Black Butterflies (21 page)

Tonight is one of those moments. Joyful, bursting with love and perfection. Tomorrow, who knows what tomorrow will bring? But for tonight, whatever sorrow might follow, all she can do is dance.

Petta is winding his way through the crowd towards her laughing. He takes her hand and pulls her to standing, he wipes away her tear with his thumb, kisses her on her forehead and swings her in dance across the flags.

‘
Lady,’ he says breathlessly, ‘I told you you would dance with me at my wedding!’

Marina seizes the moment and dances.

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The Explosive Nature of Friendship

Book Three of the Greek Village Series

Chapter 1

The whitewashed village basked in the summer sun, the red tiled roofs hazy in the heat. The road shimmered, the dust along its edges still. Not even a dog barked.

The kafenio, usually full of old men and farmers taking a break from work and wives, was empty. Behind the glass doors the old wooden chairs and rough tables were neatly arranged for their return. The chemist
’s and bakery that also flanked the town square were closed. The area in front of the church was devoid of shirtless boys playing barefoot ball. The school on the edge of the village, on the road that led into town, was finished for the day. The sun was past its highest and people were asleep during the afternoon’s heavy heat. All was quiet, not even a dog barked.

The deep dull thud was felt as much as heard, tremoring the ground like an earthquake, a sickening resonance that alerted the senses. Its unnatural quality penetrated the villagers
’ slumbers, rousing them to an unsettled wakefulness, questioning.

Sleepy, half-dressed people emerged from doorways, looking to their neighbours for explanation. Gates had rattled, windows had shaken, a glass had fallen over. They exchanged their experiences, trying to make sense of the unfamiliar sound. They felt alarmed but could find no cause to panic. They looked across the village to the sea, glistening in the afternoon sun; they looked up the hill to the dotted houses that nestled there amongst the olives. Everything appeared as normal. Sleepy, warm, unchangeable.

Rubbing eyes, they drifted back to shady, cooler interiors, muttering and grumbling.

It was only as the day
’s temperature dropped, and people pulled back on their working clothes to venture outside that, clustered in unsettled groups, they heard the news, the whispers, flowing like water through crevices, until they all knew the source of the disturbance and were horrified.

Marina's life changed in that instant.

At forty-three, Mitsos’ life would never be the same again and he felt he owed Marina even more. His constant remaining question: how much was he to blame for everything?

Fixed with twists of wire to the rusting metal gate at the end of the unpaved track is a home-made post box. Mitsos made it from pieces of an old wooden crate, with nails in his mouth, the construction pinned between his legs, his grey hair falling into his eyes as he worked. He was going to paint it, blue perhaps, like the sky, but then he took the time to admire the grain of the wood, rubbed his veined and age-spotted hand along its smooth surface, and left it unspoilt.

Worried about the spring rains, he gave it a sloping roof using the front piece of an old drawer, still shiny and polished. The brass handle with its ornate back plate now sits uppermost to glint in the light.

A lizard is sitting on the handle, its long toes spread as it basks in the morning sun. The grasses around the gate, dotted with delicate pink and purple flowers hiding in their length, are tall after the winter rains - the rains that found their way through Mitsos’ kitchen roof and dripped here and there on his kitchen floor.

At his approach the lizard disappears down the back of the gate into the undergrowth. Mitsos smiles, takes a moment to follow its progress through the undergrowth. He bends to examine the flowers tucked away amongst the grasses, but he doesn
’t pick them. Mitsos uses the drawer handle to lift the lid, edges the elbow of the same arm to hold it open as he slides his hand under and into the box to feel around. It is a well-practised manoeuvre. He scrapes his nails along the wooden insides to see if anything has become lodged flat, and with joy, and nervousness, he retrieves an envelope. He has been expecting this letter for days.

Mitsos looks up at the clear blue sky and mops his brow with his forearm. Even though it is hot the spring rains have not finished yet and Mitsos can feel the pressure changing. By the gate the grasses rustle as another lizard runs through them, or perhaps it is a snake.

He feels the envelope. It is thin, a single sheet perhaps. He heads up the lane towards the house.

