Delphi Complete Works of Sir Arthur Conan Doyle (Illustrated) (952 page)

DANGER STORY IX.  THE PRISONER’S DEFENCE

The circumstances, so far as they were known to the public, concerning the death of the beautiful Miss Ena Garnier, and the fact that Captain John Fowler, the accused officer, had refused to defend himself on the occasion of the proceedings at the police-court, had roused very general interest.  This was increased by the statement that, though he withheld his defence, it would be found to be of a very novel and convincing character.  The assertion of the prisoner’s lawyer at the police-court, to the effect that the answer to the charge was such that it could not yet be given, but would be available before the Assizes, also caused much speculation.  A final touch was given to the curiosity of the public when it was learned that the prisoner had refused all offers of legal assistance from counsel and was determined to conduct his own defence.  The case for the Crown was ably presented, and was generally considered to be a very damning one, since it showed very clearly that the accused was subject to fits of jealousy, and that he had already been guilty of some violence owing to
this cause.  The prisoner listened to the evidence without emotion, and neither interrupted nor cross-questioned the witnesses.  Finally, on being informed that the time had come when he might address the jury, he stepped to the front of the dock.  He was a man of striking appearance, swarthy, black-moustached, nervous, and virile, with a quietly confident manner.  Taking a paper from his pocket he read the following statement, which made the deepest impression upon the crowded court: —

I would wish to say, in the first place, gentlemen of the jury, that, owing to the generosity of my brother officers — for my own means are limited — I might have been defended to-day by the first talent of the Bar.  The reason I have declined their assistance and have determined to fight my own case is not that I have any confidence in my own abilities or eloquence, but it is because I am convinced that a plain, straightforward tale, coming direct from the man who has been the tragic actor in this dreadful affair, will impress you more than any indirect statement could do.  If I had felt that I were guilty I should have asked for help.  Since, in my own heart, I believe that I am innocent, I am pleading my own cause, feeling that my plain words of truth and reason will have more weight with you than the most learned and eloquent advocate. 
By the indulgence of the Court I have been permitted to put my remarks upon paper, so that I may reproduce certain conversations and be assured of saying neither more nor less than I mean.

It will be remembered that at the trial at the police-court two months ago I refused to defend myself.  This has been referred to to-day as a proof of my guilt.  I said that it would be some days before I could open my mouth.  This was taken at the time as a subterfuge.  Well, the days are over, and I am now able to make clear to you not only what took place, but also why it was impossible for me to give any explanation.  I will tell you now exactly what I did and why it was that I did it.  If you, my fellow-countrymen, think that I did wrong, I will make no complaint, but will suffer in silence any penalty which you may impose upon me.

I am a soldier of fifteen years’ standing, a captain in the Second Breconshire Battalion.  I have served in the South African Campaign and was mentioned in despatches after the battle of Diamond Hill.  When the war broke out with Germany I was seconded from my regiment, and I was appointed as adjutant to the First Scottish Scouts, newly raised.  The regiment was quartered at Radchurch, in Essex, where the men were placed partly in huts and were partly billeted upon the inhabitants.  All the officers
were billeted out, and my quarters were with Mr. Murreyfield, the local squire.  It was there that I first met Miss Ena Garnier.

It may not seem proper at such a time and place as this that I should describe that lady.  And yet her personality is the very essence of my case.  Let me only say that I cannot believe that Nature ever put into female form a more exquisite combination of beauty and intelligence.  She was twenty-five years of age, blonde and tall, with a peculiar delicacy of features and of expression.  I have read of people falling in love at first sight, and had always looked upon it as an expression of the novelist.  And yet from the moment that I saw Ena Garnier life held for me but the one ambition — that she should be mine.  I had never dreamed before of the possibilities of passion that were within me.  I will not enlarge upon the subject, but to make you understand my action — for I wish you to comprehend it, however much you may condemn it — you must realise that I was in the grip of a frantic elementary passion which made, for a time, the world and all that was in it seem a small thing if I could but gain the love of this one girl.  And yet, in justice to myself, I will say that there was always one thing which I placed above her.  That was my honour as a soldier and a gentleman.  You will find it hard to believe this when I tell you what occurred,
and yet — though for one moment I forgot myself — my whole legal offence consists in my desperate endeavour to retrieve what I had done.

I soon found that the lady was not insensible to the advances which I made to her.  Her position in the household was a curious one.  She had come a year before from Montpellier, in the South of France, in answer to an advertisement from the Murreyfields in order to teach French to their three young children.  She was, however, unpaid, so that she was rather a friendly guest than an
employée
.  She had always, as I gathered, been fond of the English and desirous to live in England, but the outbreak of the war had quickened her feelings into passionate attachment, for the ruling emotion of her soul was her hatred of the Germans.  Her grandfather, as she told me, had been killed under very tragic circumstances in the campaign of 1870, and her two brothers were both in the French army.  Her voice vibrated with passion when she spoke of the infamies of Belgium, and more than once I have seen her kissing my sword and my revolver because she hoped they would be used upon the enemy.  With such feelings in her heart it can be imagined that my wooing was not a difficult one.  I should have been glad to marry her at once, but to this she would not consent.  Everything was to come after the war, for it was necessary,
she said, that I should go to Montpellier and meet her people, so that the French proprieties should be properly observed.

