Australian Outback Kings / The Cattle King's Mistress / The Playboy King's Wife / The Pleasure King's Bride (35 page)

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Difficult to know with Jared. He had his own quiet way of manoeuvring pieces into position—a formidable player in the business world, but he wasn't emotionally involved when it came to cutting deals. Unrequited passion could wear patience and control very thin.

She didn't know if he had actually invited Christabel. Perhaps he'd thought better of it, not ready to commit himself so far, or realising the invitation might be rejected. Putting himself in a losing situation was not Jared's way. Nevertheless, he had to be feeling disappointment that Christabel was not here.

As for Tommy, Elizabeth feared the fallout from the Janice Findlay affair cut too deeply for him and Sam to come together again. She'd flown to Kununurra herself the Monday after the wedding. Sam had already left for home with Robert, a move which had spoken volumes even before Elizabeth had managed a heart-to-heart talk with Tess Connelly.

Time, they had hopefully decided, would put things right eventually. But time could also feed the demon, pride, Elizabeth thought now. Both Tommy and Sam had let pride be a bristling sword between them before. If they saw the climax of that night as a betrayal of each other, would either of them be prepared to risk their hearts again?

If the ghosts stay away
, Tommy had said when he'd danced with her at the wedding, and Janice had undoubtedly raised many ghosts. The pity of it was…truth and justice didn't repair the hurt done to the victims of a crime. Nothing could bring back what had been destroyed. Yet, was real love ever completely destroyed?

Aware that Tommy had fallen silent at the table, Elizabeth surreptitiously observed him watching Miranda and Nathan. Jared had prompted them into discussing what names they favoured for a son or daughter. Their faces glowed with love and the pleasurable anticipation of having a child to name.

Tommy's jaw suddenly tightened. He pushed back his chair and stood up. “One last Christmas toast,” he said, claiming everyone's attention as he picked up his glass and held it high. “If this is a day of peace and good will, let it be. Let it be,” he repeated fiercely, and drank without waiting for anyone else to echo it.

They all watched him, somewhat startled by his abrupt change of mood. He set his glass down, swept them with a look of reckless purpose and announced, “I beg to be excused. I need to be elsewhere. And who knows?” He tossed them a devil-may-care smile as he headed out of the dining room. “I may bring back the gift of a lifetime.”

“Sounds like a plane coming in,” Pete remarked, killing conversation as everyone paused to listen.

It
was
a plane coming in.

Sam's heart fluttered, a wild hope zinging through her as she instantly connected the sound to Tommy. Her mind was slow to override the reaction. Why would Tommy leave King's Eden to come here on Christmas day? It made no sense. There was nothing to get excited about. Most likely it was someone lost, someone in trouble, needing help.

“I'll go and see who it is,” she said, pushing up from the table, needing the activity to settle her out-of-control nerves. The wall clock above her father's head showed twelve minutes to three…midafternoon. Tommy was undoubtedly still sitting with his family over their festive lunch, just as she was. Once she'd identified the pilot, she could bury Tommy in the dark recesses of her mind again and not let him out for the rest of the day.

“Might as well all go,” her father said, dragging his chair back and patting his tummy. “Need some exercise after that huge meal.”

“You pigged out on the pudding, Dad,” Pete teased, getting up to satisfy his curiosity.

“Christmas comes but once a year,” her father declared. “Got to make the most of it.”

The others laughingly agreed, moving to follow Sam as she headed for the verandah overlooking the airstrip. A rise of inner tension prevented her from laughing. She couldn't even act casually over who might be landing at the Connelly homestead. The compulsion to know drove her feet faster.

The plane touched down on the rough dirt runway as she pushed open the screen door to the verandah. Sheer impetus carried her to the railing which she instinctively gripped—a steady, external support for the inner turmoil raised by the sight of the small aircraft skimming over the ground in front of her.

No mistaking the big
K
on its tail.

KingAir
printed clearly underneath it.

Could it be a charter? Or was it Tommy himself? And what would she do if it was Tommy?

Her mind jagged between a helpless wanting and almost violent rejection. Her heart felt torn. Her stomach had lost any semblance of a comfort zone. And her family emerged onto the verandah, completely relaxed and ready to welcome a visitor, outback hospitality about to be extended to whomever it was.

“See any identification on the plane?” Pete asked eagerly, watching it being turned around at the end of the runway.

No point in prevaricating. Sam worked some moisture into her mouth which had gone as dry as the land before the Big Wet. “
KingAir,
” she answered, trying to keep her voice emotionless.

“Tommy,” her father said in a tone of satisfaction.

Every nerve in Sam's body tensed. She never had asked what her father had said to Tommy just before they'd left the hospital in the minibus. She'd simply been grateful to be spared any further conflict with him that night.

“Why do you think so, Dad?” she blurted out.

The plane was taxiing back to park near the homestead. Still, there was no absolute certainty about the identity of the pilot at the controls.

