, newly wed best friend had taken it on to her shoulders to find me a man. What was it about settling down that turned everyone into meddling matchmakers? I felt a little like an extra in
Fiddler on the Roof
.

You’ll love him, Quinn, I promise. He’s just what you need.

And what is that?

You know, breathing. Walking. Talking. Come on, trust me. It’ll be fun.

I bet General Custer had promised his men the same thing. “Come on, guys, just one more fight. It’ll be fun.”

But here I was, showered and dressed and shaved as promised. I was sitting at the bar staring down at the vivid pink concoction the bartender had pushed under my nose. For nerves, he’d said, with a cute, flirty wink I was positive had charmed many an outrageous tip from men and women alike. It’d certainly worked on me.

“That looks positively dreadful.” The amused drawl came from over my left shoulder, and I turned, eyebrows raising. “Please don’t tell me that’s your usual. Even I think that might be too flaming for an everyday drink.”

The man was taller than me, hair a purposeful mess of blond curls and product, brown eyes glinting as he spread perfect lips in an even more perfect smile. He had that kind of graceful, knowing wink about everything he did: how he moved, how he held out his hand for me to take.

“Quinn O’Malley, I presume?” he asked, again with that grin.

I nodded, slipping my hand into his, surprised at the firmness and strength there. “You must be Brady Banner.”

Brady wrinkled his nose and collapsed elegantly onto the barstool next to me. “Don’t make fun of the name,” he sighed, raising one long finger and waggling it at me in playful warning. “My mother liked things to match. I have three sisters, Brittany, Belinda, and Beatrice.”

It did sound like something you’d put on a fake ID or use as a stage name for a stripper. But I smiled politely and shrugged, asking, “Can I get you a drink?”

“Not if you’re going to order me one of those,” he said with a mock shiver, poking the plastic spear of rum-soaked fruit standing proudly out from the drink. “Can I ask what possessed you to order a Care Bear in a glass?”

Feeling a little awkward and a bit defensive, I shrugged. “The bartender suggested it. I, um, I don’t go out much. Normally, I just have a beer at home if I’m going to drink.”

“Now that sounds excellent.” He smiled at me and gestured for the bartender. Beers in hand, pink drink abandoned, Brady led the way to our table. It was a quiet little booth in the back, tucked away and private. Candles flickered in the dimmer light there, one on each table, and I realized all at once this was a date. Not that I hadn’t known before. Of course I did; I was the one on it. It was just a little more real with soft glow and cozy seating and Brady there.

To his credit, Brady seemed to pick up on my discomfort. Without missing a beat, he leaned across and blew out our candle. Handing me my beer, he leaned back in his seat and smiled, pushing a menu across to me. “So, how long have you known Tracy?”

I settled in, trying to not look as stupid as I felt. Of course I was on a date. Everyone said it was high time I started doing that again. I’d agreed to it, after all. Very silly of me to care if there was a candle on the table. But I appreciated that Brady had blown it out anyway.

“We grew up together. Tracy was kind of my big sister. She said I was hopeless without someone looking after me.” I half smiled, shrugging. Relaxing a bit, talking about a mutual friend, which, I realized, was probably Brady’s goal. “She was right, of course.”

“Tracy’s always right,” Brady said somberly, with a glint in his eye. “That’s the first rule of dealing with her. She’s always right, and she’ll more than happily point that out the second you forget it.”

I breathed out a laugh, a little startled by the sound. It’d been a while since anyone had been able to make me do that. “So, how do you know her?” I asked, curious. I’d never bothered to find out. “Tracy’s been telling me about you for a few weeks, but I can’t say I asked how you and she met.”

“Only a few weeks?” Brady smiled, holding his hand over his heart, feigning hurt. “I’m devastated. Here she’s been telling me about you for months. Apparently you are the last good man in the entire state, and I will die desolate and alone if I don’t at least agree to dinner with you. Which, as you can see”—he gestured at the menus—“I am more than willing to do.”