He wonders how long the letter has been in the village. The postman, Cosmo, brings letters to the village every day. But after a ride on his moped to the central depot in town and back, he often gets as far as his home near the square and feels in need of a little time to himself and a coffee. Then he often loses his sense of urgency, and the post can remain on his kitchen table sometimes for days before it is finally delivered to its destination. Mitsos recalls that Cosmo was just as lackadaisical back in school.

Holding the corner of the envelope between thumb and forefinger, he reads the return address as he walks: Berlin. His breath catches and suspends; he stands still. The enormity hits him. He can feel his heartbeat in his chest, his pulse in his temples. If he handles it well this could put everything right … Mitsos feels an unfamiliar tremor of excitement. He puts the letter in the back pocket of his coarse serge trousers, breaths deeply to compose himself, and continues his steady pace home. There is never a reason to hurry.

The track to the house is stone and mud, much of which the rains have washed away and which Mitsos has not repaired yet this year. Some stones stand proud, the soil around them eroded. He stops, checks his balance, which is good today, and is about to kick one of the stones away when it moves. At sixty-five his vision is filmy and the edges of things appear fuzzy. He screws up his eyes and looks more closely, his slightly bulbous nose wrinkling in the effort. The baby tortoise is no bigger than his palm. Its head disappears. After a while the creature slowly extends its neck out of curiosity, its eyes blinking. As a boy, he once collected three such tiny tortoises. With wood and chicken wire he built a corral for them, the construction careful, but the next day his creep of tortoises had all gone. A mystery.

Mitsos lifts it to put it amongst the weeds by the track and continues his steady amble, the smell of rosemary drifting to him on the wisp of a breeze.

His cottage is settled in a hollow on the rise of a low hill, and from the front there is an enchanting view across the village: lichen-covered orange roofs capping single storey whitewashed houses, each crouched low, in between neat vegetable gardens. Beyond the village, regimented orange groves spread across the plain and far away to the blue hills in the distance.

Despite the uplifting panorama Mitsos no longer uses the front door, not since that day, to which fact the tangle of roses, tall grasses and overgrown succulents testifies. The featureless packed-earth rear is more private; he feels hidden here.

The kitchen is dark after the bright sunlight. Mitsos briefly closes his eyes to adjust. The small, low, dirty, thinly curtained window casts sunlight in a shaft through the kitchen, across furniture that his grandfather made. The dark polished wood bridges generations and centuries, suffocating but reassuring. The house smells ever so slightly damp since the rain.

Mitsos is fidgety and looks around for his cigarettes, which are not immediately apparent. He takes the envelope from his pocket and props it up on the painted plaster mantelpiece before commencing a more thorough search.

His kitchen, like the other three rooms in the house, is sparsely furnished: a table and chair, a day-bed, a rug by the fireplace. Everything is foggy with dust, the colours sucked out by the passage of time.

During his half-hearted search of the room he lives, and now sleeps in, he cannot avoid noticing the sink of chipped, unwashed china and blackened pans. He is also running out of, well, everything. The vegetable box is empty. The mesh umbrella keeps insects from nothing but bread crumbs and the heavy fridge no longer works, although it now acts as an admirable mouse-proof storage bin for chicken feed.

Abandoning the search for tobacco, he turns on the single tap and stares out of the window into the almond grove as he half-heartedly commences the chore with cold water and no soap. The cool running over his fingers feels delicious in the heat. He bathes his forearm and wipes his wet hand over his unshaven face.

Then he recalls that he was about to do something that was both exciting, and scary. Or was that a memory leaking into the present from another day? He casts around the room for a clue until he spots the letter, the possible answer to his one wish. He leaves the washing-up undone, dries his hand on his trousers and plucks the envelope from the mantelpiece. Wedging it in a drawer, he takes a knife from beside the sink to open it.

‘
Hey!’ Adonis’ head appears around the door, shiny-faced, shaven, clean, and then disappears.

Mitsos puts down the knife and carefully places the letter back on the mantelpiece. He steps outside into the heat, which is both beating down and rising off the compacted mud yard by the orchard.

