Being a Green Mother (14 page)

They took a taxi carpet to Luna’s residence, which was an elegant mini-estate, fenced in, guarded by two lean and hungry griffins. They charged up as the carpet drew close, half-spreading their wings, but relaxed when they recognized Luna. She paid the carpeter, and the two of them entered the iron gate.

Orb was a bit nervous about the griffins, but Luna merely introduced her to them, and that was sufficient. It was evident that they attacked only strangers.

The interior of the house was very nice. “Oh, you are painting again!” Orb exclaimed, recognizing the pictures on the walls.

“It’s one way of easing the loneliness since my father died,” Luna said.

“How—if I may ask—?”

“He arranged it so that Thanatos would have to collect him personally, and then he offered me to Thanatos.”

“He
what
?”

“He wanted me to be friends with the Incarnation of Death,” Luna said, as if this were routine. “I didn’t understand at first, but later I did. It seems that I am to have an important role in a confrontation between God and Satan about twenty years hence, so Satan naturally wishes to eliminate me before then, and only Thanatos can protect me.”

“But what a cynical—what a horror!”

Luna shook her head. “No. Thanatos is a decent man. I have asked him to visit later today, so you can meet him.”

“So you—you are satisfied to associate with Death?” Orb asked, accepting this with difficulty.

“I think I would marry him, if that were feasible. But it seems not to be, so we merely associate.”

Orb decided not to question that further. She had known Luna well, but wasn’t sure how well she knew her now.

“And you,” Luna said warmly. “What have you been up to these past three years?”

Orb told her. She found herself hesitant to mention the baby, but also unable to refrain.

“A baby!” Luna exclaimed. “How wonderful!”

“Illegitimate,” Orb reminded her. “Given away for adoption.”

“A baby!” Luna repeated, as if this were the greatest possible accomplishment!

“Niobe doesn’t know.”

“I’ll say nothing. But how wonderful to have had the experience!”

Orb realized that Luna faced slight prospect of having a family. Viewed that way, it was indeed a lucky thing to have done. Pressed by Luna, Orb described the baby in detail, and it did seem to make the burden of the loss easier to live with.

They had a meal, still talking, catching up on things, and it was generally wonderful. They had been so close for so many years, almost like twins, and it was good to be close
now. Every so often they laughed for inadequate reason, cried for similar reason, and hugged each other, girls again.

Then Thanatos arrived. He was a black-cloaked figure whose face was a skull and whose hands were bones. Orb was awed—but then he laid back his grim hood and manifested as an ordinary young man, quite flesh and blood. “But he really is the Incarnation of Death,” Luna reminded her. “He collects souls and guides them to their proper destinations, in the difficult cases.”

Orb had no comment to make. Thanatos filled in with a question of his own. “I understand you are musical, Orb. Do you plan to perform here?”

“I’m really looking for the Llano,” Orb said, still reticent in the presence of this odd figure. “I suppose I might perform, too.”

“Perhaps you could travel with a group, as you did in India,” Luna said. “One that goes where you want to go.”

“I suppose I should,” Orb agreed vaguely.

“I encountered a group that might use a competent addition,” he said.

“Oh?” Orb found herself interested. Certainly she had to travel, and certainly she didn’t want to do it alone. “What group?”

“They call themselves the Livin’ Sludge. They started in Miami, but now they accept engagements elsewhere and seem to want to go on a tour, but have some difficulty obtaining suitable bookings.”

“No wonder, with a name like that!” Orb exclaimed.

“Groups run to names like that here,” Luna advised her gently.

Orb shrugged. “Are they good musicians?”

“I am not a proper judge,” Thanatos said. “But when they did a command performance for me, assisted by a girl from a neighboring choir, it was a considerable production. I suspect they wish to duplicate that experience, but are not sure how. They seem competent as performers, but it is magic they seek, and that is harder to achieve.”

“I have magic,” Orb said.

“So I understand. It is possible that you could be the element they need for the type of success they seek. I should warn you that they have some problems with drugs, which they are trying to eliminate.”

“Through music?”

“Would this piece you mention—I am not familiar with it—would it help them?”

