Devil's Consort (62 page)

‘No.’

‘Not even as Queen of France, with a daughter of your own.’

‘No.’

‘Will you tell me?’

‘How can I be expected to be content when …?’ I closed my lips and shook my head.

‘It would be no burden for me to listen to you.’

His smile, his gaze were all compassion. It was too tempting. But I would not. It would be too easy and there were so many things I dared not say.

‘Forgive my moodiness, Raymond. It means nothing.’ I buried my sorrow deep and turned my thoughts to the future. It was more than a pleasure to have an intelligent man willing to listen to me, to talk to me. ‘This lovely city … Do you truly fear for your existence here?’

‘Yes. I do.’ A line appeared between Raymond’s brows as he followed my lead from personal to politics, but he allowed it without comment. ‘The Turks are become aggressive.’

‘Is their leader not dead?’

‘Zengi? True enough. But there will be no respite. His son, Nureddin, is a worthy successor. And they now have Edessa.’ He pointed into the distance towards that invisible city. ‘It was a major loss to us and it opens us to attack. And after that? What’s to stop them making a successful advance against Jerusalem?’

‘You’re hoping Louis will lead an attack against them, to retake Edessa?’

‘It’s my hope. If his purpose here is to safeguard the Holy City, it would seem eminently sensible. Edessa is the key. Retake that, and Antioch and Jerusalem can
breathe again.’ Raymond led me to another carved stone seat—how well the garden was furnished—and motioned for me to sit. ‘But can we persuade your husband? What do you think, Eleanor? You know him better than anyone.’ He looked down at me so that I had to look up, squinting into the sun. ‘Can he be persuaded to use his forces in the name of Christ against the Infidel and beat them from my door?’

As I raised my hand to shield my face, I decided to be honest. What point in raising Raymond’s hopes when Louis could be fickle and impossibly unpredictable? ‘He may do so. If you can persuade him not to stop at every shrine along the way. Louis is fixed on saving his soul and it takes an unconscionable length of time.’ I was even more honest. ‘But to turn away from Jerusalem? Louis may not see how it lies to his advantage.’ I frowned. ‘It will also depend on what Galeran thinks.’

‘Does Louis not listen to your advice?’

‘No. He banishes me from his councils in case he is seduced into listening to me! Galeran guards his master’s privacy and his thoughts.’

I was horrified at the emotion that coloured my voice but here in this paradise with a man who would not judge or condemn me I was not afraid to speak the truth.

‘Then we’ll have to see if we can detach Louis from his guard dog, won’t we? Surely between us we can tempt him with the glory of conquest.’

As if the mention of his name had conjured his image, Louis emerged from one of the buildings below us, to stride through the gardens without seeing their magnificence and disappear through another doorway.

Raymond sank onto the stone beside me, smiling ruefully. ‘I see that His Majesty has refused my offer of clothing more suited to his standing.’

I laughed. The embroidered silk and damask robes that clothed Raymond with such opulence had, of course, been rejected by Louis. He still wore the pilgrim’s garb he’d arrived in.

‘The robe was given to him by Bernard of Clairveau,’ I explained. ‘Thus it is sacred to him.’

‘But not very clean! In the short time since you arrived my servants could have done no more than brush away the worst of the filth of your journey. Is it possible that dirt and lice are a sign of sanctity?’

‘For a man who wears a hair shirt, of what importance are lice?’ And I found it easy to laugh again, enjoying the mockery of Raymond’s raised brows. Until I felt Raymond’s eyes narrow on my face. I grew suddenly self-conscious and looked away, as if one of the colourful finches that flitted through the bushes had taken my attention.

His next words stole my breath. ‘How do you live with a man like that, Eleanor?’

He must have seen the despair in my face, however hard I had tried to hide it, for his hand was on mine.
I felt the warmth of it, of some unexpected level of attachment. And I felt obliged to pull my hand away.

‘I won’t have your pity,’ I said.

‘Neither do I give it. Only my admiration. Tell me, Eleanor.’

I swallowed against the sudden lump in my throat. ‘How do I live with him?’ I sighed as I was forced to face it. ‘In God’s truth, I don’t know.’

‘He is not a husband for such as you.’

‘I don’t think our suitability was an issue when Fat Louis arranged it. My father’s decision to give me into his safekeeping meant that I had no choice. But what girl does?’

