Bewitching the Baron (27 page)

That drew a laugh from him, but her glare quickly stopped it. Or at least stopped any audible chuckles. His eyes danced most suspiciously.

“I am not as good-natured about your guests as I led you to believe,” she said. “I am not just jealous of her, scrawny little Kate in her garish dresses. I am jealous of the lot of them, of the time you spend in their company. I wish none of them had ever come!” There. Now she had done it. Aunt Theresa’s good advice all thrown to the devil.

“All this time you have claimed to have spent deworming children and dosing coughs, you truly were mooning over my absence, then?”

“Well, not precisely. Worms must be dealt with, but it was you I thought of while I did it.”

His kiss was as sudden as the slap, but a hundred times more gentle. One moment she was debasing herself with a display of neediness and jealousy, and the next she was being held tight in his arms.

Just as suddenly he pushed her away, although holding her steady by her shoulders. “We cannot do this here.”

Valerian blinked around her at the glass walls. No, not the best of locations for a tryst. “I did not want to make you feel guilty for spending time with your friends,” she said, back on what had become a safer topic.

He looked at her quizzically. “My guilt or lack thereof is my own responsibility. You cannot make me feel it if I do not agree it is warranted.”

She thought a moment, thinking it sounded like something Aunt Theresa would say. “I believe that makes a certain sense,” she admitted, then moved forward in his arms until she could lean her cheek against his chest and hear his heart beating beneath her ear. “You know, I thought this would all be much easier than it is,” she said.

“All what?” he asked into her hair.

“Having a lover. I want you to see the best of me, and yet somehow it is the petty and insecure part that comes out. I grow selfish of you. I want more of you than you can give. I have all the generosity and reason of a two-year-old where you are concerned.”

“Perhaps it would have been better if I had never noticed you, and left you to your worms and boils, if this is causing you such misery.”

She shook her head in fierce denial. She could not explain to him the importance of this joyful torture. It was life to her, when all else was turning to death. “I would not trade this for the world.” Aunt Theresa’s cautions not to press him for commitments or declarations came back to her at that admission, which she knew to be too much, too soon. “It is a marvelous chance to learn about men, after all,” she said to cover herself.

“I hope I do not discover you poised with dissecting knife in hand above my helpless body some night.”

“Rest assured, I would drug you first. You would not feel a thing.”

“All in the name of science,” he said, and did not resist when she pulled away.

“Of course. And now, dear sir, I truly must finish my work here. I have no desire to stay and risk another meeting with the charming Kate.” Which was only partly the truth. She had been away from Aunt Theresa all morning, and it was time she got back, much as she wanted to stay in his arms come Kate or Paul or Hades himself.

“Would you like a chance to meet her on equal ground?”

“A duel? Nathaniel, how delightful of you to suggest it! Do you think I would do better with swords or pistols?”

He smiled. “We are to have a masked ball. The gentry of the entire district is to be invited. I thought you might enjoy attending, as a pirate with both sword and pistols if you wish.” He raised a brow at her. “You could tell yourself it was purely an educational experience. I know you are above such motives as revenge, curiosity, or hedonistic pleasure. Not that I believe there is much pleasure to be found at a ball, but it has been my experience that women feel differently.”

“I truly do not want another confrontation with her,” Valerian said more seriously.

“Your face will be concealed, my dear. No one will know who you are. You can disappear before the unmasking.”

Her instincts told her it was a bad idea. She would be stepping quite beyond her station to attend and opening herself to all manner of ridicule if discovered.

But if she went, she could show Kate that Nathaniel preferred another’s company, could drive out any illusions the woman had that he could want to marry her.

And perhaps there would never be another chance to attend such a party. For all that she had always claimed to have no desire to live that sort of life, honesty compelled her to admit she was curious. For a moment, her head was filled with candles and music and swirling colors. She saw herself with her hair piled high, a black mask concealing her features, moving amongst the lot of them as if she belonged. And perhaps she could, for one night.

She smiled up at him. “It sounds splendid.”

