Empower (22 page)

‘I left because I promised my angel maker that I’d fight harder and give everything to hunting down exiles. It was our deal – my decision, no one else’s – and I knew that all my future offered me was more blood. More death. I could live with that, I’d been given my three wishes, but I couldn’t sentence all my friends to that future too.’

Lincoln fell to his knees. ‘Three wishes?’

I’d said too much.

‘Your parents?’

I nodded.

‘The other two?’

When I didn’t answer he yelled, ‘Tell me!’

I swallowed. ‘Phoenix. Though apparently I needn’t have worried about him.’

‘I heard he was an angel again. That he helped you.’

I nodded. ‘He’s a kind of guide now, but when
he died I thought he’d gone to the pits. So, I asked for him to be okay. Turns out he already was.’

‘Have you seen him often?’ he rasped.

‘Only a few times.’

Lincoln nodded. ‘And the third?’

I sighed. ‘What do you think?’

He looked up, ruined just like me. ‘I think you gave up your family and friends and everything you have known and loved to become a warrior in return for bringing me back. And then you left me behind where I was expected to live in the shadow of your life and be reminded of you every day yet be without you just like you’re accusing me of doing. So, tell me,’ he said as he stood, ‘did you give up everything just so that
I
could live?’

He’d twisted my words.

I shut down my emotions, sending out a silent thanks that Phoenix’s essence had mutated in this way, rather than amplifying emotion as it did for him. ‘You need to leave,’ I said. ‘I’m tired and we have a big day tomorrow.’

He stepped in dangerously close and his words were like a growl. ‘I walked away that night in London. I was wrong. I should
never
have given up. I think of all that time we denied our feelings for one another – all of that lost time – and I think of the past year, lost too. And now, to know that you live every breathing moment in intolerable pain on top of the heartache of us not being together …’ He shook his head, breathing in deeply. ‘I’ll walk out of here and let you get some sleep, but hear me clearly when I tell you,
no
. In no uncertain terms, under no circumstances, Violet, will I
ever
leave you again.’

‘You have been weighed on the scales and found wanting.’

Daniel 5:27

t
he next morning Gray and I arrived
at the Academy bright and early to find Steph, Sal and Zoe in the main cafeteria having breakfast. I made a beeline for the coffee, grabbed a latte and a tea – yes, tea – for Gray and joined them. It would be the first of several coffees this morning. After the events of last night, topped off by another series of odd dragon-filled dreams, I needed all the help I could get to stay on my game today.

Steph had a number of books open in front of her.

‘You don’t look like you got much sleep,’ I said.

She looked me up and down. ‘Well, when you throw around things like the weighing of souls, it makes a girl restless.’

I sat beside her. ‘What did you find out?’

‘Nothing cheery, that’s for sure. The weighing of souls is a Judgement Day thing in the Bible. The day we will all have our souls weighed and each and every one of us will be judged. If it’s as simple as Heaven and Hell after all of this, well, the weighing of souls is kind of like green light, red light, if you get my drift. Here,’ she said, opening a book and
reading. ‘This is the Roman Catholic version –
That you will gather the souls of the righteous and the wicked, place us on your great scales and weigh our deeds. That if we have been loving and kind, you will take the key from around our neck and open the gates of Paradise, inviting us to live there forever. And that if we have been selfish and cruel, it is you who will banish us.
’

My brow crinkled. ‘And this is all connected to the tournaments and Sammael how?’

She shrugged. ‘Beats me, but this stuff is major. And it’s not just the Christians.’ Steph flipped through pages. ‘It turns up everywhere, dating back to ancient Egyptian mythology, and the concept of final judgement is shared by almost all religions. If this all has something to do with what’s going on now …’ Steph paled and clasped Salvatore’s hand.

‘Steph, breathe. It will all be okay,’ Salvatore assured her calmly.

