Endgame Novella #2 (2 page)

Even worse to imagine that she won't be.

“Declan, that's your family you're talking about,” Lorelei says. She loves his family, always has; she has none of her own. “Surely, if we just tell them how we feel, they'll understand—”

He shakes his head.

He met Lorelei when they were both 22 years old. She was freshly out of college; he was adjusting to post-Player life, trying to decide what to do with himself for the next 50 years. He told her stories of his life before they met, but he spared her most of the gory details. He didn't want her to see that side of him, the soldier who would do whatever was necessary to survive. He regrets that now.

“Fine, Declan,” she says. “If you say that this is a problem, then I trust you—but why is it a problem we need to solve
now
? Aisling is still a baby—that gives us more than twelve years to figure this out.”

“No. No!” As soon as the stones choose their Player, the training begins. Everything begins. They'll mold Aisling into what they want her to be—and they will always be watching.

“We can't risk waiting,” he says. “We've got a small window of opportunity here,
maybe
. They won't expect us to make a move this quickly. That's our only chance.”

“So what are we supposed to do, Declan?” She's starting to sound irritated. “You want me to quit my job, abandon our family, take off with you for god-knows-where? Where will we go? How will we support ourselves? How long do we have to stay away? Have you thought any of this through?”

“We'll figure it out as we go,” he says. Another thing Lorelei doesn't
know: he has plenty of money, enough to support them for the rest of their lives. When he disavowed Endgame, he also disavowed the money he'd been gifted for serving his line all those years as the Player. Blood money, he thought. He and Lorelei have been raising their daughter in near poverty, but that was by choice, not necessity. Declan's choice, one of many he made without telling his wife. He regrets that now. He regrets so much. “We always figure it out.”

She shakes her head. “Pop was right,” she says. “I've let this all go too far. I've let you get carried away.”

“You talked to Pop about me? About this?”

“He's
worried
about you, Declan. He thought maybe you needed some time away, a rest—”

“I know what he thinks,” Declan snaps. His father wants to send him back to the old country, for what he calls rehabilitation. But Declan has heard stories of the isolated camp in the Alps where faithless members of the line are sent. None of them ever come back. “He thinks I've lost my mind.”

“You're not exactly sounding like a beacon of sanity right now, honey.”

“Endgame is a lie, Lorelei. You know that.”

“I know you believe that.”

With those words, he knows he's lost her.

“Can we take a little time?” she asks. “Sleep on it, maybe talk more in the morning?”

Declan gazes at her, this woman to whom he's sworn his lifelong love. The woman he fell in love with the first time he saw her, hunched over a book in an uptown branch of the New York Public Library, strands of hair curling over her face. “Of course we can,” he tells her. “We can talk about it as much as you want. You're right, we shouldn't make a rash decision. We won't do anything until we both agree it's the right thing to do.”

“You promise?”

He kisses her, takes her in his arms, and holds on like she's a buoy in rough seas, the only thing that can keep him from drowning. “I
promise,” he tells her.

Then he waits for her to fall back asleep, and kidnaps their daughter.

He tells himself it can't be kidnapping, because Aisling belongs to him as much as she belongs to her mother.

But he knows better.

Declan drives all night with Aisling sleeping in the backseat. They can't leave the country yet, not until he puts together a fake passport for the baby. But he can at least put as much distance as possible between himself and his family. He hears the Amber Alert on the radio, but by that time he's ditched the car for a hot-wired Pontiac and is halfway to North Carolina. When he's too exhausted to keep his eyes open, he checks them into a motel, paying in cash. He's taken $5,000 from the safe at the back of the closet, which should get them through the first few hurdles of the journey. Declan has accounts in banks all over the world, accounts that Lorelei doesn't know about, and he supposes he should feel proud of himself that he's so prepared. But he's not proud, only profoundly sad that he's so good at keeping secrets from the woman he loves. This is exactly the life he doesn't want for Aisling.

He never wants her to learn not to trust.

