Blame It on the Bikini (10 page)

She’d been impressed by the slick black-and-white mysterious message that had spread over the screen of her phone when she’d clicked on it. Yeah, she’d been fielding texts and calls all morning with people wanting the inside deal on what the plans were for the party—all excitement and conjecture. Because the Davenports were the ultimate in cool. Stylish, unique and rolling in it, and anyone who was anyone, or who wanted to be someone, wanted this invite. She’d answered honestly that she hadn’t a clue what was planned but that they’d better be smart enough to keep it secret from Lauren. Mya had threatened them with a prolonged and agonising social-death sentence should anyone spoil the surprise.

Her shift crawled to its end. She was almost in tears
with relief and at the same time ready to drag herself across town. She’d doze in the bus on the way. The last person she expected to see just outside the café door was Brad.

‘What are you doing here?’ Was she so tired she was hallucinating?

‘I thought I’d give you a lift home. You must be exhausted.’

Not a hallucination, he was real. Looking so strong and smiling, and she wished she didn’t have any stupid scruples.

‘I’m okay.’ She was so tired, it was harder to control her reaction to his proximity and the urges he inspired.

‘You got it done?’

She nodded, glad he’d reminded her of her work. ‘Thanks for coming in but I’m not going home. I’m having lunch with my parents.’ She was due there this minute.

‘I’ll give you a ride.’

‘No, it’s fine,’ she hurriedly refused. ‘I take the bus.’

He looked at her. ‘I can give you a ride.’

‘Shouldn’t you be working?’ She really didn’t want him taking her there.

‘I’m due a lunch break too.’

‘But—’

‘Can you stop saying no to me in everything?’ he asked. ‘I’m offering as a
friend
, Mya. Nothing more.’

She opened her mouth and then shut it again as she registered the ragged thread of frustration in his voice. He must be tired too—that invitation would have taken some time on the computer. Had he not slept a wink either?

‘You don’t have to do this,’ she said softly ten minutes
later as they headed towards the motorway that would take them right across town and to the outskirts.

‘Don’t worry, I won’t embarrass you.’ He reached over and gave her knee a teasing squeeze. ‘I won’t tell them you like sending people racy pictures of yourself.’

She managed a light laugh but her discomfort mushroomed as she realised he was going to see the worst.

‘Are
you
embarrassed?’ he asked quietly. ‘You don’t want me to see your home?’

‘No,’ she argued instantly. ‘But you wouldn’t be the first person to look down your nose at my neighbourhood. We come from totally different worlds, so don’t act like you’re all understanding and down with it. You can’t ever relate.’

‘Your shoulders aren’t broad enough for a chip this big.’

‘Oh, it’s a chip, is it? It’s just me being oversensitive?’ She twisted in her seat to face him. ‘What would you know? Have you ever faced the judgments and expectations from each side of the economic divide? Girls from the wrong side of the tracks like me are only good for a fling.’ Never marriage material. That was how James had treated her. At first he hadn’t known. He’d been attracted to her academic success, but when he’d found out about her background, he’d run a mile. ‘All
you ‘ve
ever wanted from women like me is sex.’

‘All I’ve ever wanted from
any
woman is sex,’ he pointed out lazily. ‘It has nothing to do with your family background.’

About to launch into more of a rant, she stopped and mentally replayed what he’d said. And then she laughed.

‘I mean really—’ he winked ‘—you don’t think you’re taking this too seriously? We’re in the twenty-first century, not feudal England.’

She shook her head. ‘Twenty-first century or not, the class system operates. There’s an underclass you know nothing about.’

‘Don’t patronise me,’ he said. ‘I’m not ignorant. I’m aware of the unemployment figures and I’ve dealt with worse in my work. You’ve got no idea of the dysfunction I see. I can tell you it crosses all socioeconomic boundaries. Sometimes the worst are the ones who have the most.’

‘Yeah, but you don’t know the stress financial problems can bring.’

‘That’s true. I don’t have personal experience of that. But I’m not totally without empathy.’

‘And salary doesn’t necessarily equate with effort,’ she grumped. Her mother worked so hard and still earned a pittance. That was why she’d insisted Mya study so hard at school, so she’d end up with a job that actually paid well. And Mya wanted to work to help her parents.

‘Mya.’ He silenced her. ‘I know this might amaze you, but I’m not that stupid or that insensitive.’

