Beaumont Brides Collection (28 page)

‘What note?’

‘It’s pinned to the board in the kitchen. Oh, lord, I don’t suppose you’ve been in the kitchen,’ she said, comically.

‘He doesn’t consider the kitchen important enough,’ Fizz agreed, but quietly.

Luke, his hearing apparently still wide-awake, gave Fizz a sharp sideways glance, then he returned his attention to Melanie. ‘What time will you be home?’

‘About ten. I know I was late last night, but we’ve hired a movie for the video and we thought we’d have a takeaway.’ She sounded like an eager teenager asking her father for permission to stay out late, Fizz thought. But she had no desire to dwell upon the peculiarities of their relationship. Melanie turned to her. ‘Did you find the snowdrops?’

‘Snowdrops?’ She glanced at Luke, but he appeared to have spotted something far out at sea that required his total attention.

‘I couldn’t bear not to go out in the snow. Andy said it wouldn’t last and it didn’t,’ she said, sadly. ‘Claudia came with me and we picked masses of snowdrops.’ Well what else would you do in the snow? ‘She said she’d bring you some on her way home.’

‘She did. Thank you.’ And hadn’t said a word. She must have seen Luke’s note and left them alongside it and never said a word. As for Luke...

Melanie, eager to be off, tugged at Andy’s arm. ‘See you tomorrow, Fizz.’

Luke gave Andy a hard look. ‘Ten o’clock. Don’t be late.’ Then he stood back and watched as they disappeared into the block of flats. ‘Tea with his mother?’ Luke said, faintly. ‘Can you believe it?’

‘Why not? You can hardly expect the girl to stay at home at your beck and call.’

‘I don’t. It’s just that he’s a bit older than her usual boyfriends,’ he admitted and stared at her in bemusement when she was forced to smother a slightly hysterical laugh. ‘When I got back to find the house deserted I wasn’t thinking quite straight. I just assumed he had carried her off last night.’

And serve Luke right if he had, she thought, tetchily. ‘Well you’re tired and probably hungry too. What have you had to eat today?’

‘I don’t know. Someone brought in some sandwiches this morning.’

‘And now it’s six-thirty,’ she said, exasperated by this evidence of the inability of men to look after themselves. ‘Come on. I’ll cook something for you.’

‘That’s the best offer I’ve had all day,’ he said.

It’s the only offer you’re getting today, she said, but to herself this time, remembering just how acute his hearing was.

‘And then I’ll take you home.’

Five minutes later she opened the door of her flat, turned on the gas fire in the living room and shrugged out of her flying jacket on her way to the kitchen. ‘You’ll find some brandy in that cupboard,’ she said. ‘Frankly, you look as if you could do with one.’

He ignored her singularly ungracious offer of a drink and followed her into the kitchen, propping himself on a stool, watching her as she began to break eggs into a bowl.

‘Fizz, about last night. You did understand, didn’t you?’

She kept her eyes firmly on her task. ‘I understood perfectly.’

‘Then why are you so angry with me?’

‘I’m not in the least bit angry,’ she snapped, as she dropped two slices of bread in the toaster.

‘Is it because I didn’t pick the snowdrops?’ He looked around as if expecting to see them on display. ‘I’ll go right now and pick you a basketful if it’ll make you smile.’

‘Don’t waste your time. I’d only put them in the bin with the others.’ She turned away to the hob and began to beat the eggs over the heat. For a while the only sound was that of the balloon whisk rattling against the side of the pan. Luke was so quiet that she began to wonder if he was still there. She half turned and as she did so the toast popped, startlingly loud in the quiet kitchen and she nearly dropped the eggs. And Luke was still there, watching her.

Quickly, avoiding his eyes, she found a plate, buttered the toast and dumped the eggs on them. ‘What would you like to drink? Tea, coffee?’

‘Come here, Fizz.’

The width of the breakfast bar was between them and she intended to keep it that way. ‘I’ve some orange juice, if you’d prefer.’

‘Come here, Fizz and I’ll tell you what I want.’

