Dance for Me (Fenbrook Academy #1) - New Adult Romance (3 page)

I took the elevator up to the garage, grabbed my helmet and swung my leg over my bike. It was easier when I was working, the memories pushed back by the intense concentration and blocked out by machine noise, or music, or both. When I rode, my only distractions were weaving through traffic and the sound of the engine.

Which is why I’d bought a very powerful bike.

I flipped my visor down and cranked the throttle on the Ducatti. I was doing fifty before I’d left the driveway.

***

I begrudged every moment away from the workshop. Finding my inspiration was essential, but why did getting there have to involve so much wasted time? The thirty seconds I spent waiting at a Stop sign nearly drove me insane. Someone once told me that sharks have to keep swimming, or they die. I could relate.

I parked the bike on the sidewalk. I knew I’d get a ticket, but the thought barely registered, the cost negligible next to the money the missile would bring in. I started jogging towards the dance studio and then broke into a run. I couldn’t help it. I could feel the call of inspiration dragging me in even as the pressure of the project pushed me forward. Inside, I could hear classical music coming from upstairs, so I sprinted up them two at a time, crashed through some double doors and—

She was frozen there in mid-air, like the dancer on TV who’d started all this. Except that dancer hadn’t had soft, long lashes, eyes half-closed as her arms stretched gracefully above her. She hadn’t had cheekbones that led my eyes down to her lips, pursed in careful concentration. Her beauty didn’t just make me stop, it damn near floored me. I skidded to a halt and stood there like an idiot, just inside the doors.

Everybody in the room turned to look at me, which is when it hit me that maybe I should have inched the doors open quietly.

The dancer’s eyes flew open and she landed, her poise thrown off by my clumsiness. I felt like I’d just shot down a bird. I’d never been the most sensitive person, but right then even I realized I’d messed up. All the energy I’d felt as I’d charged through the city and up the stairs drained away, leaving a sickening, tight knot in my stomach.

A fierce-looking woman nodded me to a chair and I slunk over to it, but I couldn’t take my eyes off the dancer as she struggled to recover. All that was going through my head was
please be okay.

Chapter Three

Natasha

Focus, Natasha. You can do this. You’re a good dancer. You’re the best.

Every affirmation and confidence booster I’d ever learned was spooling through my head on fast forward, and none of them were working.

The music started and I sank into my plié, but it was mistimed and awkward. Immediately, my mind was shrieking at me.
I’ve messed up, I’ve messed up!

Concentrate
. Push into the jeté. Float.
Just like when I saw him.

Distracted, I wasn’t ready for the landing and slipped a little. There was a sound from the watching dancers, that tiny, sympathetic intake of breath you never want to hear. The room was suddenly the size of a cathedral, every pair of eyes like a spotlight on me.

Three easy turns came next, time to get my mind straight. But coming up was a fast-moving combination and I wasn’t focused. I was drunk on his eyes and his chest and that feeling he’d given me, for once in my life, of being grounded, of having something to cling onto that wasn’t cutting. I was a mess. I shouldn’t have been driving a damn car, let alone trying to dance.

I’ve messed it up. The best chance of my life and I’ve wasted it.

Maybe because I thought it didn’t matter anymore, I glanced across at him. He was still staring straight at me, his chest rising and falling under his shirt. He’d been running. That’s why he’d crashed through the doors—he’d run all the way up here.
Why?
He didn’t look like a ballet fan.

And then
I got mad. I hadn’t messed up.
He
had. And I was damned if I was going to throw this away.

I went into the pas de bourrée, three quick steps on pointe and my legs felt steady and firm, the anger lending me strength. I sank into a plié and then, as I came up, one leg whipped out to propel me into a turn. Again. Again. Every time I spun around to the front my eyes met his, and the anger grew and grew. It was about more than just him and messing up the audition, now. It was my past and my present and my future, my whole goddamn life, right back to when I was fifteen—

I pushed that from my mind with the next leap, leaving my thoughts behind and letting the raw heat of the anger carry me, no more than a puppet in its grasp. The problem with letting the feelings out was that once started, they couldn’t be stopped. I flowed through the final few steps knowing I was too fast, too out of control. I had to get a hold of myself.

The music ended and the next piece—the obscure one—began. I hadn’t heard it before that day, but I’d listened to it again and again as the dancers before me had danced to it and I was getting to know it pretty well. It was soft and romantic, calling for lots of slow, sweeping moves, as if an unseen lover’s hands were carrying me. I knew exactly what it needed, but I didn’t have a hope of pulling it off, feeling the way I did. I wanted to scream and kick, not swoon and float. What the hell did I know about romance, anyway? It had been a year since anyone had even kissed me.

My eyes closed for a second. I was on the point of walking out. The anger that had powered me had dissipated and now there was nothing except—

His eyes, staring straight into me—

I let myself flow into an arabesque. It was crazy because no guy would ever want—

Thick muscle bulging under his shirt as he’d sat down—

Not me. Jasmine or Karen or Clarissa, but he wouldn’t want fucked up, twisted me—

Those lips...what would they feel like if he—

And suddenly I was turning around an invisible
him
, imagining his thumbs stroking my cheeks as his eyes blazed into me, our lips about to meet.

What the hell is this?

It was insane, but it was all I had.

Just go with it!

