Authors: Rebecca York
Long seconds passed before Shane murmured, “Okay.”
Elena let out the breath she'd been holding. At least that was something.
His eyes closed again, and he was asleep within minutes. She started for the chair across the room, then reconsidered. She needed to sleep, because she would be no good to him or anyone else if she was too tired to think straight. But she didn't want to leave him. The bed was queen-size. Plenty of room for the two of them. She pulled back the covers and eased onto the far side of the mattress. At first she kept her arms at her sides, but when he didn't wake, she stretched out the arm nearest him until they were lightly touching. She liked the contact, and she would have snuggled closer to him, but she wasn't going to focus on her own needs. Her top priority had to be taking care of him and making sure he got well.
She woke in the night and knew that he was awake.
“How are you?” she asked.
“Better.”
His arm was still next to hers, and she felt him reach for her hand and link his fingers with hers. The gesture felt intimate, the most intimate thing they had done since they'd made love.
He squeezed her hand. “I'm sorry,” he said in a low voice.
“About what?”
“About being so crappy to you.”
“You had your reasons,” she murmured.
“Don't make excuses for me. I know you were worried about your brother. That turned out to be entirely justified.”
“But I should have told you what I was planning to do.”
“You didn't because you knew I would stop you.”
“Yes.”
She heard him swallow. “You said I was talking about a woman. It was my wife. I went through a messy divorce about a year ago.”
She felt her heart start to pound. “Oh,” was all she managed to say, shocked that he'd told her about it. But maybe the darkness and the intimacy of lying next to her made him feel safer about talking.
“She cheated on me,” he went on. “Starting when I was deployed. And I think that made me mistrustful of women in general. I was looking for reasons not to trust you.”
“I gave you a lot.”
He tightened his hold on her hand. “Stop trying to cast yourself in the worst possible light.”
“I haven't stopped feeling guilty about looking through Arnold's desk and then taking that phone.”
“You made a mistake. But you don't have to pay for it for the rest of your life.”
“Which means what?”
“Forgive yourself for putting family loyalty above your own welfare. The focus has got to be on figuring out who those men areâthen stopping them.”
“How are we going to do it?”
“I'm working on it.” He sighed. “But I need to be in better shape.”
“You will be.” She turned slightly and laid her head on his shoulder. She hadn't expected him to say the things he had. Now she was overwhelmed by the feeling of closeness.
“Got to go back to sleep,” he whispered. “You, too.”
She closed her eyes, feeling better than she had in days. Weeks. Maybe forever.
***
When she woke again, the side of the bed next to her was empty, and panic grabbed her by the throat.
She leaped out of bed, not sure where she was going.
“Shane?”
He didn't answer, but she heard water running in the bathroom.
“Shane?” she said again as she hurried to the door.
“I'll be out in a minute.”
She waited for the door to open, then stared at him. He was wearing fresh sweatpants, but he was naked to the waist, and he looked almost like himself.
“You're better,” she said.
“Yeah.”
Did he remember what he'd said to her last nightâand what she'd said to him? And did it all mean the same thing in the light of day? She couldn't ask. Instead she said, “You should stay off the stairs. I'll bring you something to eat.”
“Probably a good idea.”
She hurried downstairs, opened a can of chicken noodle soup, and poured some into a mug. She heated it in the microwave, then got herself some tomato soup from another can.
She put the mugs on a tray along with glasses of water, a box of crackers, and a couple of napkins. It was an odd breakfast, but it would do.
When she came back into the bedroom, he had plumped up the pillows and was sitting up.
“You should take your antibiotics,” she said.
“I did.”
“Okay.”
She set the tray on the dresser and brought him the soup and the water, then sat across from him in the chair, sipping from her own mug.
“I know the other guys at Rockfort are worried about me,” he said after taking a sip of soup. “But I don't want to get them involved.”
“Why not?”
“Safer.”
She nodded and took another swallow of her breakfast.
“Did your brother say anything about who the men were who wanted the information from S&D?”
“The only thing he said was that they would hurt him if he didn't deliver.”
“How did they hook up with him?”
