Authors: Jana Bommersbach
Copyright © 2014 by Jana Bommersbach
First E-book Edition 2014
ISBN: 9781615954780 ebook
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The historical characters and events portrayed in this book are inventions of the author or used fictitiously.
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Contents
Chapter OneâI Can't Believe This
Chapter TwoâThey First Called Me Franny
Chapter ThreeâI Agreed with Pa
Chapter FourâWe Found a New Life
Chapter FiveâMy First Big Mistake
Chapter SixâMy Train to a New Life
Chapter SevenâThe Man I Love
Chapter EightâThe Man I Hate
Chapter NineâMy Claim, No. 2003
Chapter TenâI Wanted a Nice Christmas
Chapter ElevenâI Love Being a Homesteader
Chapter TwelveâI Became a Substitute Ma
Chapter ThirteenâI'm Sorry I Haven't Written Sooner
Chapter FourteenâThe Last Day of My Life
Chapter Fifteenâ“Cattle Kate” is Born
Chapter SixteenâHow to Stage a Hanging
Chapter SeventeenâThe Man with the Pen
Chapter EighteenâPa Wept at Her Grave
Chapter NineteenâA Man with Guts
Chapter TwentyâAnd in the End
I dedicate this book to Bob Boze Bell
and
True West
magazineâ
I'm still dancin' with the guy who brung me.
I don't know where I most loved writing this book:
On my mother's garden patio in Hankinson, North Dakota; at Maxine Beckstrom-Atkin's tropical apartment in Fargo, North Dakota; on Gail Adams and Jay Goodfarb's high-rise balcony in Coronado Island, California; on Mary and Denis Perret's veranda in Ocean Beach, California; on Mary Margaret and John Sather's porch overlooking Sedona, Arizona; in the guest apartment at Mary Wills and Sally Dryer's home in Jerome, Arizona; in the back seat of Marge Injasoulian and Barb Hanson's Explorer to and from New Orleans, or in my messy home office in Phoenix. But I loved writing this book.
My friend, Gail Adams, instantly recognized the importance of this book and gave me the boot now and then to keep me going. Barbara Peters of Poisoned Pen Press was a strong voice encouraging me to expand into fiction. Bob Boze Bell and Meghan Saar of
True West
magazine were unwavering in their support. My first cousins Jerry Tomayer and Debby Davidson were fabulous hosts as I researched in Rawlins, and their son's familyâJosh, Sara, and Allysa Tomayerâgave me shelter and encouragement during my research in Laramie.
Kevin Anderson at the Western History Center at Casper College was terrific. Wyoming historian Tom Rea was invaluable help, as was Rans Baker from the Carbon County Museum. Carbon County Clerk Lindy Glode and Deputy Clerk Mary Oaks uncovered long-lost records that delighted us all. Gregory Kocken at the American Heritage Center in Laramie went out of his way to help meâand this center is a must for anyone researching the American West. At the Wyoming State Archives, Carl Hallberg and Jim Allison were great. I found insightful research material at the Fort Caspar Museum and help from Michelle Bahe, curator of collections. Kristi Baxley turned me on to the Rawlins Main Street Project and the public mural on the lynching. The staff members of the Kansas Historical Society were very helpful. And I'm forever indebted to all the historians and writers who spent years of their lives trying to correct history.
Thanks for the excellent and thoughtful editing and constant encouragement of my longest Arizona friend, Athia Hardt. My thanks are boundless to Kristian “Magic” Nordhaugen for saving this book when my computer crashed. Thanks to the encouragement from my writing students at Phoenix College, the Board of Directors of The Friends of the Phoenix Public Library, my friends at Taliesin, the Southwest Authors Association and the 2013 senior class of Phoenix Country Day School.
Thanks to my friends for always being there, especially Tommy Martinez; Nan, Dave, and Tina Robb; Estelle MacDonald; Cathy Eden; Jim and Linda Ballinger; Adrienne and Charles Schiffner; Stella Pope Duarte; Ide Flores; Marge Rice; Ann and Tim Cothron; Mary Lou Shreves; Mary Anne Grimes; Richard Stahl; Mel Reese; Bob Hegyi; Bill Sheppard; Range Shaw; Cousin Ann Claudio; Brady, Shaun, and Oliver Breese; Katie Moore; Rose Prince; Perri Krom; Carole Weitzel; Sharon Austerman; Gayle Gerard; Anne and Tony Sammons; the late Kenny Smith; and the guidance from fellow writers Pam Hait and Shelia Grinell.
