Bad Dreams (4 page)

Anne wanted to cry, to break down, to give up.

Hollis was talking, almost lecturing.

‘She was an addict. We know that. Recently, there have been some quantum leaps in the drugs industry. They don’t need to import as much opium-derived heroin as they used to. The stuff can be synthesized in laboratories. Designer drugs, they’re called. From California, originally. The stuff is cheaper, purer, more debilitating. Strictly, it’s not even illegal yet. I’ve seen senile teenagers. It affects the metabolic rate. The processes that make you grow old… I don’t really understand this… they get speeded up…’

Poor Judi. Wasted. Her whole life literally used up. Anne looked at the old woman’s face and saw the child her sister had been. Judi had not died easily.

Hollis covered Judi again, tucking her in.

‘Did she do this to herself?’ Anne asked.

Hollis looked at the floor, not quite shrugging.

Anne did not say any more. She was too good a judge of her own character. She knew what she wanted. It was the same when their mother had left, and when the novel had not worked out, when she had first heard of Charlie Aziz, and when father had wound up mute in a chair. For her, it was only natural.

She wanted someone to blame.

E
ven the Kind dreamed. But with the passing of so many years, the old man had outlived his imagination. All his mind had … left was the almost unbearable weight of memory. There was so much he could no longer consciously recollect. Yet all of it existed, untapped by his waking self, in his night thoughts
…

By the standards of centuries he would live to see, it had hardly been a battle at all. A routine patrol of six or seven horsemen with maybe two lances between them had come upon the enemy encamped in a shallow valley and, against his orders, engaged them. The din had carried in the strong winds, and his own camp had been roused to the combat. His hand thus forced, he had committed his men to the skirmish. It had turned into a minor massacre.

Taking both armies into account, there were perhaps one hundred dead. But he was well pleased. The English captain had been taken, and he had spent a long, rewarding afternoon with him. The man had been a genuine soldier, not some royal cousin assigned a command to keep him out of treason and plotting at home. He was much more resilient than the children who were his frequent guests between wars, but, in the end, he had yielded as completely as the scrawniest peasant brat.

He was satisfied, glutted, complete. Beneath his helmet, the tangle of his hair, grey-streaked at dawn, was a match now for the purest sable. His lieutenants no longer remarked upon the changes in him. By now, they were used to his cycles and simply put his occasional youthful appearance down to sorcery. A few of them were given to boasting about their master’s skill in the Black Arts, and that could be useful from time to time. Poor Sieur Barbe-Bleue, meticulously obsessive as ever, was even trying through atrocity and alchemy to ape him, searching in the ruined and abused flesh of small boys for an elusive immortality. But some of his other officers, an unfortunate number who would soon learn better, had almost forgotten to fear him. For them, the English captain should have been saved for a ransom, not wasted on pleasure.

He had his ragged cloth-of-gold pitched on the bloody grass, about where the fighting had been most concentrated. He looked forward to stretching out on the insanguinated ground and luxuriating in the residues as others would in a heated and perfumed bath.

After the Englishman was exhausted, and consigned to the bonfires with his followers and the dead horses, he paid a visit to the girl.

She was squatting between the fires, her face still streaked with blood, her hands clasped in prayer. Sometimes he wondered what she said to her saints. Did she apologize for the extra load of souls that were lining up outside the Gates of Heaven as a result of her conversations with dead divines?

He knelt before her, and took her young head in his hands. His fingers slid into her cropped, coarse hair. He picked out a hard-shelled parasite and popped it between thumb and forefinger.

He, the Monster, kissed her, the Saint.

That year, he favoured little boys. But his congress with the girl was different. Her skin was permanently marked with the weave of chain mail. During the physical act of love, she called him ‘father’ several times. Whether she meant her father in the village, a father at the church, or the Father in Heaven, he could not say.

The wind tore at the already tattered walls of the tent, detaching wisps of golden thread that floated over the camp. A detail was stripping the dead of their armour, and piling it up. The fires burned fiercely, roasting and consuming carcasses with much crackling and hissing. The soldiers sang, words about intercourse with goats set to sacred tunes.