“Oh, it just seems like a good day for him to pick.”

Her head jerked around, her gaze slicing hard and fast to her father's. “A good day for what?”

He shrugged. “Peace and good will,” came the bland answer.

“Tommy was great visiting me in hospital and bringing me stuff,” Greg remarked happily. “Think I'll go and meet him.”

He stepped off the verandah.

“No! Wait!” Both the protest and the command burst off Sam's tongue, causing her brother to pause and look quizzically at her.

“What for?” he asked when she didn't follow up with a reason.

Panic was causing a shortness of breath. She didn't know what to do, what to say. She wasn't
prepared
for this!

“I think Sam has private business with Tommy, Greg,” her father explained. “Might be best if she met him first…settle things between them.”

“Oh!” Enlightenment spread into an arch look as he stepped aside to give her the right of passage. “Your move, big sis.”

Which meant she had to move. Gritting her teeth, Sam forced her legs into action. Her father was right. If it was Tommy in that plane, better she met him out there, beyond earshot of her family, though there was no way they weren't going to view what went on. She could feel their interest burning into her back as she left them behind.

The plane came to a halt. Its engines were switched off.
It may not be Tommy
, she kept telling herself, trudging determinedly forward, her shoulders automatically squared and her head defiantly high. The heat haze of midafternoon made everything shimmer. She wanted to shade her eyes with her hand but it seemed like a weak action so she refrained from doing it. A fierce sense of pride quelled the inner panic. If this
was
Tommy, he could do the speaking. Then she'd know what to say.

The cockpit door opened.

Tommy King stepped out onto Connelly land.

Something punched Sam's heart. Her feet stopped dead. He had come. He'd left his family Christmas at King's Eden and flown here…to her.

He stood where he'd stepped down, staring at her. Since she'd stopped several metres from him and he wasn't coming any closer, she couldn't see what was in his eyes yet she felt the intensity of their focus on her, the impact of it spreading electric tingles, igniting nervous mayhem.

She stared back, wishing he didn't have the power to affect her so much. Did nothing change it? Would she always feel like this with Tommy, as though the very vitality of her existence depended on him? She could cope without him but…she didn't want to. She simply didn't want to. He made life bright, exciting, challenging…and dark, and miserable and conflict-ridden, she savagely reminded herself.

There he stood, his playboy handsome face framed by the riot of black curls that seemed to embody an untamed spirit, his tall athletic body radiating energy and a strong, virile maleness that was loaded with sex appeal. And she was vulnerable to it, every bit as much as any other woman who'd fallen for it, but physical magnetism wasn't going to win her to his side. Not today. Not ever.

She wanted more than that from Tommy. Much more. If he thought she was going to cross this space between them and fall at his feet, he could think again. If that was what he was waiting for, he could wait until doomsday. It wasn't enough that he'd come this far for her. Her pounding heart demanded that he show her how much she was worth to him. In every way.

Tommy stood there, feeling her pull on every part of him, and the wanting that had been so briefly satisfied the day of Nathan's wedding, became more acute than it had been that night. He needed this woman. She answered things in him that no other ever had. Or would, he thought with painful irony, aware of how nearly his past had come to wrecking any future with her. And might still, if her mind had become completely set against him.

Funny…he hadn't considered her beautiful…all those years when he'd told himself other women were much more attractive, better-looking, sexier, and of course, appreciated the man he was more than Sam Connelly did. But she
was
beautiful. More beautiful to his eyes than all the rest.

She shone. Her hair was a halo of glory in the afternoon sunshine. He loved the sky blue clarity of her eyes, and the freckles she hated were endearingly girlish, stirring some protective streak in him. There was more appeal in her face than any supposedly classical beauty could strike.

She was wearing a blue petticoat dress that fired his memory of the soft, supple femininity of her body and the fierce tensile strength in her arms and legs, winding around him, binding him to the mutual possession that had felt so right, so perfect. The desire to feel it again seized him, but he knew he had to control it. He hadn't come for the body of Samantha Connelly. He knew she wouldn't give it unless she could give her heart, as well. That was what had to be won…won and kept.

Her approach to the plane had buoyed his hope she was ready to be receptive, might even welcome him. Her abrupt halt at the sight of him put paid to that idea. Her rigid stance encouraged nothing. Pride set in stone, he thought, and felt his own pride start to bristle.

If she couldn't believe in him now…

If she wouldn't trust him…

He'd come this far. The risk had to be taken. He scooped in a deep, calming breath and walked towards her, purpose steeled in every stride.

There was no meeting him halfway but at least she didn't turn her back on him. She stood her ground. Her hands clenched as he came closer. Her eyes flared a warning, her chin tilted aggressively, and he knew she'd fight him if he crossed whatever line she'd drawn in her mind.

He only had one weapon that could cut through that line. Talking wasn't going to do it and touching was clearly a transgression she wouldn't tolerate. He had to gamble everything on the one possibility that might restore her faith in his word.

