Breathing Water (4 page)

“I didn’t say anything about money,” Pan says.

Rafferty says, “Then what?”

“You like it here, don’t you?” Pan asks, and Rafferty feels a sudden dip in the center of his stomach.

Studying Pan’s face, Arthit says, “I don’t know about this.”

Pan looks at Arthit and then at Rafferty. “Aren’t we looking for a way to walk out of this room?”

Rafferty says, “We are.”

“Then these are the stakes,” Pan says. “If you lose, you will voluntarily leave Thailand.”

“Poke,” Arthit says.

“I can’t do that,” Rafferty says. “I have a wife and daughter to take care of.”

Pan shrugs the higher shoulder. “That should make the game more interesting.”

“Forget it.”

The flush on Pan’s face deepens. “Consider the alternative,” he says. “I destroy your friend here, and then I have you thrown out of the country, and then your friend undertakes some act of vengeance that probably gets him killed.”

A vista of emptiness opens up in front of Rafferty. It feels like part of the walls and floor have fallen away and there is nothing above or below but gray, empty space with drizzle falling through it. Life without Thailand: life somewhere else, uprooting Miaow, explaining it all to Rose.

Possibly losing both Rose and Miaow.

Rafferty says, “And if I win?”

Pan shrugs. “Name your bet.”

Suddenly Rafferty thinks of something he might actually like to have. More important, it’s something Pan will never give him. If Pan won’t bet, they might all be able to walk away from the table. “I’m a writer,” he says. “I want your permission to write your life story, without interference.”

“You’re joking,” Pan says. His biography is a kind of holy grail among Thai publishers, as unattainable as it is desirable. Several well-known writers have announced plans to write the man’s life, only to abandon the project later for unspecified reasons. The only book that actually made it to press was lost when the printing plant burned down.

“That’s what I want,” Rafferty says. “Gives you something worth playing for.”

Without taking his eyes from Rafferty’s, Pan raises his right hand and massages the lower left shoulder as though it is still sore from the seed sack’s strap. He seems completely unconscious that he is doing it. Then he laughs, but without much conviction. “Write my life story? And I don’t try to stop you?”

Rafferty says, “You not only don’t try to stop me. You cooperate.”

“I’m leaving,” says one of the businessmen. “Send the money to my
office.” The other joins him to leave, but Pan says, “You’re staying here. Keep an eye on the
farang
. I’m not going to get cheated again.”

His eyes drop to the green surface of the table and then come up to Rafferty’s. The room is silent and as motionless as a window display. He purses his lips and drums his fingertips on the table for a second. His eyes make their quick circuit of the room. Then he says, “I can beat you.”

“Poke,” Arthit says. “Don’t do it.”

“Got an alternative?” Rafferty still can’t believe that Pan will accept the stakes. He reaches over and grabs the deck of cards, squares it, cuts and shuffles it once, puts it in front of the spot where Pan had been sitting, and waits to see what the man will do. With an abrupt jerk, almost a muscle spasm, Pan lifts the low shoulder and lets it fall again. Then he adjusts his jacket and points to his fallen chair. One of the bodyguards picks it up and puts it back in position, and Pan sits. He puts out a hand, and a bodyguard gives him a cigar, which he centers in the pink mouth. He waits a moment, until the lighter has come and gone, and then shuffles the deck twice and passes it to Rafferty to cut again.

“So tell me,” he says, picking up the deck. “Why are you so interested in writing about my life?”

“Something Balzac said,” Rafferty answers. “I just want to know whether it’s true.”

The first two facedown cards hit the table, one for Rafferty, one for Pan. “Who is Balzac?”

“A French writer who died a long time ago.”

Rafferty’s second facedown card lands.

“And what did he say?”

“Something to the effect that behind every great fortune lies a great crime.”

Pan’s second card lands eighteen inches from his first.

