Dangerous Days: (9 page)

“A flivver?”

“Not at all. A very handsome car.” He told her the make, and she flushed again with pleasure.

“Joy and rapture!” she said. “Did you warn him I am to drive it?”

“I did. He suggests that Graham give you some lessons.”

“Graham!”

“Why not?”

“He’ll be bored to insanity. That’s all. You - you didn’t suggest it, did you, daddy?”

With all her adoration of her father, Delight had long recognized under his real spirituality a certain quality of worldly calculation. That, where it concerned her, it was prompted only by love did not make her acceptance of it easier.

“Certainly not,” said the rector, stiffly.

“Graham’s changed, you know. He used to be a nice little kid. But he’s - I don’t know what it is. Spoiled, I suppose.”

“He’ll steady down, Delight.”

She looked up at him with clear, slightly humorous eyes.

“Don’t get any queer ideas about Graham Spencer and me, Daddy,” she said. “In the first place, I intend to choose my own husband. He’s to look as much as possible like you, but a trifle less nose. And in the second place, after I’ve backed the car into a telegraph pole; and turned it over in a ditch, Graham Spencer is just naturally going to know I am no woman to tie to.”

She got up and smiled at him.

“Anyhow, I wouldn’t trust him with the communion service,” she added, and walking out onto the floor, blew shrilly on her whistle. The rector watched her with growing indignation. These snap judgments of youth! The easy damning of the young! They left no room for argument. They condemned and walked away, leaving careful plans in ruin behind them.

And Delight, having gone so far, went further. She announced that evening at dinner that she would under no circumstances be instructed by Graham Spencer. Her mother ventured good-humored remonstrance.

“The way to learn to drive a car,” said Delight, “is to get into it and press a few things, and when it starts, keep on going. You’ve got to work it out for yourself.”

And when Clayton, calling up with his usual thoughtfulness that evening, offered Graham as instructor, she refused gratefully but firmly.

“You’re a dear to think of it,” she said, “and you’re a dear to have given Daddy the car. But I’m just naturally going to fight it out in my own way if it takes all winter.”

Natalie, gathering her refusal from Clayton’s protest, had heaved a sigh of relief. Not that she objected to Delight Haverford. She liked her as much as she liked and understood any young girl, which was very little. But she did not want Graham to marry. To marry would be to lose him. And again, watching Clayton’s handsome head above his newspaper, she reflected that Graham was all she had.

Nevertheless, Delight received a lesson in driving from Graham, and that within two days.

On Saturday afternoon, finding the mill getting on his nerves, Clayton suggested to Graham what might be the last golf of the autumn and Graham consented cheerfully enough. For one thing, the offices closed at noon, and Anna Klein had gone. He was playing a little game with Anna - a light-hearted matter of a glance now and then caught and held, a touched hand, very casually done, and an admiring comment now and then on her work. And Anna was blossoming like a flower. She sat up late to make fresh white blouses for the office, and rose early to have abundance of time to dress. She had taken to using a touch of rouge, too, although she put it on after she reached the mill, and took it off before she started for home.

Her father, sullen and irritable these days, would have probably beaten her for using it.

But Anna had gone, and a telephone call to Marion Hayden had told him she was not at home. He thought it possible she had gone to the country club, and accepted his father’s suggestion of golf willingly.

From the moment he left the mill Anna had left his mind. He was at that period when always in the back of his mind there was a girl. During the mill hours the girl was Anna, because she was there. In the afternoon it was Marion, just then, but even at that there were entire evenings when, at the theater, a pretty girl in the chorus held and absorbed his entire attention - or at a dance a debutante, cloudy and mysterious in white chiffon, bounded his universe for a few hours.

On this foundation of girl he built the superstructure of his days. Not evil, but wholly irresponsible. The urge of vital youth had caught him and held him. And Clayton, sitting that day beside him in the car, while Graham drove and the golf clubs rattled in their bags at his feet, remembered again the impulses of his own adolescence, and wondered. There had been a time when he would have gone to the boy frankly, with the anxieties he was beginning to feel. There were so many things he wanted to tell the boy. So many warnings he should have.