‘Salt? Pepper?’ she continued on a sudden rising tide of panic. What on earth had made her bring him back to her flat? She should have put him in a taxi and sent him straight home. It wasn’t as if she didn’t know what to expect. The man had all the moral scruples of a tom cat. They said women continued to fall in love with the same type of man; maybe that was a type she couldn’t resist.

She held out the salt pot, relaxing as he gave a little shrug and reached for it. But he didn’t take the salt, he seized her wrist instead and before she could save herself he had whisked her around the breakfast bar and into the curve of his arm. ‘This is what I want, Fizz. I’ve been dreaming of it since you left my arms last night.’ And he kissed her.

For a moment she went quite rigid, then something sort of slipped sideways inside her as his mouth, warm balm to her jittery nerves invited her co-operation and his arms offered her the kind of comfort she had always yearned for. By the time he finally raised his head, heavy lids disguising the dark desire she had briefly glimpsed in his eyes, Fizz had become a more than willing accomplice to his blitz upon her senses.

‘I... I... Your eggs are getting cold,’ she blurted out guiltily, pulling away, turning to pick up the kettle, filling it noisily.

She plugged it in and turned to ask him if he preferred tea or coffee. But she changed her mind. They’d already had that conversation and just look where it had got her. Instead she busied herself on the far side of the small kitchen, keeping the maximum distance between the pair of them. She cleaned up, flipped the lid on the bin to drop in the eggshells.

‘Thanks, Fizz. That was great.’ His voice, too close behind her, made her jump, the bin lid clattering down as she lost control and the eggshells went everywhere. He bent to pick them up, opened the bin, looked thoughtfully at its contents for a moment. ‘The note, too?’ he said, finally.

‘Why don’t you go and sit by the fire,’ she said, with forced brightness. ‘I’ll bring some tea through in a minute.’

His mouth twisted into an ironical little smile, but he didn’t argue. But the fact that he left the kitchen without a further assault on her emotions didn’t make her feel as safe as she had hoped.

But when, after endless delaying tactics, she had finally assembled the tea tray and carried it into the sitting room, she discovered that her fears were groundless. He was stretched out on the sofa, cushion pillowed beneath his head. Fast asleep.

She put the tray down very quietly so as not to disturb him and settled herself in the armchair angled to the side of the fireplace, watching the even rise and fall of his chest as he slept. The harsh lines of worry about the damage at the factory, compounded by Melanie’s defection, had been ironed out by sleep.

He looked younger, less threatening.

Sleep, Fizz thought, made us all seem vulnerable but with Luke Devlin she knew it was a dangerous illusion.

Claudia might profess to revel in living on the edge of that kind of danger, Melanie could certainly twist him around her little finger, but Fizz knew that she wasn’t built for such games.

If she didn’t put a stop to what was happening to her, she might as well press a button marked “self-destruct”. She had the uneasy feeling that she might already have left it far too late.

CHAPTER TEN

TEARING her eyes from Luke, she picked up a book and tried to read, but although the pages were turned with a regularity that suggested concentration, her eyes were just sliding over the words. She was merely keeping them busy so that they would not be tempted to simply watch the figure slumbering so peacefully on her sofa, apparently unaware of the confusion he had unleashed within her breast.

At half past nine she put the book down and walked across to him.

‘Luke?’ she said, quietly. He did not stir. She would have liked to shout at him, bring him crashing painfully from sleep; that was what he had done to her. One moment she had been quietly cruising along, dealing with life’s small crises, content in a career that she loved. Then she had lost her concentration for just a moment and hit the metaphorical brick wall.

But shouting at Luke wouldn’t help. If her body marched to a different drummer to her head she could hardly blame him. So she resisted the urge. Instead she forced her reluctant fingers to gently stroke the warm curve of his ear. After a moment his eyes flickered open and she saw the blankness that betrayed he was not truly awake and she repeated his name. Then his eyes creased in a smile as he recognised her.

‘Hello, Fizz. Did I fall asleep?’ He sat up, rubbing his hand over his face. ‘It’s been a long day.’

‘It doesn’t matter. I wouldn’t have woken you at all, but since you issued Melanie with a ten o’clock curfew I thought it would be too bad if you missed it yourself.’