“I do not know what he was thinking,” Valerian said, and dropped heavily into the chair by the fire. “I do not know what
I
was thinking, to have agreed to go.”

“I am not entirely certain that this is a good idea,” Theresa said from the opposite chair, a blanket up over her legs. Her stout health had deteriorated to gauntness, and her skin was taking on a yellow tone, but she seemed happiest trying to take part in day-to-day life, so Valerian had ceased encouraging her to stay in bed.

“You are the one who kept saying I should have the chance to go to balls and parties. I had thought you would take his side in this.”

“I did not mean for you to sneak in by disguise, as if you were a secret to be hidden.”

“It is a fancy-dress ball.”

Theresa snorted. “You know what I mean.”

Valerian picked at the end of her braid. “I confess, though, I am a bit curious. I have after all never been to a ball before.” She looked up at her aunt, and saw her wry smile. “You are not going to say ‘I told you so!’ are you? I could not stand it if you did.”

“Certainly not. I have more restraint than that.”

Valerian narrowed her eyes at her aunt, hearing the faint whisper of smothered laughter. “But perhaps I will not go. I have nothing to wear.”

“That, at least, I may be able to help you with. Go pull the chest from beneath my bed.”

“Your special box?”

“Yes, that one.”

Valerian went to the bed and knelt on the hard floor, peering under the bed at the shadows and dark shapes. At last she located the long, low wooden chest, and dragged it forth by the tarnished brass handle on the end. Theresa got up and slowly made her way over to the bed, sitting down on its edge with an audible sigh.

“There now, open it up,” she said. “There are other things in there you should see as well.”

Valerian lifted the lid, and was overwhelmed by the scent of the herbs used to keep moths away. She had only seen Theresa open the box a few times before, to place inside keepsakes that might perish if kept loose in the cottage. A few of Charmaine’s baby clothes were inside, as well as a drawing of Valerian’s mother, Emmeline.

At Theresa’s instruction she lifted these out, as well as a small bundle of letters, one of Valerian’s first carved animals, and several other items. It was soon apparent that the chest had two compartments, and Valerian lifted out the wooden tray to reveal what lay beneath.

“Good lord!” Valerian swore, gazing at what was revealed.

“You would make a fine forest maiden in that. Or perhaps a druidic priestess or elven queen.”

Valerian reached out a hand to gently touch the emerald silk gown folded and half-crushed from its long stay in the bottom of the chest. Jet beads picked out a pattern of trailing ivy across the bodice, narrowing down to the waist. She lifted the gown from the box and saw that one tendril of ivy continued down the front of the gown, then widened like spilled water to splash around the hem.

“It was the dress I wore the night your mother and I fled London, the night our own mother was killed,” Theresa explained. “I was never certain why I kept it.” She took one of the creases of silk between her fingers. “It will need a good airing, that is for certain. And the attentions of an iron.”

“Are you certain you want me to wear this?”

Theresa raised an expressive eyebrow at her. “Do you think I am saving it for a party invitation myself? Now, being a masquerade, we might baste a bit of real ivy over the hem—”

“Gracious, no! I can hardly see fit to wear the gown, much less destroy it with sewn-on vines.”

Theresa shrugged. “Then I suppose we could twine the ivy in your hair. And a mask, we will have to make a mask. . . . But that can wait for the moment. Here now, lay the gown over the table. There is something more I need to show you.”

Valerian did as bid, and returned to the trunk. Two velvet pouches sat in bottom corners of the trunk. She knelt down and lifted the nearest, feeling the unmistakable clink of coins. Her eyes were wide as she handed the bag up to Theresa.

“This is what is left of the gold your mother and I took that night, from the hiding place at our home.” She opened the drawstring and poured the coins into her lap, one coin sliding off to thunk on the floor. “There is enough here for you to establish yourself in another town, if the need ever arises. You can disappear as thoroughly as your mother and I did.”

“It has lasted all these years?”

“Well, the bag was considerably fuller when I started. I purchased the cottage and furnishings, and when times have been hard I have dipped into it. But beyond that, there has not been much in Greyfriars worth spending it upon, compared to saving it to save our lives, if necessary.”

