Dirty Royal: A Bad Boy Royal Romance (22 page)

It’s just that I have no goddamn idea how I’m supposed to go about doing that.

“She’s back in New York, Nate.”

I see him roll his eyes in the rearview mirror. “Again, that didn’t stop you from meeting her in the first place.”

“My schedule—.”

“Are you a crown prince or not?”

“That’s exactly why—.”

Nate pulls the car around in front of Sainthall Palace and shifts it into park before he throws an arm over the seat and turns to look back at me.

“I’m only going to bring this up one more time. Your brother—he let this job eat him alive. If you want something to change, you’re going to have to be the one to change it. The Alec I know would never let something as small as a
schedule
keep him away from the love of his life.”

My heart pounds against my ribcage. I look at Nate for a long moment in silence, and then he salutes me and opens his door, coming around to open mine. Protocol.

His words thunder in my head as I walk across the terrace to the palace entrance, my mind racing, phone already in hand, plans already in the works. I have to get back to her. It’s my only choice. Because…

“The love of his life. The love of his life. The love of his life.”
Nate’s words echo in my head. And in my heart.

Jessica is the love of my life.

Chapter 45

Jessica

The Purple Swan is crowded, humming with energy. People have been arriving in a hurry this evening, trying to get inside before the thunderstorm forecasted for New York City hit. So far, it’s just a gentle summer rain, but when Carolyn and I got out of the town car she hired, I heard the rumble of thunder in the distance. The storm will be here before the party is over, that’s for sure.

Christian has invited all of our friends to the Swan for a going-away party. I leave for Seattle in the morning. Despite my obsessive planning—I even have a credit union picked out, and I’ve signed up for a rewards card at the local grocery store chain that’s closest to my new apartment—the upcoming move still seems surreal. As I look around the table at my laughing, drinking, chatting friends, I realize I’m going to miss them.

It’s all right, though. I know exactly where to find them if I ever want to visit.

Aside from that, it’ll be good for me to branch out. Once Jamie and I parted ways after college, it was so much easier just to fall in with Christian’s crowd—but now that I’m feeling a stronger urge to rebuild my life, I need to be around more people who aren’t millionaires or billionaires. My friends are wonderful people and generous to a fault, but it’s just not the same when you’re not a millionaire or billionaire, too. Jamie’s promised that she has lots of friends in Seattle who will be thrilled to meet me. I believe her.

We’re about halfway through the dinner service—eight courses, one of the top-tier options available at the Swan—when Christian drops into the empty seat, his champagne glass in hand. The conversation swirls around us, the waiters clearing the soup bowls away in preparation for the next course, everyone deciding on their next glass—or bottle—of wine.

“Come clean,” he says with that sexy smile of his. I can appreciate his good looks even though I know, deep in my heart, that nobody’s ever going to compare to Alec. “What’s this move all about? I thought you were done with all that?”

“Things change,” I say, leaning back to let the waiter remove my dishes. “I guess it’s just time for me to move on. You know me, Chris. I can never stay in the same place too long.”

“Don’t be coy with me, Jess,” he jokes, taking another sip of champagne. “Is this about that Alex guy?”

“Alec,” I correct automatically, then blush. “And what makes you say that?”

“
Because
,” he says, drawing the word out, “you love those spontaneous life moves, but it seems awfully suspicious that you jet off for some secret, unplanned vacation with the guy, then come back and immediately decide that you’d rather live all the way across the country.”

“I’ve got friends in Seattle,” I say defensively. “It’s not a random choice.”

“The
timing
isn’t random.”

“No.” There’s nothing I can really say to prove him wrong. The timing
isn’t
random.

“What happened with you guys? Last I heard, you were across the Atlantic with the guy and nobody knew if you’d even come back. Then suddenly you’re here, but moving. Did you discover he’s an asshole?”

“Not exactly,” I sigh, although he did behave like one on more than one occasion. While the rest of the table discusses the latest book climbing the bestseller charts—some vampire novel with a twist—I give Christian an abbreviated rundown of what happened in Saintland.

