Angel (A Companion Book to Monster) (Impossible #1.5) (16 page)

To my dismay, Clayton pulled away from me slightly.  There were small frown lines around his mouth, and he looked distinctly uncomfortable.  “Ah, I don’t really do that,” he told me.  But I could see the lust in his eyes, and I was sure that I could persuade him otherwise.  Besides, I didn’t think I could handle his outright rejection.  Did he think I was a slut for wanting to go home with him when we barely knew each other?

Probably.
 

But you are a slut,
I reminded myself.  I might as well accept what I was.  It was easier than fighting it.

“Listen,” I said softly, “it’s clear that you and I have both had a shitty day.  Hell, I’ve had a shitty year.”

Give or take twenty-four years,
I thought bitterly.  But that was none of his business.  He didn’t need to know anything more about my life, and I didn’t need to know about his.  The only thing that I needed to learn about him was his body.

I splayed my fingertips across his chest to renew our contact, and the heat within me ratcheted up another notch when I felt the hard planes of his muscles.  My tongue snaked out to wet my lips as hunger filled me, and his eyes followed the movement, obviously transfixed.

“So why don’t we go somewhere and do something to forget about it?”  I purred.

“Mary…”  He trailed off indecisively.  I could see that he was cracking; the twin blue flames of his eyes told me how fiercely he wanted me.  Not to mention the persistent hardness against my hip.

“Haven’t you ever done anything wild?  Reckless?”  I asked, allowing a note of temptation to imbue my tone.

His smile was half-regretful.  “Not in a long time,” he admitted.

“Don’t you want to now?  I know I do.  And if you don’t remember how, I’ll remind you.  ‘Wild’ is kind of my thing.”  The smile I gave him was full of wicked promises.

He seemed to deliberate for a moment, reason warring with desire in his handsome features.  Finally, desire won out, and he stood, offering me his arm as he did so.

“Shall we?”  He asked, every inch the formal Fancypants.

I grinned and looped my arm through his.  “Why yes, good sir, I do believe we shall,” I said, my voice slightly mocking.  But he just took it in stride, chuckling at me.  I thrilled at the sound.  Nothing ever ruffled this guy’s feathers, did it?  I found the thought… comforting.  Sure, I had gone home with plenty of strangers before, but there was always an element of danger in doing so.  Who knew what they might do to me?  In truth, that sliver of trepidation, of fear, was part of the allure.  But with Clayton I felt safe.  And I enjoyed the warmth that flooded me at the thought more than I had ever appreciated the little twist in my gut at the thought of doing something dangerous.

It was a fairly lengthy cab ride from my crummy little corner of Brooklyn to Manhattan’s Lower East Side, but Clayton and I kept ourselves busy.  Our lips only parted for as long as it took to pay the driver and walk across the foyer of his building to the elevator.  As soon as the silver doors slid closed, he grasped me with such intensity that I fell back against the wall.  His body was as unyielding as the cool metal as he pressed against me, his fingers tangling in my hair as mine curled around his shoulders.  I wasn’t exactly sure when or how we made the transition from the elevator to his apartment; he commanded the full attention of all of my senses.  Clayton was the only solid thing in the world as we tore our way through it, banging against walls and doorframes as we made frantic progress to his bedroom.  There were long minutes where he was kissing me so thoroughly that my head was spinning from lack of oxygen.  Instinct told my body to fight him, but I just clung to him more fiercely as I reveled in the resultant rush of endorphins.  When he did finally give me the space to draw breath, I breathed in his heady masculine scent and became even more intoxicated by him.

His hands were at the hem of my dress, fisting in the material as he shoved it up my body.  I moaned as he began to explore my heated flesh where I desired it most, and I was desperate to touch him as well.  My efforts to tug off his suit jacket proved fruitless.  He was far too strong for me to manipulate his movements, and he seemed content touching me for the moment.  Undeterred, I went for his belt buckle, working quickly to release the bulge that had been straining against his zipper ever since we had left the bar.  I barely had a moment to fully realize his impressive size before he let out a low, guttural sound and shoved me hard.  Panic shot through me at the sensation of falling, but I was barely jostled when I hit the soft mattress beneath me.  The flash of fear only served to keep my adrenaline thrumming, keeping me riding high.

