Christmas in Apple Ridge (27 page)

“But you haven’t finished carving on them.”

“There’s been a change of plans. We’ll put them up as is.”

“Okay, but why?”

The sound of female voices caused Gideon to shift his attention to the window.

Mattie Lane and Beth were heading this way. Mattie was dressed like an Ohio Amish woman now, with the stiffer oval prayer Kapp and a sage green apron that matched her dress. Like him, she’d joined the Old Order Amish faith about two
years ago. It was below forty with the wind blowing, and she wasn’t wearing a coat.

Her eyes grew large with pleasure as she studied the new home, and a part of him he’d buried long ago rattled against its confinement. She pointed out various details and smiled as she hugged Beth.

Mattie Lane. Energetic. Vibrant. Talented. Poised. And beautiful inside and out. She was also scattered, easily distracted, and had a jealous streak the size of Pennsylvania. When it came to ending their relationship with a lie, he used her jealousy against her to set her free from his doomed future.

Jonah’s cane thudded against the particle board as he moved closer to the window. “Look at them, Gideon.”

“I did.” The familiar hardness took control again, and he turned back to his work. “I saw two half-giddy women gabbing ninety to nothing.”

“Ya, sharing encouragement and excitement. Menfolk would never do that … except maybe with a girlfriend or wife.”

“The day a man needs that kind of nonsense is the day he might as well accept that he’s not really a man at all.”

Jonah laughed. “Not a man, eh?”

The sound of the front door swooshing open started a war inside Gideon.

If she knew he had come to the hospital to see her, he could
discount his rash action by saying he’d overreacted to hearing that she’d been hurt. But his nervous shaking reminded him that he had deeper secrets to keep and a heart to guard.

Hers.

Gideon motioned toward the bedroom door. “I’d like to get that door up next.”
And close it
.

Gideon grabbed the door and laid it on the sawhorses so he could get the hardware on it.

“Jonah?” Beth called.

He stepped toward the doorway, and the women entered.

Beth looped her arm through her fiancé’s. “And this is Jonah.”

Mattie Lane’s hands were tucked inside her folded arms, probably in an effort to stay warm, but her smile embraced Jonah. “I think she might be just a tad in love with you.”

Gideon tried to pull his attention back to the job at hand—mounting hardware on the door.

“A tad is not nearly a success,” Jonah said. “Mattie Lane, right?”

The use of her pet name caused Gideon to cringe, and he looked up.

The smile on her face faded. “Why would you call me that?”

Jonah glanced at Gideon, and Mattie noticed him for the
first time since entering the room. Her pale blue eyes stayed glued to him, as if she were too shocked to move. Gideon hadn’t realized he’d used that name when talking to Jonah, but he’d called her by that nickname since she was twelve, telling her that a day with her was a journey all by itself—a trip down a one-of-a-kind country road, Mattie Lane.

Finally she nodded. “Gideon.”

“Hi.” All the months of aching for her that had painstakingly turned into years rushed from their buried place and leveled him.

She looked back at Jonah. “It’s just Mattie.” She held out her hand and shook Jonah’s. “I’m so glad to finally meet you. Beth’s told me a lot about you in her letters.” She entered the room and peeked into the full bathroom. “I’m completely awed by this home. You’ve done an amazing job.”

Jonah shoved his hammer into his tool belt. “Gideon’s been doing everything from the contracting to the finishing carpentry while I’ve spent the better part of this past year helping Beth and Lizzy expand the product line for the dry goods store.”

Mattie glanced at Gideon as though he were some half-remembered acquaintance from her past. She shifted her attention out the window. “You have a perfect view of the store.”

“And look.” Beth took Mattie to the PVC piping that was
the conduit for the Amish intercom. “It’s a direct line from the store to here. The workers can easily contact us this way.”

Mattie chuckled. “I could’ve used one of these between Mattie Cakes and my brother’s place.”

“The intercom system was Gideon’s idea,” Beth said. “He dug the trench to lay the pipe and installed it for us.”

An unfamiliar look entered Mattie’s eyes, as if anything to do with him disgusted her. She moved to the bathroom door. In bold scroll Jonah had carved “Charity endureth all things.”