I nodded, taking a gulp of my coffee, leaving my hands wrapped around the mug. ‘If the world was scheduled to end later today, Phoenix would’ve found a way to tell me. So, whatever it is, there’s still a way for us to prevent it from happening.’

‘Yes,’ Zoe said, dryly. ‘Because in Phoenix we know and trust.’

I stiffened. ‘Things have changed. He’s an angel now.’

‘Which, by the way, does anyone else find just a touch hard to stomach?’ Zoe asked casually.

‘He gave his eternity to stop Lilith. Redemption is not for us to determine,’ Gray said levelly from across the table where he’d been listening silently.

Zoe rolled her eyes. ‘Jesus, it’s just like having Griffin at the table.’

But I also noted the longing there.
She missed Griffin and I understood; being around the old crew highlighted just how much I did, too.

Gray’s eyes went wide with dismay and I almost lost a mouthful of coffee as I laughed. Griffin was not the kind of person Gray considered himself to be anything like. It was funnier still, because Zoe was right.

Steph nodded vigorously, oblivious to Zoe and Gray’s conversation as she stared into space. ‘Because,’ she said, her voice high-pitched, ‘we have a wedding coming up, you know. The world can’t end before I get married. That would just be … Vi? You
have
to save the world. You can do that, right?’

I put a hand on her shoulder and fought to keep my expression serious as I looked into her glassy eyes. ‘Steph, your wedding day will be perfect. Nothing and no one will ruin it. Got it?’

She exhaled. ‘Got it.’

Everyone went back to eating their breakfast, chewing on this latest information as much as their cereal – the big question being: where did Sammael fit in to all of this? Max stopped by the table to let us know Josephine had scheduled a meeting for later in the morning.

Steph shuffled her chair closer to me and lowered her voice. ‘That’s the fifth time you’ve looked at the door in the past thirty seconds. Expecting someone?’

I lifted my cup to cover my mouth as I spoke. ‘No. Yes. I don’t know.’ I sighed. ‘Last night after my group of visitors disappeared back to … wherever it is they go, I had another one.’

Steph choked on her mouthful of
orange juice. ‘Details!’

I slumped further into my chair. ‘Shh! Just rehashing a lot of things I would’ve preferred to have left buried.’

I was still reeling from the night before and I’d barely slept more than a few minutes here and there after Lincoln had left my room following his
never leaving me again
bombshell. It was safe to say I might never sleep again given the way the words were stuck repeating in my head like the song that just won’t go away.

‘Here he comes,’ Steph said under her breath, her eyes flicking towards the cafeteria entrance. I turned slightly to see Lincoln striding straight towards us. When he stopped in front of Gray I tensed, worried for all the obvious reasons, but Lincoln just put out his hand.

Unsure, Gray glanced at me then slowly clasped Lincoln’s hand.

‘I owe you an apology,’ Lincoln said, causing more than a few people to pause and listen in. ‘You’ve had Vi’s back for the past year when she needed someone. I shouldn’t have jumped to conclusions.’

Gray shook his hand. ‘No hard feelings.’

Lincoln smirked. ‘Although I still owe you one for your dirty-handed tactics in the hall yesterday,’ he said.

Gray shrugged. ‘Tell me you wouldn’t have done the same.’

Lincoln laughed. ‘Perhaps. Nonetheless, you deserve my gratitude not attitude.’

Zoe snorted. ‘Since when did you start rhyming?’

Lincoln smiled and it seemed different, almost boyish. ‘Well, Zoe, you can expect a lot of things to change around here.’ He looked at Morgan, who had
just arrived and was sitting down beside me. ‘Would you mind? I need to discuss a few things with Vi.’

The way he was now saying my name was so raw; the only time he’d used it like that had been at the cabin, when we’d thrown all caution to the wind. At least, that was what I’d thought. Lincoln had already devised his plan for everything by then.

I glared at Morgan as she cheerfully leaped out of the seat.

Traitor.

