Authors: Anne Gracie
Luke said thoughtfully, “For a rag doll it’s quite heavy.”
Bella said impatiently, “Perlita restuffed it when she repaired it. She probably used sawdust or something. Now Luke, don’t be so tedious—tell me.”
Luke picked up the doll and examined it. “It’s not sawdust. It feels like… pebbles or something.” He took out his knife and glanced at her. “Do you mind?”
“No.” She was curious, too.
He pulled back the doll’s skirt and slit the stitching down her middle. He parted the seam, closed it, and tossed her the doll. “See for yourself.”
Bella looked. And gasped. From the doll’s stomach she drew a long string of pearls, South Sea Island pearls. “She stole them back for me.”
She ran the pearls through her fingers. They were even more beautiful than she remembered, glowing with a creamy sheen. Each one was perfect. She slipped them over her head, and they went around twice, with room to spare. “Mama’s pearls.”
“I thought you said you didn’t care about those pearls,” he said grimly.
“I lied. I didn’t want you to fight Ramón.”
“Oh for heaven’s sake—”
She looked up, worried. “They must be priceless. When Ramón finds out…”
“She will handle him,” Luke said. “Your sister has a great deal more character than I thought. You might want to settle something on her.”
“Settle something? What do you mean?”
“Some of your inheritance.”
“But… I don’t have an inheritance. You said—”
“No, I said I’d left you nothing in my will. I don’t need to. You still have the fortune your mother left you.”
She gaped at him, speechless. “But, how? When a bride marries, everything she owns belongs by law to her husband. I know that is true. They taught us that at the convent. Unless the bride’s family negotiates settlements, and I know nobody negotiated anything for me. There wasn’t time.”
Luke grinned, enjoying her amazement. “Ah, but your groom did it for you. I promised to look after you, remember? Some protector I would have been if I gained your fortune through marriage one day, and was killed the next. And in wartime there was every likelihood of that.”
She crossed herself. “Thank God you weren’t. But I still don’t understand.”
“I owned your fortune—whatever it is, I still have no idea—for barely a day. When we got to the convent, I wrote out a document returning to you every penny of your mother’s fortune, and anything else that you owned before the marriage, to be held in trust until you turned twenty-one. I made two copies and left one with your aunt, who witnessed it. She still has one copy. The other one is here.” He drew a packet of papers from the breast pocket of his coat, selected one, and handed it to her. “That’s why I left you nothing of mine in my will. You’re a rich woman, Lady Ripton.”
Stunned, she stared at the document. It was as he said. He’d signed everything back to her almost immediately after the wedding. She swallowed. “That is why my aunt was so sure this marriage was the right thing for me. She knew you were a man of honor. But why did she never tell me?”
Luke said dryly, “Perhaps she thought if you had plenty of money you might run off and abandon me. Any idea why she might think that?”
Bella dismissed that with a wave of her hand. “She never told me anyth—” She broke off, as a thought occurred to her. “But… if I were a widow—”
“You’d be a very rich one, yes.”
“You fool! You crazy, reckless fool!” She flew at him and thumped him on the chest.
“What? I thought you’d be pleased.”
“So Ramón
could
have killed you and forced me to—!”
“Oh, Ramón.” He rolled his eyes. “Why does everyone assume that I can’t handle Ramón—will you stop that, you violent little hussy? This is the correct response to learning of a husband’s nobility of character.” His mouth came down over hers, silencing all protests.
After a moment he murmured, “Yes, that’s the kind of thing I mean. Now, let me introduce you to one of the benefits of traveling by carriage.”
Just then there was a loud crack, the carriage listed to one side and slowly ground to a halt. “Problem with the wheel,
señor
,” the coachman called out.
Luke cursed and released her.
Sixteen
T
hey arrived in Huesca shortly after eight o’clock. The cracked wheel, a flooded river, and even a flock of geese on the road had all contributed to a journey fraught with difficulties and delays. By the time they rolled into town, Luke was in a filthy mood.
Very little pleased him.
After some delay they found a suitable inn, but the only available bedchamber was on the top floor, and was small with a low and uneven ceiling on which he banged his head. Twice.
But he was not going to search the blasted town for another blasted room.
He was tired; he’d spent the day dragging carriages out of mud, changing wheels himself, because hired blasted coachmen had no blasted idea, and chasing geese all over the road, and he wanted his dinner. He was hungry enough to eat a horse.
“Ah, but dinner will not be served for at least another hour,
señor
.”
“Blasted Spanish hours! And no, I could not be tempted with a blasted boiled egg—I want proper food, not a nursery supper!”
Bella pressed her lips firmly together trying not to laugh.
“I can see that dimple,” he grumbled as the landlord fled. “Think this is all very funny, don’t you, but it wasn’t you who had to ruin your boots in that blasted mud.”
“No,” she agreed. “Nor did I slip in the mess left by a blasted goose and fall on my blasted backside in the middle of the blasted road.” A choked giggle escaped her.
“So glad to have entertained you, my lady,” he said with a sardonic bow. But his mood eased, and a glass of excellent French brandy hastily produced by the landlord did the rest.
By the time dinner arrived he was a lot mellower.
“We’ll make it an early night,” he told her. “Rise at dawn, get on the road as soon as possible. Does that suit you?”
She nodded. She was used to rising at dawn. Convents didn’t encourage lazy mornings in bed, though Bella longed for one. Mama used to lie in bed until almost noon sometimes, reading novels in French and English, drinking chocolate, and nibbling on sweetmeats. It seemed the height of indulgence.
But she was tired and ready for bed, and she was weary of trying to deal with the legacy of the past—and failing. She was looking forward to her new life in England. The sooner it started, the better.
