Blood & Beauty (29 page)

When does Cesare become aware of it? Not for a while certainly. For a while he, who loves his sister more than any other woman, is deep in the business of men. Since his return from Naples he is filled with a fierce energy. His skin is smooth again and when he puts on Church robes he moves more like a hunter than a cardinal, the heavy cloth trailing after him as if trying to catch up. As for Lucrezia – well, she is safe, the correspondence between the Vatican and San Sisto is regular and he is often in conference or elsewhere when the letters are picked up and delivered. As long as what is said between them does not find its way on to the streets, there is no reason to doubt the loyalty of his servant.

Others are a good deal less careful with their tongues. Giovanni Sforza’s formal capitulation takes place in November, when litterloads of doctors and theologians descend on the ducal palace of Pesaro to stand witness as the hapless duke publicly signs away his potency. Privately, though, he has never stopped bleating about the monstrous injustice of it all, so that by now half of Italy seems to have heard the rumour that Lucrezia is more whore than virgin and loved best of all by her father. The Pope, who has recovered much of his bonhomie, laughs off the outrage. They have won, and bad losers have foul tongues. Cesare’s reaction is darker. No one insults his sister. More than that; within a few weeks she herself will have to stand in front of the Church court and proclaim her virginity to the world. It will not do for the Sforza obscenities to penetrate the convent walls. He calls for Calderón.

‘You won’t get much sense from him,’ Michelotto says casually.

‘What do you mean?’

‘Apparently he’s sick as a dog with love for some maid or other. Writing verses even.’

‘Who is she?’

‘No idea. The boys can’t get anything out of him. But whoever she is she obviously won’t have him or he wouldn’t be shitting poetry. Hey, maybe it’s a nun! Some of the stories you hear about convents—’

‘Why wasn’t I told about this?’

‘What’s to tell?’ Michelotto shrugs. ‘He still rides faster than anyone else. And his mouth is sewn tight. What else do you want from a puppy messenger?’

How long is it since he talked to him last? He thinks back but remembers only the usual mix of attention and devotion. This time he is more careful.

‘So, tell me, Pedro Calderón. How do you find San Sisto?’

‘The convent? It is a… a calm place.’

‘And when you are there, who takes you to the duchess?’

‘I… er… there is a watch sister.’

‘With dispensation to greet you.’

‘Oh yes. Though she does not do much greeting.’

Cesare laughs. Pedro grins. Men’s talk. He feels a rising sweat, as if his body is detecting a fear that his mind has yet to identify.

‘And the abbess? A lioness, no doubt.’

‘Indeed.’

‘Good. We are in need of a safe place for our dear sister at this time.’

‘Oh, there is none safer, Your Most Reverend Lord Cardinal.’

‘And the duchess herself. She seems well to you?’

‘I… I think so, yes.’

‘She is recovering from our brother’s death.’

‘I… I believe she has found some solace. She is a lady of the greatest heart and sweetest soul.’

He stops, but Cesare has seen the light in his eyes. Poetry, eh?

‘I had rather hoped that as our go-between she might have confided in you. She speaks so highly of you in her letters.’

‘She does?’ Since the abbess’s intervention his visits have been shorter and more careful, but this has done nothing to dampen his longing. If anything the marvel of the unobtainable has increased.

‘I wondered if she might have opened her heart to you a little?’

‘No, no, my lord.’ And Pedro now feels himself suspended above the ground, dangling on a hook. For a moment the shock overwhelms the pain. ‘I am simply a messenger.’

‘Still, as my messenger I would like to think you might have offered her some comfort.’

‘I… have done my best. It is my life’s work to do my lord service.’

‘And my lady also?’

‘My lady… I mean the duchess? Yes, of course,’ he murmurs, each response now digging the hook in deeper.

The door opens quietly and Michelotto slides in with a quick bow and an easy wave, as if he has always been expected. Pedro bows back and looks up into his wide smile. The sight is ghastly.

‘Well, I must thank you for your loyal work over these few months. And tell you that there is good news. We will not need your services any more. The duchess is called to give evidence before the Church court and will leave the convent soon to prepare herself.’

‘Oh, so the annulment will go through!’ And for a moment he cannot keep the excitement out of his voice.

