Breaking Through the Wall (Guarded Hearts Book 2) (3 page)

He lifted his head up and looked at me
, while he licked his lips. “Mmmm, tastes like candy.”

He grabbed my arms and lifted me up off the couch, walking me over to the arm and turning me around. When he leaned down to kiss my neck
, I sagged against him. He reached around and ran his hand down me. “Did this pussy miss me?”

It
made me so hot when he talked like this. I loved it. I wrapped my arms around his neck and leaned back into him, opening myself up to him even more. “Yeah, it did.”

He
dragged his teeth over my earlobe, before placing a kiss on my neck. “Mmmmm, I missed it too. I’ve already showed it how much twice, but they say the third time is a charm.” He pushed my back down so that I was lying face down across the arm of the couch. “This is not going to be easy, baby. I’ve missed you too much.”

I could feel his pulsing erection at my entrance
, and I was more than ready for this. It had been all I thought about since the last time we had done it. Jason tried his best to stay away from me, but every once in a while we would hook up.

He always told me it was because he couldn’t stay away from me. If that were true
, then I wish he would just stop leaving. I felt him pull back and then, before I knew what happened, he slammed into me. “Shit, Nic! You are so goddamn tight.”

I couldn’t even form words
. At this point all I could do was make sounds of approval. At this angle, he was hitting the front wall of my pussy and it was heaven. I didn’t think it would be possible a couple minutes ago, but I was gonna come again. Jason grabbed my bun that I had thrown my hair in and pulled on it. I had never had a guy pull my hair before, and truthfully, I feel like my first reaction should have been to turn around and punch him. This, though, this felt good.

“Jason, I’m gonna come again!” Just then
, he reached around me and pinched my clit between his two fingers. That did it. I was now spiraling into my third and most intense orgasm of the night.

“Fuck! Your pussy is squeezing my dick and it feel
s so fucking good.” He thrust into me a couple more times and then I felt him jerk. He groaned loud and I could feel his hot liquid filling me up.

He collapsed down on top of me
, while we both caught our breaths. I was scared to move. This is usually time where things went to shit. He would get all freaked out and start acting like a dickhead.

Just then
, his phone rang and we both jumped. He scrambled to get to his discarded jeans. “Hello? Okay, what does that mean? Do they know if she will be waking up soon? Well, tell them to get their heads out of their fucking asses and figure it out! Yeah, I know…all right.”

“What’s up?” I knew it was Carter and I was crossing my fingers that everything was ok
ay with Mads.

“Maddy is out of surgery
, but Carter said that her doctor hasn’t really been in to talk with him yet. We should really leave to get down there.”

I knew he was right
, but I also knew he was using this as a way out. I wasn’t in the mood to argue with him right now. I just wanted to get down there and see if Mads was okay. “All right, I’ll get dressed, then we can head out.”

I threw o
n some yoga pants and a T-shirt. I figured comfortable is better, because who knows how long we will be there. When we got in the car, he turned the radio on and I knew this was his way of avoiding talking.

“J?”

He glanced over at me and I knew he didn’t want to have this discussion now, but that was too fucking bad.

”W
e need to talk about everything. I can’t keep doing this with you.”

“You didn’t seem to be too reluctant a half hour ago.”

He did not just fucking say that to me! Ugh! He could be such a damn pig sometimes, but I knew that was his intention. He wanted to scare me off.

“I will let that comment slide this time, but I am not one of your skanks
, so you need to watch how you speak to me. I get that you have commitment issues, but you know that there is something here. You can either keep fighting it or accept it. I’m not gonna wait around forever, J, so if you don’t want this, then don’t complain when I start bringing boyfriends out when we are all together.”

I could tell that got to him, he was gripping the steering wheel so hard his knuckles were turning white. “Listen
, Nic, you knew what this was from the beginning. I’m not in the market for something serious. We have fun and it’s all good, but I’m not your prince charming. If you want one of those, you’re looking in the wrong place. With me, you get great fucking sex, not a happily ever after.”

His jaw was so tight from clenching his teeth and I knew I was not going to get anywhere with him tonight.

“If that’s how you feel, Jason, then fine.” I was done trying to talk any sense into him.it was fucking useless. Two can play his game, though. Let’s see how he handles it when I start bringing prince charmings around.

Just then
, the song
Clarity
by Zedd featuring Foxes came on. If this song wasn’t perfect, I don’t know what would be. I just sat there and listened to this girl sing her heart out about every emotion that was swirling around in my head. She was signing about how if their love was so bad and wrong how come it felt so right. I knew that J thought he was doing the right thing. He was trying to convince himself that he didn’t need me and could resist me.

I couldn’t wait to
show him just how wrong he was.

Carter

If one more nurse or doctor told me that they didn’t know what was going on, I was going to fucking flip out! This shit was crazy! Maddy got out of surgery almost an hour ago, and all I’ve found out was her room number. So many people had been in and out, checking on her, but no one would talk to me.

I
couldn’t believe I was here in a hospital, waiting for her to wake up again. I was barely able to handle it last time. I sent J a text, letting him and Nic know the room number and asking him to grab a couple of things from the house for me. Now, all I could do was wait for her to wake up.

She
looked so tiny and fragile lying there and all I wished right now was that I could take her place. After everything that had happened, I thought we were finally okay. I had found out Chris was leaving, and we were planning on spending the whole summer together. Now, I was sitting here, hoping that she’d at least get to spend the summer out of this hospital bed.

