Blindfold: The Complete Series Box Set (34 page)

“Okay.”

Ash lifted his head and his eyes met mine. I held his gaze for a moment, and then slid off the arm of the chair and went back to the couch. I had my laptop open, a practice test pulled up on the screen. I read the question and selected an answer, unsure if I'd managed to pick the right one.

I glanced up at him. “We can try again. Clean slate. But Ash, I’m not kidding. Jerk me around again and I won't stop my brothers from coming after you. You haven’t seen anything until you’ve seen them pissed off.”

“Got it.” His ghost of a smile only added to the strain on his face.

He stood up and started toward the door. Every step, every movement seemed weighted down.

“How long has it been since you've had a decent night’s sleep?” The words popped out of me without me realizing I planned to ask them.

Ash paused, thinking. “Only once since Isadora was taken.”

He glanced at me over his shoulder and I knew which night that had been because it had been my only good night's sleep since then too.

“How long since you’ve had a decent meal?”

He laughed and shook his head. “I'm not sure.”

I was going to regret this, I knew, but my heart was aching for him. “Why don’t you hang around a while? I haven't had lunch yet.” Hesitating just a bit, I added, “I have something I need to tell you anyway.”

***

“A ghost.”

Lifting my shoulders in a shrug, I said, “That’s what Vic tells me. He doesn’t exactly run with the same crowd he used to, but he knows people. He knows a
lot
of people. He’s asked around, shown the picture. The guy doesn’t have any kind of online footprint, no known visual presence. Nothing.”

“The cops would have run his face through facial recognition software, too,” he said after a few minutes of silence. “It can take a while, but by now, we should have had something.”

“How can a guy not have any sort of presence? Driver’s license, tickets, passport...something?”

“I don’t know.” The look he gave me was grim and intense. “But I don’t think it means anything good.”

Before I could say anything else, my phone rang. Excusing myself to answer it, I slid out of the room and ducked into the only place that afforded any privacy in my simple studio apartment – the bathroom. Leaning back against the counter of the sink, I listened as my mother invited me for dinner. Again.

“No, Mom.” I smiled despite how tired I was of her matchmaking attempts. For most people, a twenty-four-year-old single woman focusing on her career was normal. For Mom, it meant she'd never get to help me plan my wedding. “I’m sure Hank is a perfectly nice guy, but I don’t need help meeting men, I promise.”

There was an odd pause.

Moms might have a weird sense when it comes to their kids, but I think kids – even us grown-up ones – have a similar sense. It’s the
oh, shit
sense. The one that starts to tingle like a Spidey sense when they let something slip or did something that somehow their mothers picked up on.

Mine was screaming now. The problem was that I didn’t know exactly what it was I’d done that had made her ‘mom alert’ flare up.

“You’ve met somebody.” Her voice was sly and soft.

“What?” I lowered the phone and stared at it, confused. That was my mom’s number. She'd called me. Her single daughter who hadn't had a serious boyfriend since Greg McKinney dumped me my freshman year of college. “No, I haven’t.”

“Yes, you have.” She was insistent. “This is the first time in years that I’ve tried to set you up and your response hasn't been some form of
Mom, I don't have time for a relationship right now.
You just told me that you found a guy on your own.”

“No, I didn't.” I shook my head despite the fact that she couldn’t see me. What was she talking about?

“You did. You said you don’t need help to find a guy, which means you've already found one.”

“I did not.” I still protested, but Ash’s face was looming in my mind. His mouth. His hands. The way his eyes softened when he looked at me. The way
everything
in me softened when I looked at him. Shoving him out of my head, I reached for the humor that was one of my first defenses when it came to deflection. “Come on, Mom. Don’t you think I would've introduced you by now if I’d met somebody? Especially after my little stint as a jailbird.”

“Don’t joke about that,” she said automatically. But her tone had changed. She sounded a little less sure of herself.

Good.

“I’m not joking. If I were with somebody, one of the first people I would have called that night would've been him. He would have been there waiting when I got out of jail and he would have met the boys.”

Except Ash had been there. He had met my brothers...

That's not the same thing, I quickly told myself.

I didn't want to have this conversation. “Mom, I appreciate the offer, really, but even if you weren’t trying to set me up, I wouldn’t be able to come. I’m behind on work and I need to start looking into my summer semester classes.”

The rest of the call wrapped up quickly, though not quickly enough for me.

A look at my phone said nearly twenty minutes had passed and I grimaced as I slid out of the bathroom. The apartment was almost eerily quiet. Ash must have left. I couldn’t say I blamed him. If it had been anybody but my mother, I would have ended the conversation a lot sooner, but she was my mother. I'd never do that.

I came to a halt just a few steps into the room.

Ash was sprawled out on my couch. His face and body were relaxed, his breathing slow and regular.

He'd fallen asleep.

“Ash?” I said his name softly.

He didn’t even stir.

Blowing out a breath, I glanced over at my work and shrugged. I could work with a guy sleeping a few feet away. It'd be a lot like being back home with my brothers again.

Except what I felt for Ash wasn't even close to how I felt for my brothers. There was definitely nothing familial about it.

***

Twilight was spreading across the city when he finally started to stir.

I didn't know if the ten hours he’d slept on my couch had finally been enough, or if the smell of food drifting through the studio was what finally penetrated his exhausted daze.

I jabbed at the tofu I had browning in the wok. I wasn’t vegetarian, but tofu was good for the budget. When I was in the mood for Chinese or Indian, it worked in a pinch. Tonight, I was craving curry and the scent of it had my mouth watering and my belly grumbling in demand.

