DAMON: A Bad Boy MC Romance Novel (7 page)

F
our hours got
them to Richmond, Virginia, where they found a KOA campground off the highway. They lucked out and found a campsite far from the huge RVs and campers.

Tricia set up the tent while Damon found kindling for a fire and pulled some store-bought firewood from the trunk. As the fire built and began to crackle, they sat on a sanded-down log that served as a bench near the fire put.

“Tricia,” Damon said, his voice low in the night. “I need to ask you something.”

“Okay,” Tricia said, feeling a sort of radiating unease.

“It’s not a polite question,” he said, words stilted. “Or a pleasant one.”

“Okay,” she said again, rising from the log and picking up a stick to poke at the flames.

“I want to get it out of the way now,” he said. “Because we have a long drive ahead of us, and I don’t want it lingering.”

“Fine,” Tricia said, hearing the impatience in her own voice.

“Do you blame me? Resent me? Us?”

Tricia looked at him from the far side of the fire, face blank.

“For what happened,” he said. “It was our fault. We were the ones they were after, and we…”

“No,” Tricia said, cutting him off before he could continue the unneeded explanation. She turned to look down at the fire, lifted and dropped a red-sewn log. “I don’t blame you.”

It was true. She didn’t. Perhaps, sometimes, in her darkest moments, she did. Those times, she blamed everyone. But not for a long time had she felt resentment or anger towards Damon and his brothers. They were not responsible for anyone’s actions but their own. And even if they had, unwittingly, created the circumstance in which she became a victim, they were also the ones who saved her.

“Good,” Damon said. “That’s settled then.”

She eyed him.

“What would you have done – or said – if I said yes? If I said that I
did
blame you?” she asked. The question was so pointed she almost felt like she cut her mouth asking it. He didn’t return her gaze.

“I don’t know,” he said. “I suppose I would have apologized. And tried to…make it up to you. I don’t suppose there would have been any way for me to do that, but…”

A horrible thought ran through Tricia’s head. He’d only brought her because he felt bad. He thought she blamed him. He wanted to “make it up to her”. He didn’t like her. He didn’t want her company. He wanted to ease his burden of guilt.

“Do you feel guilty?” she asked, trying to keep the clip from her tone – and failing.

“Not really,” he said, giving her a questioning glance. “I mean – of course, yes, I do. I feel guilt about…lots of things. But I’ve made peace with that guilt. It’s not going anywhere. I can’t change the past. I can’t make it so they never touched you. I can’t un-kill that man.”

The words dropped flat, eaten up by the roaring fire. So many things unspoken between them. Things that could have stayed unspoken for a long time. But that was Damon. And that was what attracted her to him. He wouldn’t live with the unspoken things. He would say the things no one else would.

“I’ve thought a lot about you,” she said carefully. “And that.”

“I’m not the sort of man who will take a life and not pay for it,” he said. He looked up at her again. “But I would do it again.”

“Oh,” she said, trying to press away the bad thoughts that had assailed her and wouldn’t leave. He
did
feel guilty. He brought her along to make himself feel better. It had nothing to do with her, who she was…

“Damon,” Tricia said, poking her stick into the fire to shift a sparking branch. “What are we doing?”

The question was heavy, lay between them, unmovable.

“We're going to Miami,” he said, voice flat. She shot him a look, her face half-lit in red by the fire. She looked lovely like that. His fists clenched.
So selfish,
he thought.
So, so selfish.

“I know that,” she said, frustrated. “You
know
what I mean. How did you get me to say yes? I mean, I don't even know why you're going to Miami.”

“Business,” he said, cringing when she turned away. He wasn't being fair to her, not at all. Her groan confirmed it. She left the stick leaning against the stone circle and plopped back down on the log beside him.

“You were more talkative before,” she observed. “When you were trying to convince me to come.”

“I know,” he said through gritted teeth. “What I have to do is...complicated. And I told you why I wanted you to come. I like you. I feel like there's something between us.”