She put her head in her hands. Of course he wasn’t. ‘Sorry.’

She heard his chuckle and let his hand rub her shoulder gently—too briefly.

‘I’ll let you away with it because I know how tired you are,’ he said.

But her discomfort grew as they neared. He’d been right—she didn’t want him seeing it. She was embarrassed. Embarrassed she hadn’t done something sooner to get her parents out of there. She should have done so much more already. ‘You can just drop me, okay?’

‘Sure,’ he answered calmly. ‘They must be impressed with how hard you’re working at the moment.’

Mya chewed her lower lip. ‘They don’t know.’

‘Don’t know what?’

‘Don’t know anything.’

‘That you work at the bar, the café or that you’re not at uni full-time?’

She shook her head. ‘They don’t know I lost the scholarships. They don’t know I’m at summer school. They can’t know. Can’t ever.’ She felt tears sting. Stupid tears—only because she was tired.

He took his eyes from the road for too long to stare at her. ‘And you’re that stressed about them finding out?’

‘Of course I am. Watch the traffic, will you?’

He turned back to stare at the road, a frown pulling his brows. ‘I think you should tell them.’

Her breath failed. ‘I can’t tell them. They’re so proud of me. It’s … everything.’

‘They’d understand.’

They wouldn’t. She’d be a failure. She didn’t ever want to let them down. She didn’t want disappointment to stamp out the light in their eyes when they looked at her. ‘You don’t get it. I’m the only one to have even finished school. They’re so proud of me, they tell everyone. I can’t let them down now. This is what I am to them.’ It was all she was.

‘Everyone stuffs up sometimes, Mya. I think they’d understand.’

‘They wouldn’t. And I couldn’t bear for them to know. It alienated me from the others. My cousins, the other neighbourhood kids … They gave me a hard time then. I don’t want more of a hard time now. I don’t want my parents disappointed. Life’s been tough enough on them.’

She’d been bullied as she walked across the neighbourhood in her school uniform—the only kid in the block to go to a school with a uniform. Taunted—told
she’d become a snob, torn down.
Freak. You think you’re better than us?

She hadn’t thought that. She knew just how hard those in her ‘hood worked—or worked to try to get a job. Sure, a couple hadn’t. A couple had gone off the rails in the way Lauren had once threatened to. But she knew better than anyone that snobbery worked both ways. In the one hand she’d carried the hopes and dreams of her parents; in the other she’d been burdened with the spite and jealousy of others. She didn’t fit in here any more, but she sure hadn’t fitted in with her new school either.

And now she was held up as the neighbourhood example—her cousin’s five-year-old daughter had said she wanted to go to uni and be just like her. She couldn’t let them down.

She’d had opportunities others hadn’t had and she’d squandered them on a man who was so removed from her own sphere—that elite, born-to-it world that she’d never once felt comfortable in. She couldn’t let them know what an idiot she’d been. And she couldn’t be that naïve girl again. This damsel was doing her own rescuing. No man, no fairy-tale fantasy, would come between her and her studies.

‘How will you get home after lunch?’ he asked as they neared her home.

‘Same as always.’

She knew he was looking at the gang symbols graffitied on the fences they passed. The lush greenery of the affluent central suburbs gave way to unkempt, sunburned brown grass and bare dirt. The old-looking swing-set in the park and the new activity set that had already been defaced, litter spilling from the bin. She knew what he was thinking; she thought it too. The neighbourhood wasn’t just rough; it was unsafe and was
worsening. Her resolve firmed. She was getting her parents out of here as soon as she could.

They were sitting on the porch when Brad turned into the driveway. The two-bedroom government-supplied house had been modified so her father could walk in easily. He didn’t rise as Brad stopped the car, but her mother hurried over. Brad got out of the car and greeted her with his intensely annoying polite manners. Mya watched her mother blink a couple of times, watched his full impact on her—that overpowering charm. And she helplessly watched him accept her mother’s invitation to join them at lunch. All done before she’d even said hello.

When Brad walked into the house, he was shocked—but not for the reasons Mya might have thought he might be. He’d seen way smaller, emptier properties. No, what shocked him was the wall in the lounge.

