Authors: Dan Smith
Both boys were quiet.
âHe must've used the trees,' I said. âI've been thinking about how he could have done it and it's the only way. He must've climbed across the low branches and that's why there were no tracks.'
âYou sure he didn't fly?' Viktor asked.
I smiled that his thoughts had followed the same pattern as my own. âI'm sure. He's just a man.'
âWho comes and goes as he pleases,' Viktor said. âLike he's playing a game.'
âHe
is
playing a game,' I said. âThat's why we have to be vigilant if we want to win. I've let us down once; I won't do it again.'
We followed the tracks for another hour or so, veering close to the edge of the woods, passing the houses of another village.
âThat looks like Uroz,' I said. âWhich means we've come almost fifty kilometres. We're still going east.'
âMaybe we can go down there,' Viktor suggested. âMaybe they'll have something for us to eat.'
âAnd maybe they won't,' I said. âMaybe the place will be under the control of the OGPU. No, we have to keep going while we still have daylight.' I thought about the screams during the night. âWe have to keep going.' And I thought about Dimitri, that first night, wanting to go after Dariya straight away. I wondered if maybe the child thief had been watching us then, ready to shoot the first person to follow him.
âPapa.' Petro stopped and grabbed at my coat, disturbing my thoughts, making me look up. âSomething there. Someone.'
Immediately I crouched, dropping my rifle from my shoulder. Viktor and Petro did the same, but I damned myself for daydreaming, for not being as observant as I needed to be. Not much more than an hour ago I had told myself how vigilant I needed to be, and already I was failing. My instincts and senses were dulled by the cold and the hunger, and by age. I was growing old, and each day was taking a little more of my steel. I should have seen
the shape through the trees before either of my sons saw it. It was my duty.
I looked to where Petro was pointing his rifle and lifted my own weapon, pulling the stock against my shoulder, wrapping the sling around my left hand to steady it. We were just past Uroz now, half a kilometre maybe, the houses behind and out of sight. A single figure was standing close to the trees, facing our direction. It was lighter out there, so he was only a silhouette, and to him we would be shrouded in the murk of the forest, but he was stationary and he was staring in our direction.
I put my eye to the scope, bringing the man into focus. It was hard to make out his features. His demeanour was that of an old man, though. He stood hunched, his shoulders slumped, his back bent, his head low.
âDid he see us?' I whispered.
âI don't know,' Petro answered. âI just saw him there and stopped.'
âYou didn't see him do anything?' I asked as the man moved. He shuffled to one side, leaning forward as if looking into the forest.
âNo.'
âViktor? What about you?'
âNo.'
I tried to get beyond my anger at not having seen him. I was a soldier, a hunter. I was accustomed to seeing the slightest movement, always watching for signs of life. But tiredness blunted me, and now there was anger to distract me. I couldn't allow any of those things to prevent me from finding Dariya. I had to be without exhaustion, without emotion; I had to lock those things away. There was only one purpose and I had to let it drive me. If I faltered from that, even for a moment, it could mean a child's death.
âIs it him?' Petro asked.
I continued to watch through the scope. âI can't be sure.' But I couldn't help thinking that if it
were
him, if he had allowed us to come this close to him, then his game was over and we'd all be
dead. If he had concealed himself, he could have shot each of us three times over before we could have worked out where he was.
âShoot,' Viktor said. âIt's him.'
âAnd if it isn't?'
âIt
is
, Papa, it's him. Trying to sneak up on us like he did last night.'
I continued to watch the man peering into the trees as if looking for us. âIt doesn't feel right. If it's him, why is he out there?'
âWho else would it be?' Viktor said. âWe have to shoot him before he shoots us.'
âNo, Viktor, it's not him.'
âIsn't that what you thought last night?'
âBut why would he wait here and not far ahead? Remember how he shot Dimitri.' I whispered my thoughts, reasoning aloud why this was not our child thief. I wanted Viktor and Petro to see the logic in his thinking, to understand that the man we were following would not present himself in this way. But that wasn't the effect of mentioning Dimitri's name. Instead, the word was like a hot knife to Viktor, bringing back memories of blood and death. The sounds Dimitri had made as he struggled with his life out on the steppe.