He listens until I’m done speaking. “And what is it exactly that makes you want to move?”

“I miss him,” I say, the ache welling up in my heart. “Every day that I’m here, I just keep looking for him on the street, like he’ll show up one day and…”

“Take you back?”

I shake my head. “I don’t even know if I’d want him to do that.” This is only a half-truth. With every day that passes, I’m more sure than ever that I
do
want to be with Alec. It’s Alec who doesn’t want to be with
me
. I’m not going to be one of those needy, clingy women.

“Why aren’t you flying to Saintland instead of Seattle? At least in Saintland, you’d be able to figure it out for sure.”

“I’m not going to be one of those people who can’t let it go, Chris. I just don’t have it in me to fly to Europe only to be rejected again. He’s moved on.”

“You know that for sure?”

I don’t know it for sure, but I’m not willing to risk it. “I’m just done with those big, risky moves, okay? It always backfires.”

“Changing colleges didn’t backfire.”

“Changing colleges led me right to Michael. I’m not sure you can call
that
a wild success.”

Christian shrugs. “You’re here now, though. That doesn’t seem like a failure to me. You could have ended up back in the middle-of-nowhere Midwest.”

“I guess.”
 

The next dinner course is about to arrive. I don’t know where else this conversation can go. I’m not going to get on a plane to Saintland. I’m just going to enjoy the party, and then I’m going to get on with my life in a new city that doesn’t remind me of Alec everywhere I look.

“Look, I’m not even going to think about telling you what to do,” Christian says, holding up his free hand. “All I’m saying is, are you going to run away from this forever?”

I cast him a sidelong glance. “That’s rich, coming from New York City’s most notorious playboy.”

“This is about you, not me,” he teases, but then his face turns serious again. “Besides, I’d give all that up if I felt that way about someone.”

“Felt what way?”

“We all saw the way you looked at him the night he came to the Swan. The moment a woman makes me feel that way, my trolling days are over.”

“I don’t believe that,” I say with a laugh. “You always said you’d never get married. What was it—even if Britney Spears begged you to give her a ring?”

A strange look flashes through his eyes, reminding me for an instant of his brother Elijah, but his expression doesn’t falter.

“Hey, it might never come—” Christian says with that thousand-watt smile of his, “—but if it does, I won’t be able to ignore it. I don’t think you can, either.”
 

Chapter 46

Alec

It takes most of the night and at least a hundred messages to get my plans in order. The first message I send is to Nate, telling him to get some sleep— if everything comes together the way I expect, he needs to be back early tomorrow morning.

The other messages go to the one person who can help me in New York City.

When I knock on the door to my father’s rooms at five in the morning, having slept only a few fitful hours, he’s already awake. That doesn’t come as much of a surprise. He’s always been an early riser, and since Marcus died, his nights have been even shorter. When he can’t sleep, he spends his time in the royal gym. No amount of exercise has been enough to keep Marcus—and Jessica—off my mind. I wonder if it’s working for him.

“Alexander,” he says, his hair still damp from the shower. He’s not dressed for the day yet, wearing a pair of loose linen pants and a polo shirt. “You’re up early.”

“I’ve been making plans,” I say, stepping into the room and closing the door behind me. My father moves back across the living area and sits down at the small, round breakfast table. His breakfast must have just been delivered.

“I see. Are you hungry?”

As soon as the words are out of his mouth, I realize that I am, in fact, ravenous. The dinner with Mariana seems like it was years ago. “Very.”

“I’ll have some food sent up.” He reaches across to a panel set back into the wall. My father still prefers to use the palace intercom whenever possible instead of the phone. The kitchen staff answers right away, and he tells the attendant to send up a second breakfast tray, then settles back into his seat. “What have you been planning? I take it your evening with Mariana was successful?” My father has a wary look in his eyes.

“It was all right. She’s an interesting woman.”

“From what I’ve heard about her, she’s very accomplished.”

“No doubt about that.”
 