He plays with Aisling on the dingy motel carpet while the press conference plays on TV in the background. Lorelei has wasted no time calling the cops on him. He can't blame her.

He's glad of it, actually, because he knows the High Council would prefer to conduct their search in secret. Having police bumbling around and getting in their way will only help Declan.

Still, he can't stand to hear the pain in Lorelei's voice.

“Please, Declan, bring her home,” she says, before a crowd of eager reporters. Aisling looks up at the sound of her mother's voice, reaching eagerly for the TV screen. “We can figure this out together, if you just bring her home.”

He wonders what she's told the police. Probably that her husband's
gone off his rocker.

He hasn't given up on her yet. Now that she knows he's serious, maybe she can still be convinced.

Declan gathers Aisling to his chest, trying to soothe her to sleep. He lets his eyes close, and he dreams of Lorelei's tears.

His training taught him to get by on only a few hours of sleep, so it's not long before they're on the road again. Declan has a contact in West Virginia who's more than happy to make the baby a new passport, for the right price. While he's waiting for it to be ready, he and Aisling duck into a drugstore. He buys a pink stuffed bunny nearly as big as her head for her and a cheap burner phone for himself.

It's a risk, but it's one he has to take.

He dials Lorelei's number.

“Declan.” She breathes his name into the phone, as if she's afraid to scare him away. “Declan, what have you done?”

“I'm sorry.” He swallows hard, fights back the tears, presses his lips to Aisling's forehead, reminding himself why he's doing this, why he must. “I'm so sorry.”

“Is she okay?” Lorelei asks. “Please, just tell me that.”

“She's fine. Of course she's fine. You know I would never let anyone hurt her.”

“I don't know anything anymore.”

“I can't come home, Lorelei. I can't bring her back. It's too dangerous.”

“Then tell me where you are.”

“So you can send the cops for me? Or Pop?”

“So I can come to you,” Lorelei says. “I know you, Declan. If you want to take Aisling away, hide her where no one will ever find her, you can do it. So you win, okay? I can't be away from her. Tell me where you are, and I'll come with you. Wherever you want to go, whatever you need to do. I'll go. I'll do it. Just tell me. Trust me.”

Her voice is full of pain—and love.

“What do you think?” Declan whispers to Aisling, ruffling her red
hair. “Can we trust Mommy?”

At the word, Aisling bursts into tears. It's the only answer he needs.

“Okay,” Declan tells Lorelei, hoping he's not making the biggest mistake of his life. “Get a pen and paper, and I'll tell you where to find us.”

He trusts his wife.

But he also knows his wife.

“Stay quiet, little girl,” he murmurs to Aisling as he nestles her carrier beneath a tree. She sucks at her pacifier and, he hopes, dreams of happier days. Declan has stationed them on an overlook that gives him a perfect sight line into the valley. Down there, in a deserted stretch of field in the heart of the Ozarks, Lorelei will come for her daughter. He lies flat on his stomach, camouflaged by the weeds, and raises the binoculars.

He's been careful.

He chose a place he knows like the back of his hand, an open field easily surveilled from the surrounding hillside.

This oasis of wilderness is special to him; it's where Le Fond first made face-to-face contact with him.
Le Fond
is his own name for the network of shadow warriors, a small joke with himself:
La Tène
means “the shallows,” so he thinks of these strange messages from the dark as “the deep.” With few exceptions, they exist for him as whispers, anonymous texts, faces hidden by cloaks and masks.

The young woman who met him here wouldn't reveal her name or background, wouldn't explain how she'd come to know about Endgame or why she'd chosen Declan to recruit. “We watch all the Players,” she said. “We saw something in you.”

At the time, he'd taken it as an insult. Had Le Fond seen some fault in him that he didn't even know was there, some evidence that his faith was weak, that he would be willing to betray his cause?