A most special thanks to my mother, Willetta “Willie” Bommersbach, who has always been my best critic and my best cheerleader; to my sister Judy; my brother Gary and his wife Susan; and my brother Duane and his wife Jeanette. Having a supportive family makes all the difference in the world.
How do you thank the fabulous crew at Poisoned Pen Press who lovingly and diligently made this book better than I ever dreamed? Founders Robert Rosenwald and Barbara Peters have set a very high bar for the books they publish, and it was a dream come true when they chose
Cattle Kate
. Thanks to Jessica Tribble and Pete Zrioka, who cared for this book like it was their own. And to my editor, Annette Rogersâwhere have you been all my life? Every writer should be blessed with an editor this fine and this talented. She made this novel sing.
Chapter OneâI Can't Believe This
I never thought I'd die like this.
There's a bucketful of ways I could go. Snake bite. Thrown by Goldie. Shot by a cowboy. Trampled by a steer. Freeze to death. Drown in the river. Come down sick. Maybe an Indian attack, but this is already 1889 and I think the fight has been beat out of them.
I never thought I'd be hanging here at the end of a rope.
Not strung up like a side of beef. Not twisting and bucking and bumping into my Jimmy as he hangs by his own rope. His sad eyes begging forgiveness, like this was his fault.
Not lynched in a lonely canyon in Wyoming Territory on a pretty Saturday afternoon when I should be getting supper ready.
I'm still not believing it. This can't be happening. This can't be the end already. I know they'll come to their senses and cut us down. They have to!
No, I am not going to die like this. Not after I just turned twenty-nine.
I'm going to die proper. An old lady, tucked under a quilt in bed with my people all around me. Jimmy's wrinkled hand holding mine. Years and years of happy memories. My feet tired from all the dancing I did.
I intend to have a full life. I've worked hard for it. I've risked so much for it. I have too many plans. All my dreams!
I'm going to have children.
I'm going to be a happy grandma.
I'm going to reveal I'm Jimmy's wife.
I'm going to prove up my claim.
I'm going to become a citizen.
I'm going to celebrate when we're finally a state.
I'm going to see Gene grow up.
I'm going to dance at the fandango.
I haven't even been to the Opera House yet. I saved the beautiful hair comb Jimmy gave me, and a woman can't have something so dear and never get to wear it.
I will die listening to my cattle bellowin', like they had a complaint, which is the way a cow always sounds. I will die with the feel of their wirehair hides. I will die smelling their musty scent that town folks can't stand. I will die satisfied, because to me that is the sound and feel and smell of freedom.
When I die, our Homestead Certificates will be proudly framed on the living room wall, telling the world this land is ours and we worked five long, hard years to earn it.
Ma and Pa will be buried back in Kansas by the time I die. I'll fill in Ma's Bible with their dates, just like I've done with all our losses over my lifetime.
Oh God, I can't die before my Ma. She already lost seven children. It would kill her to lose me, too.
They say that when you die, your life flashes before you in an instant, but I had it going into the future instead. I thought about all those things the seconds after that man finally got a rope around my neck.
And that's when it got through my thick skull: Ella Watson, you might really die out here today.
Oh, my God, I'm being strangled by a cowboy's rope!
If I had ever imagined this, the rope would come from some deranged bandito or dirty lowlifeâsomeone who'd take my life like he was stealin' eggs from the henhouse. Who could imagine it would be these men?
That
man sat at my roadhouse dinner table braggin' about my pies.
That
one got his mail from Jimmy every week.
That
one had me sign a petition for a new county.
That
one praised my sturdy corral.
Now here they are, these pillars of the communityâliquored up, hootin'âpretending they're going to let me and Jimmy die. They're trying to scare usâalright, I'm scared. And mad. And more than done with this nonsense.
Sure, they're cattlemen and we're homesteaders and that's like oil and water. But somebody has to stand up to them. My Jimmy and me are standuppers.
But now it's getting us killed!
If they think I'll go peaceful-like, they're getting the surprise of their lives. I'm kicking and swirling and jumping and screaming like the Texas Rangers will hear me and ride in any minute.
