Changer's Moon (6 page)

RANE
: So Yael-mri said. Tuli and I, we're going looking the long way round Cimpia Plain, see what's happening firsthand.

HAL
: You're taking the child?

RANE
: Peace, Hal. Tuli stopped being a child awhile ago. (she stares at the fire, runs her hands through hair like short sun-bleached straw). There are no noncombatants in this war, my philosopher friend.

HAL
: Why is this happening? (He looks from Rane to Tuli, back at Rane, then stares into the fire as she does). What have we done to bring this death and desolation of the spirit?

RANE
: (Smiling at him, reaching over to put her hand on his.) Ah, my friend, I have missed this, sitting with you in front of a fire and solving the problems of the world. Seriously, why does it have anything to do with us? Perhaps it's five hundred years of stagnation. All things die sometime, now it's our time. From our death something new will be born.

HAL
: The Maiden? Rane. (Shakes his head.)

RANE
: We dance at the Maidenfetes, but when they're done the Keeper dowses the festfire. We're tired, happy, flown on wine and hard cider, ready to find our beds, so we forget what the dowsing means. Eh-Hal, all that makes lovely symbols for scholars to play with while the rest of us mundane souls go our ways looking for what comfort we can find in life. I've been thinking for several years now that the mijloc was ripe for trouble. Forget about symbols. Think about this. Too many ties for the land to support. Too many tar-sons and tar-daughters. Oldest son gets the tar, but what do his brothers do? Hang around, get drunk, make trouble with the ties, the other taroms, do some hunting. If he's got any intelligence and ambition, then he's got a chance. Go into the Guards, get an appointment as a court scholar, get himself apprenticed to a merchant if he's got that kind of interest and ability. Some just drift away, losing themselves in the world outside the mijloc. You didn't have to worry about that, Hal, only one living son and two daughters, one married, one with us at the Biserica. But what about your grandsons and granddaughters? How many children does Anders already have? His wife is young and healthy. How many more children will she have? How will he provide for them? If he's lucky his extra sons will find their own ways, Guards, merchants, scholars, artisans, even maybe a player in the bunch. What about his daughters? Some will marry. The others? Let me tell you, the valley is bursting with girls. We've been taking care of excess daughters for generations but there's a limit to the numbers we can support. There are other limits. Some girls just aren't happy with us. Many of the girls that come to us don't stay more than a few years. Some go home, find husbands, or work for their keep in the homes of their married sisters. Some drift into the cities; the best of them find work, the others walk the streets. Think about it, Hal. All the discarded children. Thieves, vagabonds, drunks, bullies, prostitutes, landless laborers, drifters of all kinds, a drain on the resources of the mijloc, a constant source of discontent. Think about the bad harvests this year and last, the Gather and Scatter storms. People getting hungrier and hungrier, watching the taroms and the rich merchants and resenting them, the taroms and merchants growing frightened, hiring bravos to protect them. The Heslin peace falling apart. Well, all that's irrelevant now, Hal. The mijloc is going to be chewed up so thoroughly there'll be no going back to the old ways. Change. There's no stopping it and no knowing what direction it will take.

HAL
(sighing): And no room in it for peaceful souls like me. Back to the bad old days before Andellate Heslin knocked the belligerence out of the warlords. Every man's hand raised against his neighbor and the landless left to starve. Eh-Rane, if the Nor do me in, I'd almost thank them.

RANE
: Back to business, old philosopher. Practical things have their charm. How are the ordinary folk feeling? Not the converted, the others.