But Natalie had stolen him. That was what it amounted to. She had stolen his confidence, as only a selfish woman could. And against that cabal of mother and son he felt helpless. It was even more than that. As against Natalie’s indulgence he did not wish to pose as a mentor pointing out always the way of duty.

“How old are you, Graham?” he said suddenly.

“Twenty-two.” Graham glanced at him curiously. His father knew his age, of course.

“I was married at your age.”

“Tough luck,” said Graham. And then: “I’m sorry, father, I didn’t mean that. But it’s pretty early, isn’t it? No time for a good time, or anything.”

“I fancy Nature meant men to marry young, don’t you? It saves a lot of - complications.”

“The girl a fellow marries at that age isn’t often the one he’d marry at thirty,” said Graham. And feeling that he had said the wrong thing, changed the subject quickly. Clayton did not try to turn it back into its former channel. The boy was uncomfortable, unresponsive. There was a barrier between them, of self-consciousness on his part, of evasion and discomfort on Graham’s.

On the way over they had sighted Delight in the new car. She had tried to turn, had backed into a ditch and was at that moment ruefully surveying a machine which had apparently sat down on its rear wheels with its engine pointed pathetically skyward.

Delight’s face fell when she recognized them.

“Of course it would have to be you,” she said. “Of all the people who might have seen my shame - I’m going on with you. I never want to see the old thing again.”

“Anything smashed?” Graham inquired.

“It looks smashed. I can’t tell.”

It was not until the car was out of the ditch, and Clayton had driven off in Graham’s car toward the club that Delight remembered her father’s voice the day he had told her Graham would teach her to drive. She stiffened and he was quick to see the change in her manner. The total damage was one flat tire, and while the engine was inflating it, he looked at her. She had grown to be quite pretty. His eyes approved her.

“Better let me come round and give you a few lessons, Delight.”

“I’d rather learn by myself, if you don’t mind.”

“You’ll have a real smash unless you learn properly.”

But she remained rather obstinately silent.

“What’s the matter with me, Delight? You’re not exactly crazy about me, are you?”

“That’s silly. I don’t know anything about you any more.”

“That’s your fault. You know I’ve been away for four years, and since I came back I haven’t seen much of you. But, if you’ll let me come round - “

“You can come if you like. You’ll be bored, probably.”

“You’re being awfully nasty, you know. Here I come to pull you out of a ditch and generally rescue you, and - Come, now, Delight, what is it? There’s something. We used to be pals.”

“I don’t know, Graham,” she said truthfully. “I only know - well, I hear things, of course. Nothing very bad. Just little things. I wish you wouldn’t insist. It’s idiotic. What does it matter what I think?”

Graham flushed. He knew well enough one thing she had heard. Her father and mother had been at dinner the other night, and he had had too much to drink.

“Sorry.”

He stopped the pump and put away the tools, all in silence. Good heavens, was all the world divided into two sorts of people: the knockers - and under that heading he placed his father, Delight, and all those who occasionally disapproved of him - and the decent sort who liked a fellow and understood him?

But his training had been too good to permit him to show his angry scorn. He made an effort and summoned a smile.

“All ready,” he said. “And since you won’t let me teach you, perhaps I’d better take you home.”

“You were going to the club.”

“Oh, that’s all right. Father’s probably found some one.”

But she insisted that he drive them both to the club, and turn the car round there. Then, with a grinding of gear levers that made him groan, she was off toward home, leaving Graham staring after her.

“Well, can you beat it?” he inquired of the empty air. “Can you beat it?”

And wounded in all the pride of new manhood, he joined Marion and her rather riotous crowd around the fire inside the clubhouse. Clayton had given him up and was going around alone, followed by a small caddie. The links were empty, and the caddie lonely. He ventured small bits of conversation now and then, looking up with admiration at Clayton’s tall figure. And, after a little, Clayton took the bag from him and used him only for retrieving balls. The boy played round, whistling.

“Kinda quiet to-day, ain’t it?” he offered, trudging a foot or two behind.

“It is, rather, young man.”

“Mostly on Saturdays I caddie for Mr. Valentine. But he’s gone to the war.”