And while those thoughts cascaded through Viktor's consciousness, they brought with them a powerful instinct to survive. In his mind he saw Dimitri dying, and he responded in a way that was only human. He knew he did not want it to happen to him. His reaction was all instinct. The instinct to survive.
So when the man took a step forward and raised his hand, Viktor fired his rifle.
The man at the line of the trees stopped mid-movement and his head snapped back. His body relaxed as if a hand had come from the sky, taken hold of his soul and ripped it out of him in one movement. He simply ceased to be. In an instant his life was gone, his body now vacated, and the empty vessel collapsed into the snow.
âNo.' I lowered my weapon and looked at Viktor and Petro,
both of them with their weapons still aimed, their expressions of surprise. âWhat the hell are you doing?'
âHe was going to shoot at us,' said Viktor. âYou saw it. He was going to shoot.'
But I saw doubt in my son's eyes, and when I looked across at Petro, I knew he saw it too.
âWhat?' Viktor said. âWhy are you looking at me like that? I'm telling you, he was going to shoot.'
âAll right.' I looked back at the dark shape in the snow as I put my hand on the warm barrel of Viktor's rifle and lowered it to point at the ground. âAll right.'
For a few moments nothing happened. No sounds. Nothing. Then I rose to my feet and slung my rifle. I took the revolver from my pocket and glanced at Petro and Viktor.
âWait here,' I said. âNo more shooting.'
âHe was going to shoot,' Viktor said. âHe
was
.'
âStay with him,' I told Petro, and he nodded, glancing at me briefly before looking at his brother again.
Viktor could only stare at the shape lying in the snow.
I made my way to the edge of the wood, keeping close to the tree trunks, trying to give myself as much cover as possible. I kept the revolver pointed ahead and I hunched low. As I came closer, so the body became clearer, and when I reached the last trees I could see we had reached the road between Uroz and Sushne. The narrow track that ran alongside the forest was covered with snow, just as everything else was, but it had been used some time since the storm yesterday. There were hoof prints, two sets from first glance, and ice had formed in the bottom of the prints so I guessed they had been made either last thing yesterday or first thing this morning. Someone had ridden this way on horseback.
At the side of the track the man was lying face up with his arms by his sides, like a child playing dead. His head was twisted sideways so his cheek rested in the snow. Viktor's shot had been a good one: the man had died instantly. The bullet had struck him in the face, just above his mouth, and had torn up through the back of his head, releasing his life. There was a large stain around his head, and the track behind him was sprayed with blood and brain.
And I could see, straight away, the man had not been alone. A few metres further along a second person was crouching at the side of the track, looking around in fear, hands raised to shoulder level.
I stepped from the woods and pointed the revolver at her.
âPlease,' she mumbled. âPlease don't shoot me. Please.'
She was young. Not much older than my boys, maybe nineteen or twenty, and she wasn't clothed for winter weather. She wore no coat, no hat. Her dress was dirty and there were red marks on her face that could have been first-stage bruises or might have been caused by the cold biting at her skin. Her hair was long, but not tied back as I would have expected. It was loose around her shoulders, tangled and wild. Like a young Baba Yaga, but her features were too soft for her to be mistaken for a witch. She had pale skin which heightened the flushed patches on her sharp cheekbones, and she had dark eyes.
When I told her to stand up, she shifted in the snow and I could see her feet were bare. And when I glanced down at the dead man I saw that he too had nothing on his feet. He was wearing a shirt and jacket but no winter coat.
âWho are you?' I asked, staying where I was, keeping the revolver levelled at her. I looked past her at the road, seeing nothing in the distance, risked a quick look into the trees to make sure Viktor and Petro were hidden.
âWho are you?' I asked again.
âAleksandra.'
âAnd him?'