The couch creaked as he stretched and I glanced at him. The confusion on his features shifted into stark surprise when his gaze landed on me.

“Good morning, or rather, good evening.” I gestured at the clock. “You’ve been asleep going on ten hours now.”

Ash blinked at me. Then, in a surge of energy, he shot upright. “Did you say
ten hours
?”

“Yep.” I nodded at his phone. It had been on the table where he’d put it when he came in. He must have silenced it before he came inside. “You’ve had both phone calls and texts. The texts were all from your administrative assistant. The basic summary is that she has things under control, and she hopes you changed your mind and decided to take the day off to rest. I didn’t respond to those. Doug contacted you several times and I finally did answer one from him to let him know you’d swung by here and then pretty much passed out on my couch.” I softened my voice to add, “Nothing about Isadora.”

He stared at the phone and then looked at me. “How'd you get into my phone? It’s password protected.”

“Yeah. With your sister’s date of birth.” I gave him a stern look. “There’s a warning about that kind of thing for a reason, Ash.”

“I...” He frowned as if he had no idea what he wanted to say. He looked still muddled by sleep, almost hung over. “Thanks for letting me crash here.”

“You needed the sleep.” I shrugged.

His voice was quiet as he spoke, “I can’t sleep. I see a million things that could be happening to her. A thousand thugs and a hundred bad outcomes. I can’t shut it off.”

I gave the food cooking in the pot one final stir.

“I better go.” He stood.

I made my decision.

“Why don’t you sit down?” I gestured to my small table. “There’s enough for both of us. You can have a meal and relax for a little while.”

Chapter 3

Toni

We had a nice night, a decent meal, and good conversation. He stayed until late that night. Still, the next morning as I headed over to the Lang house, I couldn’t help the nervous feeling in my gut.

I was giving Ash the benefit of the doubt. I had to if we were going to make this work. This 'professional' relationship we were going to have.

I had hours’ worth of work ahead of me that could keep me occupied, and a small scheduling window to keep me busy over my lunch hour, so even if Ash did stay home, I wasn’t going to spend an untold amount of time caught up in his spell again.

I had work.

I had a life.

I had school to finish and then a career to begin.

I
didn’t
have time for an obsession with a man who swung hot and cold. A man who, despite what he told me, I couldn't trust.

He was already gone when I arrived and I was grateful for that. Doug was there along with several more staff members than I was used to seeing. I could tell by their grim faces there'd been no news overnight. It took me a moment to realize that I wasn't disappointed because I hadn't even hoped for anything different.

“Mr. Lang has us watching the phones and the house,” Doug said, his voice somber.

I put my hand on his arm and gave it a squeeze. “She'll be back soon.” I gave him a comforting smile before heading for the living room.

I hated this. Hated the situation, my complete lack of control. I hated that I hadn’t been able to do anything to protect Isadora. No, it hadn’t been my job, but I still felt responsible. I hadn't been able to do anything to help her or to help Ash.

And it pissed me off.

I liked being the one with answers, the one who helped people. Hell, that was why I wanted to go into psychology, to help people.

And I couldn't. I couldn't help Ash. I couldn't help Isadora. The kidnapper hadn’t called, hadn’t reached out to us, hadn’t...

“Us,” I whispered as I chuckled bitterly.

There was no
us
.

There was just Ash, and to some extent the staff here at the Lang household. And Isadora’s boyfriend who I hadn't met yet.

I wasn’t part of this.

Not really.

***

Twenty minutes into my lunch break and I was already going blind.

I'd just finished scheduling the last couple classes I needed and figured I'd try to get ahead on the required readings. I'd always been a good student, with an excellent memory and great comprehension skills. So studying usually wasn't an issue.

But usually, I wasn’t stressed out like I this.

I’d been going over the same material for the past twenty minutes and I had yet to make any progress. Frustrated, I hurled my pen down just as a knock came to the door. Caught off guard, I jumped and my elbow hit the glass of water I’d poured. I caught it, barely, but some of it splashed out and I swore.

“Miss Toni? Is everything alright in there?” Doug called through the door.

“It’s fine,” I said, irritation clear in my voice. “Come on in, Doug.”

The door opened to reveal him standing there in his severe suit of black and white. His eyes scanned the room before coming to rest on me as I mopped up the splashes of water with a couple of tissues. “Is everything well?”

“Oh, sure. I’m just a klutz.”

A faint smiled appeared on his face. “Of course you’re not.” He held up a phone. “Mr. Lang is on the phone. Are you available?”

“Ah...” I looked down at myself. “I guess I am.”

Doug passed the phone off to me and I lifted it to my ear, my belly fluttering. I hated the way I reacted to the simple sound of his name. If life had been fair, I wouldn’t have reacted with anything but boredom or irritation to it at this point. But my heart raced and my body went tight. And everything in me just...wanted.

You’ve met somebody
, my mother had said.

No. I really hadn’t.

But I wanted somebody.

I closed my eyes. “Hello?”

“Toni. How are you?”

The sound of his voice shouldn’t have set my heart to racing the way it did. It shouldn’t have made me ache and want and wish. But it did. Still, I managed to keep my voice neutral and calm as I answered, “I’m fine. How are you?”

“I’m...getting by.”

I could appreciate the honesty of the answer. He hadn’t offered a polite lie, nor had he unloaded everything. “I guess that’s all you can do in a situation like this, isn’t it?”

“At his point, yes.” He blew out a sigh. “Listen, I was wondering if maybe you’d join me for dinner tonight.”