Adonis takes a baby-seat out of his car and puts the sleeping child down in amongst the trees. He hands a large bag of bottles and nappies to Mitsos before giving him a hearty hug.

‘
Leni’s written all the instructions on a piece of paper in the bag and sends her love ... And she asks when will you come to eat with us?’ He is smiling, full of life, and smart in his suit trousers and white shirt. They have the same nose but Mitsos is aware that his is bigger, as are his ears now, with tufts of hair growing from inside them and dangling lobes. Old man’s ears. His brother is smarter too. ‘But,’ says Adonis, ‘I had opportunities that you did not, more education ...’ He puts the nappy bag down by the back door.

The new car, the baby-seat, the big modern bag smelling of sweet chemicals and the noise of the engine seem incongruous outside the back of the flaking whitewashed house, flanked by patchy painted flower pots and a swept-earth yard.

‘I still don't think this is a good idea. I won’t manage,’ Mitsos says. Baby goats are fine; he even has the patience to help a nanny to give birth. Feeding donkey foals and lambs is no problem. But a human baby – how will he know what it wants, and what if he misreads the signs? He blinks a few times and tries to calm his racing thoughts.

‘
You'll be fine. He’s just been changed so you probably won’t have to deal with that. We trust you, so you should trust yourself.’ Adonis kisses the baby on the top of his head and, gently, pats his big brother on the back.

Mitsos asks,
‘Have you thought what you are going to call him yet?’ He does not know how to even address his little nephew, let alone feed and change him. He considers his little brother rather rash in his choice of ward for something so precious.

‘
Well, Leni wants to name him after our Baba but I have said no. Nor do I want to name him after her grandfather, Zorba.’ He waves his fingers at his son, playing an invisible piano. ‘Leni’s mother wants to call him Miracle, but if we go down that route I said we should call him Science.’ Adonis laughs at his own joke. Mitsos smiles to be polite but he has watched them struggle through two years on IVF programmes and the gesture does not reach his eyes.

At the time he had thought it unnatural, but then again what else could they do when they had met so late? Adonis continues.
‘So we have decided on a name, but Leni is adamant that we do not call him by it until he is baptised, so he is “Baby” for now.’ He smooths the baby’s hair; his eyes close as if to sleep. ‘Leni is very traditional in that way,’ Adonis whispers to the child.

‘
So “Baby” it is,’ Mitsos establishes. But a name does not quell his panic. He was no more than five when he found the nest of baby mice. He had picked one up and held it tight and ran to his mother to show her. His mother had been so cold. She just picked it up, from his pink palm, by its tail, and dropped the lifeless creature into the fire. ‘I still don't think leaving him with me is a good idea.’ Mitsos touches his nephew’s hair as gently as he can, testing his control.

‘
It is only a couple of hours. Besides, you need to bond.’ Adonis is smiling, and this time pats Mitsos heartily on his back.

‘
I don't think this is a laughing matter.’ Mitsos is serious. He tries to console himself that the mouse was nearly sixty years ago. He had held it tightly to keep it safe from falling. What he thought would save it had killed it. Maybe he still thinks upside down like that.

Adonis slams his car door and turns his head to reverse down the track to the road. Mitsos watches him disappear as he backs into the lane, leaving the gate open. He turns to the sleeping boy. He objects to his presence. He's been alone a long time.

True, just over a year ago he had opened the shop. Adonis had galvanised him into making an effort, to become part of village life again.

They had taken on an
apothiki
, a small storage house, filled the rough wooden shelves with plastic bottles of powders, and sacks of chemicals, to be mixed with water for crop-spraying and blight-killing, lined up against mossy walls. But when the first trickle of farmers visited, mostly out of curiosity, Mitsos was abruptly aware that he still could not face the villagers. Adonis managed it for a while, but his heart was not in it either. Not one to miss an opportunity, he pays a manager to run the shop now. With relief, Mitsos returned to his solitary life, which he had been living for the past twenty years, happy to feed his chickens and potter down to the kafenio.