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‘‘You seem disappointed, Vicar.’’

I should not perhaps have been surprised by the remark, in view of Potter’s character, but still I found myself taken aback by the tone in which it was uttered, which contained a faint but audible note of
satisfaction.
It was hard to credit and yet I could not help but conclude that my own momentary discomfort was more important to him than the success of this entire expedition, of which he was himself a part. I was no stranger to malevolent behaviour and yet still I found myself profoundly shocked by this poisonous utterance. ‘‘I am not disappointed,’’ I informed him.

‘‘Then you have seen something?’’

How strange are the ways of fate. At this most difficult moment help came to me from the very last source one might have expected: even from the doctor himself Adversity can be a most powerful stimulant to men’s wills, and so it was on that afternoon atop some unnamed mountain. I simply would not permit myself to be sneered at in this way. All of a sudden I knew, I simply
knew,
that I must drop to my knees. In a voice that was calm, yet filled with impassioned entreaty, I called out across the great abyss before me.

‘‘O Lord, hear my prayer. Do not turn Thy back upon us now, I beseech Thee, after Thou hast led us so far.’’

All was still, except for a faint gust of wind tugging at our clothes. Potter coughed.

I persevered. ‘‘Please, Lord. My only wish is to do Thy bidding. Show us the way.’’

Moments passed in terrible quiet. Potter began whistling some low tune, better to show his own impatience. Still I waited, heart pounding.

I did not wait in vain.

What next occurred I can describe only as a true miracle: a revelation as deliberate and wondrous as may be found even in the Scriptures themselves. All at once the sky was a thing ablaze, as there fell across it a dazzling shaft of light. It struck, like some great pointing finger of destiny, upon some place beyond the distant edge of the ridge upon which we were stood, hidden from our view. Signs I had seen that day, but none could compare with this!

‘‘There!’’ I cried in greatest delight, as thunder roared in upon us. ‘‘That is where Eden lies. That is where we must go!’’

Even still, Potter was intent on his poison. ‘‘For goodness’ sakes, Vicar. What else do you expect on a day like this?’’

I closed my thoughts to his words, protecting them, as a shepherd guards newborn lambs from a circling bird of prey. Elation filled my being and I would not have it spoiled. I did not answer him, but simply bowed my head in a heartfelt prayer of thanks.

‘‘I saw another like that just moments ago,’’ he whined again. ‘‘Actually, I think that was brighter.’’

‘‘We shall proceed at once,’’ I declared simply, and turned to make my way back towards the front of the line of mules.

Potter scampered after me. ‘‘This is madness. The way is far too difficult. I simply cannot permit you to put us all in such risk.’’

It was a provocation, and a great one, but still I kept my calm. ‘‘Do not talk nonsense,’’ I informed him quietly.

I saw his face grow curiously tightened, as if he were in some pain. The words he spoke next were uttered loud and clearly, so there could be no mistaking. ‘‘Can’t you see, you ninny? There is no Garden of Eden here. There never was. Now for goodness’ sake let’s get down before you kill every one of us.’’

How quickly can one’s understanding become transformed. The man was possessed of more wickedness, more treachery, than I had ever imagined. He had never believed in this great venture. Why, there could be only one possible reason why he had come here:
to prevent Eden being found.
In a flash all was clear. He had been sent by my foes, the atheist geologists. It made sense enough. Had he not sought us out, demanding of poor, kindly Jonah Childs that he become the expedition surgeon? Had he not done all in his power to cause us difficulties? Had he not sought to take my own place as leader? Now I understood why. There would be no easier way to destroy the expedition than by becoming its chief

‘‘Judas,’’ I answered him. ‘‘Judas revealed. But you shall not prevail. We shall succeed yet, despite your treachery.’’ I did not content myself with words. I took hold of the lead of the foremost mule, that I might turn my fearless words into fearless action.

One might have expected the doctor to show some shame at his discovery, but there is no use looking for conscience in the devil’s agents. ‘‘No, you don’t,’’ he cried out madly, trying to grasp the animal’s rope, so he might turn it round by brute force.

His action left me no choice. Calm and dignified, I endeavoured to wrest it back once again. Potter, true to his nature, merely redoubled his efforts.