She sighed, stretched her legs out.

“I know,” she said, shaking her head. “I just keep thinking, how crazy am I being? I mean, I must not really be over
anything
if...”

Her voice trailed off and she buried her head in her hands. She had made a pretty serious habit of never saying she wasn't “over it”.

“Who expects you to be over it?” Damon asked.

“Myself,” she said, speaking into her own palms.

“Well,” he said, pausing for effect, “stop.”

“Okay,” Tricia said, laughing slightly. “Okay, Damon, I'll
stop.
”

“I don't expect you to be
over it,
” he said. “So for now...for this trip...don't try to be.”

Tricia didn't respond, but she dropped her hands, revealing her face to the flames. After a long moment, she spoke again, her voice strong.

“I'm doing really well,” she said. “I am. Almost all my days are good days. I don't want you thinking of me like I'm some lost kitten you have to take care of.”

“I don't,” Damon said, and he reached over, placing his hand on her thigh. “But I kind of like the idea of you as a kitten...”

Tricia turned to him, mouth dropping open in a dumbfounded gape.
What
had he just said? And
what
was that smile on his face? He took his hand away, and Tricia felt unnaturally disappointed about it. And then she started laughing. A big, hearty laugh that filled the woods around them with its noise.

“Are you serious?” she managed to speak between gasps of much-needed air. “Damon, you are...oh my God, was that supposed to seduce me? That was the
worst,
the
worst...
”

He kept laughing with her, but now he leaned back, relaxing as the sound of her happiness swarmed him. When it died down, he was still smiling.

“I wasn't trying to seduce you,” he said, shaking his head as he looked into the fire.

“Oh no?” Tricia said, wiping tears from her cheeks. He thought he might have heard some disappointment in her voice. He might have imagined it, too.

“I just wanted to make you laugh,” he said with a shrug.

“Well, mission accomplished,” she said, rising once more to lift the stick and poke at the dwindling flames. “And that's a pretty good cover story.”

“Trust me,” he said, looking up at her. “When I decide to seduce you, you'll know it.”

That made her turn around in a hurry, their eyes meeting in the red glow. Tricia's mouth went dry. His eyes, looking up into hers, were nothing but heat, reflecting the flames in front of them. The heat of the fire licking at her flesh seemed to invert, and she felt warmth burning her from the inside out.

“What are you waiting for?” she managed to croak out, the night suddenly seeming very still and quiet. “Who's to say I don't...”

“I'm waiting until you stop asking me why I want you here,” he said, voice low but almost flat, matter-of-fact. “I'm waiting until you feel like you deserve to be here.”

She couldn't look away, caught in his stare like a deer in the headlights. With his dark hair and beard, he almost seem to fade into the background, only his eyes and the pale pink of his lips remaining. His words did things to her that she couldn't understand, and didn't want to try to understand. They made her feel new.

“Okay,” she finally said, feeling as soft and malleable as her voice.
When
he decided to seduce her.
When
he decided to seduce her.

“Put some more wood on and come sit down,” he said, breaking the tension by looking away and nodding at the wood gathered by the side of the fire. “I like having you near me. I like hearing your voice close by.”

“Okay,” she repeated, and bending down she added more wood to the fire, satisfied only when the flames began to catch and lick up the branches. And then she did what he said, and sat beside him, close enough to touch but not touching.

“Tell me about your folks,” Damon said.

“My folks?” Tricia asked, surprised. That was a pretty big leap from the topic at hand. Nothing seemed less seductive, in fact, than a conversation about her parents.

“I want to
know
you, Tricia,” Damon urged. “Whether or not you trust me saying it, you’re a woman worth getting to know.”

Tricia studied him in the fire’s light. A smile crept across her lips.

“Alright,” she said. “Well, my father was an electrician, he retired…”

R
icky read
the note on her table, her mouth falling further and further into a frown with each word. She read it once, then again.