“How many days until your sister’s ball?”
“Ten.” He’d said it without hesitation. Didn’t even have to think, to work out the days. That told her how much it was on his mind.
“Do you think we’ll make it in time?”
He shrugged. “No telling. We’re cutting it very fine, and there’s no telling what the weather will be once we get to the coast. If the wind is in the right direction, and the tides… and we find a ship ready to take us straightaway…” He drained the last of the wine in his glass. “But if we get any more days like the last one…” He shook his head.
But if they didn’t make it in time, Bella knew it wouldn’t be the fault of the winds or the tides or anything encountered on the road. It would be her fault and no one else’s. If she hadn’t come on her quest to save her sister—her futile quest—they would probably have reached the coast by now, and could even be on a ship and sailing to England.
“I’ll be ready at dawn,” she assured him.
They climbed the stairs to their little bedchamber in silence. Bella was tired and feeling a little defeated; she’d failed to rescue her sister, and even Perlita’s act of stealing the pearls for her, and the knowledge of Luke’s return of Bella’s fortune failed to cheer her. She wanted to fling herself into her husband’s arms and make love with him.
He might have told Bella not to expect love from him, and he might agree with her mother that love was a curse, but when he made love to Bella with that slow, sensual intensity of his, it dissolved her worries as well as her bones, and she forgot everything.
Even that he did not love her. Especially that he did not love her.
Luke had married her, he’d protected her, he’d risked his life for her, and he’d made her a rich woman. He gave so much and took so little. It sounded like love… if you didn’t know the whole story.
Bella feared it was all for honor.
On entering the bedchamber, the first thing Luke did was open his portmanteau, take out his nightshirt, and lay it on the bed.
Bella eyed it sourly. She’d dreamed of love, but he wouldn’t even give her a little bit of trust.
She opened her own portmanteau and took out the shirt that she’d worn the night before. A shirtly declaration of war. Sometimes you had to fight for what you wanted. Especially with a stubborn untrusting man.
He eyed her shirt and sucked in his cheeks thoughtfully. “I think I’ll get another brandy.”
“You do that,” she said as she started unfastening her dress. “I’ll be here, in bed, waiting for you.”
H
e returned about half an hour later. Bella sat up in bed waiting for him, as promised.
She’d left a candle burning on the table on his side of the bed. He glanced at her and blew it out.
Without a word he shrugged off his coat and as usual hung it up. He untied his neckcloth and unbuttoned his waistcoat. Bella counted every button.
She was sure he was going to wear his nightshirt again, but she couldn’t help herself: she was the hopeful type. Maybe in the last half hour he’d changed his mind. Maybe the brandy had given him that little extra encouragement he needed to trust his wife with whatever it was that he’d kept hidden all this time.
She couldn’t imagine what it could be. He acted as if he were ashamed of it, but a war wound was not something to be ashamed of.
She ached for him to trust her.
She ached for him.
He sat to remove his boots, then his stockings. He shoved his breeches down his legs, taking his drawers with them. He folded first the breeches, then the drawers and placed them on the chair.
In the soft light spilling from the fire she could see the elegant line of his hard, horseman’s thighs, his lean, masculine flanks.
He sat back on the bed and pulled the shirt over his head. She could see the broad expanse of his back, the powerful shoulders, the ridged line of his spine.
Bella wanted to scream as he carefully separated the shirt from the undershirt, shook out each garment one by one, and placed it on the chair.
He was naked, wholly naked, for the first time in their marriage.
She waited for him to reach for the nightshirt.
Some coals shifted in the fireplace, and he made a small sound of irritation and, naked in the dark, padded across to
the fire. He bent and stoked it with some cut logs. In the firelight he was all bronze and gold and shadow, lean and hard and beautiful.
Bella watched, her mouth dry.
She could not see his chest, but oh, the long, strong line of his back and those magnificent shoulders. And the firm masculine buttocks…
How could he possibly think scars would make a difference to her? Did he not understand what a fine specimen of manhood he was? Scarred or not, he was perfect, in her opinion.
She longed to run her hands over his firm, manly flesh, feel the corded muscles of his arms, the deep chest, the perfect shoulders. Who knew that a man’s shoulders could be so beautiful? She wanted to touch him everywhere, see all of him, as he had seen and touched her.
He padded back to the bedside, a dark silhouette limned by firelight, and…
No!
she exclaimed silently, as he pulled his nightshirt over his head.
She scrunched herself down into the bed.
He slid into bed and pulled up the bedclothes. “Good night.”
“Good night.”
Civilized people didn’t quarrel, she told herself. Civilized people said polite good-nights and went to sleep as if there weren’t a huge gulf between them.
She hit him.
“Ouch! What was that for?”
“You know what for,” she muttered.
“I don’t.”
She hit him again.
“What the devil is the matter with you?” He sat up.
“I won’t have you teasing me!”
“Teasing you?”
“Yes! Walking around naked, making me believe that at last you might trust me a little—but all the time you were just teasing me. Making me want you!”
He stared at her, his face unreadable and shadowed against the firelight.
“Making you want me?”
“Yes, it’s not fair. How would you like it if I pranced around the room fiddling with logs, stark naked and bathed in firelight—”
“I’d like it very much.”
“—and then I come back and shove myself into a huge, ugly nightshirt, covering every inch—”
“Not every inch, surely.”
“Stop teasing me! Yes, every inch that counts.”
“Every inch counts, believe me,” he murmured. “And the inches that count most are not impeded by the shirt.”
She would have hit him again, only she didn’t want to make a habit of it. “It’s not a joke, Luke.”
“I never thought it was,” he said in quite a different tone. “And if you cannot accept me as I am, I will go else—”