She closed her eyes for a moment. “I don't know. He probably didn't want me to know anything about it.”
“Yeah.”
“Was he always secretive?”
“Not when he was little.” She stopped and thought about it. “He didn't have to work hard when he was little to get my parents' approval. Then stuff started happening. I mean, like he got a D in Algebra II. Or he didn't get on the football team. Things that he considered failures.”
Shane nodded.
“He wanted them to be proud of him, and he wasn't living up to his own expectations. So he'd do things he knew were wrong, but he'd keep them from my parents.”
“Like what?”
“He and some of his friends made themselves into expert shoplifters. They'd go into a store together, and one of them would get the clerk's attention while the other one stole some stuff. Then they'd sell what they took.”
“And you know thisâhow?”
“I heard them talking about it. They didn't know I was on to them.”
“And you never said anything?”
She shook her head. “I should have, but I knew it would kill my parents.” She raised her head. “Did you have a perfect childhood?”
He laughed. “Of course not.”
“What was wrong with it?” she asked, surprised that she was pressing him. But she didn't want the exchange of information to be one way.
He took a sip of soup before answering. “My dad came from a rough neighborhood in Pittsburgh. When he grew up, he worked at a steel plant. It was a hard life, and he wanted better for me. So he pushed me to do well in school, and if I slacked off, I was punished. At the same time, he wanted to make sure I was a tough guyâthat I could take care of myself under any conditions.”
“What about your mom?”
“She went along with his thinking.”
“I guess that's like my mom,” she murmured.
“I know you believe it has to do with your culture. But I think it's just as much a generational thing.” His gaze turned inward. “Part of being a tough guy was not letting your emotions show. Maybe that's why my marriage got screwed up. I could only reveal so much of myself to my wife, and maybe she wanted more of me. But I couldn't give her any more.”
She clasped her mug in her hand. So he did remember what he'd said the night before. And now he was saying more about himselfâthings that he'd kept private.
He was speaking again. “I could let myself go with my buddies better than I could with my wifeâbecause the emotions that men show each other are âtough' emotions, if that makes any sense.”
“I think so. I guess like my brother and his buddies.”
He sat up a little straighter. “And that's making me think that I'm not being fair to Max and Jack right now. I know they're worried about me, and I've been trying to protect them. But maybe it would be better if I clued them in on what's going on.”
“That makes sense,” she answered.
“Down in the kitchen, in the last lower cabinet on the right, there's a cell phone. It's plugged into an outlet inside the cabinet. Could you bring it to me?”
“Of course.”
***
Shane watched Elena get up.
“Should I leave your mug?” she asked.
“Yeah, I'll finish the soup later.”
As she left the room, he felt his tension mount. He knew the guys were worried about him, and he knew he could only say so much. But he had to make the call.
Elena brought the phone and handed it to him.
“Do you want me to leave while you talk to them?” she asked.
He shook his head. He'd told her to go outside when he'd talked to Iverson, but not now. He was trying to change his relationship with her into something different, although he wasn't sure if it would workâfor a lot of reasons. Like the way he'd started off suspecting her. And then his feelings of anger and betrayal when she'd called her brother.
He had told himself he trusted her now. He wanted it to be true. And also the reverse, because when he thought of her not trusting
him
, he felt his gut clench.
He switched his attention to the phone, which was a secure line that nobody should be able to tap into. The instrument at the other end of the lineâat Rockfort Securityâwas similar.
Max picked up on the first ring.
“Shane?”
“Yeah.”
“Are you okay?”
“Mostly.”
He heard the relief in his partner's voiceâand also the worry.
“What happened? Where are you?” Max asked.
“Down south. I don't want to be too specific,” he answered, knowing that Max could probably figure it out.
When his partner said nothing, Shane said, “I know the cops are looking for me, and I want you to be able to deny that you know where I am. My SUV's at the St. Stephens safe house, but you might as well leave it there.”
“Yeah, we know. We were down there,” Max said.
“Did you find anything?”
“Shell casings and exploded land mines.”
“No clue about who was there besides us?”
“No.”