T
he owner has taken advantage of the cool air towed in by a late-night drizzle to kill the expensive air-con and prop open the door to the street. It’s one of Arthit’s regular haunts; he had stopped at the bar to grab a full bottle of Johnnie Walker Black before heading for a corner booth. Rafferty followed along.

The place is funereally quiet, the drinkers solitary islands of silence, except for Arthit and Rafferty, who whisper, heads together, in the corner. Now and then the gloom lifts as a car passes in the
soi
, the small street outside, with a sizzle of tires on wet pavement, its headlights throwing the drinkers near the door into sharp silhouette.

“Call him in the morning,” Arthit says, putting down the bottle for the fourth time. He’s knocked back about a third of the contents, and the ice over which he poured the first few drinks is now a memory. “Tell him you’ve changed your mind.” He hoists his glass.

“He gets his way too often,” Rafferty says. “He needs his goddamn face slapped.”

Arthit takes two long swallows, the way Rafferty drinks water. “Far be it from me,” he says over the rim of the glass, “to remind you of one of the foremost precepts of your adopted culture: Keep a cool heart.”

“Like you did,” Rafferty says, and immediately regrets it.

Arthit lifts his drink and sights the bar through it, turning his head slowly with the glass in front of one eye. He doesn’t speak.

Rafferty says, “Sorry.”

“You’re right,” Arthit says. He takes yet another numbingly large slug of Black. “I behaved like a child. And Pan should never have been in that game. I put Vinai in charge of choosing our pigeons, and I am-most—” He shakes his head. “
Almost
called the whole thing off when he brought Pan in. But Vinai said Pan would enjoy it, said he’d think it was a terrific joke.”

“He might have, if he hadn’t been so drunk.”

“Well,” Arthit says, and drinks, a sip this time. “He was.” He looks idly around the bar, just a cop survey, obviously not expecting anything interesting. “You don’t want to write the book.” His eyes wander to the glass in his hand, and he sets it on the table again and picks up the bottle.

Rafferty has seen his friend knock it back before, but never quite like this. “What’s that thing with his lips?”

“He got burned, don’t know how. You saw his hands. The file on him said the lip balm is psylochogical—psychological. He thinks they’re hot, his lips, so he cools them down with menthol.”

“If I’m going to quit, tell me what I’m missing. What’s the story I’m not going to write?”

Arthit closes his eyes, and for a moment Rafferty thinks he might be going to slump sideways, but then he opens them again, looking at a spot in the center of the table with an intensity that suggests that he’s trying to get the room to hold still. “Father was a farmer. Had some land, Isaan dirt, all rocks and scrub. Every year they’d work themselves to death, and every year they’d borrow money. They were going to lose everything. So Pan came to Bangkok.” He sits there, regarding the invisible spot on the table.

“And?” Rafferty prompts.

Arthit tilts his head back as though it is too heavy for his shoulders. “And he’s a tough boy. You can see that when you look at him, even now.”

“He’s gotten soft,” Rafferty says.

“He’s hard underneath it.” Arthit’s eyes go to the wall, and he squints slightly. “He came to Bangkok, I said that, right?”

“Right.”

“Okay. Good to know I didn’t imagine it.
So
.” He blinks heavily. “He chose three blocks in Pratunam, not far from where Rose and Peachy have their office now. Sidewalk market, lots of stalls. Remember, he’s about seventeen years old. He goes to the stallholders and tells them they need protection.” Arthit turns the glass in his fingers. “They say they’ve already got protection, and he says no they don’t. The next day the guy who’s collecting the protection money gets thrown out of a car in the middle of one of the blocks.”

“Dead?”

“
Deeply
dead. Pulverized. So everybody takes a good look, and the body gets hauled away, and next day there’s Pan again, telling them they need protection.” Arthit picks up the bottle and squints at the label. “It’s really whiskey,” he says, sounding surprised. “My head should be on the table by now.”

“Keep trying.”