Clayton had pulled a condom from a bedside drawer and was rolling it on.  I was soaking wet and beyond ready for him to take me.  My dress was bunched up around my waist, and he was still wearing his suit.  But I didn’t care.  What was passing between us now was raw and animalistic, a primal need that demanded to be met.

He grabbed my legs and pulled me toward him roughly, positioning my body where he wanted it.  When my ass was at the edge of the mattress, he settled my ankles on his shoulders and leaned forward to grip my hips with both of his hands.  His eyes met mine, and I marveled at the electric blue sparks that seemed to crackle in their multifaceted depths.  The light that I saw there was wild and hungry, but there was still a trace of concern, of compassion, there.  He was at my slick entrance, but he hesitated.

I gripped the hands that held my waist and squeezed so that his fingers dug into me almost painfully.  “I want you to fuck me hard, Clayton.”

At my throaty, brash words, that compassion in his eyes was consumed by lust, and his expression twisted into something exquisitely fierce.  He shoved my panties aside and thrust into me mercilessly; the intensity of our bodies joining was almost jarring.  I was no virgin, but he stretched me wide enough and fast enough that my cry of delight was tinged with pain.

The sound made him pause.  The concern was back.  But I didn’t want him to be concerned, and I didn’t want him to stop.  Pain and pleasure were a double-edged sword that I would happily die on a thousand times over.  I pushed up my hips and ground against him in a circular motion.  Bliss flared as the movement caused his cock to rub against my g-spot.

“More,” I gasped.  “Please…”

He groaned and shifted his grip on me, splaying his fingers across my ass and hooking his thumbs over my hips.  Then he pulled almost all the way out of me before driving in swiftly once again.  The intensity of his thrust would have moved my entire body, but his firm hold on me ensured that I stayed where he wanted me.

“Yes!”  I moaned.  “Hard.  Just like that.  Please…”

Whatever vestiges of concern he had left were obliterated.  He took me roughly and urgently, using my body as he wished in order to find his release.  It was exactly what I had craved: something so passionate and all-consuming that it claimed the entirety of my spirit.

The head of his cock hit my g-spot over and over again, sending me skyrocketing as the ecstasy of my coming orgasm built within me.  I felt his cock twitch, and I knew that he was close too.  Everything exploded when his thumb pressed down on my clit hard, rubbing in practiced, demanding circles as he wrung my orgasm from my body.  His rough shout and my scream were a violent crescendo, a testimony to the fierceness of our shared, desperate passion.

I moaned softly as he pulled out, leaving me feeling utterly empty.  But for the first time in a long time, that feeling of emptiness wasn’t accompanied by the feeling of being suddenly, starkly alone.  Clayton tumbled down on the bed beside me and wrapped his arm around my waist.  Little lines of sizzling pleasure continued to slither beneath my skin as he held me against him.  We were both gasping for breath in tandem, our bodies still perfectly in sync.

When our heaving chests slowed to a more normal rhythm, Clayton rolled off of me.  A cold knot twisted in the pit of my stomach.  Being held by Clayton had felt nice, but it wasn’t wise to read too much into his actions.

Wham-bam-thank you ma’am.  Time to go Rose.

I propped myself up on my elbows and started tugging down on my dress.  His hands were on my shoulders, pushing me back down onto the bed.  I looked up at him, confused.

“What do you think you’re doing?”  He asked.

“Um, getting dressed?”  It came out as a question.  Clayton was throwing me for a loop.

“Don’t.”  It was a simple word, but it was spoken like an order.  The clear, commanding tone of his voice made me shiver.  My hands fell away from my dress instantly, and my legs parted slightly as I relaxed, my body instinctively offering itself to him.  He cocked his head to the side, studying me for a long moment.  My breaths came more quickly as he regarded me in silence, and that all-consuming need that he had only just purged from me came growling back to life.