“The Llano? I think it would, if they could find it. The Gypsies call it the universal absolver. But if I knew how to find it, I would do so forthwith.”

“Then perhaps you could search for it together.”

“Perhaps we could!” Orb agreed, abruptly liking the notion. To be with a group that was searching for the same thing she was—that could be wonderful! “Can you put me in touch with them?”

“I can take you to them, if you wish.”

Orb had an abrupt second thought. “You say they are addicts? Of what?”

“What they call ‘H,’ enchanted for greater potency. It isn’t really the same kind of thing that is historically known, but a designer drug that emulates heroin, extraordinarily addictive. They believe that the right music can relieve them of the craving. They do not appear to be bad people, merely ones who have fallen into unfortunate habits.”

“But heroin! What real hope for reform can there be?”

Thanatos shrugged. “My own balance of evil approached fifty per cent when I attempted suicide, but my new mission has given me strength. I think reform is possible, given the right motivation and circumstance.”

“My own evil threatened to overwhelm me,” Luna said. “Yet it seems that I am fated to play a key role in the salvation of mankind. I, too, find it necessary to believe that salvation is possible for anyone who really makes the attempt.”

Orb had another thought. “You can judge the amount of evil in a person? I mean, not a dead soul?”

“I can,” Thanatos agreed.

“I—” Now she found herself shy. “Could you—would you—?”

“Read your balance?” he finished. “This I can do. But I regard it as a private matter. Are you sure you wish it?”

“I have no secrets from Luna. Can you do it here, now?”

“He can,” Luna said.

“I’d really like to know.”

“As you wish.” Thanatos reached into a fold of his cloak
and brought forth two cabochons—polished, half-rounded stones. One was light, the other dark.

He brought the light one near Orb, passing it along her body from head to foot at a distance of a few centimeters. It flickered as it moved. With each flicker it became brighter, until at last it shone like a little moon.

Then he used the dark one in the same manner. It, too, flickered, but it became darker as it did so, until it was completely dull, with no shine at all.

Thanatos set the two stones together, and they merged, forming a ball. The flat planes of their bottom sides seemed to curve, forming a yin-yang shape.

He let the ball go. It floated upward, until it threatened to rise out of reach. He reached up and caught it. “Your balance is positive,” he said. “But there is a significant amount of evil on your soul. You have done something you should not have.”

Luna was silent, not divulging Orb’s secret. But Orb decided to reveal it herself. “I had an affair,” she said.

Thanatos nodded. “That is evil, by the current definition.”

“And I had a baby. Illegitimate.”

“That is greater evil. But I think not enough to account for the amount you show.”

“I did not tell my mother.”

“That accounts for it,” he said.

“Do you condemn me for that?” she asked, somehow wanting his acceptance.

“No. I killed my own mother, and Luna deceived her father. We understand these things. But the definitions of good and evil were set up before our time, and they are the ones that prevail. It is not necessary for Incarnations to agree with the prevailing rules; it is only necessary for us to implement them. By the old definitions, you have sinned grievously, and your soul is weighted accordingly; by my definition you have sinned only if you caused unnecessary pain to an innocent person. Did you do that?”

“I caused my lover pain, because he had to separate from me.”

“Were you the agent of that separation?”

“No.”

“Then that sin is not yours, by definition. But my definition is meaningless; I do not make the rules.”

“Still, I feel reassured.”

“It is reassuring to know Thanatos and to understand him,” Luna said.

“Yes. I am coming to understand that.” For the man who held the office of Death was evidently a decent person, one it could be possible to love—and Luna did love him. That portion of the prophecy seemed to be true: Luna might marry Death. But the other, that Orb might marry Evil—could this be the start of the shifting of her balance toward total evil? She shuddered.

But perhaps if she found the Llano first, she would be able to avert that horror. That made the search more urgent. “Let’s go see the Livin’ Sludge,” she said abruptly.

“Take her,” Luna said to Thanatos.

He nodded. “Mortis is outside.”

“Who?” Orb asked.

“His steed,” Luna explained. “You’ll like Mortis.” She seemed amused.