‘And Fat Louis had an eye to your acres.’

‘Of course. The destiny of all heiresses. I cannot complain, can I?’

‘Does he make you happy?’

‘No. But happiness is not everything.’

‘Then does he make you sad?’ Raymond persisted.

‘Yes. Oh, yes.’

‘I can’t believe he beats you.’

Raymond’s attempt at humour promptly shattered my defences. The words I had not intended to say fell from my lips. They were demeaning. Humiliating. Had I not found it almost impossible to tell Aelith? But here in these beautiful gardens, all my senses compromised with heat and perfume and a compassionate listener, I spoke them aloud.

‘No. Louis does not beat me. He does not touch me.
Not to any degree, at least. It astonishes me how many days he has been able to discover in the Church calendar when what passes for intimate relations with his wife is frowned on by God!’ I gripped my hands together to prevent myself saying more, and again failed. ‘Even when God permits, it’s not an experience to gladden my heart! So, no, Louis does not make me happy. It is no marriage.’

A little silence fell between us.

‘So his monklike habits are deeper than that robe he insists on wearing,’ Raymond observed after some thought.

‘Yes. And at present he won’t come near me. He’s taken a vow of chastity until he reaches Jerusalem. Even then I don’t hold out much hope.’

‘By Christ! What a fool he is.’ It was balm to my soul. ‘How did he manage to get even one child with you?’

‘Because Abbot Bernard told him he must persist. He would have been grateful that it only took one attempt. Nor that I care—I don’t love him, you understand.’ I tried to unravel my complicated feelings. ‘I don’t want him, you see. But I am forced to live like a nun. I am not fitted to such a life. I am hedged around by formality and ritual in that cold place in the middle of the grey waters of the Seine. How do I bear it? How do I live like that for the rest of my life? And I really need to carry a son …’

‘Eleanor …’ Raymond leaned and kissed my forehead. ‘I am so sorry.’

‘He does love me,’ I admitted in fairness. ‘In his way. Louis cares, you see, and that makes it worse. He showers me with gifts. He never upbraids me for the style of life that he frowns on. I have created my own Aquitaine so that I’m not too homesick for music and conversation and festivity. Louis disapproves but his disapproval is silent mostly. Until Mount Cadmos, that is. He blamed me for that.’

‘Then he’s more of a fool than I had thought him.’

‘He would not even let me put my case. So I became outcast.’

‘He was probably afraid you would show his commanders where the true fault lay—with a man who is incapable of leading the proverbial horse to water, much less a vast army of crusaders and pilgrims into hostile territory.’

‘He has never won a campaign or a battle,’ I admitted. ‘Did you know that?’

‘There you are, then. You are not to blame, Eleanor.’ Once again tears ambushed me, and I dabbed at them with my sleeve. ‘I think you are lonely. And you don’t even have Aelith to be a confidante.’

‘No. And now even my women are cold since so many of their friends died on that mountain. My heart is sore for them …’ And since the emotion refused to be contained any longer, I covered my face with my hands and wept.

‘Dearest Eleanor … Don’t be distressed.’ Raymond took me in his arms with great tenderness and let me weep against his shoulder, his arms strong and infinitely supportive. It was as if a dammed torrent had been released. I wept for the death of so many of our number. For the apparent futility of our journey, and for my own unspeakable position, whilst Raymond murmured and stroked my back. The soothing words and actions made me weep even harder until I had emptied what seemed to be a vast ocean of grief. Until I was reduced to hiccupping exhaustion.

Raymond’s question surprised me.

‘Will you spend the rest of your life with a man for whom you have no respect?’

It jolted me out of my self-indulgence. Was the answer not obvious?

‘I have no choice. I am no different from any woman forced into a marriage that does not please her. The fact that I am Duchess of Aquitaine is irrelevant.’

‘The fact that you are Eleanor, and a woman of some remarkable spirit, might have every relevance. If you ask my advice …’

Footsteps interrupted, the slap of a pilgrim’s leather sandal against the warm paving. I turned my ravaged face away from the intrusion.

Slowly Raymond released me and stood. ‘Your Majesty.’

So it was Louis. Who else? I wished it might be anyone but him to see me like this. Raymond placed
himself between us so that I could blot the remaining tears with my ill-used sleeves.

‘Come and sit with us. Eleanor is distressed. She has been telling me of your tribulations in the mountains.’