I can’t explain this – so I won’t try. Damon invited me along with him on a road trip, and I’m taking it. I should be back in two weeks or so. It feels right. – Tricia.

“What the hell, Trish,” she murmured to herself, fighting down a wave of anxiety. She let the little slip of paper flutter down to the table. Tricia just
got
there, and now she was off on some impromptu road trip…with Damon?

She pulled out her phone and called Cristov.

“Hey baby, I’m not home yet…is everything alright?”

“You picked up your phone while you’re driving?” Ricky asked, momentarily forgetting why she’d called in her concern for Cristov’s lax regard for personal safety.

“You’re on speakerphone,” he said.

“Is Kennick with you?”

“Sure am,” she heard a male voice respond, then a female voice, sounding slightly distant.

“Me too,” Kim said.

“Listen, I just got home, and there’s this note from Tricia on the table. She says she left for a few weeks to go on a road trip with Damon. Do you guys know anything about that?”

The silence on the other end answered her question. She could almost see, in her mind’s eye, Cristov and Kennick exchanging a confused look.

“Uh, no,” Cristov finally said. “We don’t. Where are they…what?”

There was an edge to his question that made Ricky bite her lip. She was, however, selfishly glad that she wasn’t the only one who thought it was beyond weird.

“Doesn’t say where,” she said. “Just says they’ll be back in a few weeks, and that it ‘feels right’, whatever the hell that means.”

“Shit,” she heard someone mutter beneath their breath, but couldn’t figure out which of the men had said it.

“Did you call her?” Kim’s voice came from the backseat again.

“Not yet,” Ricky admitted. “But, I mean, we shouldn’t be worried, right? There’s no reason to be worried? Damon’s with her, she’s with Damon, it’s not like they can get into trouble with each other…”

“Uh,” Cristov said. “No, I guess not. She seemed pretty uneasy at dinner…maybe she just needed to get away.”

“Yeah, I mean, I figured
that,
” Ricky said.

“You’re all crazy,” Kim barked. “They’re not allowed to just leave without telling anyone. And Damon…”

Her voice trailed off, but they were all thinking the same thing. Damon hadn’t been acting like Damon. Not for a long time now. The man who had always been the knowable constant had changed into something unknowable, and certainly not constant.

“Damon wouldn’t hurt her,” Kennick declared.

“No one thinks he would,” Kim shot back. “But Tricia just got home, and now he’s swept her off for some mystery trip to nowhere? I don’t like it. I don’t like it at all.”

“Kim, maybe we need to just calm down and put ourselves in Tricia’s shoes,” Ricky said with a sigh, crossing the room to plop down on the couch.

“I
am
putting myself in Tricia’s shoes. Sexy handsome gypsy hero wants to take you somewhere special? Come on, Ricky. We
both
know what that’s like. You don’t always end up making the best choices,” Kim said, and Ricky bit back a smile imagining Kennick and Cristov’s reaction to that.

“Hey,” Cristov said. “You James sisters aren’t much better.”

“Yeah,” Kennick chimed in. “We take offense to that.”

“Well, don’t,” Kim countered. “Because I married you anyway, remember?”

“I’m sure it’s all fine,” Cristov said. “We’re nearly at the trailer now. Damon probably left a note saying where he was going and all that. You know he’s not big on talking these days, and he probably thought we’d have something to say about it.”

“We
do
have something to say about it,” Ricky grumbled into the phone. She ran a palm over her eyes, pinching the sides of her nose. “I’m going to call Tricia now, you guys let me know if you find a note or whatever.”

“Baby, try to stay calm,” Cristov said, his tone lowered slightly as though Kennick and Kim couldn’t hear him perfectly well.

“I’m fine, Cris,” she said. “Talk to you soon.”