On my next pirouette, I imagined him kissing my neck...my breasts. The feelings were as strong as the anger had been, every nerve in my body taut and trembling with the sensations. When I turned towards him again our eyes met, and now it wasn’t anger I could feel building. Time seemed to slow, allowing me to make my movements graceful and controlled. When my leg extended in a développé, I could almost feel his large, warm palms sliding down my calf. When I arched my back, it was as if I was leaning into him, my head on his shoulder and his breath on my neck. The music was only suggesting the steps. I was dancing to something altogether more mysterious and dangerous, something I’d never felt before. I couldn’t take my eyes off him.

And then the music ended and I sank into a demi plié to finish. I should have been grateful that it was over, that I’d survived it. But right then, staring across the room at him, I didn’t want it to end.

I was suddenly aware that the room was deathly silent. I mentally shook myself. What the hell had
that
been?

The suits from the ad agency were glancing at one another, as if no one wanted to be the first to speak. Eventually the choreographer said, “Yes. Thank you.”

She sounded more shell-shocked than dismissive, but shell-shocked couldn’t be good. I knew I’d messed up the first piece, my anger showing through. I had no idea about the second one. It had barely felt like me dancing.

They were going to let us know at the end which of us they wanted back for a second audition, so we all had to wait around. I sat against the wall, taking sips of water and taking surreptitious glances at the mystery man. The man who’d messed up my audition. The man I couldn’t stop thinking about.

Clearly, he’d come here to watch the dancing. So why, whenever I looked up, did I see him still looking over at me?

***

When the last dancer had finished, the three suits and the choreographer went into a huddle and exchanged scribbled notes. There was some nodding, and then the choreographer stood up. Clearly the suits, while happy to spend their day ogling women in leotards, weren’t brave enough to risk the wrath of a slighted dancer.

“Thank you all for coming. I’d like these four dancers to come forward to talk about a second audition.”

My heart launched itself up into my throat and I felt as if I was sliding again. I felt for the calming memory of the fresh cuts...but weirdly, I found myself looking to the back of the room. Searching for those cool blue eyes, wanting suddenly to cling onto him, instead.

He wasn’t there. He’d slipped out while I’d been looking at the choreographer.

I listened as she read out four names. Mine wasn’t one of them.

I grabbed my bag and ran.

Chapter Four

Natasha

I pushed open the door to the street and let the draft of air cool my prickling eyes.
Don’t cry don’t cry don’t cry—

“Don’t cry.” A voice so deep I felt it as much as heard it. There was so much earnest empathy in it—as if by crying I would hurt him as much as myself.

I spun around. He was standing right outside the door, those crystal-clear eyes right on me. Something surged up inside and stole my breath. It had been two minutes and I felt like I hadn’t seen him in months.
What the hell?

“Hi.” He sounded confident, but with just a hint of hesitation. Because he knew he’d messed up my audition, or because he’d felt what I’d felt? Both?

I realized I was standing there with my mouth open, and snapped it shut. “Were you waiting for me?”

He looked at the door. “I thought you might get swept past me, inside. This is a bottleneck.” As if that was a perfectly reasonable explanation.

“I didn’t get the part,” I told him stupidly. I should have been angry with him—should have slapped him across the face and raged at him. But all the anger seemed to have disappeared, as insubstantial as smoke in the face of what had followed.

“I’m sorry. Dance for me.”

I thought I’d misheard. “...what?”

He stepped forward, and the breeze blew his shirt against his body, the arches of his pecs showing through the soft fabric. His clothes looked expensive, but he didn’t look like the suits from the audition. Out here, with the wind playing through his hair, he looked like some demi-god, standing on a mountaintop. He was so much taller than me, with a big, looming presence that spoke of hard, manual work. I could imagine him wielding a sword, or forging one.

“Dance for me,” he said again.

Oh my God!
Was he some ballet company bigwig from another city? Or another director, stealing dancers from someone else’s audition? He didn’t look old enough to be either, only three or four years older than me. “Who are you?”

“Darrell. Carner.”

“I meant more...what’s your connection with dancing?”

“I need inspiration.” He stepped a little closer, right into my personal space, and his hand went out as if to touch my face. He stopped just short, as if he knew that would be a mistake.

My heart beat faster, and not through fear. I wanted his hand there, wanted to know how it felt against my cheek. “What do you...do?”

He was staring right into my eyes. “I’m an—” And I saw his expression flicker, just for a second. “An engineer—an inventor. I need a muse.”

I must have frowned, because he continued.

“I’ll pay you. By the hour.”

That snapped me back to reality. What was this? Was he trying to pick me up?
Me?
A guy like
this?
Ridiculous. So this must be something weird, possibly even dangerous. “No.”

“But—”

I walked away, cutting him off, and with each step away from him, I tried to convince myself I was doing the right thing. No guy—especially no guy who looked like him—was going to try to pick me up. But even if it had been some sort of pick-up line, I’d avoided something messy and complicated. What would have happened, once he saw through the façade and got to know the real me?

And if he really had wanted me to dance for him one-on-one—well, that sounded creepy, right?

Only weirdly, it hadn’t, coming from him. It had sounded heartfelt and genuine, like he really
did
want a muse, like some renaissance painter. But what did an engineer want with a muse?

I slowed my pace as I let the possibility trickle through. What if he’d been for real? What if this guy who’d seemed more
solid
than anyone I’d ever met, really had wanted something as simple as to see me dance again. And I’d turned him down....