Arthit presses the bottle to his cheek, as though his face is hot. “Of course, the guy who got tossed out of the car had a boss, and Pan gets grabbed and taken to him. They’re going to chop him up and prolly—probably—use him for bait, but the boss wants to take a look at him first. They’re all there, Pan and the three guys who grabbed him, in the boss’s office. And the boss, a management-level crook named Chai, asks Pan why he shouldn’t just be killed right there. Pan says, ‘Choose one of these guys.’”

As long as he has the bottle in his hand, Arthit pours and drinks. “You understand that this is hearsay, right? It’s not like it’s in his file or anything. Anyway, Pan says that thing about choosing a guy, and Chai figures what the hell and points at the biggest one, and in about five seconds the big guy is dead on the floor with an ice pick through his temple, and Pan has the dead man’s gun and it’s pressed against the back of Chai’s skull. But he doesn’t pull the trigger. What he does is say, ‘Choose another one.’” Arthit looks toward the door as a car hisses by, narrowing his eyes against the glare through the door.

“There’s buckets of this kind of stuff at the beginning, but of course if it’s not in a file somewhere, it never happened. Anyway, Pan becomes one of Chai’s enforcers and works his way up, and the next thing we know—say he’s twenty-three, twenty-four—he’s taken over a massage place, just a dump off Sukhumvit. Real junk pile. Cops called it ‘the
armpit,’ because it was hot and dirty and wet and it smelled. A total bottom-level, ten-dollar pounding parlor. Women, the kindest way to describe them would be ‘motherly.’ Title to the place changes hands, and trucks pull up, and a bunch of heavyweights go in with sledgehammers, and a couple tons of dirt get dumped in front, and there are a few weeks of banging and hammering and painting and flower planting, and the dirt gets turned into a big hill leading up to the front door, which is now black glass—etched, okay?—and a huge purple sign goes up that says ‘The Mound of Venus,’ and Pan owns the fanciest public whorehouse in Bangkok. And then he owns two, and then three. And they’ve all got that little hill outside, and they’re called, I don’t know, Mound Two and Mound Three.”

“The Mound of Venus?” Rafferty asks. “In English?”

“That touch of class,” Arthit says.

“And from that he got into everything.”

“You name it,” Arthit says, “and he’s in it. The first Mound was maybe nineteen years ago, and now he’s in everything. Hotels, apartment buildings, office blocks, toy manufacturing.” He wipes a palm over his forehead although the bar is cool. “In fact, manufacturing of all kinds—shoes, clothes, dishes, anything with a label on it. Factories everywhere. He’s a baht billionaire. For all I know, he’s a dollar billionaire, too.”

Rafferty drains his beer and watches the remaining bits of foam form little bubble continents as they slide down the inside of the glass. Finally he says, “Something’s missing. Where’s the connective tissue? I mean, there’s a gulf between baby thug–slash–sex mogul, as opposed to getting manufacturing rights to half the logos in the world. You don’t just buy into the kind of businesses he runs. For that you have to get to the really big boys. That’s a closed club.”

“You’re right,” Arthit says. “There’s something hidden there. And that’s probably the reason he doesn’t want his life story written.”

“You’ve mentioned his file a couple of times—”

“Have I?” Arthit’s eyebrows rise. “I shouldn’t have.” He picks up the glass and regards it with severity. “Muss—
must
be the drink talking.”

“Why?”

Arthit says, “Why’ is an extremely broad question.”

“Why shouldn’t you have mentioned his file?”

“If you ever looked at it, you’d know.”

“I don’t think I’m likely to get a look at it.”

“You’re certainly not. It’s sensitive information. Privileged.”

“Privileged how?”

“Strictly cops only. You’d have to get a cop
very
drunk for him to tell you that Pan’s file is about three pages long, with wide margins and big type, and it reads like the stuff the Catholic Church gives the pope when they want somebody sainted, except shorter. Zero real information. And this is a guy everybody knows is dirty.”

“But he’s a Boy Scout on paper.”