She didn't look down at the body. âRoman.'
âYou knew him?'
She nodded.
âWhere are you from?'
âUroz.'
âAnd what are you doing here? Like that â no shoes, no coat.'
âThey made me,' she said.
âWho?'
But she just stared.
â
Who
made you?'
The shock was leaving her now. It was lifting from her like a dark shadow that had fallen over her but was now snatched by the wind and blown away into the trees. I saw the change in her face, saw the difference in her eyes, and then there were tears on her cheeks.
I lowered the revolver and went to her, putting an arm around her and leading her to the side of the track. She walked like she was just learning, her steps awkward and hesitant.
âHow long have you been out here?'
âI'm not sure.'
âCan you feel your feet?' I asked her.
âNo.'
âThey look all right, but we need to get them warm. If they get too cold, there's a strong chance of frostbite. You know what that is?'
âOf course.'
Taking her into the trees, I called to Viktor and Petro, and spread Dimitri's coat on the ground for her to stand on. I wrapped it around her feet.
âStay with her,' I told Petro. âSee if you can rub some warmth into her feet. And when they're warm, make sure she puts these on.' I put Dimitri's boots and socks on the ground beside Aleksandra. âViktor, you come with me.'
âIs it him?' he asked. âDid I get him?'
âNo, it isn't him.'
Viktor looked at me. âIt must be. He was going toâ'
âIt isn't him.'
âBut he's armed.'
âI don't think so.'
âHe was going to shoot.'
âNo, Viktor.' My son had been afraid and his mind had showed him what he expected to see. But the man he had shot was
unarmed. I sighed and shook my head. âCome on. We have to move him before someone comes. Before someone sees.' I began walking back to the place where the man lay by the road, but Viktor stayed where he was, staring.
âCome on,' I said to him. âNow.'
But Viktor just stood and stared. As if something was keeping him from moving his feet. He wanted to follow, he wanted to help, but something wouldn't let him. He was still processing my words. He had killed a man, but it was the wrong man.
âYou have to try,' I said. âYou have toâ'
âI can't.'
âGo and help the girl, then. Her name is Aleksandra.' I looked back at where she was standing beside a tree, her body turned away as if she were trying to disappear into the cracks in the bark. She hung her head, her hair falling across her face. âPetro, you come with me.'
While Viktor went to stand with Aleksandra, neither of them speaking, Petro and I dragged the man away from the road. We each took an arm and pulled him into the trees, leaving a flattened mark in the snow, and a wide streak of blood. I could see how it turned Petro's stomach, handling the body like that, but he didn't complain. He averted his eyes from the man's face and did what was necessary, and when we had dragged the corpse far enough, Petro let go of the man's arm, leaving it to flop across his chest and slide away.
âWhat Viktor didâ'
âHe was scared,' I told Petro. âWe all are. He thought this man was going to shoot us. Kill
you
, maybe. Me.'
âI know. I understand.'
âGood. So he needs to accept it and get on.'
âJust like that?'
âJust like that.'
âIs that what you do? Pretend it hasn't happened?'
âIf that's what it takes, yes.'
âHow do you do that?'
âI don't know. I lock it away.'
Now Petro looked down at the body. He put all his effort into forcing himself to see.
âI think if Viktor hadn't shot first, I would've killed this man,' he said. âI was going to shoot him.' There was fear and revulsion in his eyes as he connected with his brother's emotions. He almost knew what his brother was feeling, because he was almost the one who had murdered this man. But there would also be a kind of relief that it hadn't been him.
âWhen people are scared,' I said, âthey'll do almost anything to survive. Like what happened in Vyriv ⦠He'll be all right,' I told Petro. âGive him some time.' I looked across at Viktor and Aleksandra. Like two more trees in the forest.
âShe needs clothes,' I said, bending down to remove the man's jacket.
âWill
she
be all right?' Petro asked.
âOf course she will. We don't breed weak women. And our men can turn their hearts to stone, so your brother will be fine too. Now, help me with this.'