He sighed. ‘Melanie.’ Then he gave a rueful little smile. ‘To think that I could have been sleeping peacefully on your sofa if I didn’t have to worry about her.’ He stopped, raked his finger through his hair. ‘Well. Perhaps it’s just as well.’

More than perhaps. But even so Fizz leaned forward. ‘Why do you worry about her?’ she asked. He looked at her, clearly expecting more. Fizz, aware that she had probably said far too much already, gave an awkward little shrug. ‘Don’t you think it’s time to let her go?’

‘To Andy Gilbert?’

‘She should be mixing with people of her own age, having fun. Not sitting at home like a ten-year wife waiting for her husband to come home and take some notice of her.’ She stopped. ‘I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said that.’

‘No. You’re right.’ His brows drew down, creasing his forehead as he considered what she had said. ‘I’m being over-protective I suppose. I know she’s nearly twenty and she’s had loads of boyfriends. But she seems so vulnerable and I promised my sister I’d look after her. Frankly, it’s harder work than I thought.’

‘Your sister?’ Fizz felt her blood chill. She shook her head a little, as if to clear it. It couldn’t be true. She couldn’t have made that big a mistake. But quite suddenly everything seemed to make a lot more sense. ‘Melanie is your niece?’ she asked, woodenly.

‘Of course she is. What else?’ She tried to answer, opened her mouth even, but nothing came out. Luke’s frown deepened. ‘Fizz?’

‘I… I thought…’ She couldn’t say it. She couldn’t tell him the truly awful things she had been thinking. ‘I thought you wanted to go home,’ she said. ‘If Melanie is there first you’ll never live it down.’ Her attempt at a teasing laugh was a dismal failure and as she made a move to pass him, he rose to his feet, blocked her way.

‘Tell me what were you thinking, Fizz?’

‘Luke, please.’ But as she forced herself to meet his eyes she saw from the grim set of his face that he had worked it out for himself.

‘You thought I was her lover didn’t you?’ His voice was harsh with disbelief. ‘Good god, she’s nothing but a child!’

‘Hardly that. She’s well over the age of consent. And she’s very lovely. I mean who would blame you?’

By way of justification it was hardly likely to improve matters. It didn’t. The muscles in his jaw tightened and the skin drawn tight over his cheekbones darkened ominously and Fizz suddenly found the wallpaper behind his head utterly fascinating.

‘You’re right of course. Which is why I’d rather she stayed away from Andy Gilbert.’ For a moment, a single blissful moment, she thought he had accepted that she had made an honest mistake and she eagerly sought his gaze. But his eyes chilled her to the bone. ‘So, let’s get this straight. I am supposed to be having the time of my life educating a girl young enough to be my daughter in the delights of sexual adventure?’ He ground the words out. ‘I’m not misunderstanding the situation? That is what you thought?’

‘Luke -’

He had asked, but the question had apparently been rhetorical. No answers required. ‘So what was going through your head last night, Fizz? You know, when you decided, entirely on your own initiative, to step out of your dress and tempt me into sex games on the study floor?’

‘I don’t think -’

‘Had you been on the look out for a likely tutor yourself and I just happened to fit the bill? I know you live like a nun, but maybe you’ve decided on a change of lifestyle. Or did you just want to keep your sponsor happy? I’d be really interested to know.’

Fizz took a step back. ‘I thought…’ No, that was wrong.

Thought had nothing to do with what happened behind the locked doors of his study. She hadn’t been thinking. She had been feeling.

The world had been nothing but sensation and she had been reacting to his touch, his expert mouth, teasing hands.

Oh, yes, he could teach her everything she had ever wanted to know about herself. She didn’t doubt it for a moment.

‘Well? What did you think?’

She stirred, lifted her hand in a forlorn little gesture. Dropped it again. ‘You decide, Luke,’ she said. And she saw, actually saw the moment when he made his choice; when his eyes turned to granite chips and her heart, her poor vulnerable, melted heart, disintegrated like a defrosted strawberry. But this time she didn’t disintegrate with it. Instead she lifted her head and looked directly into his eyes. ‘But you will remember that you were the one who locked the door.’