“Oh, he has, has he?” Clayton built a small tee, and placed his ball on it. “Well, maybe we’ll all be going some day.”

He drove off and started after the ball. It was not until he was on the green that he was conscious of the boy beside him again.

“How old d’you have to be to get into the army, Mr. Spencer?” inquired the caddie, anxiously.

Clayton looked at him quizzically.

“Want to try for it, do you? Well, I’m afraid you’ll have to wait a bit.”

“I’m older than I look, Mr. Spencer.”

“How old are you?”

“Sixteen.”

“Afraid you’ll have to wait a while,” said Clayton and achieved a well-nigh perfect long putt.

“I’d just like to get a whack at them Germans,” offered the boy, and getting no response, trudged along again at his heels.

Suddenly it struck Clayton as rather strange that, in all the time since his return from Europe, only four people had shown any but a sort of academic interest in the war, and that, ironically enough, a German had been the first to make a sacrifice for principle. Chris had gone, to get out of trouble. The little caddie wanted to go, to get a “whack” at the madmen of Europe. And Jackson, the chauffeur, was going, giving up his excellent wages to accept the thirty-odd dollars a month of a non-com, from a pure sense of responsibility.

But, among the men he knew best, in business and in the clubs, the war still remained a magnificent spectacle. A daily newspaper drama.

Suddenly Clayton saw Audrey Valentine. She was swinging toward him, her bag with its clubs slung over her shoulder, her hands in the pockets of an orange-colored sweater. In her black velvet tam and short skirt she had looked like a little girl, and at first he did not recognize her. She had seen him, however, and swung toward him.

“Hello, Clay,” she called, when they were within hailing distance. “Bully shot, that last.”

“Where’s your caddie?”

“I didn’t want one. I had a feeling that, if I took one, and he lost a ball in these impecunious times of mine, I’d murder him. Saw you at the fifth hole. I’d know your silhouette anywhere.”

Under her rakish cap her eyes were rather defiant. She did not want pity; she almost dared him to pity her.

“Come round again with me, Audrey, won’t you?”

“I’m off my game to-day. I’ll wander along, if you don’t mind. I’ll probably sneeze or something when you’re driving, of course.”

“Nothing,” he said, gravely approaching his ball, “so adds distance to my drive as a good explosive sneeze just behind it.”

They talked very little. Audrey whistled as she walked along with the free swinging step that was characteristic of her, and Clayton was satisfied merely to have her companionship. She was not like some women; a man didn’t have to be paying her compliments or making love to her. She even made no comments on his shots, and after a time that rather annoyed him.

“Well?” he demanded, after an excellent putt. “Was that good or wasn’t it?”

“Very good,” she said gravely. “I am only surprised when you do a thing badly. Not when you do it well.”

He thought that over.

“Have you anything in mind that I do badly? I mean, particularly in mind.”

“Not very much.” But after a moment: “Why don’t you make Natalie play golf?”

“She hates it.”

He rather wondered if she thought Natalie was one of the things he managed badly.

The sense of companionship warmed him. Although neither of them realized it, their mutual loneliness and dissatisfaction had brought them together, and mentally at least they were clinging, each desperately to the other. But their talk was disjointed:

“I’ll return that hundred soon. I’ve sold the house.”

“I wish you wouldn’t worry about it. It’s ridiculous, Audrey.”

And, a hundred yards or so further on, “They wouldn’t have Chris in Canada. His heart. He’s going into the French Ambulance service.”

“Good for Chris.”

But she came out very frankly, when they started back to the clubhouse.

“It’s done me a lot of good, meeting you, Clay. There’s something so big and solid and dependable about you. I wonder - I suppose you don’t mind my using you as a sort of anchor to windward?”

“Good heavens, Audrey! If I could only do something.”

“You don’t have to do a thing.” She smiled up at him, and her old audacity was quite gone. “You’ve just got to be. And - you don’t have to send me flowers, you know. I mean, I understand that you’re sorry for me, without that. You’re the only person in the world I’d allow to be sorry for me.”

He was touched. There was no coquetry in her manner. She paid her little tribute quite sincerely and frankly.