‘‘Stop that,’’ called out Skeggs. At that moment, however, the animal, which had evidently been alarmed by Potter’s reckless tugging, reared
up, bucking and kicking so wildly that we both stepped back. As to what occurred next, this was so swift and extraordinary that it seemed not real, but like some slow nightmare. I would have taken the creature’s reins to try and calm it, but there was no time. In a moment it had lost its footing, and, striking out in panic, it fell crashing to the ground. It was then that I became aware of a greater movement. The beast’s distress had infected its fellows, several of which were now rearing up in fright. As I watched, some hurled off their loads, others were slipping, while those that remained still were being pulled off balance by neighbours as they fell.

Skeggs realized the danger. ‘‘Untie them,’’ he shouted.

Unfortunately the animals’ demented thrashing permitted no approach. I am not sure, indeed, if anybody even made an attempt. It was all we could do to jump clear. Several beasts began to tumble down the slope, legs flailing, and dragging others after them. Thus I watched with a kind of awful curiosity as a wave of animals began sliding and kicking away down the wet rock. It was a mule near the centre of the line that was the first to reach the edge and vanish. The rope that held it to its neighbours briefly tautened, and then they too rolled from sight, quickly followed by two more, till they were disappearing apace, almost like two lengths of string being pulled through a keyhole.

Suddenly all was very quiet.

The catastrophe was so sudden, and so complete, that it was hard to realize. I looked about me and was struck by what a slight party we now made upon this bare mountain. Without a word we all began to creep forwards, picking our way with care over the treacherous rock. Crouching by the edge, I peered over, though I could see nothing but the tops of trees below, their foliage glistening in the wet. The only signs to tell of what had occurred were a few snapped branches, and also a faint braying cry—dulled by the din of the wind and rain—uttered with a kind of terrible mechanical repetition. The cliff below us was as vertical as any wall, and I could see no way down, even from the slope by which we had ascended.

One might have supposed such a disaster would inspire remorse, but it was not so. All at once there was a shout. ‘‘It was him.’’ Potter’s servant Hooper was pointing angrily at the half-caste guide. ‘‘He brought us up here. It’s the blackie who’s done for us.’’ Some of the mule drivers uttered
a hiss of agreement. Then I watched, aghast, as Hooper took his rifle from his shoulder.

‘‘Stop,’’ I called out.

I would certainly have prevented him, regardless of risk to my own person, if I had only been nearer. As it happened, Renshaw alone was close enough. Before Hooper could properly aim the gun the little botanist knocked the barrel upwards and the shot was fired harmlessly into the air. This, though, was not the end of the matter. The two at once became embroiled in a tussle over the weapon, and as I hurriedly stepped towards them, there was a curious and ghastly sound, like a block of wood striking a hollow stone. All at once Renshaw was tipping backwards. Hooper did try to hold him—nearly losing balance himself— but to no avail. With a kind of amazement I watched as poor Renshaw seemed to lean back into the void, and drop, with what seemed terrible slowness, till he vanished into the trees just below.

Silence visited us for a second time in as many moments.

Hooper was distraught. ‘‘I didn’t mean to. I tried to hold him.’’

As if there could be any justification for such horror. How telling it was that this deed had been done by Potter’s servant.

One of the mule drivers, whose name was Hodges, peered over the edge and called out, ‘‘Mr. Renshaw?’’ In an instant we had all joined him, yelling with all our might through the soft rain, as if the very loudness of our cries might force a reply. We all fell hushed. No sound came back except for that faint yet terrible braying cry. Though nobody uttered a word I believe all were thinking the same dismal thought.

‘‘Do you think… ?’’ I began.

Skeggs shook his head. ‘‘Not from this height.’’

It was then that I remembered Cromwell. Glancing round, I saw he was already some distance away, scampering back towards the slope we had ascended. ‘‘Come back,’’ I called out, but he did not so much as turn his head. I could hardly blame him, I supposed, though it seemed a desperate and ill-advised course. He would not survive long alone in this wilderness. Poor fool! I would have protected him.

So our catastrophe was finally and dreadfully complete.

‘‘This is all your doing, you idiot!’’