Hanging up, she dialed Tricia’s number; it went straight to voicemail. She left a message, a casual what-the-hell-are-you-doing message. Then she got up and went to her little balcony, overlooking Kingdom. It was past 9 on a Tuesday night, and the sleepy little hamlet was doing what it did best; sleeping. Only a few lights illuminated the summer evening. She closed her eyes, and when she opened them again, she tried to see the town as Tricia saw it. Someplace she belonged – and yet never would belong again.

I understand that you want to leave it all behind,
Ricky thought.
But you left
us
behind too. And the last time we couldn’t find you…

She didn’t let herself linger on that thought. Instead, she grabbed her keys and went down to the car. If Tricia wasn’t going to be sleeping there that night, there was no reason for Ricky to sleep alone.

M
orning found
Tricia and Damon back on the road after a breakfast of oatmeal and pop-tarts, enjoyed in the cool mists of early summer. They were headed towards the Outer Banks in North Carolina, which Damon jokingly referred to as “an amusing diversion worth the waste of half a day.”

Tricia pulled her phone from her bag. She’d kept it off for the first day and a half, but now felt compelled to check it. Ricky and Kim would definitely have been trying to get in touch with her. Probably her parents, too. As she turned the phone on, she noticed Damon sending her a wary glance. She ignored it and waited for the phone to boot.

As expected, it started buzzing wildly as voicemails and texts filtered in, one after another. A part of her wanted to smile at this; she felt a little like a teenager who snuck out. A bigger part of her understood that the last time she’d been unreachable, her life had been in immediate danger, and her friends and family would be in a panic. She scrolled through the texts from Ricky and Kim and her mother, each one asking where she was, if she was alright, what the hell she thought she was doing.

“Popular girl,” Damon said, acting distracted but obviously unsettled.

“Everyone wants to know where I am,” Tricia said as she started to type out a text.

“Tricia,” Damon said, his voice having a hard edge to it. “I’d rather…”

She stopped typing, looked at him expectantly. He shifted in his seat.

“You should tell them you’re okay, but…can you not tell them where we’re going?”

There was a faint pleading to his tone that made Tricia’s eyebrows raise.

“Um,” she said. “Why?”

“Ricky and Kim talk to Kennick and Cristov,” he said.

“…and?”

“And they don’t know where I’m going, and I’d rather they not know.”

Tricia bit the inside of her lip. That didn’t sound good. That didn’t sound good at all. The Volanis brothers were basically attached at the hip. If Damon was keeping this – whatever this was – from his family…

“Why?” she asked again. She felt entitled to an answer. She wasn’t just along for the ride – well, she was, in the most literal of terms, but she still didn’t know why the ride was happening at all. Damon glanced at her, torn.

“They wouldn’t understand,” he said, simply. “They wouldn’t – they’d try to talk me out of doing what I need to do. But what I need to do….well, I need to do it.”

“Okaaaay,” Tricia said, her fingers still poised over the little on-screen keyboard. “That’s not exactly an answer, Damon.”

“Ah – I know it’s not,” he said. “Listen, Tricia, you do whatever you need to. Tell whoever – tell them whatever you need to. I’m not going to leave you at a rest stop if you tell them. But just…it would, uh, it would mean a lot to me if you trusted me on this. What I’m doing in Miami, it has nothing to do with you. You won’t be in any danger. I promise.”

She looked at him, then back down at her phone. Her fingers hovered over the buttons. The last sentence;
we’re going to Miami
. She moved her thumb over the backspace button and held it down until that last sentence disappeared. She pressed send.

“Your secret’s safe with me,” she said, trying to sound cheery. His shoulders fell with visible relief, his jaw releasing tension.

“Our secret,” he said, turning to her with the hint of a smile.

“Our secret,” she agreed, looking out the window once more, letting the phrase settle in her mind.
Our.

She glanced at the phone one more time and noted that it was time for her pill, then turned it off. Digging through her bag, she found the container and popped her daily baby-preventative, sipping on some water to wash it down. She saw Damon looking and hoped, for no reason she would admit, that he knew what she’d just taken. It might come in handy if he ever decided to go through with that promise about seduction…