horizon; thankfully, the car rental was a
twenty-four hour place, so I did not have
to wait for them to open. The roads were
free of any snow, so after acquiring a
large cup of coffee, I chose to indulge in
one of my favorite past-times.
I had enough time to cross the city
and watch the sunrise from Garden of the
Gods Park. Although it was freezing,
there was something transcendental
about sitting on the crest of the hill,
discovering the first slivers of gold
breaking through. The sky blossomed in
shades of purple, magenta, blues and
oranges. Bright rays danced against the
large stone outcroppings of rocks that
towered all around me.
Vivienne would be arriving in a
few hours. Not wanting to get caught in
the morning traffic, I plotted my route
around the city to check out some old
haunts. First, I took a leisurely stroll
through Manitou to taste from the natural
springs that were scattered throughout
the city. Then I went in search of some
funky Native American jewelry and
before I knew it, the time had flown by
rather quickly.
Rushing to get to the airport, I
crossed the street to get back to my car
without paying attention. The loud sound
of a car horn just a few feet from my
body fully woke me up. All I could make
out against the glare of the sun was the
grill of a Jeep that just narrowly avoided
hitting me. I probably scared the poor
person to death. Unfortunately, mornings
are not my friend and my middle finger
went up before I could stop it. The
driver raced off as soon as I was safely
on the sidewalk. If my nerves were not
already shot, it may have bothered me
more. I decided not to tell Vivienne
since I was okay and vowed to pay
better attention. Not even three hours
back and I was already courting harm.
I made it back to the airport in one
piece to pick my sister up. She looked
just as bad as I did and was in dire need
of sleep, too. We called the hotel and
gave them our sob story. They graciously
allowed us to do an early check-in since
it was the off-season and they had plenty
of rooms. Although we agreed to no
more than five hours of sleep, twelve
had passed before I heard knocking on
my door. Vivienne crawled into my bed
and shut out the light once again.
A few hours later, we both awoke.
She had contacted some of her friends to
notify them she would be back in town
and wanted to see them. I told no one, as
there was no one I wanted to see. I
wanted to get this done and get out as
soon as possible. She headed for dinner,
leaving me alone in the elegant room. It
may have been beautiful, but it was
claustrophobic. I had nowhere to go until
the next afternoon, so I decided to take a
drive past my old school, my old home,
and old friend’s homes.
I was a ghost revisiting history.
Everything looked different, but the
same. Earlier in the morning, I had seen
how progress spread across the Front
Range like a disease. Subdivisions and
shopping centers sprawled as far as the
eye could see. Magazines consistently
ranked it as one of the best places in the
country to live, but I disagreed. I saw
him everywhere I went. Every memory
tainted by the asshole I spent years trying
to forget. I needed a drink, or two or
three. Before I knew it, neon lights
reflected off the frost surrounding the
edges of the windshield. Pulling up the
club’s website on my phone, I confirmed
what I had suspected. Some things never
change.
Chapter 13 – A
Seed is Planted
The engine of the small rental
started to idle a little higher while sitting
in the parking lot. The heat cranked up
full blast as steam coated the inside of
the windows, creating a visible barrier
to the freezing world outside. The
thermostat
read
fifteen
degrees
Fahrenheit; with the wind, it felt much
worse – the kind of cold that sinks into
your bones and only a hot bath can
remedy.
“Some night for a bikini contest,” I
thought to myself.
It was a night not unlike this one
when I first took to that stage. However,
it was humidity causing a fog on the
windshield as the cold blasted from the
air conditioner back then. It all started
with my co-worker, Taylor, from the
diner I worked at, telling me in a
whisper while stacking heavy ceramic
plates full of food on a tray that she
made seven hundred dollars the previous
Saturday. Waiting tables was good
money for an eighteen year old; granted
it was hard work and I smelled horrible
at the end of each shift, but it was better
than a drive thru.
“How did you make that much
money?” I was highly curious, and
jealous.
She remained quiet the rest of the
night until we were starting on our side
work. Heading towards a booth in the
back of the restaurant, we hauled racks
of silverware and packets of napkins to
roll for the next morning. Looking
around to make sure no one was within
earshot, she leaned forward to me and
motioned with her eyes for me to pay
attention.
“I went to the bikini contest at the
Front Street Cabaret and I won, so they
offered me a job. I got to keep all the
bills that were given to me during the
dance and my winnings were five
hundred bucks.”
My eyes turned into saucers with
my mouth gaping open at the same time.
“You’re a stripper now?” I could not
believe what came out of my mouth.
A slightly sour look came over her
face. “It’s not what you think, Vy, and
it’s a really nice place. No poles, there
are security guards, and a killer sound
system.”
