And Don't Bring Jeremy (4 page)

“I like gardening. And listening to the Beatles,” Jeremy said.

Mom crossed her arms, then turned to look at Jeremy. “That’s not what I mean,” she said. “I’m talking about activities that involve other people. So that you get to know boys and girls your own age.”

Dad sighed. “That’s enough, Helen. Let’s drop it for today.”

I sighed, too. I hated that kind of discussion. Nothing was ever solved and it left everyone on edge.

I decided to change the subject. “Where did you go when you went out riding?” I asked Jeremy.

“No place special. First I rode over to the school and played on the swings.”

Swings. I hadn’t played on swings in years.

“And then I rode down Milton Road. There were a few kids outside so I stopped and played with them.”

“How old were they?” Mom called out. She didn’t like
it when Jeremy played with little kids, but they were the only kids that were willing to play with him.

“Oh, I don’t know,” Jeremy hedged, but we could all tell he was lying. “I—I guess they were in the third or fourth grade.”

“Honey,” Mom said, trying her sweet approach, “don’t you think that’s kind of young for a big boy like you?”

“They were nice,” Jeremy insisted. “And they let me play with them. Especially Tommy. He invited me into his house when the others left, and his mother gave us peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.”

“So that’s why you weren’t hungry,” Mom said, “when I asked you what you wanted for lunch.”

“And his mother told me to feel free to come and play with Tommy. Like a big brother.” Jeremy laughed, pleased with himself. “I could tell that she liked me, too.”

“I’m sure she did,” Mom said slowly, “but I don’t think it’s such a good idea for you to go back there.”

“Why not?” Jeremy demanded. “Mrs. Stein invited me back. And you and Dad keep telling me how I should only go to places where they invite me.”

“Here we are,” Dad said, turning into the enormous parking lot. “The mall looks kind of empty today.”

“That’s because everyone is someplace else having fun,” I grumbled.

“That’s enough, Adam,” Mom said. “We can’t always be off somewhere having fun.”

Didn’t I know it only too well?

CHAPTER 4

Mom and Dad had a long talk that night, after Jeremy and I went to bed. I couldn’t hear too much of the conversation since their bedroom door was shut, except that it had to do with Jeremy and baseball. The next morning at breakfast Mom told Jeremy that he was allowed to drop baseball so, as she put it, “he could devote more time to his studies.”

Jeremy looked up from his bowl of cereal. “I study,” he said.

“I know, dear. But in a month and a half you’ll be taking finals for the first time ever. Don’t you want to be well prepared?”

Jeremy just grunted.

“I’ll call the guidance counselor during my coffee break,” she told him, “and see if he can recommend a tutor to help you after school.”

“I don’t need a tutor,” he mumbled. “Mrs. Fiore is my tutor in school, and so are Mrs. Anderson and Miss Brown.” Jeremy went to junior high like the other seventh graders, but he spent most of each day in special classes.

Good to her word, Mom got hold of “a wonderful woman” named Mrs. Dawson, who came and worked with Jeremy after school on Tuesdays and Thursdays. Jeremy grumbled and fussed that he didn’t need another tutor, but Mom insisted that it could only help. When he appealed to Dad, Dad told him to try it for a few weeks and see how it went. That was Dad’s standard answer to Mom’s current Project Jeremy. But, to be fair, he did step in when he saw things weren’t working out, like this baseball issue.

I guess deep down I felt sorry for my brother, constantly the subject of some harebrained scheme Mom would dream up. She wanted him to be like everyone else—play sports, get good grades. She couldn’t seem to accept that Jeremy
was
different. I knew he was different, but it still hurt at times. Like in the baseball games. I sure was glad that he wouldn’t be embarrassing me there anymore.

I told Mr. Gordon about Jeremy’s dropping out at our next practice. Eddie’s father was short and wiry like Eddie, only his hair was a much darker red, almost brown, and when he took off his cap I could see it was thinning on top. But he still had good muscles; it was plain to see by the way he moved that he’d been a fine athlete when he was younger.

