Essential Stories (23 page)

“Don’t look as though you’re going to kill someone,” Iris said.

That shows how wrong people are. I was full of love and wanted to cry.

After four dances I went off to the soft drink bar and there the first person I saw was Bill Williams. He was wearing a plum-coloured suit and a red and silver tie and he stood, with his dark hair dusty-looking and sprouting forward as if he had just got out of bed and was ducking his head on the way to the bathroom.

“All the family here?” he asked, looking all round.

“No,” I said. “Just Iris and me.”

He went on looking around him.

“I thought you only came Saturdays,” he said suspiciously. He had a couple of friends with him, two men who became restless on their feet, as if they were dancing, when I came up.

“Oh,” said Bill Williams. Then he said, “Nicky pokey doda—that’s Japanese, pal, for keep your mouth shut. Anyone say anything, you never see me. I’m at Laxton, get me? Bill Williams? He’s on night shift. You must be barmy. OK? Seeing you,” he said. “No sign of Constance.”

And he walked off. His new friends went a step or two after him, dancing on their pointed shoes, and then stopped. They twizzled round, tapping their feet, looking all round the room until he had got to the carpeted stairs at the end of the hall. I got my squash and when I turned round, the two men had gone too.

But before Bill Williams had got to the top of the stairs he turned round to look at the dancers in one corner. There was Hilda. She was dancing with a young West Indian. When I got back to our table she was very near.

I have said that Hilda’s face was eventless. It was now in a tranced state, looking from side to side, to the floor, in the quick turns of the dance, swinging round, stepping back, stepping forward. The West Indian had a long jacket on. His knees were often nearly bent double as though he were going to do some trick of crawling towards her, then he recovered himself and turned his back as if he had never met her and was dancing with someone else. If Hilda’s face was eventless, it was the event itself, it was the dance.

She saw us when the dance was over and came to our table breathlessly. She was astonished to see us. To me she said, “And fancy you!” She did not laugh or even smile when she looked at me. I don’t know how to describe her look. It was dead. It had no expression. It had nothing. Or rather, by the smallest twitch of a muscle, it became nothing. Her face had the nakedness of a body. She saw that I was deaf to what Iris was saying. Then she smiled and in doing that, she covered herself.

“I am with friends over there”—we could not tell who the friends were—then she leaned to us and whispered:

“Bill Williams is here too.”

Iris exclaimed.

“He’s watching me,” Hilda said.

“I saw him,” I said. “He’s gone.”

Hilda stood up frowning.

“Are you sure? Did you see him? How long ago?”

I said it was about five minutes before.

She stood as I remember her standing in Mrs. Draper’s room on the first day when she arrived and was kissing everyone. It was a peculiar stance because she usually stood so passively; a stance of action and, I now saw, a stance of plain fright. One leg was planted forward and bent at the knee like a runner at the start and one arm was raised and bent at the elbow, the elbow pushed out beyond her body. Her mouth was open and her deep-set yellow eyes seemed to darken and look tired.

“He was with some friends,” I said and, looking back at the bar, “They’ve gone now.”

“Hah!” It was the sound of a gasp of breath. Then suddenly the fright went and she shrugged her shoulders and talked and laughed to all of us. Soon she went over to her friends, the coloured man and a white couple; she must have got some money or the ticket for her handbag from one of them, for presently we saw her walking quickly to the cloak-room.

Iris went on dancing. We must have stayed another half an hour and when we were leaving we were surprised to see Hilda waiting in the foyer. She said to me:

“His car has gone.”

“Whose?”

“Bill Williams’s car.”

“Has he got a car?” Iris said.

“Oh, it’s not his,” said Hilda. “It’s gone. That’s something. Will you take me home? I don’t want to go alone. They followed me here.”

She looked at all of us. She was frightened.

I said, “Iris and I will take you on our way.”

“Don’t make me late,” said Iris crossly. “You know what Mum is.” I promised. “Did you come with him?”

“No, with someone else,” Hilda said, looking nervously at the glass swing door. “Are you sure his friends went too? What did they look like?”

I tried to describe them.

“I’ve seen the short one,” she said, frowning, “somewhere.”