“What a beautiful carving.” She rubbed her arms.

“Ya. Jonah’s work is what drew me to him,” Beth said. “I saw a scene carved on a small stump in a store in Ohio and wanted to purchase more just like it for our store.”

Gideon took off his coat and held it out to Mattie. “The heat will be in working order next week.”

She shook her head. “Denki. But I’m fine.”

“Oh,” Beth exclaimed. “I was so excited to show you around, I didn’t even notice you were freezing.”

“I took off my coat in Gloria’s car. She had it really hot in there while we were running errands in town for Mamm, and I forgot to grab it before she drove off.”

Beth frowned. “Seems like you would’ve thought about it the moment you got out of the car.”

Mattie shrugged. “One would think …”

Gideon knew that when Mattie had one thing on her mind, like seeing Beth, she didn’t notice much else until she was in a fix and needed rescuing.

Gideon thrust the coat toward her. “Take it, Mattie Lane.”

Her eyes flashed with an anger much deeper than anything to do with her refusal to borrow his coat. “Do not snap orders at me, Gideon.” She spoke each word slowly, issuing both a boundary line of how to treat her and a threat of a volcanic-sized eruption.

Gideon couldn’t help but chuckle. She’d outgrown being overly nice to everyone, and he was glad to see it. “Finally standing up for yourself. Good for you.”

She moved toward the doorway. “Beth, I’d like to see the rest of your house. And Jonah’s new workshop.”

When he realized his comment had come off as an insult, he flinched. Beth’s brow creased with concern before she placed her arm protectively around Mattie’s shoulders. “Sure.”

Jonah motioned for the women to go on without him.

Gideon stepped ahead of them. “I’m sorry. That was rude. I can’t believe I blurted that out.”

After staring ahead for several long moments, Mattie turned to Beth. “Can I have a minute with Gideon?”

“Ya. Sure.” Beth took Jonah’s hand, and they went down the hallway.

Now that they were alone and could speak freely, Gideon would soon know whether Sol had told her about his visit to the hospital.

She studied Gideon. “I’ve always had a backbone. Any confusion I had about when to use it was your fault, not mine.”

He wasn’t sure exactly what in their past made that statement true, but he nodded. “I ask your forgiveness for thinking otherwise.”

The Amish ways forced her to forgive him, so he felt no sense of release when she said, “Forgiven.”

He held out the coat. “In that case …”

Her eyes, sizing him up, carried disrespect. He still didn’t know if Sol had told her about his visit. She wasn’t as easy to read as he’d expected.

She took the coat from him and slipped it on and, after buttoning it, waggled her shoulders as if enjoying its warmth. “Anything that keeps you uncomfortable while doing the opposite for me works for me. Thanks.”

She shoved her hands into the pockets and left.

Gideon sighed. He had set her free, and she’d prospered from it. She’d gone to Ohio and built a successful business and met Sol. He’d expected her coolness toward him, but he was beginning to question if he could ever be content with it.

M
attie got up from the dinner table and began stacking plates. Oddly enough, after barely stomaching the Thanksgiving meal yesterday with her brother and his family, she’d enjoyed having leftovers today with her parents.

Her mom stood.

“Mamm, take your cue from Daed, and sit.” Mattie patted her mother’s thin, delicate skin.

Daed’s gray hair had the shape of having worn a hat all day. “Ya, Rebecca. What other child do you have who’ll wash dishes?”

Mattie laughed. “The price one pays for having so many sons.”

Mamm sat back down at the table, her eyes bright in spite of the new wrinkles weighing on her eyelids. Mattie’s brothers had been right. She’d needed to come home and spend extra time with their mother.

“Verna came by today while you were out,” Mamm said.
“She was bent on seeing you. I promised her you’d walk over there tonight.”

Mattie put the dishes in the sink, wishing her mother hadn’t told Gideon’s grandmother she’d visit. She’d seen Gideon ride bareback past the front window a few minutes ago. While he was working on Beth and Jonah’s home, he was probably staying with his grandmother rather than trekking back and forth from his parents’ place.