Valerian helped her scoop the coins back into the pouch and replaced it in the trunk.

“Now, that other bag.”

This one was lighter, but by its feel Valerian suspected she knew what it held: jewelry.

“When your mother was born, your grandfather gave your grandmother a gift. He gave her one when I was born as well—I long ago passed it on to Charmaine, who sold it so that she could marry Howard and set up a shop and home with him. You will not want to wear this to the ball, but it is time that you knew it was here, and knew it was yours.”

Valerian bit her lips as Theresa drew the sparkling sapphire and diamond necklace out of the bag. “Oh my,” she said on an indrawn breath. Valerian took the necklace, draping it across her fingers, the facets of the gems catching the light.

“And let us not forget the earbobs.”

Valerian spared only a glance for the matching earrings, astounded still by the jewels she held in her hand. For the first time, she caught a glimpse of the life her aunt spoke of when she talked of her youth. “I did not quite imagine. . . .”

“Your grandmother had chests filled with such baubles. As I have said, mistressing can be a lucrative way of life.”

“Not that it did her much good in the end.”

Theresa shrugged. “No, I suppose not.”

Valerian wrapped the necklace around her wrist, admiring it, then let it slide off into a pile in her hand, and gave it back to Theresa to return to the pouch. “Perhaps it will not be so bad, masquerading as one of the nobility, if only for a night.”

Theresa smiled and patted Valerian on the hand. “There, I knew you were a Harrow at heart.”

Chapter Twenty

“Oscar! You are not helping.”

Oscar continued to cry like a baby and tucked his head yet further into her hair.

She tried once more to remove him from the crook of her neck, and got her hair pulled as a reward for her efforts. It felt very much as if there was a raven claw entangled in one of her braids, and lord knew he had already yanked several tendrils free of their mooring in his efforts to remain close to her, under the protection of her hood.

“I told you to stay at home, if you will recall.”

A gust of wind drove rain onto her already-wet face, and she held tight to the hood of her cloak. It was little wonder Oscar preferred to hide in her hair than ride on her shoulder in this weather. She herself had given more than one thought to staying home, safe and dry and warm, but recognized her reluctance for a failing of courage, and so forced herself to follow through on what had been planned for over two weeks. Tonight was the night of the masked ball.

The cloud-darkened twilight was settling into full night when the lights of Raven Hall at last came into view. Her dress and accessories were carefully packed in the basket over her arm, waiting to be donned in the dry privacy of James and Judith’s quarters off the kitchen. They were the only people she would trust with the knowledge that she would be attending tonight’s festivities, and she had rejected all of Nathaniel’s offers of assistance in preparation.

These past two weeks, Nathaniel had not let more than two days go by without seeing her, however brief the visit. With the cottage off-limits because of Theresa’s illness, they had often walked together to the cliff and sat watching the ravens and the water, sometimes talking, but many times sitting silent, side by side, sharing warmth and what Valerian wanted to think of as a companionship of the spirit.

A companionship of the spirit only, for certainly they had not been sharing a companionship of the body. She could feel his desire for her, could see it in his eyes, yet he did no more than kiss her, always breaking off when the heat of passion began to rise.

His reasons were a mystery, and one that she did not care to solve. If she asked why, he might tell her, and she did not think she could stand it if he said he had thought better of their arrangement. She did not want to hear that he was considering marrying Kate, or that he had realized that he belonged with his friends and family and not with someone like her.

The Raven Hall kitchens were a mad flurry of activity. The moment she stepped inside and pulled off her hood, Oscar released his hold on her and flew a ragged course over the heads of screeching kitchen workers, their hands flapping to keep him away, cries of “Bat! Bat!” sending scullery maids into yowls of terror.

Oscar landed on a convenient perch in front of Hairy the dog’s wheel. “Eee-diot! Eee-diot!” he cawed, and Hairy set up a wild series of howling barks, his measured lope becoming a mad dash within the turning wheel. The boy basting the meat on the spit cried out as he was sprayed with hot drippings, the large roast spinning madly.