It was only a quarter of an hour’s ride at that hour of the night. We walked out of The Temple Rooms and across the main road to the bus stop and waited under the lights that made our faces corpse-like. I have always liked the hard and sequinned sheen of London streets at night, their empty dockyard look. The cars come down them like rats. The red trolley bus came up at last and when we got in Hilda sat between us. The bus-load of people stared at her and I am not surprised. I have said what she looked like—the hair built up high, her bright green wrap and red dress. I don’t know how you would describe such clothes. But the people were not staring at her clothes. They were staring at her eyebrows. I said before that her face was an extension of her nudity and I say it again. Those eyebrows of hers were painted and looked like the only things she had on—they were like a pair of beetles with turned-up tails that had settled on her forehead. People laughed under their hands and two or three youths at the front of the bus turned round and guffawed and jostled and whistled; but Hilda, remember, was not a girl of sixteen gone silly, but a woman, hard rather than soft in the face, and the effect was one of exposure, just as a mask has the effect of exposing.

We did not talk but when the trolley arm thumped two or three times at a street junction, Hilda said with a sigh, “Bump! Bump! Bump!” She was thinking of her childhood in old Mrs. Draper’s room at Hincham Street. We got off the bus a quarter of a mile further on and, as she was stepping off, Hilda said, speaking of what was in her mind, I suppose, during the ride:

“Shinji had a gold wrist-watch with a gold strap and a golden pen. They had gone when he was killed. They must have cost him a hundred pounds. Someone must have stolen them and sold them.

“I reported it,” Hilda said. “I needed the money. That is what you had to do—sell something. I had to eat.”

And the stare from her mask of a face stated something of her life that her strangeness had concealed from us. We walked up the street.

She went on talking about that watch and how particular Shinji was about his clothes, especially his shirts. All his collars had to be starched, she said. Those had gone too, she said. And his glasses. And his two gold rings. She walked very quickly between us. We got to the corner of her street. She stopped and looked down it.

“Bill Williams’s van!” she said.

About thirty houses down the street we could indeed see a small van standing.

“He’s waiting for me,” she said.

It was hard to know whether she was frightened or whether she was reckoning, but my heart jumped. She made us stand still and watch. “My room’s in the front,” she said. I crossed over to the other side of the street and then came back.

“The light is on,” I said.

“He’s inside,” she said.

“Shall I go and see?” I said.

“Go,” said Iris to me.

Hilda held my wrist.

“No,” she said.

“There are two people, I think, in the front garden,” I said.

“I’m going home with you,” Hilda said to Iris decisively. She rushed off and we had to race after her. We crossed two or three streets to the Fulminos’ house. Mrs. Fulmino let us in.

“Now, now, Hilda, keep your hair on. Kill you? Why should he? This is England, this isn’t China . . .”

Mr. Fulmino’s face showed his agony. His mouth collapsed, his eyes went hard. He looked frantic with appeal. Then he turned his back on us, marched into the parlour and shouted as if he were calling across four lines of traffic:

“Turn the wireless off.”

We followed him into the room. Mrs. Fulmino, in the suddenly silent room, looked like a fortress waiting for a flag to fall.

We all started talking at once.

“Can I stay with you tonight?” she said. “Bill Williams has broken into my house. I can’t go there. He’ll kill me.” The flag fell.

“Japan,” said Mrs. Fulmino disposing of her husband with her first shot. Then she turned to Hilda; her voice was coldly rich and rumbling. “You’ve always a home here, as you well know, Hilda,” she went on, giving a very unhomely sound to the word. “And,” she said, glancing at her neat curtains to anyone who might be in ambush outside the window, “if anyone tries to kill you, they will have to kill,” she nodded to her husband, “Ted and me first. What have you been doing?”

“I was down at The Temple. Not with Bill Williams,” said Hilda. “He was watching me. He’s always watching me.”

“Now look here, Hilda, why should Bill Williams want to kill you? Have you encouraged him?”

“Don’t be a fool!” shouted Mrs. Fulmino.

“She knows what I mean. Listen to me, Hilda. What’s going on between you and Bill Williams? Constance is upset, we all know.”

“Oh keep your big mouth shut,” said Mrs. Fulmino. “Of course she’s encouraged him. Hilda’s a woman, isn’t she? I encouraged you, didn’t I?”

“I know how to look after myself,” said Hilda, “but I don’t like that van outside the house at this hour of night, I didn’t speak to him at the dance.”

“Hilda’s thinking of the police,” ventured Mr. Fulmino.

