An Escapade and an Engagement (25 page)

‘And
you
will have to marry me.’
She sighed with utter bliss. ‘You are too much the gentleman to abandon a woman
you have so thoroughly ravished.’

He winced. ‘A real gentleman would never have done what I just
did.’

‘I don’t think I will ever have much use for a real gentleman.’
She sighed, running her hands up his shirt, which was stuck to his back with
sweat. And then she giggled. ‘I cannot believe you climbed up here and made love
to me without so much as taking your boots off!’

In the silvered light that shimmered across her bed she saw a
look of anguish flit across his face before he said, ‘I wanted to show you who I
really am. I came to you in my uniform because deep down I’m just a soldier,
Jayne, not a lord. But I never intended to rob you of your innocence. I…I only
meant to take you out for a moonlit picnic at The Workings. So I made a
grappling hook to fix into the ridge tiles, and brought a rope ladder for you to
climb down so you wouldn’t graze your knees like last time. To demonstrate that
if you need to climb out of a window for a little adventure I will be right
there with you, making it better than anything you could have on your own. But
the minute I saw you standing there bathed in moonlight,’ he said huskily, ‘I
just couldn’t resist you.’

He shook his head ruefully and rolled to one side, holding her
tight, as though he was determined not to let her go even though they were no
longer conjoined.

‘No, it was before that. When you nibbled on your lower lip.’
He sighed, tracing it with his thumb. ‘That
always
has the effect of making me almost forget my own name. Though that’s no excuse.
I should have stuck to my plans tonight, our last night together for weeks, when
it was so important that I bared my soul to you. Instead of which I was
still…trying to protect myself.’

He shut his eyes, as though he was ashamed to meet her
gaze.

‘I have been a soldier most of my life, and soldiers get
battered about. My leg, especially, is not a pretty sight,’ he said sombrely.
‘But then nor is a great deal of the rest of me. I made love to you with most of
my clothes on because I didn’t want you to see my scars. For you are so
breathtakingly lovely. A vision.’ He opened his eyes and tangled his fingers
into her tousled curls. ‘Far too beautiful to have to be tied to a wreck of a
man like me.’

‘Oh, Richard,’ she said, ‘what you look like has nothing to do
with how I feel about you.’

‘I know, I know,’ he said swiftly. ‘You are very far from being
vain or shallow, like most of your sex. But, even so, I am not quite what you
wanted from a husband, am I?’

Before she could refute this allegation he had propped himself
up on one elbow and was looking down into her face with such an earnest
expression that she did not have the heart to argue with him. Whatever it was he
was about to say was coming from some deep place in his heart, and she knew she
needed to let him say it.

‘Jayne, I love you. I love you so much that I won’t ever try to
repress any aspect of your nature. That is why I climbed up here tonight. I
wanted to persuade you that we are made for each other. To tell you that I adore
you exactly as you are. To show you that I don’t want to
tame
you, like your grandfather has tried to do. Well,’ he said
ruefully, ‘that is only half the tale. To be completely truthful I wanted to
climb up after you through your bedroom window that first night we met.’

‘You love me?’ she gasped. ‘You have wanted me since
that
night?’

‘Yes. Even though I knew you were in love with Harry. I even
started plotting ways to get rid of him. I grew so desperate. The only thing
holding me back was knowing you would never forgive me….’

‘Oh, how I wish you’d told me. Richard, I
never
loved Harry. I tried to explain to you this afternoon that he
was just a rebellion against my grandfather’s tyranny. I didn’t realize that
myself until he kissed me and it was so disgusting. After that, all I could
think of was how to get rid of him, too.’

She checked at the look of astonishment on his face. And
suddenly, from feeling like some kind of goddess, she shrank back to being just
a child on the verge of a scold again.

‘Does that make me a bad person?’

‘No. Quite the reverse. You told me earlier, remember, that his
declaration of love gave him a hold over you? And you are such a warm-hearted
person that I can understand exactly how hard it must have been for you to find
a way to break it off with him without hurting him. Even though it was all lies.
But, Jayne, I am not lying to you. I really do love you.’

She looked at him doubtfully. ‘How can you? Milly only ran away
yesterday…’

‘Ah, but I never loved Milly, either.’

‘What? Never?’

‘No. I admired her greatly for her courage and resourcefulness.
I wanted to be sure she was going to be happy when we had to go our separate
ways. But…’

‘But she said…’

‘I am sorry she misled you. But, Jayne, I had no idea you
thought I was in love with her until you told me yesterday when we were out
riding. I did try to explain, several times, but something always got in the
way.’ His eyes dropped to her mouth as she took in a great, shuddering
breath.

‘You didn’t love Milly at all?’

‘Not one bit.’

