Because of You (26 page)

Blake starts to laugh. He gabs my hand. “Come with me.”

“Where?”

“I know where you can change.”

I follow him down the hallway feeling a little nervous. I’ve seen many Lifetime movies that start exactly this way. We end up in front of a dark wood door. “Here. You can use this room to change.” He opens the door for me.

“Whose room is this?”

“One of my frat brothers. Don’t worry he’s downstairs getting wasted. Besides I’ll stand guard to make sure nobody goes in.”

“Thank you.”

“You know you’re good for him,” he says before I walk into the room.

“What?”

“My brother. You’re good for him. It’s been a long time since I’ve seen him this happy. My dad fucks with his head so much the boy has a hard time thinking for himself, but with you it’s like he’s free. It’s nice to see him like this.”

I squeeze my lips together in a wide smile as I walk into the room. I’ve been so grateful for him coming into my life and making everything so much better, it’s nice to hear I’m doing the same for him.

I quickly slip out of my shirt and into the white Braden University T-shirt. I walk back out and notice Blake is no longer there. Good thing he said such nice things to me before I went inside the room or right now I would really think he was an asshole.

I walk back down the stairs the same way I went up. Making sure to take each step carefully. I walk through the crowd of sweaty bodies trying to find Austin. All the beer in my system still has me feeling dizzy, but I’m able to hold my balance. Someone walks by gives me another shot of whiskey. I swallow it and continue to look for Austin.

The party is getting louder as more people are dancing. I spot Blake with one of his frat brothers holding up some red hair girl upside down as she drinks from the keg, while everyone around her chants, “Chug, chug, chug!” Seconds later she’s down on her butt laughing like crazy while beer drips down her chest.

Note to self: do not ever get drunk at college party again. I don’t ever want to look like that girl.

I walk around some more and begin to feel like I’m walking in circles.

Everyone’s faces flashes in front of me. It’s really hot in here. Maybe I shouldn’t have taken that shot. My legs and arms feel so heavy as the room begins to spin faster.

Right when I think I’m about to fall right onto the sticky floor two arms cross around my waist. “There you are,” Austin whispers in my ear and then press his lips against my neck. “Mmm you taste like beer.”

I start laughing as my body goes limp in his arms.

“I think I’m ready to be alone with you. You wanna get out of here?”

“Yes.”

The cold air mixed with him making me speed walk to his car only makes me more dizzy. My eyes close the moment my head touches the headrest. I feel like I’m on a merry-go-round that’s spinning out of control.

“Are you okay?” he asks with fear in his voice.

“Yes,” I utter. The contents inside my stomach begin to rush up to my throat. “No, I’m not.” I open the door and begin to throw up right outside of his car. My stomach clenches as it heaves up more alcohol.

I can feel Austin hovering over me as he holds my hair back. Why did I drink so much? I think I’ve ruined this night.

By the time we enter Blake’s huge apartment all I want to do is jump in the shower. My head throbs as my body fights my stomach. I’ve already thrown up three times. I really don’t want to do it again.

“Do you mind if I take a shower?”

“Are you sure you’ll be okay by yourself in there.”

“Yes. I think I got most of the alcohol is out of my body.” At least I hope I did.

“Okay, but do me a favor please don’t lock the door. Just in case I have to get in there and help you.”

“Okay,” I mumble, feeling like a complete idiot.

Under the warm water I begin to feel a little better. All I wanted to do was spend tonight with Austin in every way we haven’t before, but I think I ruined that. I mean he just watched me throw up. I’ll be shocked if he’ll ever want to kiss me again.

Just in case, I make sure to run a razor on my legs again. I don’t need any sneaky hairs sticking out. I brush my teeth in the shower getting rid of the nasty taste in my mouth. I also use the special soaps Farrah bought me and actually feel refreshed. Maybe this is going to happen after all.

Wait! Am I really ready to do this? I’ve had sex before, but this time it’s different. I’m doing it with someone I’m deeply in love with. What if this changes our relationship?

Why do I have to be different than other girls? They drink and become promiscuous, while I drink and become frigid. Maybe I got drunk on purpose to sabotage this night.

