Border Lord (33 page)

Miriam could have reminded him that the Act of Union had settled the matter
of
Scotland's sovereignty, but she wouldn't risk losing their congeniality. "You'll have peace here, Duncan. I promise you."

"I'll have my son, too. I trow you'll find a way for me to keep him."

Suddenly wary of his overconfidence in her limited abilities, Miriam took his hand. "Please don't expect too much. The people who govern this land and advise our queen see children as faceless pieces of property. Twice last year, our queen used children as hostages to gain peace between bickering families."

Lines of worry creased his forehead. "What families?"

She had no intention of compromising her integrity, even for a man she had come to admire. "The names aren't important. Neither is their rank. Just remember that because of the queen's chronic illnesses, she often acts rashly."

"If you ask me, I think she takes that old Stewart belief in the divine right of kings too far—a poor legacy from so noble and mighty a clan. I swear to you, Miriam, the next time I marry, I'll take an orphan to wife. I've had enough of troubles with in-laws to last three lifetimes."

Pray she found a man who shared his belief on that matter, too. "What about family loyalty? Won't you miss that?"

He stared into the fire. The reflection of the yellow flames danced in his green eyes and changed the color to blue. Changeable, she realized, had become her byword for Duncan Kerr.

"Children," he said, "should be taught respect for their elders, but they shouldna be burdened or prejudiced by their parents' opinions. Who knows? When Malcolm comes of age he may make a friend of Aubrey Townsend. Just because the baron and I have problems doesna mean that Malcolm will. I'm determined never to influence him in this. He'll pick his own friends and make his own enemies."

Miriam grew defensive, thinking about the atrocity the Glenlyon Campbells had visited on her parents and the misery she'd suffered as a result. "What of crimes that go unpunished? The law isn't always fair, and the courts are not always just. You of all people should understand that— considering your association with Avery Chilton-Wall."

"Thanks to you, the point is moot here in the Borders. The Highlands doona fare so well. Revenge and the passing of hatred from father to son are weakening the clan system. Ultimately they'll destroy it."

She understood and agreed with the principle behind his philosophy, but her particular case was different. Wasn't it?

"What are you thinking?" he asked.

Oddly she wanted to explain why it was so important to her that the Glenlyon Campbells pay for their crimes against the Glencoe MacDonalds. Odder still, the old argument sounded shallow. Confused, she chose another benign topic. "I was thinking about how much I like the wine."

He looked away, but not before she saw disappointment cloud his eyes. "I'm delighted it meets with your approval," he said, pained sarcasm in his voice.

Now was not the time to examine the reasons behind his withdrawal or to apologize for keeping her problems to herself. So she sent her mind darting through the maze of his predicament and saw a possible solution. "I have an idea."

He poured more wine. "I'm listening. I love ideas— especially yours."

"Could you build a new residence on Malcolm's property in Northumberland—on Roxanne's dowry land? Nothing elaborate, but an estate large enough to support a modest household and a small garrison of soldiers."

His piercing gaze searched her face. "Aye, but what good would that do?"

"The baron complained to Her Majesty that you deprived him of Malcolm's company. If your son had his own place, one in close proximity to the baron's land, then Malcolm could go there from time to time—say on rent days. Sinclair could visit. He'd have no cause for complaint on that score."

Duncan's shoulders drooped. "Nay, but I would complain. What if the baron moves in and brings his household with him? That's the same as Malcolm living at Sinclair Manor."

"No, it's not. Not if the new estate is small."

Duncan grinned and snapped his fingers. "Of course. You're brilliant, Miriam. I'll design the doorways this high." He held out his flattened palm to a height that would hardly reach the waist of the towering baron. "I'll even build it near the road and offer to keep a fresh team of horses for the mail coach."

Although caught up in his exuberance, she forced herself to say, "Please understand, Duncan, that I'm not promising it will sway the queen. But I think she will see your good intentions behind the gesture. You'd also be practicing what you just preached about allowing Malcolm to develop his own relationship with the baron."

"I stand by my beliefs." He slapped his hand over his clan badge. "I do think your plan will work. But, please understand, Miriam, I love my son, and I intend to be a father to him."

