“Uh, that’s nice, hon,” Mr. Love would reply. “Maybe another time.”
“How ’bout I show you the bullwhip? I can crack it five times in a row. Sometimes I can even break a glass with it.”
“You know, I think I’ll just sit here
quietly
and read the paper.”
“Wanna see my hamster? Or my guillotine? How about the two of them together? I bet you didn’t know we have a dog that’s trained to kill people.”
This was partially true. My mother had gotten Greta, a German shepherd attack dog, about a week after we’d moved into the new house. She seemed to think being a widow with young children called for accessories like the switchblade she packed in her Gucci handbag, or the bullwhip she kept under the seat of her car. Maybe it was because we were geographically on the wrong side of Georgetown’s tracks. Maybe she thought my grandparents had taken a contract out on her. Sadly, she never divulged to us what the command for Greta to attack was. And Greta wouldn’t do it unless you uttered the one word that she knew meant go ahead and disembowel the indicated target.
Shortly after Greta had arrived, Obadiah developed a full-blown case of Munchausen syndrome, and started eating his own ears when any attention was paid to the new dog. Piddle dealt with the change in hierarchy by sinking her teeth into all visitors under the age of twelve.
They needn’t have bothered. The words
German
and
shepherd
said it all. Greta was remarkable in that she had no personality, except when she was ordered to kill. Then she was a one-dog blitzkrieg.
Mr. Love’s fatal mistake was in allowing me to overhear him (and with such a vested interest, who wouldn’t spy?) tell my mother that she should sell her car and he would sell his car, and then they could buy a new one together. Which almost made me laugh because the guy had nine, count them,
nine
children and my idea of a new car was more in the line of an Aston, not an airport van.
From then on, it was no holds barred.
The first plan I came up with involved Greta. The idea was to accidentally get her to kill, or at least maim, Mr. Love. So when he arrived for his date, forty-five minutes early as usual, I was crouched with the dog behind the curtains in the living room, whispering every conceivable word of combat I could think of. I even tried saying them in a German accent, but nothing triggered her Teutonic killer reaction. The humorless beast just sat there, calmly panting. With twenty minutes to go, I figured I’d have more success using an accomplice with an established canine compulsive disorder, so I traded Greta for Obadiah. I seated the two of us next to Mr. Love on the sofa and fed Obadiah three plastic cars. Obadiah loved to eat toys. He was never happier than when munching on a cowboy or an Indian or a farm animal. (Trolls made him gag because of the hair.) In lieu of digesting, he either barfed them up later or had his stomach pumped by the vet.
Mr. Love was unfazed. Evidently he was not an animal lover.
With only five minutes left, I made a last-ditch effort and tried to annoy him to death by singing all five verses of “The Worms Crawl In.” By the last one, I was shouting because he hadn’t once looked up from the paper.
Mr. Love raised his eyes from the Real Estate section. “Why do you persist in persecuting me?”
“It’s nothing personal, Mr. Love. I just don’t want you to marry my mother.”
“Who said anything about getting married?” he said.
I told him how I’d overheard his icky line about buying a car together. “And if you think I’m okay with having nine new brothers and sisters, you’re nuts.”
Mr. Love started laughing, and continued until he had practically cackled his Brylcreemed head off his shoulders, and I was in tears. I spun around, heading for the stairs, and ran smack into my mother.
“Hey!” she said, but I streaked past her and up to the second floor.
And when she came into my bedroom later that night, and put her hand on my head in the dark, I kept my breathing in a regular, careful simulation of sleep.
Traitor
.
By date number five, however, I pulled out all the stops. I answered Mr. Love’s ring at the door in Wednesday’s black cardigan and braids.
“Why hello, Mr. Traveling Salesman,” I said.
Mr. Love gave me an exasperated look and brushed past me into the house. I pretended to be perplexed by his odd behavior, but was all milk and naïve kindness as we Addamses always are when dealing with outsiders, however bizarrely they act. He fetched his drink and went to his spot on the sofa, snapping open the paper after giving me another suspicious look. I glided about the room, pretending to eat bugs off the windowsills. Then I got a vase and arranged some dead flower stalks and sticks from the garden, murmuring, “The thorns are
so
lovely this year,” à la Morticia. Mr. Love spiked his hairy eyebrows at me, but continued reading. So I went and got Hammy Hamster from my room, got a pan from the kitchen, put him in it, then carried the pan around the living room, chattering about what spices I was going to fry my hamster up with. Mr. Love, widower and father of nine children, wasn’t going for it.
So I marched into the kitchen, slammed the pan down on the stove, grabbed the matches, and twirled the dial so the gas went
hissssss.
The living room was over and down a little set of stairs, and you could just see the stove if you were sitting on the sofa. When Mr. Love heard Hammy scrabbling around in the pan, cutting the Teflon to shreds with his desperate toenails, he merely rustled the paper. But when he saw me expertly strike that Ohio Blue Tip on the side of the box and hold it to the gas, which ignited into a bonfire the witches of
Macbeth
would have been proud of, he leapt to his feet, yelling, “Leslie! Leslie, your crazy fuckin’ kid is cooking the hamster! She’s setting the house on fire and
she’s cooking the fuckin’ hamster
!
”
Oh my God, it was
great
.
Henrietta stuck her head out from behind the basement door, took one look, and retreated. Luckily, Cassie Diggins had gone home for the day, or her entire
batterie de cuisine
would have been taken to my backside. My mother stormed into the kitchen, furiously tucking her orange Pucci blouse into her skintight black Capri pants.
“That’s it, THAT IS IT!” she bellowed. She scooped up Hammy and gently placed him in a Tupperware container, crooning, “There now, there now, you’re fine.” Then she let me have it with a slap across the head.
