Don't Let Go (2 page)

“Maybe we should go now,” Teo said anxiously. “We’re still pretty close to the apartment.”

“This park is a couple thousand acres,” Noa said reassuringly. “No way they can search the whole place. What time is it?”

A greenish light flared in the dark as Peter checked his watch. “Four a.m.”

“Nearly dawn,” Noa said, relieved. “They’ll pull out soon; they can’t risk being seen in the daylight.”

Peter fiddled with his watch. “So we hang here for a couple hours.”

Daisy and Teo didn’t respond. Noa could imagine what they were thinking: a few hours of sitting in a dark, gritty concrete tunnel. Damp and cold. No chance of sleeping, and they’d have to keep quiet. Good times. She sighed. Yet another glorious day in the life of Persefone’s Army.

“One more minute, and they would’ve had us,” Teo said in a low voice.

Noa tried to ignore his accusing tone. He was right: She’d held them up. Because she was such a deep sleeper, it had been a close call.

A flare of rage almost immediately replaced the guilt. It was Pike & Dolan’s fault that her body was so messed up, not hers. She was doing the best she could.

And yet, if one of them had been captured . . . Noa closed her eyes and tilted her head back against the wall. She was already carrying so much guilt, the weight of all the people she’d failed to save three months ago in Santa Cruz. She didn’t know if she had the strength to bear the loss of any more.

They’re all I have left
, Noa thought, opening her eyes. Teo and Daisy had their heads tilted together; they both looked pale and drained. Peter sat a little apart, rubbing his ankle. He met her eyes and said softly, “We shouldn’t have got away.”

“You’re complaining?” Noa arched an eyebrow.

“No, it’s just . . . these guys are highly trained, right?” Peter looked past her, toward the entrance. The first rays of dawn shimmered across his face, tinting his skin mauve.

“We had a good plan,” she said firmly. “Going through the other apartments worked.”

“Sure, but think it through,” Peter said reasonably. “Pike could send twenty guys. Or fifty. They could surround the entire place, but they never do. It just doesn’t make sense.”

“Maybe they don’t know
exactly
where we are,” Daisy offered. “They might just be searching every dump.”

“Every abandoned apartment complex and house in the country?” Peter said dubiously. “No one has that kind of manpower.”

“Or maybe they’re not really trying to catch us,” Teo suggested. “Maybe they just want to wear us down.”

“In that case, they’re succeeding,” Noa grumbled. She could already feel her limbs locking up. It had been months since she’d slept in a real bed. Her eyes constantly ached with fatigue, and her whole body felt like a raw, ugly bruise. She imagined this was what it was like to feel old—really old, like eighty. But she was sixteen.

“I thought we had a shot this time,” Peter muttered angrily. He dug a pebble out of his shoe and tossed it against the wall of the culvert.

“Me too,” Noa sighed. They’d spent most of yesterday forging a decent set of student IDs for the college on the other side of town. The plan had been to head there in the morning. In order to decode the server hard drives Peter had recovered, they needed a real computer center, with some serious processing juice.

But over the past few months, as they hopped from one campus to the next, they’d either run into laughably inadequate computer labs, or Pike’s people scared them off before they could get to work.

“We need to decrypt that data,” Peter pressed. “We’re running out of time.”

“I’m so sick of hearing about the damn drives,” Teo grumbled.

“I’m sicker of carrying them,” Daisy complained. “They weigh a ton.”

“That data might tell us where Pike is holding the rest of your unit,” Peter retorted. “And more. There might be a cure for PEMA on there.”

“Yeah, yeah,” Teo said wearily. “And all you have to do is find a nice, quiet place to hack into them. Except we never find that place, do we?”

“We will,” Peter said obstinately. “Soon.”

“Enough,” Noa snapped. All the arguing was sharpening the pain in her head, honing it to a fine point. “Get some sleep.”

“Right, ’cause we got a big day ahead,” Teo muttered, tucking Daisy into his shoulder. “I really hope I get to spend most of it in the backseat of a crappy car. Again.”

Peter and Noa exchanged a glance. For months now, their only goal had been to evade capture while trying to find a quiet place to crack those drives. And that was no plan at all.

Noa curled into a ball, resting her head against the backpack. She tried to ignore the sharp contents jabbing out from the side as she closed her eyes and pretended to sleep.