Her forehead
had a huge gash on it, along with some minor cuts and bruises on her face. Her left arm was in a sling and a cast. All I needed right now was for her to open her eyes. I wouldn’t be able to relax until she did. The truth was, the longer she didn’t, the less chance she’d be okay. I needed her to be okay, if she wasn’t…

“Mr. James?” A doctor I
hadn’t seen before came in and checked Maddy’s vitals.

I look
ed up at him and nodded, praying that he’d have some information for me.

“My name is Dr. Michaels and I’m the one who operated on your wife. I know they haven’t told you much about her condition
, but that’s what I’m here for, I’m sorry it took me so long. Your wife suffered a pretty nasty blow to the head and suffered some internal bleeding in the accident. We have stopped the bleeding and stabilized her. Her left shoulder was dislocated and her arm was fractured. She has a couple bruised ribs, but, luckily, they aren’t broken. Also, she had multiple cuts and bruises.”

Oh
God. I didn’t even know one person could have that many damn injuries. “Is she going to be okay?”

“It’s hard to say right now
. We really won’t know much else until she wakes up and we can examine her.”

That
was all I needed too, I just needed to see her. ”Do you have any idea when she will wake up?”

“Unfortunately
, that is something that is up to her. Her body is healing and she will wake up when she is ready. There is one other thing, though, Mr. James. Did you know that your wife was pregnant?”

WHAT? Maddy is pregnant? I’m going to be a father?
I stared down at the woman I loved, lying in the hospital bed and I was in shock. I couldn’t believe this. I couldn’t believe we’re going to have a baby together. Not that I thought we were in any way ready, but we’d work through it. Why hadn’t she told me that she was pregnant?

Then my brain registered what his exact words were. He said your wife
was
pregnant. I was scared to even ask him what that meant right now. The only thing I could manage was to lift my head to look at him.

“I am judging by your reaction that you didn’t.”

I just shook my head no. I was silently praying that the next words out of his mouth weren’t going to be what I thought they were.

“When you are this early in the pregnancy
, trauma like this is very dangerous. We tried to help her, but by the time she had gotten to us she already lost the baby. I’m so sorry to be the one to tell you this. I understand that you will need some time alone to process all of this. If you have any questions, the nurses can reach me.”

He
walked out of the room and all I could do was stare in disbelief. Maddy had been pregnant. I wondered if she knew. I couldn’t believe this. There was nothing I could do now to save our baby, or save Maddy the pain of what I’d need to tell her when she woke up. I clasped her hand in mine, laid my head on the bed, and wept for our child.

I woke up when I hea
rd arguing coming down the hall. That must mean Jason and Nicole were here. They walked in, but both stopped talking when they saw her.

Nicole came to me first
and wrapped her arms around me. I winced as she squeezed my shoulder.

“Shit
, Carter, I’m sorry. How is she?”

“She’
s okay right now. She had some internal bleeding, which they fixed, her arm is fractured, and she has a bunch of cuts and bruises. There is something else, though.” I paused, not really sure how to continue. They both looked up at me. I guess they could tell from my tone that it was going to be bad. “Apparently, Maddy was pregnant.”

I saw them smile at first
, but then a look of realization hit them. Jason walked over to me. “Was?”

“Yea
h, she umm…she had a miscarriage.”

Nicole sank down
in the chair and started to cry. I would have probably joined her, but I didn’t think I had any left. J walked over to her and put his arm around her. After about five minutes, Jason looked up at me and I swear I saw tears in his eyes. “Carter, I, uh…I brought that stuff you asked for.” He nodded to a bag next to him on the floor.

“Thanks
, J.”

“Listen
, I’m gonna take Nic home for a little. Will you call us if anything changes?” It made me happy that he was being considerate enough right now to take care of her.

“No, Jason. I’m not going all the way back to my house. I want to be here when she wakes up.”

I could see him struggling with something in his head. I was about to tell him to take her to our house, because there was no way in hell I was leaving this hospital without Maddy.

Then Jason turned to Nicole and pulled her to her feet. “It’s fine, I’ll take you back to my place. Come on.”

They both hugged me before they left and made me promise to call if anything changed.

I went through the bag that Jason had brought me
. It was basically just clothes and things. All except the one thing I really wanted. I pulled out the jewelry box and went to sit next to Maddy. They say, when a person is unconscious they can still hear you talking to them and it helps, so that was what I planned to do. I sat down next to her in the chair and grabbed her hand.

“So
, when we were at my dad’s house at Christmas, he pulled me aside. He told me that he had saved my mom’s ring for when someone special came along and he knew they would cherish it as much as he did. Well, he knew how much we loved each other, and he loves you too. He gave me this ring and told me, when I was ready to ask you, he would be honored if I gave you my mom’s ring. All the times I had envisioned doing this, I had never thought it would be in a hospital room and that you would be unconscious.”

I took a deep breath and hoped that she could hear every word I was saying. “I love you so much
, Madison. I love the smile you get when I give you a first. I love how much you have opened up to me and trust me. You are the reason that I breathe, and when I thought you were gone, I was lost. You are my entire world. I swear, as soon as you wake up, there won’t be a second of your life that you don’t know it. I know you always thought that I had saved you, but you were the one who saved me. You saved me from a life without love, and you filled this last year of my life with some of the best memories I could hope for. I cannot wait to make you mine in front of everyone, and spend the rest of our lives together. All you need to do now is open your eyes, baby. I’m here and I’m not going anywhere.”