‘Yes.’

‘The duchess will be… be most happy to hear it.’

There is a pause. Which turns into a silence. It is unclear who is waiting for whom. Cesare is smiling. On the hook Pedro is now in so much pain that it seems almost a relief to move. Until he does. ‘I would be… I mean, it would be a privilege for me to take this last news to her. I know that she will be delighted to receive it.’

‘Yes. However, it will not be necessary. The letter gives her only a date when she is to be collected. So it has no need of a reply. Michelotto can take it and give it to the watch sister. They will probably find some solace in each other’s faces.’

And now there is a large laugh from both of them.

Pedro Calderón bows to take his leave. As he reaches the door, Cesare calls.

‘How long is it that you have been in my service, Calderón?’

‘Five years and three months now, Your Most Reverend Lord Cardinal.’

‘And in that time you have always served me faithfully.’

‘With my life.’

‘Then we must look for some reward for you.’

After he has gone, Cesare sits with one hand on the table, the fingers playing restlessly over the surface. ‘I need to know what has been happening inside the convent,’ he says at last.

‘Inside the convent? How?’

‘There are ways. It is stuffed with the daughters of noble families and I dare say they all squawk like magpies at visiting hour.’

‘Why not ask the abbess?’

‘Because, my dear Michelotto, if she is any good at her job, she will be truthful with God and double-faced with everyone else.’

Michelotto stares at him. ‘You don’t think—’

‘I don’t think anything yet. But I will.’

It is close to Christmas when Lucrezia appears before the dignitaries of the Church court. She travels from San Sisto the week before and is housed within the Vatican, where she spends the time memorising the composed address that she must give and deciding which outfit will offer the best message of purity. Whatever heartache she might suffer about lying in front of God’s tribunal is now overcome by the fear that she might not do it well enough. Her marriage is ended and there is no going back. Alexander, who inspects her before she enters the court, sheds tears as he embraces her. ‘Ah, you are a sight for the sorest of eyes. Like a virgin saint standing out before torture to reach God.’ Since his recent brush with religiosity he has become accustomed to a certain flounce of language. But the idea appeals to the fantasies she once indulged in as a girl, and she enters the room head held high.

In front of a bank of gold-embroidered elderly clerics, her youth (she is yet to celebrate her eighteenth birthday), natural grace and word-perfect Latin work their charm. What might have been a grimy duty becomes, for many, a pleasure, and there are those in the room who feel a sense of outrage that a young woman so fresh in body and spirit should be the target of such monstrous slander, while at the same time remaining intrigued by the idea. After the interrogation comes the examination: a small chamber where two nervous midwives lift her skirts and probe gently in the direction of her most private places, though never quite stepping over the threshold.

When she returns to the court, it takes no more than a few moments for the verdict to be announced: she is
virgo intacta
and her marriage to Giovanni Sforza herewith annulled.

That night they dine in the Room of the Saints inside the Pope’s private apartments: she, Cesare and Alexander. When she arrives, the table is laid and the room lit by dancing candles, illuminating the brilliance of the lunettes on the vaulted ceiling. Each saint is placed inside a different landscape, bursting with life and colour. Never have the tribulations of martyrs seemed so vital, so contemporary. With Alexander still in conference, it is Cesare, still in full cardinal dress from the court proceedings, who greets her. Cesare, whom she has not seen face to face for seven months. And whom, of course, she cannot but love all over again.

‘Ah, sweet sister, what a performance. The judges are comparing you to Cicero, with him the worse for the comparison. Convent life clearly suits you.’

‘I think it is divorce that suits me,’ she says gaily, the exhilaration still coursing through her. ‘I can hardly believe it is over, Cesare. And you? You have crowned a king since we were last together. Imagine that!’

He shrugs. ‘It was not such an imposing head.’

‘Not like yours, you mean.’ She reaches out to touch a small scar on the run of his cheekbone. ‘What is this? You have not been fighting?’

‘It’s nothing: a leftover from a fever I caught in Naples.’

‘Oh – how was it?’

‘Hot.’ He laughs. ‘And the convent?’

‘Quiet.’

‘And the messenger we chose for you? He was faithful to the task?’