‘All this time,’ she said, ‘I have been doing my utmost to make
things work out for the pair of you. Because I thought if
I
could not have your heart, the least I could do was ensure you
could marry the woman you did love, and not one of those dreadfully
accomplished
women.’

‘Well, I
am
going to marry the
woman I love, so… Wait a minute—that sounded as though… What you said… Do
you…?’

‘Yes. I love you, Richard. I have been so miserable because I
thought you could never love me.’

‘How could you think that?’ He closed his eyes and winced. ‘No,
I know only too well
exactly
why you felt unworthy
of love. Your wretched childhood. And then Harry’s lies on top of it all.’

‘Richard,’ she said in wonder. ‘I don’t think there is anyone
in the whole world who would just
understand
me the
way you do. And still…I…like me.’

He smiled tenderly. ‘I more than like you. And the best of it
is we have the rest of our lives to get to know each other even better.’

‘Then would you mind explaining why you thought I would ever
want to climb out of a window again when I have all I need right here?’

‘Well, I didn’t know you loved me then.’

‘
Your
wretched childhood,’ she
said, quick as a flash, and hugged him hard.

‘And as I’ve already said,’ he murmured, burying his face in
her curls, ‘I couldn’t let you leave without telling you how desperately I do
want to be your husband. The moonlight picnic was supposed to give me the chance
to lay my heart bare before you went away.’ He pulled back abruptly. ‘It’s still
there, laid out for us to enjoy. And there are two horses saddled and ready to
go…’

‘Richard,’ she said tenderly, reaching up to stroke his scarred
face, ‘I don’t really want to have to climb out of a window ever again.’

‘You don’t?’

‘No. I’ve already told you. I have all I need right here.
Except…’

‘What? Tell me what you want. Anything, anything…’

‘For what I have in mind you need to stop talking, Major
Cathcart.’

She gave a sultry smile and settled back against the
pillows.

‘And take off your shirt.’

* * * * *

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Chapter One

China, Tang Dynasty—
AD 824

F
ei
Long faced the last room at the end of the narrow hallway,
unsheathed his sword and kicked the door open.

A feminine shriek pierced the air along with the frantic
shuffle of feet as he strode through the entrance. The boarding room was a small
one set above the teahouse below. The inhabitants, a man and a woman, flung
themselves into the corner with nowhere to hide.

His gaze fixed on to the woman first. His sister’s hair was
unbound and her eyes wide with fear. Pearl had their mother’s thoughtful
features: the high forehead and the sharp angles that had softened since the
last time he’d seen her. She was dressed only in pale linen underclothes. The
man who was with her had enough daring to step in between them.

Fei Long glanced once to the single wooden bed against one
wall, the covers strewn wide, and his vision blurred with anger. He gripped the
sword until his knuckles nearly cracked with the strain.

‘Bastard,’ he gritted out through his teeth.

He knew this man he’d come to kill. This
boy.
At least Han had been a boy when Fei Long had last seen him.
And Pearl had been a mere girl. Now she was a grown woman, staring at him as if
he were a demon risen from the underworld.

‘Fei Long.’ Pearl’s fingers curled tight over her lover’s arm.
‘So
now
you’ve come.’

The soft bitterness of the accusation cut through him. Pearl
had begged for him to come back a year earlier when her marriage had first been
arranged, but he’d dismissed her letters as childish ramblings. If he had
listened, she might not have thrown herself into ruin and their father’s spirit
wouldn’t be floating restlessly between heaven and earth.

The young man stretched himself before Fei Long, though he
failed to match him in stature. ‘Not in front of Pearl,’ he implored.

Though he trembled, the boy fought to keep his voice steady as
Pearl clung to him, hiding just behind his shoulder. At least the dog managed to
summon some courage. If Han had cowered or begged for his life, he would already
be dead.

‘Step away, Little Sister,’ Fei Long commanded.

‘No.’

‘Pearl.’

‘I’d rather die here with Han than go to Khitan.’

She’d changed in the five years since he’d seen her. The Pearl
he remembered had been obedient, sweet-tempered and pleasant in all things. Fei
Long had ridden hard from Changan to this remote province, expecting to find the
son of a dog who had stolen her away.

Now that she stood before him with quiet defiance, he knew she
hadn’t been seduced or deceived. Zheng Xie Han’s family lived within their ward
in the capital city. Though lower in standing, the Zheng family had always
maintained a good reputation. His sister had turned to Han because she’d had no
one else.

The tension drained out of Fei Long, stealing away his rage.
His throat pulled tight as he forced out the next word. ‘Go.’

The two of them stared at him in disbelief.

‘Go,’ he repeated roughly.

Fei Long lowered his weapon and turned away while they dressed
themselves. Shoving his sword back into its sheath, he faced the bare wall. He
could hear the shuffle of movement behind him as the couple gathered their
belongings.