“Did they search the house?” Shane asked.
“Yeah. It's pretty messed up, but we'll take care of it.”
“The boat's somewhere on the other side of the river.”
“Okay. We'll try to get it back. If not, it's insured.” Max cleared his throat. “And you're not in danger at the moment?”
“Not at the moment.” He laughed. “I'm not a hostage or anything. I'm just trying to lie low for a few days.”
“Were you hurt?”
“Let's not get into that,” Shane clipped out, knowing that his answer told his partners he'd been injured.
“What can we do?”
“Elena Reyes' brother was being pressured to make her turn over some proprietary information from S&D to a third party. If you can find out who wanted it, I'd be grateful.”
“We're on it.”
He hesitated for a moment, then said, “And if you could find out what was so valuable, that might also be helpful.”
“You think Lincoln Kinkead's doing something illegal?” Max asked, picking up on the tone of Shane's voice.
Shane glanced at Elena, knowing she was listening to his part of the conversation.
“I don't know. But it would help to find out.”
He knew Max wanted to keep him on the line, but he wasn't going to let that happen.
“I'm getting off now,” he said.
“When will we hear from you again?” his partner asked.
“I'm not sure. I just wanted you to know I'm okay.” He clicked off.
He looked up to see Elena watching him.
“You think Lincoln Kinkead is doing something illegal?”
“I'm not sure, but I'm beginning to wonder about the way this whole thing was handled.”
“I don't understand.”
Shane sighed. “He hired someone from outside the company.”
“Because maybe he didn't think Bert Iverson was good enough. Or he had a bad feeling about himâthe way I did.”
“Maybe,” Shane conceded.
“Do you have any idea what Arnold Blake took?”
“No.”
“Do you know about other products the company is developing?”
“Some. They're mostly for businesses. Some products are similar to Microsoft'sâonly S&D's are easier for non-technical people to use. The way you use their word-processing software makes sense, for example.”
“But this product's specialâand secret.”
She nodded, conceding the point, then said, “You want your partners to nose around and try to find out what it is.”
“Yeah.”
“We have to go back,” she said suddenly.
“But not until I feel like I can defend myself,” he snapped, then said, “Sorry. It's frustrating having to lie here.”
“I understand.”
“Yeah.” He slid down in the bed so that he was more lying than sitting. “And I'd better get some rest if I want to heal.”
Elena stood and gathered up her mug and the glasses of water she'd brought.
“Better not leave the house,” he said.
“Okay,” she answered.
“We have a big library of CDs and DVDs,” he said. “It's probably better not to watch anything liveâor streaming.”
“Why not?”
“Because I'd like to keep this place sealed off.” He gave her a direct look. “And you know it would be a bad idea to call your brother, right?”
“Yes.” She exited the room. He watched her leave, wondering what she thought about the caution.
He didn't dwell on that. He had only so much energy, and he wanted to think about Lincoln Kinkead, about every interaction he'd had with the man. Had Kinkead set him up? Or what?
***
Downstairs, Elena focused on washing the mugs they'd used and putting the rest of the soup into the refrigerator for later.
She understood why Shane was being careful about outside contacts. And she understood why he wasn't exactly in a good mood.
She lay down on the couch and closed her eyes.
Somehow she was able to get a few hours of sleep. When she woke again, she went upstairs to check on Shane.
He had closed the blinds, darkening the room, but she could see he was lying in bed, staring toward the door.
“You're awake.”
“Yeah.”
“How do you feel?”
“Better,” he answered, but she thought it might be an automatic response. She brought him more of his antibiotic and some water and waited while he took the medicine.
“Do you want some more soup?” she asked.
“In a while.” He held up one side of the covers. “Come here.”
She was surprised by the gesture, but she kicked off her shoes and slipped into bed beside him, on his good side.
He reached for her hand again and tangled his fingers in hers.
As they lay next to each other, he played with her hand, sliding his own fingers against hers and squeezing them, and she found herself responding to just that simple touch.
He turned his head toward her, stroking his lips against her cheek, then nibbling along the line of her jaw, before moving to her ear and stroking his tongue along the interior ridges, then sucking her lobe into his mouth.