It went against his grain, having to accept that
his
word wasn't enough. He hadn't lied to her, not once. Yet there was no denying that circumstances had let loose the ghosts they had almost dispersed that night. No doubt they had been preying on her mind ever since.

He stopped short of her, ensuring she didn't feel threatened. Without saying a word he withdrew the envelope from his pocket and held it out to her, keeping a respectful distance. Her fiercely held gaze wavered and slowly dropped to the slightly crumpled piece of stationery.

“What's this?” she demanded hoarsely.

“Just do me the courtesy of taking it and reading what's inside, Samantha. It's self-explanatory.”

She unclenched her right hand, lifted it and took the envelope. The tightness in Tommy's chest did not ease at this act of co-operation. It was up to her now…whether they'd share a future or not. All he could do was wait.

Was this the end? Sam stared down at the envelope in her hand. Did it hold a severance cheque, notice of termination of her employment as a pilot with him?

There was no name and address typed on it. Surely if it was something official, that would have been done. And why deliver it to her on Christmas day? Personally?

Her mind was a mess of painful confusion. The answer was inside the envelope, she told herself, so open it. Her fingers tremulously carried out the mental order and slowly extracted the contents—thin pages from a stationery pad, handwritten in blue biro. She unfolded them, and was startled to see it was a personal letter, dated weeks ago, with Kununurra Hospital written under the date. Bewildered, and not knowing what to expect, she started to read…

Dear Samantha,

Firstly, let me say how sorry I am to have caused so much trouble and pain. My parents told me it was you who flew them to the hospital on the night of the accident, and I appreciate that very much, especially since I'd been such a bitch to you earlier.

Janice
… This was from Janice Findlay! Dazedly, Sam read on.…

I'm writing this because I need to get it off my chest, and I owe it to you, too. You never did anything to hurt me and how can I make a fresh start if I don't clear my conscience? So here goes, and I hope you're still reading.

The truth is I lied about Tommy being the father of my baby. I guess getting pregnant made me face up to what a shambles my life was in. No, that's wrong. I didn't really face up to it. I kind of clutched at Tommy as the one really decent man I'd ever been with and hoped he would see me through.

He tried to steer me towards help when he broke off with me, but I just resented his advice and went off on a partying binge to forget him. One night I picked up a tourist and fell into bed with him. I couldn't even remember his name afterwards. That's how bad I'd got. Then when I found out I'd fallen pregnant, I panicked. I didn't want to tell my Mum and Dad I didn't even know the father's name.

I knew it wasn't right to try to pin it on Tommy, but by the time Nathan's wedding came around, I was seeing that as the only solution, and I kept telling myself it could have been his child, so it was fair. Although he had always used protection, I argued that nothing was a hundred percent safe so I could get past that. I just didn't bargain on you, and Tommy wanting you.

It completely threw me. I rocketed straight off to drink myself silly again and latch onto a guy who fancied me. I didn't deliberately pick your brother. Didn't even know he was your brother until we'd been chatting each other up for a while. Actually I did like Greg but life on the land is not for me.

Anyhow I really burned during the reception, seeing Tommy giving you all the attention I wanted from him. I tried to corner him when you slipped out of the marquee, but he fobbed me off on his brother, Jared, and went after you, which made me even madder.

Then I saw you both coming back, so very together, and your hair was down. I knew you'd been having sex, which meant my house of cards was tumbling all around me and I just went crazy. I guess, because I'd thought about it so much, I convinced myself Tommy was the father of my baby, doing the dirty on me, and I let you both have it because it felt like you'd taken him away from me.

I realise now how terribly wrong that was. Tommy wasn't mine. I had no claim on him at all. And you were a completely innocent party. I'm deeply ashamed of all my actions that night, hurting everyone, even killing the baby because I was so drunk and reckless and off my brain.

Well, it's pulled me up with a jolt, I can tell you. Not that it mends what I've done. I hope this letter goes some way towards fixing things between you and Tommy. Incidentally, Tommy didn't ask me to do this but I did tell him I was doing it because I wanted him to know I'm really trying to put things straight now.

He's been so kind since the accident, helping to explain things to Mum and Dad, making them see me as I am—if not an alcoholic, going that way fast—and very much in need of counselling and a lot of support to see me through it. I didn't deserve this from him. He says I'm worth saving for myself. I don't know how he can see any good in me after what I did, but I'm very grateful he's been here, holding my hand when I needed it.

I'm flying home with Mum and Dad tomorrow. Out of Tommy's life. Out of your life, too, Samantha. At least, I hope so. I hope I'm not going to leave a legacy of lies, spoiling things I had no right to spoil. I would like to think of you being happy with Tommy again, as happy as you looked that night before I stepped in and wrecked what I saw happening between you.

I'm so sorry.

Please smile at Tommy. He deserves it.

Janice Findlay.

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