“Why do you have to be so goddamn macabre all the time? Like the sun is never out?” she growled, shaking me, though not as hard as she wanted to because she was angry with herself for whacking me in front of her date. “You apologize to Mr. Love this instant.”
I looked at my feet and muttered that I was sorry, though all three of us knew I wasn’t in the slightest. After all that wildly imaginative insubordination, my punishment was mundanely formulaic—I was sent to bed without supper.
I sat in the corner of my bedroom and ate all the Reese’s peanut butter cups I had saved from my Halloween candy. Then I reattached the heads of my Barbies with Scotch tape, and reguillotined them. It thoroughly irked my mother, this morbid little world of mine. In fact, it was like it scared her. She must have thought it was congenital. Maybe it was, but at the time I was only whistling past the graveyard.
Turns out I should have cremated Hammy when I had the chance and saved him from a gruesome death. Will, in retaliation for my telling Henrietta that he let me touch his scrotum in the bathroom, let Hammy out of his cage, whereupon Hammy made a beeline for the cellar and gorged himself on the rat poison. When Hammy showed up a few days later he was fat and satiated, but his skin was turning inside out. Ordinarily I would have found this textbook example of rodenticide anticoagulence scientifically fascinating, but it was Hammy—so I went berserk, and my mother, who was home, but packing for the Bahamas, had to take the poor thing out in the garden and bash him over the head with a shovel. To her credit, she killed him with one good swing.
As for Mr. Love, it took voodoo to get him to cave. Among the artifacts and souvenirs brought back from exotic places by my mother and her forebears was a family of stuffed dolls with crudely stitched faces and yarn hair. They resided among the magic stones, Eskimo carved animals, antediluvian ornaments, dinosaur turd fossils, and scraps of ancestral Pilgrim wedding dresses in an old Chinese chest we called the “Beast House.” My favorite thing in there was a long necklace of beads made from human skulls. My mother claimed that each of the beads was from a different skull. The beads all looked the same to me, but I pored over that thing like a nun over a rosary, trying to tell them apart.
The spirit of Mr. Love was transferred to the male doll with an appropriate incantation and a sprinkling of scotch from his bottle in the kitchen. Then I savagely stuck about two hundred pins in him. Mr. Love didn’t die, but he stopped coming round.
It was the kind of sultry Washington, DC, evening when the sky is orange and the humid air is so dense the lightning bugs have to swim through it. I was out in the backyard, rearranging the pebbles over Hammy. I tended his tiny grave like it was my husband’s. A thunderstorm was brewing, and Henrietta was trying to get me to come inside.
“I’ll no’ be telling you again—now get in before you’re struck by lightning!”
“What?” I pretended I couldn’t hear, as a DC-10 screamed overhead on final approach into National Airport.
“I said, get in here now!”
“What for?”
“So you live to be ten. You heard me.”
“But Cassie said I could stay out till bedtime.”
“Rubbish.”
“Okay, well Mommy said I could.”
“Oh, did she, now, lassie. Well I’ll just go and confirm that—”
“Oh, okay!” I finally shouted, and stomped up the back steps just as sixteen-ounce raindrops began to fall.
The new guy was coming to take my mother to dinner. His name was Pete, and I had yet to meet him. Not that I wanted to. I was still smarting from Mr. Love, and had decided to relight the torch for Charles, the foreign attaché. To avoid the new guy’s entrance, I went off to scuba dive in the bathtub.
Pete had gotten my mother seriously into scuba diving, probably because it involved a bathing suit. She in turn was trying to get me interested in it, probably because it involved getting a tan and exercise, which usually leads to a loss of weight. She’d enrolled us both in the diver’s certificate course at the YMCA. Will escaped by being away at school, but if two-year-old Edward had been able to swim, she would have enrolled him as well. Breathing underwater was the easy part. Learning decompression charts in order to avoid getting the bends was proving more difficult. Hey, I was lucky to maintain a D+ in math. However, it delighted my mother to see me making an effort to do something that might alter my body shape, so she got me a small scuba tank and a regulator, and I practiced at home in the bathtub.
I was pretending I was on a deep-water dive in the Indian Ocean, looking for great whites, sea snakes, box jellyfish, and anything else listed in the course manual as hazardous to divers, when the flipper of a leatherback sea turtle poked me. It was my mother, in a bright pink linen skirt and fitted jacket, looking like a scoop of tutti-frutti sherbet. I sucked in my stomach (always my knee-jerk reaction), and then surfaced, even though I knew I would die getting the bends from coming up so fast.
“Listen, Diver Dan, it’s going to thunder and you can’t stay in the tub during an electrical storm because it’s very dangerous, so you need to get out, okay?”
My mother’s concern surprised me, so I said okay, but as soon as I saw she was leaving, I slunk back down in the ocean. Only now I was Honey West, on a dangerous aquatic assignment in the Bahamas. Bruce, my pet ocelot, was swimming beside me in a specially constructed wet suit, and we were going after suspects in a hidden treasure heist. Suddenly, a shadow loomed from above. But instead of it being the hull of the get-away yacht, there was my mother again. Even from fifty feet below, I could see she was tapping her foot. I was alarmed enough to surface.
“Believe it or not, this is for your own safety, Toots.
Out
.”
I tried to mumble, through the thick black rubber in my mouth, that it wasn’t even thundering.
She squatted down beside the tub so her face was closer to mine. She smelled deliciously grown-up, like hairspray and perfume and alcohol. I went so far as to take the regulator out of my mouth so I could breathe her in, and I waited for an argument strong enough to convince me to do as she said.
“Pete says he had a friend who was electrocuted while swimming in the Amazon.”
“Wow!” That sounded terribly exciting to me.
“Pete says that if lightning were to strike the house, you could be killed. Water conducts electricity—you know that.”