Off my wide eyes, he paused, finger going to his lips as he winced. “And you had no idea she was shopping you around, did you? Oh, God, I’m so sorry. Really, she’s just very sweet, and she knew I was kind of horrified by the whole club scene anymore. I promise, this is not a meat market or anything.”

“I’m probably going to kill her,” I said conversationally, wishing the ground would swallow me up. “Really, I asked her not to….” Sighing, I scrubbed my hand across my face. “Sorry. I promise, about half of what she told you was pure exaggeration, and the other half was probably all the things I never wanted anyone else to know.”

“All she told me was that you were worth getting to know.” There was the weight of his hand on my own then, and I looked up to find those brown eyes, warm and sweet, staring into mine. Brady smiled, this one softer, none of the flash and mirth and charm of earlier. It was just a smile, one that crinkled the corners of his eyes and made me feel a little less like jumping in front of a bus.

“Well, that’s true,” I managed with a faint shadow of a grin, only to be rewarded by Brady’s laugh sending soft little goose bumps along my skin.

“And I know Tracy through work.” Brady was fiddling with the menu, paging through it. It was the first sign of nerves I’d seen him have all night, and that alone had my interest.

“You’re a lawyer?”

Another laugh, this one not quite as warm, but there was no bitterness in there. Just genuine amusement. “Tracy really didn’t tell you much, did she?” he asked with a grin.

“Just that I was going to die alone and be eaten by my cat if I didn’t take the chance to meet you.” This time I was the one who smiled at him, less hesitant and shy than before.

“And are you regretting that daring leap of faith?” Brady’s hand, I realized all at once, was still on mine. Heart in my throat, I turned my palm over, letting the cool slide of his fingers settle in beside my own.

“Not so far,” I admitted and he laughed, loud and infectious.

“Now that’s what I call a rousing endorsement,” he teased. We turned our attention back to the menus, though I found it hard to concentrate on anything other than the feel of his fingers curled around mine. It’d been a long time since I’d done this. I almost felt guilty about it, until I remembered the empty bed at home, the single chair at the kitchen table. This was what I was supposed to be doing. There wasn’t any reason to feel guilty.

When the waitress appeared, Brady opened his mouth to order before hesitating, turning to me. “Please don’t tell me you’re the type of guy who will judge me for ordering mozzarella sticks on a first date.”

“Only if you refuse to share,” I returned, lips curving upward.

Brady beamed at me, squeezing my hand and sending little hop skips of tight warmth through my chest. He ordered the fried cheese and a salad, a strange dichotomy I found amusing and intriguing by turns. Off my glance, after I’d ordered a BLT and we’d turned our menus over to the waitress, he shrugged. “Life is all about balance,” he informed me with a wink. “Indulgence is only ever really fun if it’s tempered with restraint.”

“How very progressive of you,” I responded dryly. He laughed and our fingers tightened together; it was all so
normal
. So different from what I’d learned to live with.

Once the food arrived, Brady took his hand back. I tried not to miss it. He didn’t say anything when I carefully removed the tomato from my sandwich, but I could feel his eyes on me as I meticulously rearranged the bacon and lettuce back onto the bread, removing the middle slice of the three-layer club.

“I don’t like to bother the kitchen,” I explained with a tight upward twitch of my shoulders, feeling out of place and defensive again. This was the part I’d forgotten, the part that was always so hard to do: figuring out a new person, their little tics and oddities, finding out if you fit.

“That’s… kind of awesome,” Brady told me quietly, and I looked up, startled, to find him beaming that gentle smile at me again. “I mean, most people wouldn’t think about it like that.”

The acceptance made me feel even more awkward, but the tightness in my posture eased as I carefully cut a section of the sandwich. “They have a lot more to do than fuss over my tomatoes,” I said, then took a bite. He was grinning at me again, looking at the knife and fork in my hands, but he didn’t say anything. Just carefully dribbled dressing across his greens and vegetables and took a bite.