“Stay.”

With only that one word, I froze.  Clayton left my line of sight.  My eyes wanted to follow him, but I didn’t move; I hardly breathed.  I could hear water running, so I guessed that he was in the bathroom.  Did he know what he was doing to me?  Did he understand the game that I thought we were playing?

My body didn’t care if he knew what he was doing or not; it just wanted more of whatever this was.  It wanted more of
him.

The sound of his approaching footsteps told me that he was coming back.  I thought about standing, pulling down my dress, and getting out of there ASAP.  That’s what any normal person would have done.  Hell, that’s what
I
would have done.

But when I saw Clayton, all temptation to leave evaporated.
  He had gotten undressed while I wasn’t watching him.  And
holy fuck,
was he perfect.  I had been with a lot of big, brawny guys who literally put in hours every day at the gym.  Clayton wasn’t bulky like them, but every part of his body was flawlessly sculpted and balanced.  He didn’t have beefy arms in order to make up for the tiny calves he hid under his baggy jeans, and he didn’t have huge pecs to draw attention away from his doughy stomach.  He was breathtaking.

I was overwhelmed by the desire to touch him, to run my fingertips along the contours of him.  Pushing myself up, I reached for him.

“I thought I told you to stay,” he said sternly.

I gasped in shock, and my body reacted before my mind could catch up.  I dropped back onto the mattress, my arms falling to either side of me with my wrists facing upward, willingly exposing my physical vulnerabilities.  “Sorry,” I whispered automatically.

His grin was both pleased and predatory.  “You really do like it when I’m bossy, don’t you?”

I smiled back at him wickedly.  “You don’t know the half of it.”

“I’m sure I don’t,” he agreed easily.  “But I’m a quick study.”  His rough fingertips brushed against my inner thigh, and I jumped as even that slightest contact sent pleasure arcing through me.  He instantly withdrew his touch, fixing me with a reprimanding stare.  He didn’t have to say it aloud again for me to know what that look meant:
Stay.

This time, it took concerted effort to force my body to relax.

He waited before touching me again, watching my reactions as he drew out the tension.  The longer he waited, the hotter I got for him.  God, the man was teasing me with nothing but the sight of his body and the mere promise of his touch, and already I was close to begging him to give me what I craved.  When his palms finally slid up either side of my waist, slowly peeling my dress off my body, I couldn’t hold back a strangled sigh of relief.  But my torment was only just beginning.

I shifted my arms compliantly so that he could tug the dress over my head, but he suddenly stopped his steady progress.  The thick, stretchy material still covered my eyes, and my arms were trapped on either side of my head.

“Stay.”  The command was a low growl at my ear, and I shuddered in delight at the sound of it.  I could easily get out of this makeshift bondage if I wanted to, but I
so
didn’t want to.  If I had thought my body was alive with need before, all of my nerve endings were positively crackling now that I could no longer see what Clayton was doing to me.  He was everywhere and nowhere; his warm breath, hot tongue, and clever fingers roved over my body, but he never quite touched me where I needed it most.  All of my muscles tensed until I was taut as a bowstring from the effort of staying still.

“Are you… sure… you haven’t done this before?”  I panted, my voice trembling almost as violently as my body.

Clayton’s warmth withdrew abruptly, and a soft whine escaped me at the loss.

“No.  Why?”  He asked.  “Am I doing it wrong?”

“No!”  I cried desperately, yearning for his maddening caresses to resume.  “God, no.  Please…”

His low, rumbling chuckle moved over and through me like a palpable thing, making me shiver.  “That’s what I thought.”  His tongue traced along the bottom of my earlobe before drawing it between his teeth.  He bit down, and the sharp little pain contrasted beautifully with the soft flicks of his tongue.  The raw, lustful sound that was pulled from my throat shocked me. 

“I told you,” he said smoothly.  “I’m a quick study.”

It probably wasn’t healthy that I found his smug tone so incredibly arousing.  His cocky attitude only further inflamed my desire, and my nipples and clit were already throbbing painfully.  “Please, Clayton…”