It wasn’t lost on anyone that there had been a definite shift in Lincoln’s behaviour between last night and this morning.

‘What are you doing here?’ I gritted between my teeth, dreading what everyone was probably thinking.

‘I live here.’ Lincoln leaned in close but spoke freely, unconcerned with who heard. ‘And I thought I made myself clear last night. I’m not letting you go again.’

‘Someone should record this for Onyx,’ Zoe threw in.

When I turned a horrified look on her she raised her hands in surrender. ‘What? He’ll only make us retell the whole conversation a dozen times if we don’t.’

Christ. She actually has a point.

I pushed back my chair suddenly, putting distance between us and ignoring the sharp grinding sound that echoed through the large cafeteria. ‘There’s a meeting in the hall in a few hours to start assembling the team going to New Orleans.’

‘Max told me,’ Lincoln responded, accepting a coffee one of the staff had brought over to him.

No one delivered my coffee.

I nodded. ‘Good. Well, I have something I need
to do first.’ Seeing his expression, I quickly added, ‘In
private
. I’ll meet you there.’

Deciding that was that, I collected my bag, swiped a croissant from the table and turned around, only to find Lincoln now standing, blocking my path with a twinkle in his eye. Before I could ask him to move out of my way, he grabbed me around the waist and dipped me, following me down, his mouth coming dangerously close to mine.

I froze, caught in the moment for a second before I came to my senses and pushed my hands hard against his chest. Now I was frustrated
and
embarrassed.

And stuck with a pounding heart I have no idea how to calm.

Lincoln had
never
behaved like this in public. Even when things were good.

‘Next time you try that, I’ll hurt you,’ I threatened, regaining my balance and shrugging myself free of his hold.

‘Don’t you think we’ve done enough of that? Personally, I think it’s time for something else.’ He popped a piece of bread in his mouth.

Seriously, who
is
this guy?

‘Such as?’

He finished his mouthful and smiled. And damn him because it was a mighty fine look on him. ‘Getting on with the rest of our lives.’ His smile widened to a megawatt beam. ‘Together,’ he added.

And the Easter Bunny and Santa Claus will come and join us for Sunday lunch, too.

I shook my head at him, suddenly weary. ‘Don’t do this. It’s not going to go the way you
think. Steph?’ I called, looking down at the wide-eyed people around the table.

She nodded, quickly grabbing her books and following me out.

The moment we hit the corridors she started quizzing me. ‘What the hell happened between you two last night? You didn’t … I mean, did you?’

‘No! Of course not. Lincoln just found out some stuff and he thinks it changes things.’

‘But it doesn’t?’

‘No. It doesn’t. My future is already set, and as long as Lincoln is in my life he’s always only a heartbeat away from leaving me. I can’t live like that.’

‘’Cause life as it is, is so grand?’ Steph quipped.

When she saw my face her expression dropped. ‘Sorry, my bad. It’s just I hate to see you two like this. I mean, maybe you’re right but maybe it would be a hundred or two hundred years before anything bad happened. That’s a long stretch of happiness. No humans ever get that.’

I knew she was right, but … ‘You don’t get it, Steph. You can’t.’

‘Oh, but I do, Vi. I was there when Phoenix brought you in a breath away from death. I stood on the other side of the door helpless while he killed you, only to then realise he’d also brought you back to a world without your soulmate. I pulled you out of that shower that had burned your whole body, and then – even after you saved all those children, defeated Lilith, redeemed Phoenix
and
saved Lincoln – I watched you walk away. You saved everyone but yourself, and I get that you’re scared to let yourself be happy. I get that you’re scared to lose
everything, but you’re ignoring what you’ll get in return.’

I looked down, fighting the conflicting emotions running through me and was tempted to just reach in and shut them off. But I didn’t. ‘It’s not that simple.’

‘But it is,’ Steph shot back. ‘Let me ask you this: if you could go back in time would you give up that one perfect night you had with Lincoln?’