I'm kicking so hard, I just kicked off the beautiful beaded moccasins I got this morningâthey went flying, and now my feet are in their stockings and I'm kicking still.
“This is what cattle rustlers get in Wyoming Territory.”
Just heard those words, but this isn't about rustling. We all know what's really going on here. And any second now, somebody is going to get his head on straight and put an end to this.
I'm certain we'll be saved.
By the end of this day, I'll be back in my kitchen. I'm making an extra special supper tonight. You bet I am! I've got to make up for all the pain and suffering we've been through this afternoon.
My Jimmy deserves a great big, juicy steak. I've got fresh peas from the garden and I'll stew them in real cream. I'll make his favorite pie. Rhubarb.
I'm going to eat like a pig until I bust my skirt button. I deserve it.
It's not every day a woman has to fight off a lynch mob that doesn't have the sense God gave a goose.
No, I didn't live this life to end up lynched by a vigilante mob.
So STOP IT, RIGHT NOW!
Chapter TwoâThey First Called Me Franny
I took to the henhouse like I was a fox.
Even when my legs were chubby little stumps that waddled more than walked, I headed for the henhouse whenever I had a chance.
They called me Franny, just like my mother before me and my grandmother before that. If you went back to Ireland, you'd find people who'd tell you that great-great-great-Grandma had carried the family's favorite nickname, too.
“Franny, Franny, Franny, answer Mother, ELLEN LIDDY. Where. Are. You?” I loved the sound of my mother's voice, even when she was yelling. But I was busy with the hens and the eggs and when you're still in diapers, you can't focus on more than one thing at a time. Ma found me in the chicken coop, and I was surprised she was crying. So I held up the speckled egg as a present, but my pudgy fingers held too tight and before I knew it, yellow yolk and slimy white squished through my fingers. That, of course made me cry, and Ma's cry turned into a laugh.
“Oh, wee one, you'll be the death of me yet.” She kissed me all over my face.
From then on, Ma said she knew to always check the henhouse first when she couldn't find me. So of course, that's where Uncle Andrew came looking the day my parents went off to get married.
“Your Ma said I'd find you here.” He gathered me up in his lumberjack arms. My little arms couldn't even reach around his thick neck, but I loved being held by my Uncle Andrew. He was my first special friend. I was the only baby in the house and I got all his attention. I just loved that he was mine. And it was that way the seventeen years I lived in Canada.
Eventually, I'd piece it togetherâI had to figure it out myself because nobody wanted to tell me. I'd hear little things here and there. A snide comment or a sentence that was supposed to be secret. One day, I was about ten, it finally started to make sense.
What telling there was came from Uncle Andrew. Usually with hesitation, usually with a positive spin on everything. But he never could deny me anything. So over the years, I coaxed the secrets out of him. He always made me promise not to tell my Ma, and he didn't have to worry, because this wasn't the kind of news you want to confront your Ma with.
My birth was a family scandal. I can just imagine my Grandma wailing and my Grandpa swearing and my uncles threatening revenge when it turned out that my fifteen-year-old Ma was “in the family way” without a wedding band on her hand. It wasn't even a good Irish boy, but the Scottish farmer down the way. Boy, that really made it awful. I don't know why my Irish grandparents couldn't stand Scottish peopleâor why my Scottish father's people detested the Irish. Uncle Andrew said it went back to the Old Country.
“I've never had much use for that kind of hatred,” Andrew told me one day when we were out in the field and nobody could hear him telling me family secrets. “Your Pa wanted to marry Frances right away, you got to know that. Yes, he did. But his Pa wouldn't hear of it. He threatened to disown Thomas and ban him from the family. I thought your Pa wouldâ¦well, it's a terrible thing to lose your family, so they didn't get married right away.” It was the only time I ever heard disappointment in my uncle's voice when he talked about my father.
“I was the logical one to take Frances in while she waited for you to be born.” He answered the first part of my question. “It wouldn't look right for her to stay with Da and Ma, not being in the family way,” was the answer to part two. “I already had my small farm, the one you first remember. Frances and I have always been real close, and I wouldn't let anything hurt her.”
“So she was hiding at your place?” My uncle winced and said I shouldn't think of it that way. It was just best. But I knew I was right.