HAL
: All this happened so fast, most folk were stunned; it came on them boom-boom, they didn't have time to react or work themselves up to resisting. They're beginning to stir now, just need a leader. With Anders putting on the black so fast, it took a while before the ties would talk to me, but I've picked up a few things. Example: Our folk grumbled when the Gorduufest was cancelled, then they got together and made a little Gorduufest out in the orchard. I was rather afraid I'd scare them off, but I joined them anyway with a jug of hard cider to liven the night for us. Another example: Some of the tie-wives are starting to seethe at the way they're being treated. They work damn hard. Used to be they had a say in what happened to their families. The Agli and his more rabid Followers, they resent and fear women for tempting them from what they see as higher things, and the women are beginning to resent back hard. (He chuckles, then shakes his head.) Though there's little they can do about it. If they open their mouths to protest even the most outrageous nonsense, even if it's to protect their children, they're hauled off to the House of Repentance to be schooled in submission. Repeat the offense and they're publicly flogged. (His brows come together, he stares down at his hands, sighs.) There are a lot of floggings these days, my friend. Fools. The Followers, I mean. They don't see that they're not beating sin out but rebellion in. What else? Ah. Yes. Folk are angry about the defiling of the Maiden Shrines and the treatment of the Keepers. The Keeper in Sadnaji was quite old, she taught most of us our letters and the chants, delivered a good many of the babies the past fifty years. She disappeared after the Guards led her out of the Shrine and took her to the House of Repentance. One rumor is the Agli had her whipped to death. Other rumors say worse. It doesn't sit well in the bellies of our folk, even some of the Followers. Um. Floarin's levies are making trouble for her; she's taken half the men off the tars to fight in that army of hers. A lot of the men don't want to go, but what can they do? The tithing is another thing. She's starting to dip into the seed grain. Lot of folk going to starve that shouldn't need to.

RANE
: Any resistance organized?

HAL
: Getting there. Tesc Gradin has sent some young ties down from the mountains to sound things out, his son too, good lad from what I've heard. There was some resentment of his attacks on the tithe wagons, but he's defused this by sending young Teras Gradin around with some of the grain he took and promising more. Rumor says he's defied the more conservative outcast taroms and brought ties into the governing council of that Haven. When they heard that, my ties got a fire under their skins. There's a lot of talk about after the war, how things are going to be different. I only get snippets of that, they won't talk much around me, well, can you blame them? And there's Hern. (The words are a question, there is a hint of a twinkle in Hal's faded brown eyes.) A clever man, they say. There's almost as much talk about Hern as there is about Tesc. Though I might just be hearing more of that. There's a large reservoir of good will for the Heslins. I've heard men say he's a lazy layabout too keen on women, almost fond talk as if they admire his weaknesses as much as his strengths; it's as if he belongs to them. They tell stories about his skill with a sword and what a fox he is at settling disputes. Funny, a lot of stories I haven't heard for years are surfacing again. How he got the truth out of twisty Jagger; the time he settled that marriage business at Cantintar; how he led a decset of guards after that rogue band that was burning tars, backed them into a corner and whipped them though they had five times his fighters. (He chuckles.) First time I heard the story, there were only a dozen raiders. Now there's fifty. By the time Hern returns (he raises a brow, his smiling eyes fix on Rane's face) he'll find a space waiting for him no man could possibly fill.

RANE
: What about you, Hal? Any danger?

HAL
: (shrugging) They've tolerated me so far because they see me as an amiable nothing. They've taken the tar from me, did you know? Anders is tarom now, good little Follower that he is.

RANE
: Does anyone suspect you're sending information to the Biserica?

HAL
: (chuckling) Oh no, my long friend. Sweet Hal lam, he's a harmless fool. Let him potter about grinning at people, he's entertaining now and then, cools things down sometimes. They burned my books, did you know? Took them all out and put them on a pile. Even the
Keeper's Praises
, illuminated by Hanara Pan herself. Anders carried them out with his own hands and put them on the fire. (He broods at the fire, his anger so intense it was palpable; Tuli felt it powerfully.) Barbarians. They're all barbarians. (His voice is very soft, very even, the words are flat, floating like leaves in the crackling silence.)

RANE
: Hal, you don't have to stay here. This storm will close the pass to wagons, but a man on snowshoes could get through if he had a reason to.

HAL
: Oh, I think I must stay. There are still ways I can help my ties. Anders is too thick to notice when he's being led about by the nose. (He ran a trembling hand through his silverwhite hair.) If by chance I do survive this nonsense, I'd like to live in your guesthouse and work in the Biserica Library. You might mention that to Yael-mri when you see her next.

RANE
: (putting her hand over his) I will, be sure of that. Hal?

HAL
: What is it, my friend?

RANE
: Could you dig into your stores, get us some winter clothing? Blankets (she makes a rueful little sound, bites on her lower lip) and food; meant to get that from you anyway, grain for our macain, they'll find little enough to eat, groundsheets, a tent, a firestriker, we'll be sleeping out until we hit Sel-ma-Carth. It's a lot to ask.