I wrap a white towel around my hair and one around my trembling body. The minute I walk out of the bathroom things are going to change. I’m ready to make this big step, but at the same time I’m not. Oh God, why is this so hard. With Garrett I didn’t even think about it. I just did it. Okay, I have to stop thinking about this and just go out there to be with the boy I love.

I slowly open the door and see Austin sitting on the bed watching some true-life crime show. His eyes almost pop out of his head when he sees me. His gaze navigates from my legs to my chest and then to my eyes making my heart race.

“How are you feeling?” he asks with his eyes still examining my body.

“A lot better.”

He stands up and steps closer to me. “You are so beautiful,” he says grabbing my hands and pushes them behind me as he leans in to kiss me. My legs tremble trying to keep my balance. “

“I need to get dressed,” I whisper with his lips still pressed against my mouth. I’m so happy my vomiting didn’t disgust him.

“No you don’t.” His lips now travel down my neck. I do everything I can to hold the towel tightly around my body. I lightly push him away.

“I promise you’ll like my pajamas a lot more than this towel.”

“I doubt that.” He flashes a devilish smile right before he steps out of the room. “Are you sure you’re feeling better?’

“Yes,” I lie. The truth is the room is spinning again, but this time the alcohol has nothing to do with it.”

My heart still pounds hard as I put on my lace black panties. I get into my very short plaid pink shorts and tiny pink tank top that reveals most of my stomach. I check myself out in the full-length mirror and can’t believe that’s me looking back. With my wet hair I actually look sexy.

Oh God, my head is still throbbing making it hard to think straight.

“Can I come in yet?” Austin asks tapping on the door.

“Yes.” I don’t know why, but I jump under the covers.

Austin’s wrinkles his forehead when he sees me hiding my body in bed. Well I brought you this and two aspirins. It will make you feel better in no time.”

“What is it?” I look at the glass with the thick black liquid in it.

“It’s my brother’s formula to help with a hang over. Trust me you’ll feel better in no time.”

I wrinkle my nose, as I smell it. “What’s in it?”

“If I tell you, you won’t drink it.” Great, now I’m sure I don’t want to drink it. At the same time I’m so grateful he took time to make it for me. Every time he does things like this I love him even more. I take it from his hands, throw the pills in my mouth, and chase it down with the nastiest drink I have ever tasted in life. It was like Coke mixed with hot pepper and peanut butter. I gag as I swallow the last of it.

“Trust me in a couple hours you’ll be happy you drank that stuff,” he says taking off his jeans revealing black boxer briefs. He quickly puts on his grey and black plaid pajama pants, and then takes of his black T-shirt revealing his beautiful abs. My heart immediately begins to race again. I can’t wait for him to crawl into bed next to me. Maybe I am ready to do this tonight.

He props up his pillows up and gets into bed with me. I move in close to him as he tucks me under his arm. I put my head on his chest and can hear his heart beating as fast as mine.

We both lay in the bed holding each other pretending to watch whatever is on TV. Austin gulps and says, “You know we don’t have to do this.”

“What?”

“We don’t have to have sex tonight. I’m okay with that. I’m just happy having you sleep in my arms.”

The corners of my mouth shoot up into a huge smile. I didn’t realize how bad I needed him to say that. “Thank you.” I put my head back down on his chest and feel his warm lips on the top of my head as he gives me a sweet kiss.

We continue to watch TV until we both fall asleep.

I open my eyes feeling like my old self. I look outside and see the dark sky vanishing as the sun begins to come up. I sit up to and watch Austin sleep. He looks so peaceful. He is such an amazing person. I love him more than anyone else. He is my life and I’m ready to share everything with him. I’ve never felt more ready.

29

Falling Deeper in Love

I lean forward and press my lips against his. Unlike Sleeping Beauty he does not wake up with just one kiss. I go in again and begin to give him more kisses until he finally notices. He slowly opens his eyes and smiles. I use my tongue to trace little circles on his neck. A moan comes from the back of his throat as he inhales.