I don’t know who she was trying to
convince more about it, me or her. She
went back to placing the forks and
knives horizontally in the napkin before
swiftly rolling it with her palm in one
fell swoop.
“It’s so easy. You just dance, which
we do every weekend at the clubs
anyways. You just get paid a lot for it.”
My nose twisted up as my eyes
squinted in thought. “Yeah, but what
about the greasy dudes? I don’t think I
could do it.”
Shaking my head, I reached over
for another pack of napkins. I wasn’t in a
hurry to finish like most nights, but I
couldn’t believe Taylor and I were
having this conversation. I knew a little
bit about the place, Connor liked to go
there occasionally with his buddies. His
friends dated a few of the girls, who all
happened to be idiots, in my opinion.
“You should do it, Vy. You are
gorgeous, you can move, and I know you
would be good at it. Besides, I really
like working with you.”
A tinge of sadness crossed her eyes
as she looked down at the pile of rolled
silver.
“You’re quitting, aren’t you?” I
said flatly.
Sucking in a deep breath and giving
a pause, she finally brought her eyes
back to mine. This time they were full of
determination. “I told Gary this was my
last shift. I start at the club Wednesday. I
only have to work two nights now and I
will be able to focus on school.”
Summer had just started and here she
was already thinking about the fall.
“Think about it, Vy.” And just like that,
the subject was changed to where we
were going out that weekend. It didn’t
matter, though. The seed had been
planted.
The week had passed without much
fanfare; it was actually a lot harder at
work without Taylor there. We were
swamped as impatient customers waited
longer and longer for service. Gary tried
his best to help keep everyone calm
during the rush, but understanding staff
shortages was not their concern. All I
could do was keep a smile plastered on
my face and haul ass as best as I could.
My arms were starting to develop welts
from the hot plates I stacked four deep.
Several hours later, I was by
myself
in
the
booth
wrapping
silverware. I had to pick up where
Taylor had left us hanging, and it was
too much. After counting my tips, I had
made two hundred and thirty dollars.
Under most circumstances, I would be
thrilled, but I busted my ass for over
twelve hours for that. It was only ten-
thirty pm. My legs ached and I was
covered in splattered food. Taylor had
sent me a text that read.
“12:30, shower and shave. See you,
hot stuff.”
I closed the cover on my phone and
let out a deep breath. I reached for the
edge of the table, sliding myself out of
the booth. After a quick walk through
and shutting off the lights, I knocked on
the office door. Gary was inside,
counting down the till while listening to
talk radio. He was obviously frazzled.
He waited until he was finished with the
stack of bills in his hands before
acknowledging me.
“Here’s my bank – it’s all there. I
will see you tomorrow.”
Without even looking up, he
reached his hand out and motioned for
me to hand it to him. Setting it down next
to him, he picked up another stack and
started sliding the money from one hand
quickly to the other. No “thanks”, or
“good job”, not even “okay”. Pausing for
a moment, I waited. Finally speaking, all
I got from him was, “Need something?”
Pursing my lips tightly together, I
shook my head slightly. “No, I’m good.”
I turned and walked towards the
back door. The jerk didn’t even make
sure I was safe walking to my car. After
scoping the parking lot to ensure no one
was around, I ran quickly to my spot.
Locking the doors, I opened up my phone
to the last text. “See ya, doll face,” I
replied.
Chapter 14 -
Skeletons
I reckoned myself to what could
possibly take place tonight if I walked in
those doors after all these years. No one
would recognize me, and if Frankie
Pazaletto still ran the place, I could
drink in relative peace. Last time I was
here, women were generally prohibited
from entering alone, but considering it
was Friday night and the website said it
was still the monthly bikini contest, I
was not too worried.
The large security guard at the
entrance gave me a smile as I walked
past the door he opened for me. I could
hear the bass pounding loudly as soon as
my car door opened; now it was rattling
my bones. The no smoking policy had a
group of men sitting in a special lounge
designed for them. Smart – give them
what they want, but make it so they don’t
wander off too far. As I approached the
reception booth, the young girl with
teased hair and an orange tan was
playing on her smart phone and chewing
gum.
She looked up at me briefly. “ID
and twenty-five for cover.”
I smiled while reaching into my
clutch. “I’m actually here to see Frankie.
Is he around?”
Looking annoyed, she grabbed the
walkie talkie off to her left. My eyes
followed the hot pink acrylic nails that
curled around the sides, pressing in the
button which made a sharp pitched noise
as she yelled, “Frankie, some one’s up
front here to see you.”
Static sounded for a few moments
before we heard his curt reply. “Who is
it? I’m busy, Sam.”
Looking back at me, she waited for
my answer. “Tell him it’s Starla.”
The name rolled off my tongue like
honey. I hadn’t said it in so long. I