HAL
: A lot, but not too much. It's late. Anders and his soulmate will be sleeping the sleep of the self-justified. The attics will be dusty but deserted. Come with me. (He nods at Tulie.) The youngling should stay here. You know the bolt holes if we run into trouble. By the way, I've never gotten round to telling Anders about the little secrets in the walls so you needn't fear he'll be poking around down here. If it's still snowing tomorrow you'd better stay. That won't be a problem. (He gets to his feet, stretches, pats a yawn.)

Rane unfolded from the pillows, stood looking down at Tuli. “Eh-Moth,” she said. “Kick some of that straw together and stretch out between those quilts. You're pinching yourself to keep awake.”

Tuli yawned. She nodded, got shakily to her feet. Yawned again.

Rane chuckled. “We won't be leaving until tomorrow night at the earliest. Sleep as much as you need.”

They stayed in the secret cellar for three days while the storm raged outside. Tuli grew heartily bored with the place. This wasn't what she'd expected, wasn't the kind of adventure the old lays sang of.

She and Rane worked over the gleanings from Hallam's attic, got them sorted into packs for each of the macain, then cut up old worn blankets and sewed them into coats for the macain—no time to let them finish their winter changes. Tuli spent a good part of her days scrubbing a stiff-bristled brush across the itching thickening skins of the beasts, raking away the dead slough. What should have taken a month or two was being pushed into a few days and the good-natured macain were miserable and snappish. The brushing helped. And it kept her temper more equitable, gave her something to do with the long empty hours.

Though Hal seldom visited them during the day, he would come strolling in late at night, usually after Tuli had crawled into her quilts and slid into sleep. Sometimes she woke and saw the two of them head to head by the dying fire, talking in low tones, always talking, more of what she heard the first night. She didn't bother listening, it was all too boring. She'd enjoyed hearing about her father and Teras, had glowed with pride when Hal praised them, the rest of it seemed a waste of time.

She didn't quite know what to make of Hallam. He wasn't like her father, or her uncles, or even old Hars. He seemed a lazy man, too indolent to tend to anything but his own needs, drifting indifferently along as the Agli and the Followers took away everything he had. When she thought about it, though, she saw he was defeating them in his own way by not letting them change him. If they caught him spying, he'd go to his death mildly appreciating the absurdity of what both he and his murderers were doing. Gentle, shambling, incompetent in so many things, he was right, he had no place in the world that was coming. She liked him well enough, but she was glad she didn't have to live around him, could even understand why Anders had done his best to be as different as he could from his father.

It was easy to let her mind wander as she scrubbed at the macai's back, scraping loose the fragments of dead skin. Might meet up with Teras as Rane and she wandered about the Plain. She felt a sudden pang of loneliness. She missed Teras more than she wanted to think about, wished he was here, now; it would be so good to have him along, sharing all this, she'd have someone her own age to talk to. She began to see what Rane meant when she said Tuli was too young to interest her any way but as a friend and daughter. Rane was about Annie's age. Tuli thought about her parents up in the mountain gorge, wondered how they were coping with the snow and the cold. It was interesting to hear from Hallam that her father had got the ties onto the council in spite of the Tallins, seemed things were getting settled in odd ways up there, but settled for sure and in the way her father wanted. Teras and old Hars shuttling messages back and forth between the tars and the gorge. What would Sanani be doing with her oadats, how would she keep them from freezing? Seems like a hundred years since I saw Da and Mama and Sanani. The Ammu Rin, she said it took ten years to be a healwoman. I don't know if I could take that. I think I'd like being a healwoman. The two men she'd killed, she dreamed about them sometimes, though she didn't want to. They'd almost forced her to kill them, but they wouldn't get out of her head. If I can't be a healwoman, I could always work in the fields; I wouldn't mind that, I like making things grow, or maybe the Pria Melit would let me help with the animals. She shivered as she heard again the soft whirr of the sling, the faint thunk the stone made against the temple, saw again the guard crumpling with loose slow finality, saw the young acolyte swing round and stretch out on the ground, felt against her palms the empty flaccidity of his legs as she helped carry him to the fire, saw the grime on his feet, the crack in the nail of a big toe, his shaven head, the round ears like jug handles sticking out from his head. She scrubbed at burning eyes with the back of her hand. I won't cry, not for them, they asked for it. She sniffed again, swallowed, and scrubbed fiercely at the macai's back.