“Remember the day I found you in the henhouse and we spent the whole day, just us?” Of course, I remembered it. Because at the end of the day, my Ma and Pa came riding up in a carriage and they hugged me for a very long time. “That's the day they went off and got married. And your Pa was real proud to take his family home to his house that night.”
I cried when I had to leave Uncle Andrew. But the new house had a nice crib Pa said he made for me, and a stone fireplace where I could play and always be warm, and that's where we lived for the next few years.
“I love Uncle Andrew,” I announced one day when Ma was sewing and I was playing with my doll.
“So do I. He's my special big brother.”
I'd never have a big brother, and I felt cheated. When I got older and asked questions every day, I asked Ma why Uncle Andrew was so special.
The stories she told me only made me yearn even more for a big brother of my own. I wondered if I'd ever find anyone who'd take care of me like Andrew took care of my Ma.
“It was Andrew who took the blame when I set the barn on fire,” Mother confided. “He still carries the scars on his arms. Da whipped him good for the fire, and I cried all the time, knowing it should be me. But he told me to stay quiet, and he took all the blame on himself. I was about eleven then, and he was fifteen, and I knew right then that I could count on him for anything.”
Almighty! To have somebody take blame for you. I had no idea how that felt.
“But even the fire wasn't as big as how he saved me when I was thirteen.” Ma lowered her voice and leaned toward me to share a secret that only women should know. “I got my first time of the month when I was in school. I didn't know that I'd leaked through my dress, but Andrew saw it and he pulled me out of school, carefully walking behind me so no one could see. I would have died if anyone had seen my soiled dress. I was even embarrassed that Andrew knew, but he said to me âthat's what a big brother is for.' I was so grateful to him.”
I cringed at the shame of bleeding through your dress, but my Uncle Andrew grew even higher in my esteem for knowing how painful that would have been for Ma.
“And he was the first one to know Pa, wasn't he?” I could see my question bothered Ma.
“Yes he was,” was all she wanted to say about it.
But Andrew told me how he saw them talking together at the Mercantile one day when they'd gone into town for supplies. “Oh, the way your Pa looked at your Ma. They say sometime there's love at first sight, and this was one of those times.” Then Andrew saw Pa's buggy down by the stream near the home place, and he added it up real quick.
“Did you like my Pa?” I asked Andrew.
“Oh sure. I liked him right off. But I knew they'd have problems, this Irish and Scot thing, you know. I just didn't know it would get that bad. I told her, âHimself will never permit it, and I hear Old Man Watson is a hardass,' but of course, they were in love and none of that mattered to them. I thought it might help that we aren't even Catholic, but it didn't. The only thing your grandfathers had in common was that they hated the British even more than they hated each other. But that didn't do your folks one bit of good.”
“So you tried to talk them out of it?” I wasn't sure how I felt about that.
“Franny, remember this. When you come from people who have nothing but each other, family means everything. That's what held people together in the Old Country, where nobody had anything because the Queen and her lords owned all the land. Our people could only rent, we couldn't call any land our own. So when the Queen offered free land in Canada for homesteaders, everyone jumped at the chanceâwell, everyone who could afford the fare over on the ship. It took years to save up. And sometimes families were split up because there wasn't enough to cover the fares for everyone. I bet every family in this county has folks back home still waiting to come over. So the importance of family becomes even more important when you've gone to a new country to start over. You see how all your uncles have farms around Da and Ma's. Well, your Pa's people are like that, too. People want to stay with their own. That's why me and Molly are right here, close to the home place.”
“Molly is an Irish girl, isn't she?”
My uncle nodded. “I wouldn't have married anyone but an Irish lass.”
I could see why. But I also knew I had two parents from different backgrounds and they loved each other and they loved us kids, and I wouldn't want to trade either one of them.
I never, ever knew my Grandpa Watson. Or Grandma Watson, either. I didn't know my Pa's brothers and sisters. I didn't know my cousins on his side. Those people wanted nothing to do with me or my parents, and I guess as far as they were concerned, we didn't exist. It was the opposite with my Ma's people. I loved my Grandpa and Grandma Close. There were lots of cousins and uncles and aunts.
I don't know much about Scottish people, but Irish people are a lot of fun. They love to dance and sing and play jokes on each other. They love big suppers and delicious food. They like to sit around the table and talk. They treat their children like gold.