The bleakness of the last few weeks settled into his gut like a
stone. When he’d left for his assignment to the north-western garrison, Fei Long
had believed his home to be a harmonious place. Upon news of his father’s sudden
death, he’d returned to find his sister gone and debt collectors circling the
front gates like vultures.

His father’s presence had been an elaborate screen, hiding the
decay beneath the lacquered surface of their lives. Fei Long now saw Pearl’s
arranged marriage for what it was: a desperate ploy to restore the family
honour—or rather to prolong the illusion of respectability.

When he turned again, Pearl and Han stood watching him
tentatively. Each of them had a pack slung around their shoulder. Off to face
the horizon with all their belongings stowed in two small bags.

Han bowed once. ‘Elder Brother.’

The young man risked Fei Long’s temper to deliver the
honorific. Fei Long couldn’t bring himself to return the bow. Pearl met his eyes
as they started for the door. The heaviness of her expression struck him like a
physical blow.

This was the last time he would ever see his sister.

Fei Long took his money pouch from his belt and held it out.
The handful of coppers rattled inside. ‘Here.’

Han didn’t look at him as he took it.

‘Thank you, Fei Long,’ Pearl whispered.

They didn’t embrace. The two of them had been apart for so long
that they wouldn’t have known how. Fei Long watched their backs as they
retreated down the stairway; gone like everything else he had once known to be
true.

* * *

‘Jilted lover,’ the cook guessed.

Yan Ling’s eyes grew wide. The stranger had stormed up the
staircase only moments earlier with a sword strapped to his side and the glint
of murder in his deep-set eyes. She’d leapt out of the path of his charge, just
managing to hold on to her pot of tea without spilling a drop.

She stood at the edge of the main room, head cocked to listen
for sounds of mayhem upstairs. Her heart raced as she gripped the handle of the
teapot. Such violence and scandal were unthinkable in their quiet town.

‘Should someone stop him?’ she asked.

‘What? You saw how he was dressed.’ Old Cook had his feet in
the kitchen, but the rest of him strained as far into the dining area as
possible. ‘A man like that can do whatever he wants.’

‘Get back to work,’ the proprietor barked.

Yan Ling jumped and the cook ducked his head back through the
beaded curtain that separated the main room from the kitchen.

‘Worthless girl,’ her master muttered as she rushed the pot of
tea to its intended table. She pressed her fingers against the ceramic to check
the temperature of the pot before setting it down. Cooler than ideal, but still
hot enough to not get any complaints.

It was late in the morning and the patrons had thinned, but
that was never an excuse to move any slower. Lately it seemed nothing she did
was fast or efficient enough. She’d never known any life but the teahouse. The
story was she’d been abandoned as an infant in the room upstairs, likely the
very same one where a new scandal was now unfolding.

She paused to stack empty cups onto a tray. At that moment, the
young woman and her companion hurried down the stairs, leaving not even a
farewell behind as they swept out the door. Yan Ling expected the sword-carrying
nobleman to come chasing after them, but only an uncomfortable silence followed
their exit.

The patrons began to whisper among themselves. Her master
should be happy. This incident would have the townsfolk lingering over more than
a few extra teapots worth of gossip.

When he finally emerged, the gentleman appeared surprisingly
calm. He descended the stairs with a steady, powerful stride and his expression
was as still as the surface of the moon. Instead of leaving, he marched directly
over to the proprietor and flashed an official-looking jade seal. At that point,
even the proprietor’s wife flocked over to welcome him. They ushered him to an
empty table at the centre of the room, nearly breaking their backs bowing with
such enthusiasm. Her master shot Yan Ling a sharp look, which she understood
immediately. Bring tea and fast. She rushed to the kitchen.

‘Is there a lot of blood?’ the kitchen boy asked as she pushed
through the curtain.

‘Shush.’

She poured hot water over a fresh pot of leaves and flew back
out with her hand around the bamboo handle. Back out in the main room, the
stranger didn’t even spare her a glance as she poured the first cup for him.

His robe was of fine woven silk and richly dyed in a dark blue.
He wore his thick hair long, the front of it pulled back into a knot in the
style of aristocracy. She was stricken by the strength of his features: the hard
line of his cheekbones and the broad shape of his face, which narrowed slightly
at the chin.

With a cursory bow, she set the pot down and moved away. There
were other tables to tend to and most patrons wanted to drink their tea in
peace. Yet her attention kept on wandering back to the stranger.

Hours later, he was still seated in the same spot. He wasn’t
even drinking his tea any more. Instead, he had taken to staring into his
cup.