Every so often, there was a gurgling cry. He had ordered the whores to comb the battlefield, cutting the throats of the wounded, no matter whose colours they wore.

Close to his already dwindling body, the girl slept, doubtless dreaming of the young king and the angelic voices that whispered inside her skull. He touched his head gently to hers and sadly tasted the emptiness within. Briefly, he thought there was something, but it was just a memory of the unending winds that forced this girl, and all like her, to and fro without regard.

Strangely, he did not feed off her.

T
here were Monsters, Anne knew. It was a secret she shared with Judi. Their father had met a Monster, and lost, before they were born. Anne knew all about it. She had seen the kinescopes. She knew the face of the Monster, and that their family bogeyman had once had a name, Hugh Farnham, but that was the least of it. He went on forever, revealed only by a tone of voice, a strident attitude, an indestructible set of mind, a few whistled bars of an old film theme tune.

‘You have to stop thinking in absolutes,’ her journalism tutor had told her. ‘Life isn’t a movie, with good guys and bad guys, heroes and monsters.’

She knew there were no heroes, but she could see the Monsters everywhere. Hugh Farnham was long gone, but there were others. PC Barry ‘The Batterer’ Erskine, the hate-consumed Ulster clergyman, the calf-faced girl on Page Three of
The Sun
, the presidential advisor, the Soviet chess grand master, the old hippie rock musician, the Middle Eastern mullah, the television quiz show MC, the political columnist in the downmarket Sunday paper, the science fiction writer hawking the fourth volume of his trilogy, and a thousand other, lesser, demons.

‘Annie, did you know they had your old man on film in the archives?’ Pat, her college roommate, had asked. ‘They’ve got his appearance before McCarthy.’

Strictly speaking, it had not been McCarthy. He had gone down with the astonishing hearings in 1954, when he had been crucified in court for daring to graduate from the easy pickings of Hollywood to try to detect traces of Communist infiltration in President Eisenhower’s
Alma Mater
, the army. Father had been up before Hugh Farnham three years later, at the tail-end of the blacklist.

She had resisted the temptation for weeks, but finally she gave in. She had to scratch the itch, even if it turned into an open sore. Frankly pleading her special interest to the head of the Modern American History department, she was given access. She had to thread the projector herself, and confront the Monster in a draughty basement screening room with uncomfortable seats and a strict no smoking rule. In those days, she had been a smoker. In those days, like everyone else, she had even played around with drugs.

The kinescopes were not properly catalogued, so she had to watch until she found what she was looking for. Her father did not show up until the fourteenth of twenty half-hour reels, covering nearly ten years of different sessions, but she was still fascinated. It was Hugh Farnham, the Monster. Joe McCarthy had got all the contemporary press coverage and had an-ism named after him, and Richard Nixon had used the hearings as a springboard into grown-up politics. Even Roy Cohn, the legal
Eminence grise
who had died of AIDS a few years back, was comparatively well-remembered. But Farnham was Something Else. The others were in it for patriotism, self-advancement, megalomania, paranoid self-justification and financial gain. Half-way through his delicate dissection of Martin Ritt, Anne realized with a dizzying rush of vertigo that Farnham tormented people because it was his idea of fun. It met a need in him he could not slake any other way.

His eyes were nothing in particular in black and white, certainly not burning coals of melodramatic malevolence. And his voice was like a Broadway actor’s in a Shakespeare play, unaccented but more British than American. He had always been something of a mystery man; in theory, Anne knew where he had come from and what he had done before the hearings, but, watching his smile, she found she had forgotten the precise details. His face was unforgettable, as if the skin of a pale cobra had been stretched over the bone structure of Montgomery Clift.

She wondered what had happened to him. Perhaps he had been badly burned in the War, and had had to be patched together by expensive teams of plastic surgeons intent on performing miracles. In the shadows of the courtroom, he looked older than Dracula, but, when he was firing questions at unfriendly witnesses like Kim Hunter or Zero Mostel, he was younger, more virile, more in control, than a matinée idol on a triumphant opening night.