No one had ever touched her like that, kissed her like that.
She felt tingles of sensation chase themselves over her nerve endings. She closed her eyes, letting herself ride the pleasure of it for a few moments before whispering, “What are you doing?”
“Enjoying myself.”
“You shouldn't be doing this.”
“Why not? Don't you like it?”
“I think you know I do, but you're still recovering. I mean, we shouldn't be doing anythingâ¦physical.”
“Maybe this is helping me get better.”
She felt him shifting carefully so he was half facing her. His lips moved to her neck, playing with her there the way he'd played with her jawline. With one hand, he found the bottom of her sweatshirt, reached under, and moved upward to stroke one of her breasts.
Her breasts felt full and achy, and her nipples were already hard. When he brushed back and forth against them, her breath caught.
“Don't,” she said again.
“Why not?”
“Because you're making meâ¦hot,” she managed to say.
“Good.”
As he spoke, he took her hardened nipple between his thumb and finger, squeezing and tugging gently on it, making her breath catch.
“Why are you doing this?” she asked.
“Because it feels good. And I haven't had much chance to feel good in the past few months.”
The way he said it tore at her, and though she knew she should stop him, she didn't do it.
He moved so that he could slip one hand inside the waistband of her sweatpants, then lower, circling her navel and stroking her stomach, then her thighs, before slipping into the folds of her most intimate flesh.
“You're so nice and wet for me,” he murmured.
She made a small sound, half embarrassment and half arousal. No one had ever focused on her pleasure like this. No one had ever teased her and tormented her this way. He didn't rush what he was doing, only glided his finger up and down, dipping into her vagina, then up to her clit, making it throb with need. And all the while, he kept his other hand on her breast, playing with her nipple.
He was watching her, and she felt more exposed than when she'd been naked making love with him. Unable to deal with that intimacy, she squeezed her eyes shut.
She heard her breath coming in gasps, felt her hips rising and falling to increase the friction as he sent her higher and higher toward orgasm.
Then she felt her body contract and gasped as climax grabbed her.
She came back to earth slowly and kept her eyes closed. She didn't want to look at him, but what was she going to doâget up and walk out of the room?
Reluctantly she turned her head toward him.
“Shane. You shouldn't have done that.”
“I wanted to. Watching you was very satisfying to me.”
That made her face heat, and she was glad that the room was dark. After a moment, she managed to say, “But you can'tâ¦I mean we can't.”
“Yeah, unfortunate that if I start moving around too much, I could pull the wound open.”
She rolled toward him, careful of his bad side as she slung her arm across his chest and laid her head on his shoulder. She could still feel the tension coursing through him.
He'd said what he'd just done was satisfying. She knew he probably meant “arousing.”
Without looking at Shane, she moved her hand, sliding it down his body and pressing it over the hard shaft that stood up against the knit fabric of his sweatpants.
He made a low sound as she pressed against him, and she knew he liked her touch.
“Can I do the same thing for you that you did for me?” she whispered.
“Only if you want to.”
“I do.”
Of course, he'd known exactly how to give a woman pleasure, and she was a lot less experienced, but she had the feeling she could figure out what to do from his reactions.
She stayed pressed to him. And as he had done, she slipped her hand inside his sweatpants, reaching downward, finding his distended flesh. He felt so warm and alive, and so sexy. She had made love with him, but she hadn't touched his penis. Now she learned the shape of it, the size, the length, and the girth as she circled it with her hand.
She remembered the things he did to her. Playing with her nipples, stroking through her sex. She slid one hand to his chest, finding that his nipples were hard. When she stroked them the way he'd stroked her, his breath caught.
She was bolder with her other hand, squeezing his penis.
“Move your hand up and down,” he said in a strangled voice.
She did, feeling the skin move as she worked her hand along his length.
His reactions told her what felt good, his rigid body, his heavy breathing, and then he whispered, “Harder. Faster.”
She shifted over him, squeezed him more tightly, moving her hand more quickly, feeling the tension coiling through him. Then she felt his climax, felt it so intimately that she had to catch her breath.