Arthit leans forward, pushing his face toward Rafferty’s. “You’re only hearing part of what I’m saying. The file’s interesting, but what’s more interesting is the amount of power it took. ’Nough power to get somebody who’s way,
way
up there to pull a big, fat, dirty file, hundreds of pages thick, and replace it with a box of candy. And I mean it’s been pulled everywhere. It’s not on paper at the stations, it’s not online, it’s not in the backup systems. Least not the ones I can access.”

“How unusual is that?”

The glass comes up again and gets tilted back. Rafferty watches the level drop. “Very,” Arthit says when he can talk again. “Extremely. Almost unprecedented.” He fans his face, which, thanks to the alcohol, is as red as the liquid that indicates the temperature in an old-time thermometer. “Poke. You don’t want to get anywhere near whoever deleted those files. Which means you don’t want to get near Pan.”

AN HOUR LATER
Rafferty steers Arthit’s car along the shining street, still wet from the drizzle, to the curb in front of the house that Arthit and his wife, Noi, share. Arthit has his head thrown back and his eyes closed, but when the car stops, he sits forward and looks around at the neighborhood as though he’s never seen it before.

He turns to face Rafferty. His eyebrows contract. “My car, right?”

“Right,” Rafferty says, pulling the key from the ignition.

Arthit blinks lids as heavy as a lizard’s. “How’d I get over here?”

“Seemed like a good idea, since you’d drunk most of the Johnnie Walker Black in Bangkok.”

“Did I?” Arthit seems pleased to hear it.

Rafferty gives his friend a second to find his way into the present. “I have a question for you.”

“And I,” Arthit says with careful precision, “am hip-deep in answers.”

“You knew all about Pan, about the amount of power behind him, earlier this evening.”

Arthit says, “Oh,” and turns to look out the window at his house, at the place where he had once thought he and Noi would raise their children. He breathes on the window to fog it. “That.”

“Well, knowing all of it, why did you let things get so out of hand at the card table? Why didn’t you defuse it earlier?”

“The right question,” Arthit says thickly, “is, why didn’t I give a fuck?”

Rafferty waits.

Arthit slumps sideways, his cheek pressed against the passenger window. “Between us,” he says.

“Fine.”

“I mean it. Not even Rose.”

This stops Rafferty for a moment. There’s nothing he keeps from Rose. He looks at his friend’s drained, crumpled face and says, “Not even Rose.”

“Noi needs…pills to sleep,” Arthit says. The words seem to require physical effort. “The pain’s worse and worse. It keeps her up. I can hear her breathing. So the doctor, the new one, he gives her sleeping pills. Strong ones. She’s been getting them for more than three months.”

Noi has been Arthit’s wife for seventeen years. Her nervous system is being ravaged by multiple sclerosis. In the last few months, her decline has been brutally swift. She is a burning match. Arthit has been reduced to the role of helpless bystander.

“Do they work?”

“I wouldn’t know,” Arthit says.

“Why not?”

Arthit opens the glove compartment and snaps it shut again. “Every night she goes into the bathroom and she brushes her teeth, and then I listen as she fills a glass with water and shakes a pill out of the bottle, and then she comes to bed. Just like the doctor told her to. And I lie there and listen to her breathe, hear the catch in her breath, and I know
she’s awake.” He opens the little compartment door again and leaves it hanging, the dim splash of light from inside it bringing his thighs and belly out of the darkness. “And this morning I went into the kitchen to make her some pancakes, as a surprise. She loves pancakes.”

Rafferty feels a tremor of dread but says, “Okay.”

“And in the tin of flour, a couple of inches down, I found one of those plastic bags that’s got the little zipper along the top, and it was full of pills. There were eighty-one of them, Poke.”

Rafferty says, “Oh?” Then he says, “
Ohhhh
.”

Arthit puts both hands on his friend’s arm. “Eighty-one of them,” he says. “Hidden from me.”