‘Are you now,’ Farnham kept asking, always with the biting pause in the same place, ‘or have you ever been, a member of the Communist Party?’

Unlike McCarthy, Farnham did not pronounce it ‘commonest party’. The only thing her father had ever said about the Monster was that, at the height of the televised hearings, Hugh Farnham received more fan mail from women than Elvis.

Thirty-five years later, it was all clear. McCarthy was stupid – a blustering clown. It was incredible that he had got away with it for so long. The one indelible image of the period was of McCarthy whispering in Roy Cohn’s ear like a school bully suddenly desperate for advice, and the lawyer looking shocked and shattered as he realizes just how doomed his buffoon boss is among all the smart lawyers. Nixon was a glowering, unshaven crook, a sweaty Boris Karloff in
Arsenic and Old Lace.
Anne understood why he had been God’s gift to the protest movement, an Establishment villain who always looked and acted like one. And the ‘friendly’ witnesses – Robert Taylor, Adolph Menjou, Therese Colt – embarrassed themselves and flushed lesser people down the toilet as they blurted out their hatred of anyone in Hollywood they thought might be communists even if they could not think of any actual proof of their left-leaning politics. But Congressman Hugh Farnham was John Wayne, Captain America, Parsifal and the young Jack Kennedy rolled into one.

Sweet Jesus, this man could have been
president.

Waving a petition against the Committee signed by various Hollywood notables, Farnham even got chilling laughs with one speech. ‘I want to read you some of these names,’ he began, in a mildly sardonic manner, a brow arched. ‘One of the names is June Havoc. We found out from the Motion Picture Almanac that her real name is June
Hovick.
Another one is Danny Kaye, and we find his real name is David Daniel
Kaminsky.
Then we have the case of Mr John Garfield,
né
Julius
Garfinkle.
Eddie Cantor, known to his mother as Eddie
Iskowitz.
The famous Edward G. Robinson, a.k.a. Emmanuel
Goldenberg.
A fellow who signs his autograph Melvyn Douglas, but who is really not a Douglas at all but a
Hesselberg.
A promising Broadway gent called Cameron Nielson whose birth certificate reads Comrade… pardon me,
Conrad
Nastase. There are others too numerous to mention. They are attacking this house for doing its duty to protect this country and save the American people from the horrible fate the communists have meted out to the unfortunate Christian people of Europe.’

When her father showed up, late in the day, she did not recognize him. It was a fluke that his hearing, which was officially an ‘enquiry into the misuse of a United States passport’ although the criminal charge hanging over him was actually Contempt of Congress, had been televised. By the time his name came up, everyone but the witchfinders had lost interest. It must have been a ratings-slow period. It was hard to connect the young man with the dark hair, quick grin and self-confident way with words to the person she had grown up around. All that was there were the horn-rimmed glasses and unearned Ivy League tie.

In the film, Cameron Nielson was confident that he could defeat the Monster. His daughter knew that he had been destroyed by it.

In 1957, the days of the blacklist were supposedly over, but her father was unemployable in Hollywood, his TV play
The Crunch
had been bounced without comment by all three networks, and his ‘historical pageant’
Cochise and Geronimo
had closed after three weeks and two days on Broadway.

But he did not care. He had secret weapons. He was rich, he did not have to work. He had the example of his friend Arthur Miller, who had stood up straight at his hearing a year earlier and been treated leniently, his minimal sentence rapidly overturned. He had the Nobel Prize for Literature. That made it official: he was a national resource, like O’Neill, Faulkner or Hemingway. He did not have to prove anything. He had nothing to lose.

He did not even have to plead the fifth amendment. He simply did not have to answer the Question.

‘Are you now,’ said Farnham, ‘or have you ever been, a member of the Communist Party?’

There was a long pause, long enough for the station to cut to a Kraft commercial if they had wanted to.

Cameron Nielson smiled, and hooked his thumbs into his vest pockets. If he had had a hat on, he would have tilted it to the back of his head. Suddenly, Anne realized how much her father had known about live television. He looked straight at the camera which must have had the orange operational light on, and answered the Question with another question.