“Oh—a horse.” Orb was relieved.

She followed Thanatos out. Evidently Luna was not coming along. Maybe the horse could carry double but not triple. What had Luna found so funny?

A pale sedan was parked nearby. The two griffins lay beside it, almost as if guarding it, unless they liked the company of such machines. Thanatos went to this. He opened the door.

“This car? But Luna said—” Orb was confused.

“This is Mortis.”

“But—”

Thanatos had drawn his cowl back over his head. The skull-face grinned. “Show her, Mortis.”

The car changed. Its wheels stretched down, its hood stretched up, and its body reconvoluted. In a moment the vehicle had become a handsome pale horse.

Orb stared. Then she laughed. No wonder Luna had been amused! She had known about this.

Like all girls and most women, Orb loved horses. She approached the handsome animal, extending her hand so he could sniff it. “Hello, Mortis,” she said. “May I pet you?”

Mortis’ ears perked forward. That meant a favorable reaction.
She reached up slowly and petted him on the neck, on the side away from the mane. Then, unable to restrain herself, she stepped in close and hugged his neck. A horse was almost as wonderful as a baby!

Then Thanatos mounted and extended his skeletal hand to her. She took it, putting her left foot up into the available stirrup, and swung herself into the saddle ahead of him. It was an awkward maneuver, but she had learned it young. His arms came around her, but she trusted Luna to know her man, and knew that there would be no trouble.

Thanatos held her steady and spoke to Mortis. There were no reins. The horse took a step forward, paced by the two now-friendly griffins, and then leaped into the air, again paced by the griffins. The griffins had huge, beautiful wings, and the horse did not—yet all three were flying readily. Rather, the horse was galloping through the air, as if his hooves found purchase in it.

They charged upward into the sky. The griffins cried out in parting and turned to descend back toward the residence. It was evident that they would have loved to travel with the horse forever, but had guard duty to honor. Had Luna come, they could have come, too. Well, perhaps another time.

They moved above the occasional clouds, traveling generally south. Orb saw an airplane passing to the side. The horse seemed to be outdistancing it, yet no wind ruffled Orb’s hair.

“How is it that we can travel so high and fast, yet feel no wind or cold?” she asked. “When I ride on my carpet I have to wear warm clothing.” Of course her magic cloak took care of that, but the point was valid.

“The magic of the Incarnations is of a different order than that of mortal folk,” Thanatos replied.

So it seemed! “And how is it that you are willing to perform such a mundane task as taking a mortal woman to see a mortal musical group?”

“It is not every woman who would love the minion of Death,” he said. “Your cousin Luna is one.”

And for Luna he would do anything. Perhaps it made sense. She concluded that it was best not to pry into that relationship.

“She says that there is no other like you for music,” Thanatos continued after a pause.

“I don’t know whether that is true, but I do have a talent,” she said.

“I hope you find the group compatible.”

“Thank you, Thanatos,” she said, touched.

Then Mortis started down, and the great city of Miami spread out beneath them.

“How is it that no one stares at us?” Orb asked.

“Few people care to observe the approach of Death.”

Answer enough! They dropped down to the streets, and the horse’s hooves touched the pavement.

Then, abruptly, the two of them were sitting in the car. Mortis had changed form and was now driving along the street, in traffic.

They drew up at a slummish area of town. Thanatos opened the door and they got out. Orb heard music from a practice hall. Guitar, drum, electric organ—that seemed to be the extent of it, by the sound.

Several shaggy teenagers glanced up as they entered the hall. “Uh-oh,” the drummer said. “He’s here again!”

“Is your singer recovered?” Thanatos inquired.

The drummer shook his head. “She’s out of it. And we can’t get decent bookings without her.” He glanced sidelong at Thanatos. “You comin’ for one of us this time?”

“No. I come to bring you a new member, perhaps.”

The teenagers relaxed. “You know, that black chick—she was something! We never did a hymn before, but—” The drummer shook his head. “If you gave us her …”

“No. This is the one I bring.” He indicated Orb.

They focused on Orb. “Whatcha play?” the drummer asked, noting Orb’s container.