He continues to make delightful noises as I start to place kisses on his chest. I want him so bad I can’t think straight. I make my way back to his lip and enjoy his tongue as it enters and exits my mouth. Austin digs his hand into my hair and pulls me in closer. In a swift move he flips me over and now is on top of me.

We have been in this position so many times before, but always stopped before anything could happen. Not this time. I don’t want him to stop. He sucks on my neck and then starts to kiss each part of me. I arch my back and press my chest into his.

When his lips reach the top of my breast I put my hand on his chest to stop him. He looks at me thinking something’s wrong. I lift my torso off my bed and take off my tank top. His dark eyes open wide and a beaming smile appears on his face. He quickly brings his lips to my chest and begins to work his magic making me moan in delight. He wiggles me out of my shorts and takes off the rest of his clothes. It feels so right to have him lying on top of me without any layers of fabric between us.

He reaches over and grabs a condom out of his wallet. I’m so glad I don’t have to search for the one Farrah gave me. I watch him rip the foil open and put it on. My heart pounds like a hammer inside my chest knowing in seconds we will become one.

He slides himself all the way inside of me making all the love I have for him five times more intense. He looks into my eyes and says, “Baby, I love you so much.”

“I love you too.”

After I lay in his arms feeling complete. He kisses the top of my head sending little vibration throughout my body. Even though this was not my first time or even my second it felt like it was.

I close my eyes and fall asleep tangled in his arms.

The smell of bacon and eggs wakes both Austin and me. We both look at each other and smile. “Good morning again,” he say placing his lips on mine.

“Good morning. What smells so good?”

“I think my brother is cooking.”

Panic rushes through my body as I try to remember if my moaning or his was too loud. “Was he home...I mean...”

Austin chuckles. “No. I heard him come in twenty minutes ago.

“You know you’re really cute when you get embarrassed.”

“Shut up.” I hit him on the chest.

“We better get up.” I sit up with the blankets wrapped tightly around my body. I know it was only an hour ago since he seen me naked, but I’m not ready to reveal my body to him.

“Not yet. Lets stay in bed a couple more minutes.” He wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me close to the warmth of his body. “I just wanna hold you for a little while longer.”

I reach up and kiss the tip of his nose. A beautiful smile comes across his face.

“Hey kiddies breakfast is ready,” Blake announces, knocking on the door. “Get your asses out of bed.”

Austin groans as I pull away from him taking the sheet with me. I grab my bag and enter the bathroom before he can coax me back into bed.

I take a quick shower, brush my teeth and throw on some clothes in less than ten minutes. Sometimes I even shock myself how fast I can do that.

I walk into the kitchen to find Austin, Blake, and some girl I’ve never seen before sitting at the table. Is she Blake’s conquest from last night? I would never take Blake for the type of guy who makes breakfast for a girl the next day.

“Good morning,” I say sitting at the table. I look up at the girl and all of the sudden recognize her.

She’s the red haired girl they were holding upside down on the keg last night. The last time I saw her she was on the floor laughing her head off as beer dripped down her chin. I have to say she cleans up nicely.

“Hi I’m Maddy,” she says with a smile that lights up here whole face. She’s one of those girls who are naturally beautiful. Where she can just put her hair up in a messy bun, walk around in sloppy sweatpants, and still manage to look good.

“Hi. I’m Jade.”

“Yes, I know. Your boyfriend has been telling me all about you.”

“I hope they were all good things.” I want to ask her what’s her roll here. Is she Blake’s friend or his last night hook up?”

“Are you kidding me,” Blake says, getting up and standing behind Maddy. “I don’t know what you’ve done to my brother, but I’ve never seen him like this. The boy is actually in love.” I can’t help but produce a gigantic smile. I love that others can tell how much we love each other.

“Maybe it’s the same thing Maddy’s done to you,” Austin says smiling exactly the same way I am.

“Then you are a lucky man.” Blake leans forward just as Maddy looks up and places a kiss on her lips. She’s his girlfriend?

“They are lucky to have women like us in their lives,” Maddy affirms giving me a wink.

“So what’s going on in Cisco Beach?” Blake asks taking a bite of his bacon.

“Same old same old,” Austin answers.

“I’m really going to miss that place,” Blake states taking a bite of his toast.