Amanda opened her eyes and frowned, disoriented by the plain white ceiling tiles. This wasn’t her dorm room. Not her bed, either, but one of those adjustable hospital beds.

She shifted her head to the side: An IV line ran into her right arm. Which, she realized with growing horror, was cuffed to the bed with soft restraints. She tugged at the strap, then tried to reach over with her left hand to free herself. But that arm was strapped down, too.

She started to scream.

Running footsteps, then the curtains surrounding her bed were ripped open by an elderly nurse in teddy bear scrubs. “There, there, Amanda,” she said, rushing over. “It’s all right. You’re in the hospital, dear. Remember?”

Amanda squinted at her: The nurse looked familiar, but she couldn’t place her. “Do I know you?”

“Yes, yes you do,” the nurse said soothingly. “I’m Beth, remember?”

“Beth?” The word felt unfamiliar on her tongue. “That’s a silly name.”

The woman chuckled. “I suppose it is. I have good news, Amanda. You have a visitor. Isn’t that nice?”

Amanda tried to sort out whether it was nice or not, but her mind was muddled and she couldn’t tell. Now that she thought about it,
nice
was a strange word, too.

The nurse pulled the curtain back farther, and another old woman came in. She had a kind face and long gray hair twisted in a loose braid. She wore an enormous patchwork sweater over jeans with creases down the front. She looked vaguely familiar, too. “Who are you?”

The woman exchanged a glance with the nurse. She looked . . .
What is the word for it?
Amanda grimaced, frustrated. As she stared at her visitor—that’s what the nurse had called her, a visitor—the word popped into her head and she triumphantly said, “Concerned!”

“I’m sorry?” The old woman’s forehead wrinkled, and Amanda immediately felt deflated; she hadn’t said the right thing after all. Frustrated, she plucked at the plain white blanket with her hand. The old woman was still talking, asking, “Why is she tied down?”

“This has been one of her bad days, I’m afraid,” the nurse replied in a low voice. “They tend to wander if we don’t restrain them.”

They both looked down at her. Amanda felt annoyed. Deep down, she sensed that there was somewhere she should be, something important she should be doing. But when she peered into the recesses of her mind, everything was wispy, like her head had been filled with smoke.

The older woman with the braid pulled up a chair and hesitantly took her hand. Patting it, she said, “I’m Mrs. Latimar, Amanda. You used to help me at a place called the Runaway Coalition.”

She paused, gazing hopefully at her. Amanda managed a slight shrug and said, “Okay.”

Sadness flitted across the woman’s face. Amanda felt bad for letting her down; clearly she’d been expecting more. Mrs. Latimar looked up at the nurse and asked, “Can I have a minute alone with her?”

“Of course,” the nurse said. “I should be checking on the others anyway. I’ll close this to give you some privacy.”

After the nurse slid the curtains shut, Mrs. Latimar leaned closer to the bed and said, “Amanda, do you remember what we talked about the last time I was here?”

Amanda frowned, not entirely convinced that she’d ever seen this woman before. She shook her head. “No.”

“Can you try, dear?” A note of desperation in her voice.

Amanda wanted to help, she really did. Mrs. Latimar looked nice, which maybe wasn’t such a strange word, now that she thought about it. She closed her eyes and dug through the fog, trying to grab hold of something tangible. There was something just beyond her reach, a strong emotion attached to this woman. It felt like . . . anger? Betrayal?

But that couldn’t be right. Mrs. Latimar was obviously kind, so she must just be confused again. “Sorry,” she finally apologized. “I don’t remember anything.”

Mrs. Latimar closed her eyes, looking pained. A quick glance back over her shoulder, then she leaned in so close, Amanda could feel her breath on her ear. Urgently, she whispered, “Maybe this will sink in and you’ll remember it later, I don’t know. But those files, the fake ones?” Mrs. Latimar sounded fearful as she continued, “Mason knows, Amanda. He figured it out. He’s threatening to come after Clementine, and I just don’t know what—”

The curtains slid open abruptly, rattling loudly on their metal balls. The nurse peered in and said, “I’m so sorry, but we should really let Amanda get some rest. Tomorrow might be a better day for her.”

“Yes, tomorrow,” Mrs. Latimar said faintly. She patted Amanda’s hand a final time. Her smile was tight as she said, “Rest up, dear. I’m sure you’ll be right as rain soon enough.”