It took a moment for his breathing to return to normal. “Thank you,” he said in a gritty voice.
“Thank you for letting me get that close to you,” she answered. She felt him reach to the bedside table and grab a wad of tissues from the box there. Under the covers he cleaned himself up, then dropped the tissues on the floor.
Cuddling against him, she felt overwhelmed by the intimacy of what they had done. Maybe it shouldn't be that way. Was this more intimate than really making love? Right now it seemed so.
She wanted to ask where they went from here, but she thought she might not like the answer. So she kept the question locked behind her lips.
***
Shane Gallagher and Elena Reyes had disappeared off the face of the earth, and two people were beating the bushes looking for them.
One was Lincoln Kinkead, who had no idea if his chief of security had defected to the enemy or was even alive.
The other was Jerome Weller. He wanted to kill Reyes' damn brother. But the little piece of shit was the only leverage he held over the woman. Of course she could have fled the country, for all he knew. But he didn't think so. He was fairly sure she was where he could get to her, if he could only figure out where that bastard Gallagher had taken her.
He started with where his men had first found them on the Eastern Shore and worked outward from there. He thought he'd had a major breakthrough when he found the airport from which Gallagher had flown away. Until the flight plan he'd filed turned out to be bogus. He'd disappeared into thin air, as it were. But the damn little plane only held so much fuel. There was a limit to where he could have gone. Would he try to get as far away as possible, or would he stay closer to home? And what were his plans after that?
Weller indulged in a string of curses. He had to find the guy, because if he didn't, he was in deep shit.
***
Alesandro Reyes could have said the same thing. He was still in the basement of the house where they'd taken him. The fat guy's house. But he'd heard his guards talking when they thought he was unconscious.
He'd learned the fat guy's name, and if he ever got out of here, he was going to tell the cops, and to hell with the consequences.
The
matones
had taken him off the torture table, which was a blessing. Then they'd thrown him into a dark, stinking room, with only a sliver of light coming in from under the door.
He thought his nose was probably broken and swollen to twice its size. And one of his fingers was broken, too.
He could have internal injuries, except that he thought the guys who had worked him over knew how to avoid killing someone. Their mission was to inflict pain, not kill.
The killing could always come later.
When he felt like he could move without throwing up, Alesandro pushed himself to his feet and began to explore his surroundings. The floor was cement. One wall of the room was brick, which told him that maybe the house had been constructed before the cinder-block era. Which was what the other three walls were made of.
The room seemed to be about eight feet by eight feet, and he thought it had been built in the corner of the basement. The door was metal and wouldn't budge when he tried to shake it or twist the knob. There was no bed, only a thin mattress on the floor and a dirty blanket that smelled like a dog had used it last. And for a toilet, there was a metal bucket in the corner.
Men came twice a day to empty the bucketâanother blessingâand to give him a little food. Mostly junk like potato chips and cheese twists. After the nausea from the beatings subsided, he gobbled up the crappy food.
He could die in this room. He had come to know that. And he wasn't sure what would get him out.
He thought it had been days since he'd sent Elena into S&D to get that information, but he couldn't be absolutely sure of thatâor anything else.
In the dark, cold, stinking cell where roaches skittered across the floor, he had plenty of time to think.
At first he'd been angry with Elena for leaving him in this situation. But the longer he stayed here, the more he came to realize it was his own damn fault.
He'd taken his status in his family for granted. And he hadn't worked very hard to improve his lot in life. Then he had gotten sucked into doing some little jobs for the mob. He'd thought stealing cars and carrying drugs would be a nice way to increase his income, since he hardly made enough for a decent lifestyle with his job as a rental-car clerk.
At first he'd liked the excitement and the
dinero
. Then they'd asked him to do bigger jobsâlike carrying more dope and taking more chances. And last week they'd told him they'd get him arrested if he didn't make his sister get whatever it was from S&D. And then he'd found out that getting arrested wasn't the worst thing that could happen to him. And here he was in this miserable cell, wondering if he was going to make it home alive.