It's only slowly, as he follows the bread-crumb trail around the world, that he begins to see. As he searches through artifacts, discovers long-
lost documents by long-dead Players of the La Tène line, as he follows their questioning and their clues back and back through the ages, as he finds, finally, the secret cave with its astonishing paintings, he understands. What Le Fond saw in him wasn't weakness; it was strength—the strength of loyalty and conviction that would drive him straight back to Queens, send him marching into the High Council chambers, desperate to share what he learned. To open their eyes to the truth: that Endgame is a cruel joke of the gods, that the Player's true role is to kick-start the apocalypse, that this is an endless cycle that the lines can only end by choosing not to Play. That the power is in their hands, if only they decide to use it.

It didn't occur to him that he'd be laughed out of the room.

Or that when they stopped laughing, they would strip him of his duties in the line and brand him as a heretic.

It's not just what they want to do to Aisling that scares him.

It's the worry that, fearing his influence, they'll never let her see him again.

This patch of overgrown wilderness has lodged itself into his heart; this was where his eyes were first opened. Maybe, he thinks, it will be a lucky spot, and he can open Lorelei's eyes too.

He holds the binoculars steady.

He waits.

And he sighs with disappointment, but not surprise, when Lorelei arrives at the coordinates—flanked by his father and the La Tène Player. She's betrayed him, just as he knew she would, and he can't even hold it against her.

She's doing what she believes is best for her daughter.

He loves her all the more for that.

Declan's set up a listening relay, a bug in the meadow so he can hear what's said down in the valley and speak if need be. He can hear his wife's confusion.

“Where is he?” she says, panic in her voice. “He said he'd be here. I don't understand. He wouldn't lie to me. Not about this.”

“Oh, he's here somewhere,” Pop says, gazing into the hills. His eyes seem to alight on Declan's hiding spot, and though Declan knows it's impossible, he can't shake the feeling that his father sees straight through the brush, is glaring straight at him.

“You are, aren't you?” Pop says. “I know you, son. You're watching us. Listening to us. Don't blame Lorelei for wanting what's best for you. We all want what's best for you.”

“Declan, if you can hear me . . .” Lorelei sounds hesitant, like she's starting to wonder whether Pop has gone as crazy as his son. “Stop hiding and come deal with this like a grown-up. If you'll just be reasonable—”

She gasps as the Player seizes her. A gun materializes in the Player's hand, its muzzle pressed to Lorelei's head.

Declan stops breathing.

Molly is only 17 years old, and she's known Lorelei since she was a child. Lorelei once babysat for her, and Molly in turn has babysat for Aisling. Molly and Lorelei have gone shopping together; they've ridden the carousel in Central Park together; they've sipped frozen hot chocolate and dunked churros into caramel sauce; they've watched terrible movies on rainy days; they've been the best kind of family to each other. And Declan has no doubt that if Molly thought it was necessary, she would pull the trigger without hesitation.

“You know I'll do it, Declan,” Molly says calmly. The listening device is sensitive: he can hear Lorelei's rapid and frightened breathing. “You're the one who taught me how to be ruthless.”

Declan trained her to shoot. Declan was with her for her first kill. He steadied her, whispered in her ear all the lies he once believed, about how Playing called for blood, how killing could be righteous when in service to the line and the game. He created her, as his father had created him. Thousands of years of cruel lies, all come down to this: A killer he made. A woman he loves. A daughter he's sworn to protect. A gun.

“I'm sorry, Declan,” his father says. Declan's heart breaks at the sound
of his voice, so disappointed—so hard. “You've left us no choice.”

“You want her to live, show yourself,” Molly adds in a hard voice. “Now.”

“Please,” Lorelei murmurs. “Please, Molly, don't.”

He spent so many years learning how to shut down his feelings, to do what needs to be done. But now, when it matters most, his love and fear threaten to overwhelm him.

He tries to clear his head. Aisling and Lorelei need him focused.

They
need
him.

He swaddles the pink bunny in Aisling's blanket and presses it to his chest. He kisses his daughter good-bye. “I'll be back,” he says, but he doesn't promise. He tries never to make promises he can't keep.