This remark, I should explain, was uttered by Potter, while, impossible
as it may seem, it was addressed actually to my own self
He,
the traitor atheist, who was wholly and entirely to blame for our disaster, was accusing
me.
This was beyond all reason. ‘‘You sought to destroy us,’’ I replied simply, ‘‘and now you have.’’

‘‘It was you made us come up to this terrible place.’’

I knew what I must do. I rose to my feet, standing straight and tall: a churchman fully roused in just indignation. ‘‘By the powers vested in me by Jonah Childs, and by the Lord God himself I expel you from this expedition. Take yourself away, Dr. Potter, and your murderous servant, too. You are cast out.’’

The man had no shame. He actually sat down upon the rock, directing me a sour look. I paid him no heed, but, full with dignity, turned to the five mule drivers, summoning up my best speaking voice, quite in the manner of Christian orators of distant eras. ‘‘I urge you, do not give in to despair. You must understand that what has happened, terrible though it may seem, is merely a kind of test. A test which has exposed the wickedness of these two men, but which we shall pass in triumph. Let us join together and walk to the end of this ridge so we may discover where our sacred goal lies, and then…’’

It was Skeggs who answered. ‘‘I’m not following you another yard, Vicar.’’

‘‘Me neither,’’ added another.

It was, I confess, a great shock. I glanced at the other three but each shook his head, even uttering foulest words, to better reveal his betrayal. That was a dark moment indeed. I could only suppose they had each one of them fallen under the spell of my enemy. For all I knew he had been talking to them secretly as we journeyed, ensnaring them with hateful words, filling their minds with his poison.

Still I did not falter. I held my head high. ‘‘Very well,’’ I declared calmly, ‘‘then I shall go on alone.’’

‘‘You do that, Vicar,’’ jeered Potter.

Even now, after all he had done, he was filled with venom still. When I began gathering up a few supplies from the mule bags that had been thrown off by their animals, to sustain me in my lonely quest, he at once began bickering most spitefully, insisting on counting everything out, quite as if I intended to cheat him! As it was, most of what remained
was of little usefulness, such as table linen, folding chairs or Sheffield cutlery. There were bottles of fine French brandy—all but one smashed— and a shattered box of finest Cuban cigars, its contents turning rapidly to pulp in the rain, but there was not one complete tent. As to food, the sugar, tea and tins of Aberdeen hotchpotch, potted meat and hermetically sealed salmon would not, in the normal way of things, have lasted us more than a few days. Potter counted out my portion with miserly exactness, quite ignoring the fact that, as the only one still determined to discover Eden, I should have more than the others. What was more, he quite refused to let me have one of the rifles, claiming that, as a man of the church, I would have no need of such things. If it had not been for his hateful behaviour I would never have dreamed of placing the extra matches into my pocket when his back was turned, let alone the second bag of sugar that I managed to slip beneath my coat.

So it was that, a mule bag uncomfortably hitched over my shoulder, I turned my back upon them all and started making my way along the ridge. When, some moments later, I glanced back, I saw they were already gone, and all that now remained of the expedition were the various abandoned cases of stores. In the midst of these was a single chair that had been unfolded during the search for food, and which made a sad and curious sight, looking out upon the wild landscape, as if in readiness for some domestic occasion. Pleased though I was to be away from evil company, I confess it felt strange to be now alone in this wild place. I endeavoured to sing a hymn to cheer my spirits, but the wind was strong and the sound was quite stolen away.

As I approached the further end of the ridge, the landscape that had been hidden began gently to rise into view. The rain had finally stopped and the clouds had lifted higher, and so, by the time I finally reached the outermost point, below which the rock fell away like water, I could see clearly for many miles, with peaks aplenty reaching up to catch the eye. It may seem hard to credit, yet each rock and mountain were of the same crumbling kind that they had been everywhere else. I could see nothing that resembled any sign, nothing to show where I should go. Even then I did not despair. I prayed, shouting the words as loud as I might.

‘‘Please, I beg Thee, Lord, show me the way.’’

I waited. I prayed. I waited once again. Long moments passed, but
there was no burst of lightning, no sudden sunbeam to guide me. The mountains seemed to glower up at me, like some impenetrable maze.