A father. By modern standards the term was at best ambiguous. Most men never set foot in a nursery, and when their sons were old enough, they were fostered or shipped off to school. Not until they were adults and eligible for membership in the fashionable clubs did sons gain a passing knowledge of their sires. "I'll do my very best to help you maintain that right."

He sighed in relief, and passed a hand over his forehead. "Thank you. You may forget I said I'd consider marrying the baron's niece. My conscience won't allow me to use the girl."

Miriam, too, felt relief; a man as kind as Duncan Kerr deserved to choose his own wife. A voice inside her said take me, Duncan, take me. But it was just her broken heart pleading for comfort. "I think that's a wise choice."

He almost beamed. "As soon as we've eaten, I think we should tell Malcolm that his estates are about to double."

"You mean we'll tell Saint Francis of Assisi. That's who he's chosen today."

Chuckling, Duncan said, "Aye, and he wrote a very nice essay on the good friar. It seems he's extended his position as caretaker of Hattie, who has taken up residence under his bed. He's now lord high protector of the animal kingdom."

"I'll tell Alpin when I see her." Miriam waved a hand over the empty plates. "What are we having tonight?"

He winced. "The cook planned the menu prior to the arrival of Hattie. We're having braised wild hare and carrots."

Miriam smiled. "Do the carrots have the tops on?"

Playfully, he wagged his finger at her. "Malcolm told me about Hattie's diet, and you, Miriam MacDonald, have a delightful, if dark, sense of humor."

Happiness coiled inside her, and she basked in the glow of their friendship. During the course of the meal they talked of everything from French wine to Roman architecture. Duncan complained that the baron made a practice of tearing down portions of Hadrian's Wall whenever the stone fences on his land needed mending.

Later she and Duncan visited Malcolm. Dressed in a plain gray robe, he knelt on the bed. Saladin sat cross-legged facing him. The scribe expounded on the spiritual rewards and humanitarian benefits of the Muslim way of life. Malcolm, in his role of devoted friar, lectured on the humanitarian rewards and spiritual benefits of perfect poverty.

Upon hearing of the proposed castle, Malcolm merely shrugged and said a new house was fine with him, so long as it had a very large stable…"to shelter God's creatures. Be sure to build a dungeon in it, Papa… for Alpin."

For the next week, Miriam often found herself in the company of the earl of Kildalton. Every morning, under the charming pretense of walking Verbatim, he meandered across the snow-covered yard to remind the soldiers to keep a lookout for a messenger from the queen. He smiled and chatted in the friendliest of ways, but Miriam knew that beneath the cordial exterior he agonized over the possibility of losing his son. Without giving him false hope, she did her best to ease his torment.

Most afternoons they spent before a roaring fire in the keeping room. She learned he had a ravenous sweet tooth, and he insisted she share the many confections the kitchen staff prepared. Miriam needed little coaxing, for along with her delicate condition came an insatiable appetite.

Once he'd settled on a design for Malcolm's second home and sent for a surveyor, Duncan turned his attention to playing chess or cards with Miriam or sharing a book from his library. Day by day, Malcolm grew better but declined to leave his room. Saladin stayed with him.

Night after night, Miriam curled up in her lonely bed, and when treasured memories of her lost love robbed her of sleep, she sought solace in one-sided conversations with the child. As strange as it seemed, she often felt the Border Lord's comfort, and sometimes in the dark of night, she actually sensed her lover's presence in the room.

I'll be in your heart, love, and in every breath you take.

By all rights she should be desperate, mired as she was in the worst of life's circumstances. To the contrary, she felt at peace. She had a friend in Duncan Kerr. Motherhood loomed ahead. She'd find a decent husband; London was rife with possibilities. Everything would work out.

On Sunday, Duncan insisted she accompany him to church. When she politely declined, he folded his arms over his chest and tapped his booted foot.

"Why won't you go? Are you a Muslim, too?"

Flabbergasted at his absurdity, she blurted, "I don't like the cold—especially the snow."

"Neither do I," he said. "But 'tis quite lovely out, and I have a sleigh."

"A sleigh? How progressive of you. Imagine that, a troika in England."

"Scotland," he corrected.

"I take back what I said about progress. You're no free thinker."

"Nothing's free, Miriam." He jiggled his eyebrows. "But we could negotiate. I've learned a trick or two from you."