‘Oh yes. He did his job admirably,’ she says lightly. ‘How was it with Father? Please tell me. It must have been terrible. I spent so many hours in prayer over Juan.’

‘Just as long as you did not feel in any way neglected.’

‘What?’

‘In the convent. I would not have wanted you to feel unloved in any way.’

No one else would spot it. But then no one knows her brother as she does. ‘Unloved?’ She repeats the word with an open smile on her face. In the lunette above him, Santa Barbara stands sweet-faced, golden hair streaming out, freed from her prison by the miracle of God’s grace. As long as one’s heart is pure. ‘On the contrary,’ she smiles. ‘I was exceedingly well cared for. The abbess is a wise woman and you remember that San Sisto was once my school.’

Of course she has wondered, worried, about Pedro’s unexplained absence. But with it had come the news of the court hearing and there has been no time to dwell on it. So much has taken place since brother and sister were last together. Their letters had never referred to that last meeting in her chamber, so that now it is almost as if it had never happened. She can barely remember the touch of his tongue between her lips, replaced as it has been by the feel of another. Does he somehow suspect? No, no, how could he? The abbess is an honourable woman, and anyway, what is there to be guilty about? Heaven knows there were moments in her marriage when she felt more shame than she does now. Thinking back to the stone seat in the convent garden, she can already detect sadness inside the pleasure.

‘Your Excellency?’ The knock on the door is followed by the sight of Burchard’s granite face. ‘Ah, Lady Lucrezia.’

Lady Lucrezia. No longer the Duchess of Pesaro. His is the first public tongue to confirm the change. She feels a small thrill pass through her. ‘Signor Burchard. It is good to see you again. I hope you have been well.’

‘Yes, my lady, quite well. I… the Holy Father says I am to tell you that he will be with you soon, but that should you be hungry, dinner can be served without him.’

‘Is he with Naples or Spain?’ Cesare asks.

‘Naples, I believe.’ He turns to go, then stops. ‘It is a pleasure to have you safely returned.’

‘My, you have stolen even the lizard’s heart,’ Cesare says drily. ‘Perhaps I should go to a monastery for a while.’

‘Ha! Heaven help all women when you come out.’

They make small talk while the manservants bring the dishes: winter-bean soup, cut meats, stuffed pasta, the Pope’s favourite simple fare. After they have said grace, she pulls the conversation towards Juan and the days that followed his death. ‘Tell me everything. The convent was full of stories about Father’s grief and his renewed faith. How was he? Is the Church much reformed under his zeal?’

‘Ah, a few corrupt officials imprisoned. A council to discuss reform. Everyone agrees until it’s their own job under scrutiny and then suddenly they lose interest.’ He shrugs. Above the door of the room, a naked Saint Sebastian writhes under a hail of arrows, his sacrifice almost dull compared to the athletic youths in fashionable dress who load and dispatch their crossbows. ‘It will take more than zeal to clean these Augean stables.’

‘And Father?’

‘He is… he is more himself now. And you, beloved sister, how has it been for you?’

‘You know it from my letters, I think,’ she says, picking her words more carefully now. ‘They were dark days at first, but with God’s grace I found peace.’

‘And did God also make you laugh?’

‘What?’ She frowns, deliberately not understanding.

‘I have heard there was laughter.’

‘Ah, men have strange thoughts about convents, Cesare. They can be quite happy places, you know. I may well have laughed. There were tears enough for laughter to be its own relief.’

‘And poetry. Was there poetry?’

‘Poetry?’ Not the abbess. She would never have betrayed them, surely? So who? ‘Why do you ask about poetry?’

‘Just a brother caring for his sister’s well-being. Did you entertain in your cell?’

‘Entertain? How could I? My only visitors were the abbess and your messenger,’ she says hotly, though inside she is cold. ‘How did you hear such strange things?’

‘Oh… a few birds flying overhead.’

‘Then I must tell you that their eyesight was malicious.’ Even as she says it she amazes herself with her confidence. ‘I am your dear and loving sister as I have always been. I have wept and prayed for my brother and in the end, through God’s help I have found a way to smile again. I have given my evidence in court and thrown off my husband and been declared pure by the Mother Church. What more would you ask of me, brother?’