Margaret Oliphant bore six children and outlived them all. Three died in infancy; the eldest, Maggie, died in 1864, aged ten; her two sons died in their thirties, when she was over sixty, leaving her desolate: "all gone, all gone, and no light to come to this sorrow any more." Shortly after Maggie's death, she wrote an account of her feelings; and in the last ten years of her life she incorporated this into an autobiographical sketch, much of which dealt with her children's deaths, and her reaction to them. The pages about Maggie's death are a cry of pain. Her husband had died in 1859, after only seven years of married life, and just before the birth of the last child; the further blow of losing her "one woman-child" seemed at times unbearable:
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Sometimes her sorrow breaks into exclamations ("Help me, Oh help me Lord"), sometimes into despairing questions ("Where are you, oh my child, my child"), sometimes into puzzlement over the after-life: "She is with God, she is in his hands. I know nothing, cannot even imagine anything. Can I trust her with Him? Can I trust Him that He has done what was best for her?"
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Some of the funeral notices on Princess Charlotte had tried to suggest that a death such as hers might be a blessing: "If she has been suddenly taken," wrote the Sun , "by the awful visitation of God, from all the pleasures and high distinctions of this transitory life, she is, mercifully, spared from its future trials, cares and sorrows." This is a rather half-hearted version of what some stern preachers stated much more aggressively, that since the world is a vale of sinfulness, we should give thanks for an early death because it enables the young person to avoid temptation (though the theology
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