Mr. Gordon stared at me for a moment, then said, “I understand, Adam. I suppose it’s best all the way around.”

I nodded. He reminded me of a sergeant in the army—strict but fair, although he did come down heavy on Eddie when he made an error, even in practice. I guess he just wanted his own son to be the very best.

Eddie realized that Jeremy wasn’t at practice when
our half of the team was taking turns hitting. It was his turn at bat, then mine.

“Where’s Jeremy?” he asked me.

“He dropped out,” I said.

Eddie laughed. “Good move. Too bad he didn’t do it sooner. Next he should think about dropping out of school and going to a place for dummies.”

I walked away. I could hear Mark, who was playing catcher, say, “Hey, Gordon, you’re a jerk. You know that?”

Then Eddie’s voice, aggrieved. “What do you mean? Adam knows I’m only kidding.” He came over to me and put his arm around my shoulders. “You know I’m kidding, don’t you, Adam?”

I nodded, not knowing what else I could do. Eddie had become very important to me. I didn’t want to risk losing his friendship by fighting over Jeremy.

Of course I didn’t like it when Eddie made cracks about Jeremy, but I could understand why he and some other kids did it. Sometimes Jeremy just seemed to be asking for it—the funny way he walked, how he always looked sloppy. And those times he acted silly and had a giggling fit. I often wondered if Jeremy was looking for attention and didn’t care that the only attention he got was being made fun of.

Besides, I knew that Eddie wasn’t really mean or anything. And lately he’d been acting especially nice to me. He showed me how he threw his curveball and worked with me until I got it. And a few nights before that I went over to his house for dinner. After we ate he went through his collection of baseball cards and gave me a big pack of doubles, almost thirty cards. When it came time for me to leave, I thanked Mr. and Mrs. Gordon. She was a real
quiet lady. She hardly said a word during dinner. When I said good-bye to Eddie, he kept grinning and patting me on the back, like he was real glad to have me as his friend. Suddenly I wished that Eddie was my brother instead of Jeremy—Jeremy who had never helped me or taught me anything in his entire life.

Most school days around four o’clock, after Danny and I worked on the sets for the sixth-grade play, the four of us—Danny, Eddie, Mark, and I—would play softball in the school yard. Other kids started coming, too, and we’d have about six men on a side. Sometimes during the games I found myself hoping that nothing would go wrong for Eddie, because if things didn’t go just so, he could blow his stack. Like the time Mark fielded his pop-up and caught it low to the ground. Eddie had reached first and insisted that the ball had touched the ground and that he was safe on base. But everyone told him he was wrong, even his own teammates. He didn’t like it any better when Danny and I chimed in and said that Mark was right. He just narrowed his eyes and walked off the base. A shiver ran up my spine. Still, he was learning to keep quiet and not make a fuss about every little thing. I guess it bothered me to see him act like he had to make a hit every time he was up at bat. Where did he ever get such a weird idea? Even the professional ball players struck out and made errors. And Eddie was one of the best ball players around.

Jeremy couldn’t stand Eddie. A few times he told me how nasty Eddie was to him in school—sticking out his tongue or making some comment about being dumb.

“Well, he’s nice to me,” I’d answer him. “If you don’t like Eddie, keep away from him.”

“Oh, I do,” Jeremy said. “Far away.”

Our team won the fourth game we played, giving us a record of two wins and two losses. The final score was 12–8. We were all proud because we knew that we’d hit and fielded well. I was especially glad because I hit a double in the second inning, not to mention that I struck out seven players—four in a row! I even helped make a double play. Boy, did the parents cheer. At the end of the game we whooped and jumped, patting each other on the back.

“Think you’re so great, don’t you, Krasner?” Eddie asked, smirking at me.

“Not bad,” I answered modestly. “We’re all pretty good, don’t you think?”

“Yeah, we’re all pretty good,” he mimicked me.

“What’s wrong now?” I asked him, but Eddie just walked away. What ticked him off like that? I shook my head, wondering. It took away some of the joy of victory.