Amanda smiled back. Mrs. Latimar had an odd way of talking.
Right as rain?
There wasn’t anything right about rain. Was there? “Good-bye.”

“Good-bye, dear.” Mrs. Latimar gathered up an enormous purse and slung it over her shoulder. She paused at the gap in the curtains, as if she wanted to say something else. Amanda waited patiently, but the woman simply hunched her shoulders, then left.

The nurse tapped the IV bag lightly with her forefinger, then adjusted Amanda’s pillows. Straightening, she said, “Anything else I can get you, dear?”

“What’s a Mason?” Amanda asked.

The nurse’s reaction was interesting: She froze, donning the same fearful expression Mrs. Latimar had worn. But it vanished so quickly, Amanda was left wondering if she’d imagined it. Nurse Beth said smoothly, “I’m sure I don’t know, dear. Now try to get some sleep. Your parents are coming by later. Won’t that be lovely?”

Amanda stared at the curtains after they slid closed again. They swayed slightly, rocking back and forth; the motion lulled her. Another question drifted out of the recesses of her mind with surprising clarity, but there was no one around to ask. Still, out loud she murmured, “Where’s Peter?”

Peter swatted futilely at the swarm of tiny black gnats that had dogged him ever since they left the culvert. Based on what he’d seen so far, mid-May in Arkansas pretty much qualified as one of Dante’s rings of hell. It was hot, muggy, and filled with blood-sucking insects. Not to mention the baddies with automatic weapons. All in all, it rated a mere three out of five stars in the
Run for Your Life!
travel guide he was mentally compiling.

They’d parked their latest SUV a few miles from the apartment complex. Which was inconvenient, but they’d learned from experience that when it came time to flee, it was better to have the car stowed far away. Otherwise, they were forced to circle back to an area that was crawling with Pike’s men, and that had resulted in one too many close calls.

So they were tromping through the woods, parallel to the main road. Every time a car approached, they ducked deeper into the trees. The ankle he’d twisted last night had swelled up, causing him to limp along. Plus, Peter was 99 percent certain that he’d waded through poison ivy, which meant that the real fun was just beginning for him. He smacked at something that was gnawing on his neck and swore.

Teo smirked at him. “Funny, the bugs only seem to be bothering you.”

“Yeah, well. That’s probably because I smell the best,” Peter retorted.

“Not true. I had a shower yesterday.” Teo paused midstride, then continued, “No, wait. The day before.”

“Actually, the day before that,” Daisy piped up. “I’m keeping track.”

“So maybe I’m just sweeter than the rest of you.”

“Or they only like rich kids,” Daisy teased.

“I’m not exactly rich anymore,” Peter muttered. Which was true. In fact, after bankrolling the group for the past few months, he was down to his last few hundred dollars. It turned out that living off the grid was more expensive than you’d think.

“What about you, Noa?” Teo called ahead. “Are the bugs chowing down?”

Noa shook her head, but didn’t turn around. Peter tried to quell a surge of concern. She’d taken the lead but seemed to be struggling, stumbling more frequently than the rest of them. He considered asking if she wanted to take a break, but the last time he had, she’d practically ripped his head off.

Ever since Pike’s doctors had experimented on her, Noa had developed strange symptoms, especially when it came to sleeping and eating. She’d be awake for days, then crash hard. But last night, when he’d had such a hard time waking her up . . . for a second, he thought she might actually have slipped into a coma. He hadn’t dared tell her that she’d slept for nearly thirty straight hours, losing an entire day. He figured that was a conversation they could save for the road, or maybe avoid altogether.

Even when she was awake, Noa wasn’t entirely present. She’d stare off into the distance for long stretches, and she barely ate anymore. He’d initially assumed she was grieving the loss of Zeke. But as time passed, she seemed to be getting worse.

Of course, they were all in rough shape. Peter slapped at another bug on his forearm and groaned. “I gotta rest. My ankle is killing me.”

“Hang on, we’re almost there,” Teo said. “I recognize that rock.”

“Easy there, mountain man,” Peter joked. “Soon you’ll be starting fires with sticks.”

Teo reached out and cuffed him on the arm, making him stumble. Peter jostled him back. They engaged in a silent, friendly shoving match until they rounded the boulder and spotted their SUV parked beside the entrance to a hiking trail.

Noa stared at the SUV as if it was an unfamiliar animal that had suddenly materialized before her. “This is where we left it?”