“Police!” said Mrs. Fulmino. “Do you know what’s in the van?”

“No,” said Hilda. “And that’s what I don’t want to know. I don’t want him on my doorstep. Or his friends. He had two with him. Harry saw them.”

Mrs. Fulmino considered.

“I’m glad you’ve come to us. I wish you’d come to us in the first place,” she said. Then she commanded Mr. Fulmino: “You go up there at once with Harry,” she said to him, “and tell that man to leave Hilda alone. Go on, now. I can’t understand you”—she indicated me— “running off like that, leaving a van there. If you don’t go I’ll go myself. I’m not afraid of a paltry . . . a paltry . . . what does he call himself? You go up.”

Mrs. Fulmino was as good a judge of the possibilities of an emotional situation as any woman on earth: this was her moment. She wanted us out of the house and Hilda to herself.

We obeyed.

Mr. Fulmino and I left the house. He looked tired. He was too tired to put on his jacket. He went out in his shirt sleeves.

“Up and down we go, in and out, up and down,” said Mr. Fulmino. “First it’s Constance, now it’s Hilda. And the pubs are closed.”

“There you are, what did I tell you?” said Mr. Fulmino when we got to Hilda’s street. “No van, no sign of it, is there? You’re a witness. We’ll go up and see all the same.”

Mr. Fulmino had been alarmed but now his confidence came back. He gave me a wink and a nod when we got to the house.

“Leave it to me,” he said. “You wait here.”

I heard him knock at the door and after a time knock again. Then I heard a woman’s voice. He was talking a long time. He came away.

He was silent for a long time as we walked. At last he said:

“That beats all. I didn’t say anything. I didn’t say who I was. I didn’t let on. I just asked to see Hilda. ‘Oh,’ says the landlady, ‘she’s out.’ ‘Oh,’ I said, ‘that’s a surprise.’ I didn’t give a name—‘Out you say? When will she be back?’ ‘I don’t know,’ said the landlady, and this is it, Harry— ‘she’s paid her rent and given her notice. She’s leaving first thing in the morning,’ the landlady said. ‘They came for the luggage this evening.’ Harry,” said Mr. Fulmino, “did Hilda say anything about leaving?”

“No.”

“Bill Williams came for her luggage.”

We marched on. Or rather we went stealthily along like two men walking a steel wire of suspicion. We almost lost our balance when two cats ran across the street and set up howls in a garden, as if they were howling us down. Mr. Fulmino stopped.

“Harry!” he said. “She’s playing us up. She’s going off with Bill Williams.”

“But she’s frightened of him. She said he was going to kill her.”

“I’m not surprised,” said Mr. Fulmino. “She’s been playing him up. Who was she with at the dance hall? She’s played everyone up. Of course she’s frightened of him. You bet. I’m sorry for anyone getting mixed up with Bill Williams—he’ll knock some sense into her. He’s rough. So was her father.”

“Bill Williams might have just dropped by to have a word,” I said.

“Funny word at half past eleven at night,” said Mr. Fulmino. “When I think of all that correspondence, all those forms—War Office, State Department, United Nations—we did, it’s been a poor turn-out. You might say,” he paused for an image sufficiently devastating, “a waste of paper, a ruddy wanton waste of precious paper.”

We got back to his house. I have never mentioned, I believe, that it had an iron gate that howled, a noise that always brought Mrs. Fulmino to her curtains, and a clipped privet hedge, like a moustache, to the tiny garden.

We opened the gate, the gate howled, Mrs. Fulmino’s nose appeared at the curtains.

“Don’t say a word,” said Mr. Fulmino.

Tea—the room smelled of that, of course. Mrs. Fulmino had made some while we were out. She looked as though she had eaten something too. A titbit. They all looked sorry for Mr. Fulmino and me. And Mrs. Fulmino
had
had a titbit! In fact I know from Iris that the only thing Mrs. Fulmino had got out of Hilda was the news that she had had a postcard from Mr. Faulkner from Chicago. He was on the move.

“Well?” said Mrs. Fulmino.

“It’s all right, Hilda,” said Mr. Fulmino coldly. “They’ve gone.”

“There,” said Mrs. Fulmino, patting Hilda’s hand.

“Hilda,” said Mr. Fulmino, “I’ve been straight with you. I want you to be straight with me. What’s going on between you and Bill Williams . . . ?”