That's how I felt growing up. I never told anybody I knew the secret. And I never once, in all my years, felt that anybody ever treated me different because my birth had been a scandal.
My Uncle Andrew was my special friendâ“'Tiss me, woman,” he'd croon as he gathered me up in his arms for a kiss.
But Grandma Close was the most precious to me.
Grandma was the best chicken-killer in all of Canada.
She wasn't a very big woman, either in height or weight, but she could swing an ax like she was a lumberman. With such grace and ease, it could have been an Irish jig.
I have lots of other fond memories of my mother's mother. She always cut her bread against her titty. And she never cut herself, either. She was a sort-of-singer. She sort-of remembered the melody. She sort-of remembered the lyrics. When it became hopeless, she'd just hum like she was singing the right words to the right tune. And while everyone else laughed at her, I thought it was wonderful that you could go through life singing your own song.
But mostly I remember how Grandma Close killed a chicken.
First, of course, she had to catch a chicken. Now, chickens are pretty dumbânot as dumb as turkeys, but close cousinsâand Grandma was convinced a hen could tell if you'd walked into the coop to pick her eggs or to pick her for your Sunday dinner. And if you had the chopping block on your mind, she'd run around that coop like she was already a chicken with her head cut off.
Grandma could snatch a chicken quicker than you could blink, and she just ignored the squawking and jerking as she carried it out of the hen house feet first. As she walked to the chopping block marked with dark stains, she picked up the ax with her free hand. And then in a move that could have been set to music, she flung that hen's head down on the block while she swung the ax in an arc that cut it clean off.
She'd throw the chicken on the lawn. It always amazed me how that headless hen kept jumping around, spraying blood everywhere.
“Stand back, Franny,” she'd yell so I wouldn't get all bloody.
She never knew, but I had no interest in touching a headless chicken that didn't know it was dead.
Grandma got a big pot of water on the boil, and after that chicken finally gave up, she grabbed it and dunked it into the scalding water. She swished it around so the feathers got all soaked. Wet feathers have a smell of their own. Nothing in the world smells like it. I could be blindfolded in a cave somewhere and I'd know if someone was scalding a chicken. Anybody who's ever smelled it knows what I mean. Anybody who hasn't, can't imagine.
Grandma Close's hands had to be like iron because chicken feathers straight from the pot are very hot, but she hardly waited before plucking those feathers. She'd leave a few on to cool off so I could pluck too, but really my job came after all the big white feathers were off and I picked out the pinfeathers.
“Be very careful, Franny, because nobody wants a pinfeather in their fried chicken.”
“I'll be careful, Grandma.”
She always double-checked that I hadn't missed any.
Since then, I have always killed my chickens exactly like she did. And I never cleaned a single chicken in my life without remembering that precious woman.
***
The first time I ever heard my parents fight was the day we learned that President Lincoln had been shot.
I was almost five and when I saw Mother crying, I thought something bad had happened to somebody in our family.
“No, no. It's the president who freed the slaves.”
My mother wasn't making much sense. But her grief over a man she never knew made her pick a fight with my Pa.
“See, I told you you were wrong to think of moving to the States. Imagine if I hadn't stopped you. Taking your family to a country in the middle of a civil war? What were you thinking? That wasn't a war. It was a slaughter of young boys. How many mothers are grieving their boys so old men can play war? I want no part of a country like that. They throw their sons away like they don't count, and then they kill a fine man like Mr. Lincoln. I'll not have my babies growing up in a country that could do that. Shoot him. In front of his wife. A southern man, probably had slavesâthey'll never get over that war, you know. Never. No, I want no part of it. And the Indians⦔ but she never could go on with that thought out loud.
My Pa just listened and hung his head, like he'd done something wrong. He'd suggested moving to another country to get away from his awful family, who treated Ma like dirt whenever they saw her. She wouldn't hear of it then, and now when she cried over President Lincoln, she let him know she'd never hear of it.
“We have a good life here, Father, and I don't want you thinking about anything else. Our boys will take over this farm one day and our girls will marry nice Irish boys from here.” I saw my father smart at her declaration that his sons-in-laws would all be Irish.
It took me a long time, and some good lessons in school, before I realized all my mother was saying.