Thank God Danny wasn’t moody like that. He was cheerful and easy to be with. Mrs. Casey had given him the go-ahead for the sets and he spent part of every day after school drawing the outlines of the actual sets on enormous pieces of cardboard. At first Mrs. Casey kept looking over his shoulder, telling him to be careful. Danny kept assuring her that he
was
careful. After a few days she saw that he was doing a good job and she calmed down. She went about her own business, straightening up the art room, telling Danny to be sure to let her know if he needed her for anything. Finally she stopped staying there at all.

I don’t know why I stayed there with Danny. He certainly didn’t need me yet. I suppose I just liked being there with him. Sometimes we chatted while he drew—about school, about baseball. Once he told me that he had wanted to be friendly with me when I first came into class, but that I seemed so aloof and unfriendly. I was so astonished I didn’t know what to say.

Other times, when I knew he was concentrating on something difficult, he didn’t say a word. Just followed the pencil with one eye shut, his lips pursed into a circle. I had enough sense to keep quiet then, but I didn’t mind. If it went on long enough, I just took out my books and started my homework. But it never went on for too long.

Danny must have heard Eddie riling me after the game, because the following Monday, after making some comment about the other team not being that strong, he looked me straight in the eye.

“I sure hope you’re not letting Eddie Gordon upset you by anything he says.” He waited to see if I’d say anything, then he went on. “He can get pretty nasty when someone does something better than he does—like your pitching on Saturday.”

I was too embarrassed to say anything. I cleared my throat. So what if I struck out one more person than Eddie did? Big deal. “Well, I don’t know,” I said.

“Well, I know, and so does my cousin Mark. Eddie gets jealous over the least little thing. Mark used to be pretty friendly with him until he got sick and tired of Eddie’s best-pal routine one day and insults the next.”

Amazing. “I didn’t know Mark felt that way,” I blurted out. “I thought they were good friends.”

“I know for a fact that Mark won’t have anything to do with Eddie alone. Eddie knows it, too. But my cousin’s not going to stop playing ball after school just ’cause Eddie’s there.”

“It must be hard on Mark, having Mr. Gordon as a coach.”

Danny smiled. “Mr. Gordon’s fair enough. Eddie must have asked his father to put Mark on the team months ago. And since we’re all together, there’s no point in making a fuss.”

Danny went back to blocking out the sets. He was working on the last one, the office. It had lots of details and he was taking pains to do a good job. But I wasn’t finished talking about Eddie.

“Do you hate Eddie, too?” I asked.

“I don’t
hate
him,” Danny said, still concentrating on what he was doing, “and neither does Mark. We just know enough to keep out of his way.”

I thought a bit. “Boy, am I dumb. I thought you and Mark were good friends with Eddie. Like that time we all went to Gino’s for pizza before the game.”

Danny chuckled. “Eddie said the whole team would be coming, and he especially mentioned you, so I said why not, since I wanted to talk to you about the sets anyway.”

“That’s funny,” I said. “He couldn’t have known that I’d be going when he told you that. But I’m glad we got together, even though we could have talked in school.”

We both laughed at that one and I felt a little better. It still bothered me that Mark and Danny didn’t really like Eddie, but it was a relief to know that he insulted other people—not just Jeremy and me. And I felt closer to Danny because he considered me his friend and didn’t want to see me hurt. Not that I could understand why Eddie should be jealous of anyone.

I was very excited about our next baseball game because Dad didn’t have to work that Saturday and was able to come and watch me play. We drove over to the field, just the two of us. Jeremy refused to go, so Mom gave in and took him for sneakers. The entire team got
there early and we had a real good warm-up. As usual, we all took turns hitting and fielding, then Eddie, Jeff, and I took turns pitching to Richie and Mark, our back-up catcher. Right before game time, Mr. Gordon gave us a pep talk. He reminded us of how well we’d played the week before. Then he held up his clipboard and read out our starting positions.