It was smothered in the evidence of Mya’s achievements. There were certificates everywhere. Certificates going back more than a decade—from when she won spelling competitions at age six. Competitions far beyond her years at that. There were newspaper articles citing her academic successes. There were pictures of her in her uniform. Pictures of her accepting cups and prize-giving. But there were no pictures of her playing.

Proof of their pride in her was everywhere and he realised she hadn’t been kidding about the pressure. No wonder her identity was so bound up in performance—
perfect
performance. But surely her parents weren’t so success-obsessed for her that they’d disown her if they knew she’d failed? She was their only child.

‘Brad’s a lawyer. A tutor at university.’ Mya walked in with her father, who was leaning on her arm. ‘He’s been helping me with my studies this year. He just gave
me a ride because I was running late to get here.’ She bit her lip and looked at Brad as if worried she’d made a slip in mentioning law school given she was supposed to be on holiday.

‘She doesn’t need my help, you know.’ Brad went with her story with an easy smile. ‘She’s just trying to make me feel useful.’

The sad thing was he liked feeling useful to her. Even if in truth he wasn’t.

‘She’s a genius.’ Even as he was saying it, he realised he was buying into the Mya-brain-box worshipping—doing it as badly as her parents. Talking her up until she was terrified of failing. Mya, who needed no help academically because she was such a star. Never-fail Mya. Never
dare
fail.

So he switched. ‘But she works really hard at it.’

He encountered a beseeching green gaze just at the moment her mother’s proud tones came from the other side of the table.

‘Mya always works hard.’

Brad worked hard himself then, keeping the conversation light—and away from work. Mya was abnormally quiet and giving him keen looks every so often. It bothered him she was so nervous—what did she think would happen? Did she trust him so little? He wouldn’t let her down and give her away.

‘I hope it wasn’t too bad my staying.’ He finally apologised for butting in when they were back in his car and driving towards town. ‘But I really enjoyed it.’

‘It was hardly your usual restaurant standard,’ she answered brusquely.

‘You couldn’t get fresher than that salad,’ he pointed out.

That drew a small smile. ‘It’s the one thing he likes
the most but tending the garden takes him a long time. He has chronic pain and he gets tired.’

‘It was an accident?’

‘In the factory years ago.’ She nodded. ‘He’s been on a sickness benefit since. Mum does the midnight shift at the local supermarket.’ She sighed. ‘So now you know why I want to get the big corporate job.’

He nodded.

‘I want to move them somewhere else. Somewhere much nicer.’

‘I can understand that.’ He paused. ‘You really care about what they think of you, huh?’

‘Don’t you care about what your folks think of you?’

He laughed beneath his breath. ‘It no longer matters to me what either of them think.’

‘No longer? So it used to?’

‘When I was a kid I wanted to please Dad.’ He laughed—the small kind of laugh designed to cover up real feelings.

Mya didn’t want him to cover up. ‘But you don’t any more?’

‘I’m really good at my job and I enjoy it. What he thinks is irrelevant.’

‘What did he do?’

‘He didn’t do anything.’

‘I’m not stupid either, Brad.’ She turned in her seat to study his profile directly.

‘So you know what he does.’ Brad trod harder on the accelerator and gave her the briefest of glances. His warm brown eyes now hard and matte. ‘Buys his way out of anything.’

‘What did he buy his way out of for you?’ Mya asked quietly.

Attention. It was all about attention. For him. For
Lauren. He’d once asked his father to come and see him in a debating contest of all things. Sure, not the most exciting of events, but he’d been fifteen years old and still young enough to want his father’s approval. At that time he’d wanted to
be
his father. A brilliant lawyer, top-earning partner in his firm with the beautiful wife, the yacht, the two kids and the dog.

‘I caught him.’ Brad surprised himself by answering honestly.

‘Doing what?’

‘Betraying us.’ He glanced at Mya. She’d revealed a part of her life that she preferred to keep private and that she wanted to fix. He wanted her to know that he understood that. So he told her. ‘I wanted him to come to see me in the debating final when I was a teen. But he said he had an important meeting he couldn’t get out of. I won and went up to show him the medal.’ He’d gone up to his father’s office, excited with the winning medal in hand, anticipating how he’d quietly hold it up and get the smile, the accolade. Instead he’d discovered that the very important meeting his father hadn’t been able to wriggle out of had been with one of the junior lawyers. Fresh from law school, whether she was overly ambitious or being taken advantage of, Brad didn’t know and no longer cared.