She had one accomplishment which was rare for a lady; she was a skilled motor-cyclist.  She had been fond of long, solitary rides, but after our engagement I was occasionally allowed to accompany her.  She was a woman, however, of strange moods and fancies, which added in my feelings to the charm of her character.  She could be tenderness itself, and she could be aloof and even harsh in her manner.  More than once she had refused my company with no reason given, and with a quick, angry flash of her eyes when I asked for one.  Then, perhaps, her mood would change and she would make up for this unkindness by some exquisite attention which would in an instant soothe all my ruffled feelings.  It was the same in the house.  My military duties were so exacting that it was only in the evenings that I could hope to see her, and yet very often she remained in the little study which was used during the day for the children’s lessons, and would tell me plainly that she wished to be alone.  Then, when she saw that I was hurt by her caprice, she would laugh and apologize so sweetly for her rudeness that I was more her slave than ever.

Mention has been made of my jealous disposition, and it has been asserted at the trial
that there were scenes owing to my jealousy, and that once Mrs. Murreyfield had to interfere.  I admit that I was jealous.  When a man loves with the whole strength of his soul it is impossible, I think, that he should be clear of jealousy.  The girl was of a very independent spirit.  I found that she knew many officers at Chelmsford and Colchester.  She would disappear for hours together upon her motor-cycle.  There were questions about her past life which she would only answer with a smile unless they were closely pressed.  Then the smile would become a frown.  Is it any wonder that I, with my whole nature vibrating with passionate, whole-hearted love, was often torn by jealousy when I came upon those closed doors of her life which she was so determined not to open?  Reason came at times and whispered how foolish it was that I should stake my whole life and soul upon one of whom I really knew nothing.  Then came a wave of passion once more and reason was submerged.

I have spoken of the closed doors of her life.  I was aware that a young, unmarried Frenchwoman has usually less liberty than her English sister.  And yet in the case of this lady it continually came out in her conversation that she had seen and known much of the world.  It was the more distressing to me as whenever she had made an observation which pointed to this she would afterwards, as I could plainly
see, be annoyed by her own indiscretion, and endeavour to remove the impression by every means in her power.  We had several small quarrels on this account, when I asked questions to which I could get no answers, but they have been exaggerated in the address for the prosecution.  Too much has been made also of the intervention of Mrs. Murreyfield, though I admit that the quarrel was more serious upon that occasion.  It arose from my finding the photograph of a man upon her table, and her evident confusion when I asked her for some particulars about him.  The name “H. Vardin” was written underneath — evidently an autograph.  I was worried by the fact that this photograph had the frayed appearance of one which has been carried secretly about, as a girl might conceal the picture of her lover in her dress.  She absolutely refused to give me any information about him, save to make a statement which I found incredible, that it was a man whom she had never seen in her life.  It was then that I forgot myself.  I raised my voice and declared that I should know more about her life or that I should break with her, even if my own heart should be broken in the parting.  I was not violent, but Mrs. Murreyfield heard me from the passage, and came into the room to remonstrate.  She was a kind, motherly person who took a sympathetic interest in our romance,
and I remember that on this occasion she reproved me for my jealousy and finally persuaded me that I had been unreasonable, so that we became reconciled once more.  Ena was so madly fascinating and I so hopelessly her slave that she could always draw me back, however much prudence and reason warned me to escape from her control.  I tried again and again to find out about this man Vardin, but was always met by the same assurance, which she repeated with every kind of solemn oath, that she had never seen the man in her life.  Why she should carry about the photograph of a man — a young, somewhat sinister man, for I had observed him closely before she snatched the picture from my hand — was what she either could not, or would not, explain.

Then came the time for my leaving Radchurch.  I had been appointed to a junior but very responsible post at the War Office, which, of course, entailed my living in London.  Even my week-ends found me engrossed with my work, but at last I had a few days’ leave of absence.  It is those few days which have ruined my life, which have brought me the most horrible experience that ever a man had to undergo, and have finally placed me here in the dock, pleading as I plead to-day for my life and my honour.

It is nearly five miles from the station to
Radchurch.  She was there to meet me.  It was the first time that we had been reunited since I had put all my heart and my soul upon her.  I cannot enlarge upon these matters, gentlemen.  You will either be able to sympathize with and understand the emotions which overbalance a man at such a time, or you will not.  If you have imagination, you will.  If you have not, I can never hope to make you see more than the bare fact.  That bare fact, placed in the baldest language, is that during this drive from Radchurch Junction to the village I was led into the greatest indiscretion — the greatest dishonour, if you will — of my life.  I told the woman a secret, an enormously important secret, which might affect the fate of the war and the lives of many thousands of men.

It was done before I knew it — before I grasped the way in which her quick brain could place various scattered hints together and weave them into one idea.  She was wailing, almost weeping, over the fact that the allied armies were held up by the iron line of the Germans.  I explained that it was more correct to say that our iron line was holding them up, since they were the invaders.  “But is France, is Belgium,
never
to be rid of them?” she cried.  “Are we simply to sit in front of their trenches and be content to let them do what they will with ten provinces of France?  Oh, Jack, Jack,
for God’s sake, say something to bring a little hope to my heart, for sometimes I think that it is breaking!  You English are stolid.  You can bear these things.  But we others, we have more nerve, more soul!  It is death to us.  Tell me!  Do tell me that there is hope!  And yet it is foolish of me to ask, for, of course, you are only a subordinate at the War Office, and how should you know what is in the mind of your chiefs?”

“Well, as it happens, I know a good deal,” I answered.  “Don’t fret, for we shall certainly get a move on soon.”

“Soon!  Next year may seem soon to some people.”

“It’s not next year.”

“Must we wait another month?”

“Not even that.”

She squeezed my hand in hers.  “Oh, my darling boy, you have brought such joy to my heart!  What suspense I shall live in now!  I think a week of it would kill me.”

“Well, perhaps it won’t even be a week.”