To my relief—the aroma of unwashed cloth being suddenly paramount—Louis did not sit but stood, arms folded. ‘We all suffered. It was a trial sent to us by God for us to bear. And we should bear it with fortitude.’ Looking up at his hard words, I saw that he frowned at me, as if he found my grief a matter for his displeasure.

‘And I will help you bear it in any way I can.’ Raymond spoke gently. ‘I regret your losses at Mount Cadmos.’

‘It should not have happened. My orders were disobeyed.’

‘Perhaps it was not the wisest route to take—through the heart of the mountains in the winter months. It’s dangerous at the best of times, as I know, and with the Turks at large, what better place to stage an ambush?’ My heart warmed that he should come to my support when no one other than the ill-fated and now absent de Rancon had challenged Louis. Even the Count of Maurienne had been lukewarm when he saw Louis’s obstinacy. But here was Raymond, my champion. ‘You walked into that ambush. Your advisers did not know the land, the terrain. That is where you should look for your culprits if you would cast blame. You should look to your advisers who sent you there in the first place.’

‘We would have presented a stronger force if my wife’s vassals had camped where I had instructed!’

‘You know your advisers better than I. The monk de Deuil and Templar Galeran.’ To my delight, Raymond infused his voice with the lightest hint of scorn. ‘They would not be my choice—but every man to his own. And I hear they keep Eleanor from your tent.’ Raymond waved aside Louis’s attempts to object. ‘I would have thought a sovereign leader, as Eleanor undoubtedly is, of a vast proportion of your forces would expect to at least have a voice in your counsels. But that’s for the future and for you to decide.’ He took Louis’s arm, his face perfectly bland so that Louis was unsure whether he had been an object of mockery or commiseration.

‘For now, let me show you my city. I did well, did I not? From a landless knight to the glory of Antioch? Let me lavish all that I have on you. And perhaps we can run to a new pilgrim’s robe for you …’

Raymond was as good as his word. Every sumptuous luxury was laid at our feet, banquets to tempt our jaded appetites, tournaments to entertain. Music and chess and draughts to stir our minds. Jewels and garments to replace those we had lost. When the gardens and the magnificent rooms of the palace palled, we hunted with leopards and falcons. Or I did, with Raymond as my host and companion. Louis declined. He could not refuse to eat with the Prince of Antioch without appearing uncivil and churlish, but he rejected the rest,
burying himself in feverish planning with Odo and Galeran as he had when we had been on the march. If I wished to see him, which I didn’t, I had to go to him.

But I did, when the despicable news reached Antioch.

Louis sat at a table, documents rolled and scattered in front of him, lines of figures under his fist. He stared unseeingly at them, but looked up when I entered. For a long moment he stared at me, eyes bleak, before he turned away to scowl at the view from the window.

‘I’ve heard.’ I wasted no time. ‘You did nothing to help them, did you?’

Louis surged to his feet, to stride across the room away from me as if he would escape. I followed him, giving no quarter.

‘They are all lost to us. All those brave souls we abandoned in Attalia. You forbade me to ask Raymond for aid. You said you would organise their rescue. Did you not pay for the ships to return and transport them here to join us?’

‘No. I could not. Think of the cost. And I am still so far from Jerusalem. Such a project would have beggared me.’

‘How could you have left them there …?’ I could not disguise my horror, nor did I greatly try.

Suddenly Louis whipped round and strode back to the table, thrusting past me, dashing the lists of figures from the surface with a sweep of his arm. ‘I don’t have the money. I demanded it from Suger but there is none.
And now my army is in pieces.’ Snatching up a final column of numbers that had escaped his fury, he tore it into pieces and cast it to the floor. ‘All I see is failure. I shall never fulfil my vow.’

‘And that is all you can think about when you left your army to the mercy of the weather and the Infidel?’

The courier had been graphic. All our abandoned troops in Attalia gone, either starved or dead of the plague, whilst those who lived had been enticed by the Turks with offers of food or an outright threat. Convert to Islam or die.

Louis’s eyes blazed with fury. ‘They deserve no sympathy from me. Hundreds of them converted!’ His mouth twisted as if he would vomit from disgust. ‘They took the Cross, they accepted the holy symbol from the hands of Bernard himself, and at the first obstacle went over to the Infidel! By God, they did not deserve to be rescued.’