His bravado made her chuckle. "Be my guest, Duncan. What have you to offer?"

"I have the aforementioned sleigh, pulled by a trio of hairy-legged horses from the dales of Clyde. I had the farrier outfit the beasts with bells and blinders. Mrs. Elliott has stuffed a basket with enough food and drink to make a Frenchman forsake his homeland. The stableman put warmed bricks in the floor of our fine conveyance, and it's piled mountain-high with furs and tartans."

The invitation in his eyes tempted her more than his words. "An admirable presentation, Duncan. But I had my fill of sleigh rides in Russia."

"Scotland," he said indignantly, "is hardly Russia. I'll show you a family of badgers. We'll tiptoe to a special clearing and watch the deer feed. Come on, Miriam. Say aye. No one else will ride in it with me. 'Tis no fun to frolic alone in a sleigh big enough for a butcher's family. We'll even take Verbatim. She needs the exercise."

His charming speech robbed Miriam of objections. Besides, she had always wanted to conquer her fear of winter. Who better to face it with than her new friend, Duncan Kerr?

True to his word, Duncan had seen to her every comfort. She sat buried to her chin in an enormous pile of furs. The heated bricks warmed her feet; the good man beside her warmed her heart. The peaceful, pristine morning came alive with the jingling of sleigh bells and the whoosh of runners over the frozen road. Verbatim loped alongside the team until a scent caught her interest. Nose down, tail up, the sleuthhound dashed after her quarry, kicking up snow and leaving a distinctive trail in the winter carpet that blanketed the land.

When the towers of Kildalton faded from view and the world turned white from horizon to horizon, Miriam grew apprehensive. Duncan must have sensed her fear, for he pointed out dozens of landmarks and explained in detail the route and distance they traveled. Then under the guise of playing Malcolm's favorite guessing game, he quizzed her on finding her way home. The simple drill occupied her mind, and with ease she answered every question correctly. But the reassurance and praise of the man soothed her fears more than her perfect recall of the knowledge he imparted.

After the church service, he offered sleigh rides to the children of Kildalton. They held back, their eyes huge with fear of the modern contraption and the giant horses.

Sensing his disappointment, Miriam addressed the crowd of youngsters. "Children in Russia aren't afraid of sleighs. Sometimes they drag them into the house and use them for beds."

Mary Elizabeth, the girl Verbatim had rescued, held up her arms and declared, "I'm as brave as any Russian lass. Take me first."

With great melodrama, Duncan pointed his toe, swept off his chieftain's bonnet, and bowed deeply. "'Twould be my absolute pleasure, Mistress Mary."

The girl giggled. He swung her in the air and deposited her atop the mountain of furs. The older lads mimicked his courtly manners and assisted the other lassies into the sleigh, then whooped and whistled and clamored into the conveyance. They spent the day traversing the countryside and singing country songs. Mary Elizabeth presented Verbatim with a collar of dried rowan berries strung on a stout cord. Miriam received a fragrant garland of evergreen. Duncan was presented a crown of dried heather and proclaimed the High King of Winter.

Just as the sun began to slip below the horizon, Miriam and Duncan returned to Kildalton. The bronze glow of twilight lent a peaceful air to their homecoming. The mellow atmosphere was shattered when Miriam spied a herald pacing the castle yard, his royal blue jerkin emblazoned with the queen's coat of arms.

A weight settled about her shoulders. Her work would begin now. She must sharpen her knives of logic and carve out a compromise. She could reach Duncan. She could manipulate the baron. Whittling away at the divine right of a Stewart required a careful balance of tact and aggression.

She reached for Duncan. "The herald's name is Evan Givins."

The flush of cold faded from Duncan's face. He exhaled, his breath clouding the icy air. "You know him? You've… met him before?"

Turning toward him, she leaned forward so he could see her face. "I've worked with him, Duncan. He's a good man and trustworthy. Please remember, he's only a messenger. I'm certain if it were up to him, he'd rather be sitting by the fire in the Cock and Bottle Tavern, quaffing a pint of stout."

Fists clutching the reins, Duncan twisted his wrists to slow the team. The sleigh skidded to a halt. Verbatim dashed up the stairs to greet the newcomer.