“But this doesn’t have to do with her.”

“No.”

He gestures with his hands for me to continue.

“On the way back from dinner last night, Nate said some things that made me realize that I’ve gone about things the wrong way with Jessica.”

My father nods, folding his hands on his lap.

“What happened between us—I can’t leave it like that.”

There’s a knock at the door, and I stand up to answer it. The kitchen staff didn’t waste any time, although I’m also sure they don’t have many breakfast orders at this hour. I give the server—a wiry man with dark curls peeking out from under his uniform, a smile and stand back to let him in. “Good morning, your highness,” he says with a confident smile, not appearing the least bit tired, the least bit shaken by our presence. That’s a guy who’s going to go far, I think to myself as he moves across the room to the table, sets down the tray, and greets my father, who acknowledges him by name. That confirms it—the man has been up much too early for far too long. The royal family doesn’t generally tip—we leave that to our assistants—but my father presses a note into his hand, and he slips back out the door.

My father uncovers his tray and I uncover mine, and we’re both silent for a few minutes. The food is, as always, exquisite.

Patting the corners of his mouth with his cloth napkin, my father clears his throat. Napkin back in his lap, he reaches for the steaming mug of coffee sitting on the edge of the tray.

“What have you been planning, then?” he says casually, as if there had been no interruption.

“I have to go to New York to get her. At least to talk to her one last time.”

Now that breakfast is half-eaten, I’m gripped with a new urgency.

“The plane is yours if you need it.”

I’m a little taken aback that my father isn’t going to try to talk me out of this, isn’t going to try to convince me otherwise.

“I need it.” My voice is tight as I speak.

Without another word, my father reaches for the phone in his pocket, swipes the screen once, and dials. It’s not thirty seconds before he has the travel team getting the plane to the runway at Sainthall’s airport.

I stand up, putting my napkin down on my tray. My father sips his coffee again, then looks up into my eyes. I see in his face nothing but pride.

“Go,” he says, a smile spreading across his face. “Be safe.”

I move around the table and lean down, giving my father a kiss on the cheek for the first time in years. “I’ll be back soon.”

We were in the air inside of two hours, Nate sitting across from me on the royal jet. The flight is long enough that we’re both partaking in mimosas brought out by a trim flight attendant who might have kept my attention at another time in my life. Nate raises his glass to me across the aisle.

“What are we celebrating?” I say, my nerves already taut, on edge.

“Doing the right goddamn thing, old friend,” he says, and I can’t argue with that.

Everything proceeds smoothly for most of the flight. I can’t sleep—my heart races and my mind wanders when I close my eyes—but the royal jet is equipped with enough entertainment options to keep us occupied for at least a week. I flip through the movie selections without really seeing them.

I need to get to Jessica in time, and I have a deadline. There’s really no time to spare.

Christian is my contact on the ground in New York, and he answered enthusiastically when I messaged him last night. He’s throwing a going-away party for Jessica tonight at the Purple Swan, and that’s where I want to reach her. Because tomorrow she’s leaving the city, and she hasn’t given anyone her new address—a new start, I suppose. I’ll go to Seattle if I have to, but if I have to follow her across the country, I’ll look like some kind of deranged stalker.

So it’s not ideal when the pilot calls back to tell me there’s a massive thunderstorm delaying our descent into New York.

My heart in my throat, I pull out my phone and connect to the in-flight Wi-Fi.

Everything good?

She’s leaving soon.

I check the local time. It’s nearly 10:30.

Stall her!

I’ll try…

Chapter 47

Jessica

The old version of myself might have wanted to stay at the Swan until close, but New and Improved Jessica is tired. I’ve spent the last however many days working on the move to Seattle like it’s my magnum opus. I haven’t left any detail unplanned.

This is
not
a spontaneous flight from the city. Not by any means.

My friends are still having a lovely time, although many of them have had a little too much to drink.

“Don’t go,” Christian says for the tenth time when I make a move to stand up. “It’s your going-away party! When will you have another one of these?”