Government official, they guessed in the back room, though he
travelled without any escort and had a sullen expression that continued to sink
lower as the day slipped by. Her guess was that he needed something stronger
than tea.

By the end of the day, Yan Ling moved from table to empty table
in a restless circle, wash rag in hand, as she wiped away at wooden surfaces
rubbed bare from use. The teahouse crowd had long returned to their homes. Only
the nobleman remained, still hoarding his cold tea.

As long as he stayed there, she was supposed to attend to him.
Her master had made that very clear while he sat comfortably in the corner,
tallying up the cash. The wooden beads of his abacus clicked together,
signalling that the day should be done.

Her feet ached and no matter how much she wriggled her toes in
her slippers, the feeling wouldn’t quite return to them. The clang from the
kitchen meant that the cook and his boy were cleaning their pots. A mountain of
cups and bowls and little plates would be waiting for her.

Cook tried to get her to pry information from the man, but of
course she wouldn’t do such a thing. He’d suffered enough public scrutiny that
day to deserve some privacy. She guessed him to be twenty-five years, with a
slight crease between his eyes that she imagined came more from deep
contemplation than age.

Gingerly, she approached the table. ‘Does the honoured guest
need anything?’

She reached for the clay teapot, only to have him wave her back
with an irritated scowl. For a gentleman, he was uncommonly rude, but she
supposed wearing silk and jade gave him that privilege. He propped his elbows
onto the table, shoulders hunched, to return to his vigil. From the emptiness of
his stare, the young woman had to have been someone close to him. His wife? But
no man would let his wife escape with a lover after catching them together.

Yan Ling turned to wipe down her already-cleaned table once
more when the stranger spoke.

‘I need a woman,’ he mumbled. ‘Any woman would do.’

Her stomach dropped. She swung around, her mouth open in shock.
The stranger raised his head. For the first time, his eyes focused on her,
looking her up and down.

‘Perhaps even you.’

Any sympathy she might have had for him withered away. If his
tone had been leering, or his look more appraising, it might have been less
offensive. But the coldly pensive way he’d said it along with the addition of
‘perhaps’, as if to plunge her worth even further—Yan Ling grabbed the teapot
and flung the contents at the scoundrel.

The stranger shot to his feet with a curse. With a choked cry,
her master jumped up from his table and his wife soared like a windstorm from
the kitchen, apologising profusely. Even the cook and his boy were gawking
through the curtained doorway.

‘Get out!’ the master’s wife shrieked at Yan Ling before
turning to fuss at their precious patron. The front of his expensive robe was
stained dark with a splatter of tea.

‘We are so sorry, my lord,’ she crooned. ‘So sorry.’

Yan Ling clutched the teapot between both her hands while she
stared.

The nobleman swiped the tea leaves away in one angry motion
while his eyes remained fixed on her. He had lost that distant, brooding
expression he’d worn all day. The look he gave her was possibly worse than the
one she’d seen as he’d charged up the stairs. Heat rose up her neck as she
stumbled back.

What had she done?

‘That know-nothing, good-for-nothing girl,’ her master
railed.

Her ears rang as she ducked into the kitchen through the beaded
curtain. Steam enclosed her, but the clang of the pots couldn’t block the sounds
of her master and his wife apologising profusely to the nobleman.

It wasn’t as if she hadn’t been taunted before, but over the
last years the teasing had taken on a different tone as her bone-thin figure had
curved its way into womanhood. She’d learned to deafen her ears and stare ahead,
never meeting any of the not-so-subtle glances thrown her way. Yet to suffer
such insult from someone who appeared so refined—it was unbearable.

Ignoring the curious stares from cook and the kitchen boy, she
slipped through the back door. Her palms were damp and she wiped them restlessly
against the sides of her grey tunic. Fear set her heart skittering.

The teahouse was where she’d lived all her life, but it was not
home. The proprietor and his wife were not her father and mother. This had
always been clear to her and she’d had to earn her bed, this roof and every meal
with service and obedience.

One moment of hot-headedness. She’d lashed out at a
well-dressed nobleman, of all people. She wasn’t even a servant when it came to
this man. She was the humble servant of humble servants. Who was she to be
outraged?

She would certainly be scolded by both master and mistress,
each separately and then together. Yan Ling could hear them already. She had
become too much of a burden to feed, to clothe. She wasn’t even pretty enough to
bring in more customers. They might even be angry enough to take a bamboo switch
to her.

A beating was all she’d have to suffer, if she was lucky.

* * *

Fei Long rose after no more than three hours of sleep in
the very same sparse boarding room where he’d found Pearl, above the cursed
teahouse. There weren’t any other lodgings in this small town. To add to his
shame, he’d needed to leave a promissory note with the proprietor affixed with
his family seal in return for his stay. All of his money had gone with his
sister.