His winter jacket hung on the coatrack in the front hallway, and he could go the whole winter without it for all she cared.

“Mattie?” Mamm called.

She turned. “I don’t want to go tonight. Can it wait until tomorrow?”

“I suppose. But I gave my word, and you’re obviously feeling well enough to walk across the street.”

Daed shifted his chair away from the table. “I agree with your Mamm. I don’t want us to have to make up an excuse for why you’re not up to seeing her.”

Mattie stared at Gideon’s coat, hating the idea of having to be nice to him.

Mamm followed her gaze. “What’s wrong?”

Unwilling to burden her mom with petty emotions that should have been long dead by now, she kissed her cheek. “Not a thing. I’ll go see Verna.”

“She’ll be so pleased.”

She put on the coat Gloria had dropped by the house a few hours ago, then grabbed Gideon’s. Crossing the narrow street, she coached herself on how to speak gently. She climbed the two stone steps, knocked on the door, and waited.

Verna opened the door. “Mattie.” She hugged her warmly.
“Kumm mol rei.”

Mattie stepped inside, warmth and the smell of dinner surrounding her. “It’s good to see you. How are you?”

“Fair to middling for a woman my age. I sure was sorry to hear about your cake shop. I remember a couple of years ago when Gideon told your brother about—”

“
Mammi
Beiler,” Gideon interrupted. He stood at the kitchen table with a plate of pancakes and bacon. “Kumm eat.” He set it on the table.

“Oh, he fixed a meal for me. I’m having breakfast for dinner because yesterday I sent all the Thanksgiving food home with his Mamm. I should go see if it’s any good before it gets cold.” Verna went to a chair and sat.

Gideon walked to Mattie and held out his hand for the coat. “Thanks.”

He didn’t look like the man she’d once loved. That man had been carefree and gentle. This one seemed hardened and weary. Maybe trying to keep an Amish girlfriend while dating Englischer girls did that to a man.

She gave it to him. “Denki for the use of it.”

“Not a problem.”

“It’s clearly mealtime, and I should go.” She turned to Verna. “Good to see you. Maybe you can slip over one morning before I go home. We could have hot chocolate in front of the roaring fire like we used to.”

“And maybe some oddly shaped coffeecake?” Verna asked.

Mattie laughed. “Sure. But if they come out oddly shaped these days, it’ll be intentional on my part.”

“That reminds me.” She stood. “I have something for you. Wait right here.” She headed for the stairs. “Make yourself comfortable. I’m going to be a few minutes.”

Gideon moved to the stove. “Care for some hot tea?”

“No.” The word came out harsher than she’d intended. It wouldn’t have been easy to be nice to him under the best of circumstances, and she was far from her best self.

He stole a sideways glance before grabbing the kettle off the stove. He reached into a cabinet and pulled down the delicate china cup she’d always used when visiting here. He rinsed and dried it. “I know it’s been rough for you lately.” He set a variety of tea bags on the table and poured hot water into her cup.

She dumped the cup of steaming water into the sink. “Please don’t act like you’re my friend.”

The muscles in his jaw tightened. “I didn’t mean to offend you.”

That was the problem. Everything about him offended her. “How’s Ashley?”

Surprise reflected in his eyes for a moment. “I haven’t seen her in a while.”

“Ya.” She wrinkled her nose. “It’s hard to keep the decent ones around when you keep cheating on them.”

Hardness entered his eyes. “Give it a rest, Mattie Lane.”

She took a seat across the table from him, wishing she was in Ohio baking and decorating cakes. And wishing he’d stop calling her Mattie Lane.

They both stared at the kitchen table, and she wondered if he was thinking about the same thing she was—the day she caught him with Ashley.

It’d been Christmas Day. They’d attended the annual Christmas singing on her birthday the night before. She’d enjoyed it as much as ever, except Gideon hadn’t been his usual fun-loving self. When he hugged her good night, he said he was really tired and wouldn’t come over on Christmas. Actually, he’d been using exhaustion as an excuse for weeks, and he’d said the doctor thought he might have mono. So she’d wanted to do something special to help him feel loved until he was on his feet again.